everything is below the cut bc ion know how to be concise, so this shit is long as fuck. feel free to take inspiration out of it, or don't, u do u. also, slight tw (???) bc i mention sa at the very end of the post
𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋ usual meals
rice w tuna/soft boiled eggs
natural yogurt w fruit
tuna salad
potato w a soft boiled egg/tuna
oatmeal choc/apple cookies
salad
𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋ ideal (loser kinda but idrc) me
lentils w tuna n a soft boiled egg
any kind of instant noodles (400 max)
soup (miso mostly)
fucked up sleep schedule
nostalgic n fucked up look to herself
always dressed in black, gray or red
doesn't need to work out
neither good nor bad grades (college here in spain is less about the grades n more about "did u pass? good, here's ur degree")
few but very very close friends
doesn't go out late at night
smokes more than breathes
only hobbies are reading, watching the halloween movies n supernatural, music, n anything related to marvel
lives alone in a completely messed up n shitty apartment
more than half of these things are already true, but it's good to keep them in mind
YES, i do wanna keep being a loser. i've always been one n not a single person in my life that actually loves me cares about it
𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋ rewards for my goals
clothes i actually like (51) ✅️
getting to eat snacks in between meals again, but this time bc i want to not bc i need to (50)
another pair of combat boots (49)
cutting my hair to look good again (48)
press on nails bc archeologists need nude nails to properly work but i sometimes wanna look put together (47)
zippo (46)
punisher merch (45)
changing my phone to a flip phone (44)
silver jewelry, specially rings (43)
dying my hair red again (42)
new piercing (41)
new tat (40)
𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋ things i need to buy in the near future
a strong l@x (gross but necessary)
school supplies
compression knee brace
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that's all for now. i may b adding in n taking out things as time goes by, but the general idea is that i AM a loser n i WILL b a loser. tbh ion even wanna find a gf just yet, first goes living alone n being a complete mess n THEN maybe a chick. dunno about this bc i was r@ped n i cannot bring myself to the idea of s3x, n ig having a partner involves fucking??? don't want that for myself, thank u
dropped 1.1 out of nowhere i'm so so close to being able to wear all the cute clothes i bought yesterday (holding off on em bc i'm still not exactly 51 😭)
OMFG TWO MEN OVER 40 MESSAGED ME TODAY WHY CAN'T THEY JUST GO BACK TO THE HELLHOLE THEY CRAWLED OUT OF
me being sick as fuck doesn't mean ion know better, get OFF my fucking page n while ur at it delete ur fucking tumblr don't go messaging younger girls ur creepy asf
i went to my fav store to get some omads for the next couple of days. hopefully i can put the mochis in the freezer n have one w each meal for dessert. also, the dried mango is gonna b one of the omads idrc anymore
closing the day at 17 bc this was SO bad (i mean at the very least i burnt the 750 extra so i'm still on a deficitbut still). at least now i know tomorrow i won't eat out so i can skip lunch n dinner n only have a snack while being out shopping w my mom. at MOST it will b a small ice-cream or something like that idk yet. monster or redbull sounds better tho
a great punishment is staying up all night. doing that rn bc i ate tonight when i wasn't supposed to, n then i'm gonna have to eat again tomorrow and the next day. hopefully i can do a light omad for a week straight after this n everything will b okay again bc i'll have control over everything again
i'm going to barcelona tmrw w my aunt n idk if she wants to eat there or not. i'm gonna b skipping dinner today n breakfast tomorrow so i make sure i stay on track
s-u-f-j-a-n-s-t-e-v-e-n-s
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