Who's Gonna Pray For Me

Ava Coleman, 25, vampire, recently turned and out of her league

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ellierosette‌:

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“Knock, knock,” Ellie called, rapping on the front door. It had been a day since the residents of East End were released from the safe-zones. More like prisons with the hurricane’s wind and rain keeping them trapped for days. But, after the skies cleared, Ellie headed to the hospital to see if they needed help. They, of course, did. So, she stayed until things slowed down before finally heading home. On the way, Ava popped into her mind and Ellie wondered how she’d fared the storm. Suddenly, she felt like a shitty friend for not thinking to check on her before now. With a quick detour, she found herself at the other’s home. Thankful the sun had already set since she knew Ava couldn’t come out during the day. “It’s Ellie. You in there?” 

Ava was amazed she had survived the storm without hurting or killing the entire fire station. She still felt bad that she had lost her control with Winnie, she had hurt the girl, but the scent of the blood had made her lose control. She had been like a shark at the first scent of blood and the feeding frenzy had taken over. Ava knew she had to be grateful that she hadn’t seriously hurt the girl, she could have lost complete control. Thankfully Nick had been there to offer her blood the rest of the time so she could survive until the storm ended. However, the outcome was worst than what she could have imagined. The whole town was destroyed, the storm had pretty much leveled everything. It reminded her of when Hurricane Sandy hit New York. Thankfully her home hadn’t been amongst the most destroyed of the city. Simon’s place had been destroyed though, and there was water damage galore. The already horrible apartment was now even worse and smelled of nothing but mold. She hated it. They had to go somewhere else, she didn’t want to stay here anymore. The sun had set an hour ago, so Ava was about to head out for the night when she heard the knock. Surprise flickered across her features before a smile grew. She felt like all semblance of a normal life was fleeing from her, but a visit from a friend was welcomed. She opened the door and smiled at Ellie. “Hey, Ellie.”

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jxdrek‌:

Fingers gripped mercilessly at the bottle in his grasp, nails scratching against the glass as he stared blankly forward. The night sky loomed above him just outside the window, the moon hanging low over the trees but that wasn’t what caught his attention. Instead, it was the stars twinkling just beyond, illuminating the night sky with the promise of magic. A promise he knew was made up of a falsehood because the only magic this town had to offer, was the sort that turned people into monsters. But a sudden noise drew the wolve’s attention away and he turned lazily towards the sound. “Do you mind?” His tone was coated in annoyance, his left hand now pressing palm flat against the wooden bar. “Some of us are tryin’ to have a half decent evening and you’re fuckin’ that up now.” Whoever this person was, they were in for quite the treat… “Do you know who I am?”

Ava took to wandering during the night, it was the only time she could get out doors anyway. But with her and Simon’s place destroyed, it was hard to stay inside during the days and not be harmed by the sun. They had to find another place to stay, because she hated how much worse their place was now. She had seen the weak light and heard the sounds of someone inside, so she had approached slowly. The place didn’t look like it had held up well against the storm and the light and noises inside sparked her curiosity. Was someone inside? It didn’t look like they should be staying there. She approached, pausing just outside the door as she looked over the man inside. When he noticed her presence, she took a step back from his verbal anger. “I uh, I’m sorry. I just wanted to check on who was in here. It doesn’t look... like a safe place to be.” She murmured, feeling bad for angering him so quickly. “No?” She spoke, her brows knitting in confusion. “I’m sorry, I don’t know who you are? Am I supposed to?” She paused, still not able to tell the difference between werewolves and vampires by scent. “Are you a Dragović?” From what she had heard, they all seemed to have an ego, though she had barely met any of them.

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winonarenwick‌:

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Winona hadn’t realized her cut had bled through the bandage until she noticed the sleeve of her shirt was damp. She grimaced, trying to get a better glimpse of it, but it was really impossible to do in the dark of the fire station. It wasn’t the most opportune time to have to rebandage her cut, especially if now she was going to end up doing it in the dark, but it was better than letting it continue to bleed. Now all she needed to do was remember where they had moved all of the emergency supplies to once they had relocated to the second floor. 

Getting up from her spot, Winnie moved along the wall as to not trip over anything. Not wanting to bother anyone else with the redressing of her wound, she ended up bypassing some of the others in the room with her. If it was really bad, which she hoped it wasn’t, then she’d go back and ask for help, but until then she figured she had things under control. 

This was hell. Maybe that’s where Ava actually was. It would explain how she was now a vampire and how others seemed to exist around her. Maybe she had died, sometime after killing that woman and this was hell, this was her eternal punishment for taking the life of an innocent human. Because there was no other reason for being trapped in one room with everyone else in the firehouse. Her hands were balled up around her ears as she sat curled in the corner, as far as possible from everyone else as she could be, though it was practically no space at all. They had all been forced into the one room because of the flooding, there was no more escaping. 

It had been two days. No, three. Ava was losing track and it was starting to show just what poor of a shape she was in. Her skin was paler than normal and her face was sunken in. She truly looked like the living dead she now was. Ava hadn’t fed since being trapped in here and every passing hour had her freaking out that she would lose control and kill someone. Or more than one person. That was her biggest fear, and it was the fear that left her paralyzed and curled up in the corner, whimpering and shaking. But when the scent of blood hit the air, she lost the little amount of control she had left. Soundlessly, Ava rose from her spot and followed after the bleeding girl as if in a trance. The scent of blood had snatched away the last bit of control and now all that controlled her was the hunger and the need to feed. 

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Fire Station

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officer-berry:

The recognition hit in his mind, and Nick took a step backward by default. That had been one memory he’d been glad had been fuzzied by alcohol. What was the deal with the vampires in this town anyway? Still, she looked genuinely remorseful, which made him feel guilty about feeling bad, and he was already off-kilter, and so…he just stood there.

“Look, it’s…” He swallowed, trying not to feel at his neck. “I know it’s probably not safe anywhere, but you should know that some of the people down there were beginning to talk about going upstairs into a bigger room. The flooding…” His mouth felt drier than ever, and he shoved his hands into his pants pocket. “It’s not stopping. If we’re gonna get rescued, that’s where they’re going to look for people. You should…come with us,” he said reluctantly.

Ava saw him take a step back when she mentioned the last night they had seen each other. So a new wave of guilt washed over her and she let out a small whimper. Ava hated what she was now, she hated that she had to feed on people to survive, it all felt wrong. But Simon’s way of drinking the blood of gross creatures he found wasn’t going to work either. There had to be a better way without hurting people like the man in front of her. 

At the mention of the flooding, Ava turned her attention to the sound of the rain pounding against the building and the wailing wind. She nodded slowly, leaning back against the wall. The people would be coming upstairs, closer to her. They would be closer to her and cause more temptation in her. They had already been stuck in here close to two days, Ava wasn’t sure how much longer she could last. “I can’t...” She whispered, shaking her head and taking a step back. “I can’t. I can’t get in a room with everyone. I’m so hungry... I don’t want to hurt anyone.” But she couldn’t stay here, clearly the storm was getting worse. 

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winonarenwick:

Closing the fridge, she flashed a smile at the other woman. Next she began rooting through the cabinets in the kitchen. “If I were pasta noodles where would I be?” she murmured to herself, opening and closing the cabinets until she found what she was looking for. “Ah-ha!” Winona pulled a box of penne pasta out and showed it to Ava triumphantly. “We’re in luck.” She placed the box on the counter and grabbed two pots to put on the stove. 

Before heading to the sink to wash her hands, she took out all the other ingredients she needed from the fridge as well as a cheese grater she had found. “I gotta boil the water for the pasta and melt all the cheese, but it shouldn’t take too long.” Winnie went over to the sink, washing her hands. She frowned, looking at the bandage on her arm - she still wasn’t entirely sure how she got it - but it still hurt. Mostly she was worried about it bleeding again, but so far she’d been fine. "So Ava, tell me about yourself while I’m cooking.“

Ava watched Winnie move around the kitchen and tried to focus on breathing evenly, even when she really didn’t need to breathe. It comforted her and gave her something to focus on besides how much her throat was burning and how hungry she was. She gave a small smile when Winnie found the right noodles. “Looks like they do have the right ingredients. You’re in luck.” She murmured. 

In a way this was comforting to come back here and watch her cook. Away from everyone else she could just focus on one thing in front of her. “That’s fine, I can wait. I’m not that hu-” She cut herself off quickly when she realized she was about to say she wasn’t hungry. She was, but just not for anything Winnie could cook. “They say great things are worth waiting for.” She covered quickly. “Um... what do you want to know?” 

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Fire Station

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officer-berry:

Panic attacks weren’t real, Nick thought. They were things that happened to people that didn’t have their lives together, a good job, or magical abilities. And he didn’t explicitly think of it what he was experiencing as a panic attack, but he knew that when he started to breathe quickly even as his chest grew tighter, something was happening.

For now, the fire department still had rooms enough so that one could find privacy. Nick had fled the main room and was searching for a place to ride out his wave of emotion when he opened a door to a room that, apparently, housed someone else who had the same idea.

“I…sorry,” he quickly apologized. He was about to leave when he realized the face held some familiarity, and he remained in the doorway. “Are…are you okay?” he asked.

Ava hadn’t even heard the approaching footsteps until the door opened, she had been so focused on blocking out all of the sounds of the people and just trying to stay in this room and away from everyone. So when the door opened, she jumped and let out a small noise of surprise. 

Her eyes scanned over the man and she remembered him from the bar, and how the night had ended with her biting him when she had been too tempted by hunger. Guilt washed over her and she stood up from her spot on the ground. “It’s you.” She whispered, feeling bad for that night. “I’m sorry.” She spoke quickly. 

At his question, she shook her head. “No. I’m not.” She had been texting Simon, but even that wasn’t helping that much since the hunger still haunted her. “I’m so hungry. I didn’t feed before I came here. And there’s too many people. I’m afraid... I’m afraid I’m going to hurt someone by accident.” 

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winonarenwick:

“Hmm, okay. I’m thinking comfort food.” Her first search was through the fridge. “Ava, are you lactose intolerant or allergic to anything?” Upon rooting through the items in the fridge, she had a few ideas, but she’d need to look through the cupboards to see if they had the rest of what she was looking for. There was a question about whether or not the storm would knock the power out at one point, but she tried not to take that into consideration for the time being. It was bad enough what they were going through, Winnie didn’t want to worry about worse case scenarios. “I was thinking mac ‘n’ cheese, just gotta see if they have any pasta and what kind it is.” 

All Ava could do was nod in response. She didn’t have the heart to tell the woman that she hadn’t eaten any real food in the last three weeks since waking up turned into a vampire. Comfort food would have sounded great, but now all she was hungry for was blood. “No, I don’t have any allergies.” Ava didn’t have any when she had been human, but could she still eat food? Taking a chair, she sat down and folded her arms over her chest, trying not to think about the burning in her throat. “Mac n cheese sounds good if that’s what you want to make.” She gave a small smile, more to reassure herself than Winnie. This was going to be okay. She hoped. 

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winonarenwick:

“Nice to meet you too, Ava,” she said with a friendly smile. “Okay, perfect. Then I’ll cook us up something once we get to the kitchen. I’m thinking something simple, but it really depends on what they have in stock.” Winnie led them away from the main area they had all been situated in. One of the halls was bound to lead them towards the kitchen, so she found one and led them down it. It took a few minutes of wandering, but eventually they found the kitchen. Looking around, she assessed the place. It wasn’t the most spectacular kitchen in the world, but it would do. “Okay, do you have a preference for what I should be making?” she asked, turning her attention to Ava. Winnie rolled her sleeves up, careful to avoid messing with the bandage on her forearm. 

Ava felt like an antisocial creature since she had woken up on the side of the road and killed that woman, cementing her transition as a vampire. For three weeks she had been hiding out with Simon and going out at night when most people weren’t out. She stayed away from places with a lot of people and tried not to get too close to someone for fear of losing her control. She missed the days of going out to the bars in the city, to going to plays and art shows and everything else she could imagine. They finally found the kitchen and Ava moved away from Winnie as she started to look for things to cook, heading to the far corner, she felt like she could breathe a little easier. The scents of the mass of people was fading and she couldn’t hear their hearts anymore. “Um... I don’t have a preference.” Ava bit her bottom lip and didn’t have the heart to tell her that she had barely eaten anything since being turned, Ava wasn’t even sure she could eat food. Wasn’t that counterproductive? “Just cook whatever you want.” She gave a weak smile. 

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winonarenwick:

“Probably,” she answered. “Or at least that’s what I’m hoping for.” Winnie felt for the other woman. This wasn’t an ideal situation even if they were in one of the designated safe areas. So when the other woman agreed to head to the kitchen with her, she was happy to help. It was about the only thing she could since she didn’t know what else to do. “Yeah, of course. Once we find it, I can probably whip something up for us too if you’re hungry,” she offered. “I’m Winnie, by the way.” 

Ava nodded, grasping on to this offer that was now falling into her lap. It was probably the best she could hope for, to get away from the crowd of people and find a spot where she was more alone. Then maybe she could control her hunger more. Besides, the longer they were trapped in here, the more dangerous Ava would become. She knew for the safety of everyone, she had to get away from the people. “Then yes, I need to get away from everyone. It’s too many people.” She felt like she was a broken record, but Ava couldn’t stop the thoughts from repeating in her head. “I’m so hungry.” She whispered, her throat burning with the pain of hunger. But, whatever the girl was going to cook wouldn’t help her, it wasn’t the substance that Ava needed. “Nice to meet you Winnie, I’m Ava.” 

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traveleravery:

“Chicago PD but not Fire? That’s like a foul to the whole Chicago Universe.” He stated, brows raising at the comment. Surprised to say the least. But maybe Avery was just biased, he was a binge watcher. Though, even with his rambling Avery took note of the other .She seemed a little off—which confused him. Well, maybe not entirely as there was craziness taking place outside. But it was referenced by the words that left her mouth. “Um. Yeah you’re not looking so nice—I think there’s food and water. Those are probably two of your best options right now.”

“Yeah, Chicago PD. My friend is really into those shows and I hung out with her some random nights when they were on. But I only saw random episodes so I guess that’s why I never got into it. It’s hard to start something when you’ve already seen random future episodes.” It was helping her a little to think of her past life in New York, to remember when she was a normal human before any of this happened. At his words, she shook her head. “I don’t think that will help me. There’s too many people here...” She glanced around and tried not to hear the sounds of their beating hearts. “It’s too many people for me. I need to get out of here.” 

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Ava 📲 Simon

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{Ava text} Where are you? I’m at the fire station.

{Ava text} This is a nightmare. There are too many people here. I’m afraid I’ll lose control.

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Fire Station

@officer-berry

Ava wasn’t doing good at all. The longer she stayed in this building, the more she feared she was going to lose control and attack someone. When storm had hit, Ava hadn’t left the apartment yet, she hadn’t fed today and her hunger was starting to take over control. There were too many people here, people who were innocent and she needed to stay away from. The truth was, Ava hadn’t been around this many people since being turned, the vampire was still too young to control herself in a crowd of this size. There had almost been an incident, a woman had staggered in bleeding. Ava would have attacked if it hadn’t been for the crying child that had ran after her, coming in from the storm. That crying had snapped her out of her feeding frenzy and she fled. It had been hard to find somewhere to hide out without coming across another person, but Ava finally found a tiny room that seemed to double as a storage closet. Curling up in the back corner, Ava rocked back and forth, trying not to run out of here and go back down to the room where everyone was gathered. She could hear them, their voices reached her ears too easily and under it all she could smell blood and hear their hearts. This was how she was barely functioning when the door opened. 

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winonarenwick:

“Oh, okay.” The other woman looked worried like her. Wanting to see if she could help her, she stuck around instead of looking for another person who might know better. “Are you doing okay?” she asked, glancing at her. She wondered if talking to her would help if she was. “I, myself, am getting a little stir crazy just staying here. It’s why I thought I might try to find the kitchen, maybe give myself a distraction by cooking something up or organizing their shelves… You can join me if you want? Might be easier waiting out the storm if we’re not just standing here with everyone counting down the hours til it’s over.”

Ava regretted coming here. Should she just have ignored the evacuation and stayed in Simon’s apartment? It would mean that she wouldn’t be here stuck in a building with more people than she could handle. “No, I’m not doing okay.” Ava shook her head, wringing her hands together as she started to pace once more. There were too many people, too many beating hearts she could hear and it was setting her on edge. Her hunger spiked with every passing moment and Ava wasn’t sure how much longer she could last. At the mention of the kitchen, she paused and thought it over. “Actually, that sounds good. There won’t be as many people in the kitchen, right?” That sounded better, to be with only one person in a room. Maybe she could breathe and she would be safe from attacking someone. “I need to get away from these people. I want to go with you.” 

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winonarenwick:

Winnie found herself pacing, unsure of what else to do in this situation. This was the first big storm she’d been in and she had to admit it was rather terrifying. She needed something to do before she went a little stir crazy. If she were at home she’d probably root around the kitchen. At the thought, it occurred to her that they were in a fire department. “Hey,” she said, turning to someone near her. “Maybe this is a weird question under the circumstances, but do you know if there’s a kitchen somewhere?” 

Ava was starting to feel like a caged animal and she was hoping that the storm would end soon so that she could get out of here. How much longer? Hunger was making her throat burn and she started to pace, feeling her tension and hunger grow. Ava didn’t like storms on a normal day, but this was much worse because she was trying not to eat every one in the room. So when a girl started to pace near her and then, Ava’s eyes darted over. “Um, no sorry. I have no idea. This is my first time being here.” She murmured, wringing her hands to release nervous tension. 

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xxharvel:

The fire department was swirling with commotion and Nathan felt like just another victim to the circumstances they were are currently put in. But twiddling his thumbs would get himself and everyone there, nowhere so instead the male moved about the crowds in search for either another officer or someone to help him calm the crowds. “Everyone, search for loved ones and keep calm!” He calls out as he moves, feeling his obligation due to his occupation was to keep those around him from losing their heads. “Don’t run and try not to panic, if you’re hurt, let us know!” He continues to call out, noticing then an individual laying on the ground with their hand covering a bloodied wound. “What happened?” Almost immediately the detective dropped to his knees to help, careful hands removing their own to take note of their injury. “You got a shard of glass in it, we’ll need to remove it.” Pausing he glanced around him. “Can anyone help? A doctor or just some comfortable with blood?” 

This was a nightmare. Ava wasn’t sure how much longer she could last in this place. It had seemed like a good idea at the time, though those were famous last words because right now this was shaping up to be a very dangerous situation. Ava was hungry, and she was still young, too young to have any control over herself and her hunger. It could easily turn into a downright nightmare if she lost control and attacked someone. This room had to be full of normal people, innocent people and Ava couldn’t do something like that again. So when the sharp smell of blood hit her nose, she moved through the crowd like a shark searching for its meal. The feeding frenzy was threatening to take over. But someone bumped into her and she stumbled backwards, coming back to her sense. Ava quickly turned away to hide her darkening eyes and other signs of her vampire nature. “I can’t. I can’t do that.” She whispered, trying to get away from the blood.