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To do everything you fucking can to be better, to feel better, and not making any progress is one of the worst fucking feelings.

Where I am right now. @fallingtones

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can’t find the body that belongs to my voice / or my voice that belongs to the harm

Alessandra Lynch, from P.S. Assault, Daylily Called It a Dangerous Moment (via lifeinpoetry)

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I do not feel like healing because in the back garden there is a graveyard for all of the things I wasn’t allowed to feel. Betrayal and Pain toss in their graves and Anger screams like a banshee from the top of a tree, ‘I HAVE A RIGHT TO FEEL THIS WAY.’ Resentment festers like a maggoty wound beneath the surface. I cannot let go of this, because it has yet to let go of me. I should have been allowed to purge myself of poison. Instead, I was made to swallow it. And now the soil is rotten. But it’s not my fault. Not mine. ‘Talking helps sometimes,’ they say but my voice is nothing but thorns and no roses. So many dead emotions that weren’t allowed to live. They wail from beneath the ground. They are fighting to crawl out. They refuse to be subdued again. No, I do not feel like healing. I feel like hurting. Take a knife and cut off the hands that are holding me back. Dig up the skeletons and embrace them. I am human and I am allowed to feel these cut-up, violent things. I promise to get worse before I get better.

(via unhappy-rabbit)