Awkward Aza

Was told I have some awkward moments to share. So I decided to share them! Enjoy

[awkwardaza-blog]

Vacationing with a stranger

This is a short story. It details the time i found this guys page on ig. Then found him on a dating site. We chat online. He ask for my number and then the games commence. He kinda wooed me and when i got on the bait he left me to dry. However during this period, he invited me to go on vacation. I say yes. Odd of me. Weeks before the vacation we go on ONE date to which he stood me up on the first go around. The time before the trip very weird for me because i figured he would try to get to know me. Agonizing month and i vow to leave him alone after the trip but during the trip what happens. I kind of fall for him. And then the fuckery begins and now im left here crying cause I've been rejected. I try to move on and stop trying to contact him but its hard. I keep this shit to myself in not having to repeat it to anyone. Its therapeutic to write it out. This to shall pass right.

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Date with the Nicki Minaj Fraud

My homeboy’s hell date!

he decided to take her to a restaurant, which she was about two hours late for. When she finally arrived he was shocked by her looks cause when he met her she had black hair and now she had a blond wig on looking like nicki minaj on Pink Friday. They walk over to the spanish restaurant where they ordered food and she complained that the menu was too complicated for her and would have been better off  going to BBQs. At this point he is thinking, “chick

During their dinner, she pulls out her big ass bottle of listerine and begins to take a swig of it. At this point mt boy had to excuse himself and go to the bathroom and he cursed himself and yelled in the bathroom. He calls his friend and asks him to call him in 5 minutes so he could leave but my boy’s phone dies and he goes back to the table. ( I dont know where she spit the mouthwash at. lol ) 

At this point, they head to the downtown area where she :

Purchases weed from a random guy on Fulton st.

Purchases liquor from the liquor spot and goes to wendys for two big cups of Fruit punch and adds the liquor it 

Proceeds to ask him questions about where his mouth is willing to go ( does he eat the box out..)

Having had enough of this hell date he leaves her high and drunk on court st. At home his father gives him some advice : "  next time u test these chicks out take them to a hot dog stand buy some franks and look at ur phone than bounce”

[awkwardaza-blog]

Awkward. When you do the do and he's silent. Stone cold and i cant read a thing from his face. Thats the scary thing. When im unable to read someone. I kind of want 2 cry but i know hes a speaker and i dont know what to say. Maybe i shouldnt have asked him to drive; what if he thinks im using him or something. How do i turn around from this. Arghh. I dont know if i sho6hld bring that up ya know because he didnt and he would have. Silence after sex... well not immediately but like now we are out of the bed. I do not know. Should i feel horrible for asking him? Sigh ummm i should just be celibate. Im giving up on dating too. Dont feel like i have anything to add 2 nothing ...

[awkwardaza-blog]

I figured something out. Why I'm feeling so ble ble and i think it's because this is one of the few guys ( lol 2nd) i met who was attracted to me but wanted nothing more than to have my company and kick it with me. Some ppl say why not the sex and i was upset a little that it didn't happen but i just feel something deeper and though i should let it play out i feel like there is fear on his part and he won't act and when you feel a deeper connection its hard for me to let that go. Some ppl say oo the guy should be chasing you but sometimes when you feel it you have to go for it too but then the upside is well he obviously doesn't feel it so why waste ya time. Frankly its cause nothing is promised.

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No games

I use to read blogs alot. Mostly of ppl i didnt know but felt a connection through their words. Sort of like my love affair with music but in that case my connection is with the music and the lyrics but not with the artist. Any hooo, i stumbled across this ig page while ig stalking, ( the reason why my nephew said he won't like any pictures on ig anymore lol) @neffiwalker and then came across this story which was deep. So i wanted to share. Usually lol i wouldn't post this and instead opt to write this on my blog but i wanted to share. Decided to write in my blog. I realized this is the second time i felt this way. These emotions. Was bout to describe them as not good but these are my emotions and toss is how i feel lol. Can this game be played without emotions will i ever experience love from am intimate partner. Am i capable of recieving and giving? Feels a little better to get this off my chest. Didnt get all of it off but knowing that a little is in the atmosphere is cool lol Link below 2 da post. http://neffiwalker.com/life-2/life-can-love-be-executed-without-the-games/

[awkwardaza-blog]

Yesterday i revealed my feelings Dont know how he feels but at this point i cant care. This my friends i haven’t felt like this since 2009 with the one who shall remain nameless actially havent felt like this since both of the guys i felt connected to back then.

Actually, moving forward if a male show signs of not having time imma move left cause my time is worth something too. Of course i will go throufh the motions of showing that im interested but after that i have to go on. But first i have to realize why i stick around for too long and why i give in so easily. I have still not figured that out though i have realized this is an issue.

[awkwardaza-blog]

That moment when the one you feeling ignores ya texts and the one you over is on your ig page writting hearts in the comment …smh… on the verge of tears cause i never get what my soul desires and really suck at dating. Its frustrating and im done writing.

[awkwardaza-blog]

So i dont get too many penis pics in my hot line. Lol the last one i got was so good and literally sent by an unknown person. Person unknowb Cause i deleted the txt thread for number several weeks before i got the penis video. Not a pic but a video. That he sent through whatsapp .... i deleted and this time blocked him and still may have the evidence It was a good video. Length but no girth lmao

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The time i talked to this guy for two weeks straight everyday. I felt involved and in to him only for him to dissapear one day and never txt. Ignore all my textes and calls as if i was chopped liver. But i knew where to find him because of his work route through my neighborhood but i never went looking. A few days after i use to look out on flatbush from my job building to see if i saw his truck, he drove ups truck overnight, but i never did. Twice i thought i saw glimpses but idk and will never know.

[khylee]

Psychology is a beautiful thing.

[psych2go]

Interesting! 

[awkwardaza-blog]

But im the only one who moves ...

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" I dont miss you girl! "

I almost passed up on this awkward moment. Didnt take it as such because this shit happens all the time. Lol when you tell someome that you miss them and they reply "Must be an android error because I don't miss you." Uhh burn baby burn i see how you feeling son. I was advised not to say anything to said male but i couldn't keep it inside.

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Reblog Awkward 2.0

So someone inspired me inadvertently to blog again. I have stuff i want to say and can't verbalize it ya know. I will do my best to note recall my awkward moments because alot of them happen!

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Carrot Cake in East HArlem

So a while back lol. I met someone at the carrot cake spot near my old job. I didn't think anything of it. He introduced himself to me I chatted, I am very aloof. He gives me his card and I was like wow he's cute why not. So the next day I texted him.

We chatted for a bit and then i just realized he was into these same ole games so I stopped texting him. Especially after we made plans to meet and he cancelled. 

We get back into contact, maybe a month later through initiation by him. Plans are made and cancelled and then we finally meet up lol and things take a turn for a worse. Ha ha ha but its all good.  

Just know I think I have an addictive personality. 

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Date # 2 : Updates

Lol so some people actually read this. So ha ha I really don't remember date 2 and since I don't remember it. I doubt it happened. I feel like i know who is date #2 is. And he has some issues. 

i believe he is 30 something and still trying to go to school which isn't a problem. But it is a problem when you are 30 something and haven't gotten your plan settled to go back to school. Hmm maybe I am being naive.

Whatever. 

Ohh buy he has contacted me recently and wants to hang out. Should I? My friend says I should date but maybe I am not the dating type or maybe I am not confident enough. I don't know its very frustrating. 

[awkwardaza-blog]

Prospect # 2

There is a prospect#2. DAte soon come. Sunday... we will see what happens

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Prospect # 1

So I said let me use this service I'm paying for . I log on and decided to contact this one guy who gave me his phone number from before and liked a whole bunch of my date suggestions. I text him and from there things get awkward but i dont think its from my end. I text; he barely answers or answers the next morning with a good morning and some excuse. He asks when are we going on a date. I respond no response from him until two days later when he decides on one. SO we have a date set for tonight. No text, no call. Mind you i texted him some days ago no response  Lol I guess its safe to say no date today or ever with PRospect #1 lmao #LeSIGH

[scintillatingjelly]

[ellegolightly]

This angry food is making my year right now.

NATURE’S BUTTER, BITCH.

[yesslynn]

Tasty and aggressive, two of my favorite things.

[blikethings]

I lol’d. so hard.