Axel's Blog

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00-First Post!

I was told that Tumblr was sort of more like the "bloggy" sibling to Reddit. I'm not sure if that makes sense at all, but it does in my head, so that all that matters to me. I plan to post just a lot of the thoughts I have, honestly. Especially if they're long-form thoughts. Other, shorter, thoughts are usually in my carrd. Along with other information about me! Super excited to start sharing some of my thoughts! Even if people don't end up seeing it.

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02-❝ Music!!! ❞

Depending on my differing moods, I tend shuffle through different music / creators.

Overwhelmed and want nothing to do nothing with people

McCafferty

The Front Bottoms

Black Flags

Stomach Book

Get Scared

MARINA

Destroy Boys

Hype up?

Femtynal

Dongdang

Sleeping With Sirens

Get Scared

Overwhelmed + Tired?

Rio Romeo

Cavetown

Mitski

Flatsound

Sushi Soucy

Ricky Montgomery

And of course to much more, but that's just off the top of my head. And all these creators can leak into other areas, too, there's no guidelines into what must be in what section at one given time. Someday I'll listen to Femtynal when I'm overwhelmed and tired and others I'll listen to Sushi Soucy and Cavetown when I need a hype up or don't want to deal with people.

I also tend to see a shift throughout the school year. In the beginning, definite middle, and end of the year, I'll be mostly overwhelmed, between then, I'll be hyped, and sometimes, I'll be hyped in between these times.

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01-❝ Agnostic Atheism. ❞

Recently I've come to find the term "Agnostic Atheism." I had, for the longest time, thought that agnosticism and atheism couldn't mix, always describing myself as someone who would be in between the two. ↳ I don't know if there is a god out there, no proof to accept nor deny it as fact. Due to this, I cannot find myself believing in any god at all. I cannot devote myself to something I do not believe in.

That's when I found myself stumbling upon what some would call "Agnostic Atheism." It's not like the atheism people most likely think of. Usually, when people argue against atheism, they say: ↳ ❝ How can you be so sure there's no God out there? You never know. ❞

-And from my viewpoint? They're right. But that's not the only facet to atheism. What they're thinking of is referred to as "Gnostic Atheism." ↳ Gnostic Atheism is a type of atheism that doesn't believe in a god and claims to absolutely know that no gods exist. ↳ Gnostic Atheism is also a large reason why people think that agnosticism and atheism cannot mix in the slightest.

I believe more in an agnostic atheism. ↳ Someone who does not know if there is a god in our universe and also does not believe in a god. ↳ Eg. ❝ I don't know if there is a god out there, no proof to accept nor deny it as fact. Due to this, I cannot find myself believing in any god at all. I cannot devote myself to something I do not believe in. ❞

From this standpoint, agnosticism is based on what a person knows while atheism is based on what a person believes.

To me, this answers a lot of the questions I had. At least about myself. About Christians and other religions? Nope, not at all. But this is a start to trying to define myself. At least, in a way that can someone make sense to my parents. I won't get into the parents thing now, but I'll probably write about it later.

If this goes the way my parents want, maybe I'll even end up somewhat religious.