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                     when receiving no reply to his messages, he sudden felt anger again and just threw his phone across the room, hating how much his temper could reach level red at times – where he couldn’t help but have the need of throwing something. instead his back landed flat against the mattress, staring up at the ceiling while thoughts ran through his mind, on how to make it all good again. but he didn’t want to come crashing at her place like he used to. patrick wasn’t creative at all, but he need some way of telling her, so she’d trust, believe and understand how much he actually loved her.

                      ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — she always wondered if they’ll have a chance together. even since she started to fall for him, alaska wanted nothing more than to have the chance to call him hers. not as a property but as her lover. but he never understood that. looking at the necklace, she threw it across the room, hating her decision to buy them. and she who was so stupid to think he actually liked it. taking her phone, alaska sighed.                  { ✉ ··· hottie patch } you said i deserve better than you.                  { ✉ ··· hottie patch } but what am i supposed to do when all i want is you?                  { ✉ ··· hottie patch } i want to tell everyone that i’m yours and your mine.                  { ✉ ··· hottie patch } but.. i guess it’s not what you want..                  { ✉ ··· hottie patch } since you said i deserve better.

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                      he was becoming totally restless in his place, that his fingers was almost trembling and unable to really focus on anything else, than alaska. patrick sometimes hated how easily she could get to him, how much he had fallen for her, that he was acting these sort of ways. but when his phone suddenly beeped, he reached for it and saw the selca of her there, the beautiful smile, those glistering eyes and just her perfect visuals was shown there. the woman he loved. and the words he read, was only confirming his feelings for her even more.

                      ( sms-  ʙᴇᴀᴜᴛy qᴜᴇᴇɴ ) alaska..                       ( sms-  ʙᴇᴀᴜᴛy qᴜᴇᴇɴ ) i am the one who’s … sorry.                       ( sms-  ʙᴇᴀᴜᴛy qᴜᴇᴇɴ ) i am completely blinded by you                       ( sms-  ʙᴇᴀᴜᴛy qᴜᴇᴇɴ ) and i am in love with you.                       ( sms-  ʙᴇᴀᴜᴛy qᴜᴇᴇɴ ) you deserve better than me.

                       ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — laying down on the bed, she did nothing else that to stare at the ceiling after she read his messages. no, she didn’t reply because the last message he sent made her think it was his way to say “let’s stop here”, even if he just confessed. taking a deep breath, she covered her face with her hand, feeling tears running down her cheeks. god, she loved him. too much for her own good, because that was the main reason for their fight. cursing under her breath, alaska touched the necklace she was still wearing, moving a little to take it off after that.

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                       when she approached him, his eyes couldn’t even look at her as he was raging with anger and as always, she ran away the moment the two would suddenly rub against one another, when the smallest argument broke out. feeling the sudden loose from the bracelet get opened, was first when his attention was on her – and her words only made his eyes roll. patrick wasn’t normally someone who just stopped things and let them go. but he had given up soon, finding it difficult to even try and have an fight with her, talking out about the things there was bothering their mind; the one thing every couple needed, and that was just prove on them not being a couple. and he hated it. he wanted alaska with more than his life, and ye … he didn’t see a future in them, if she was gonna run away by the smallest electricy turning to anger. ❝ whatever. ❞ the male shook his head and just moved to sit on the bed, swiping her necklace down on the floor as well.

                        ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — yes, she ran away. oh, she always did that. not only with him, but with everyone. because she know she will lose control at some point and she was already tired to have him patrick seeing her crying while the panick attack hit her. she was too calm when she reached her apartment. moving slow around the house, she took a shower, trying to keep her mind busy but after she finished with everything, she took her phone, typing his number.                   { ✉ ··· hottie patch } i never thought you are my property.                   { ✉ ··· hottie patch } i guess that was my stupid way to say “i’m in love with you”                   { ✉ ··· hottie patch } and no. you don’t have to answer this if you don’t want                   { ✉ ··· hottie patch } i just wanted to tell you what i couldn’t say out loud.                   { ✉ ··· hottie patch } i’m sorry. hugging her legs, alaska sighed, knowing this time she really screwed things up.              

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♥ Send a ship and I'll give you who:

Gives nose/forehead kisses

Gets jealous the most

Picks the other up from the bar when they’re too drunk to drive

Takes care of on sick days

Drags the other person out into the water on beach day

Gives unprompted massages

Drives/rides shotgun

Brings the other lunch at work

Has the better parental relationship

Tries to start role-playing in bed

Embarrassingly drunk dancer

Still cries watching Titanic

Firmly believes in couples costumes

Breaks the expensive gift rule during Christmas

Makes the other eat breakfast

Remembers anniversaries

Brings up having kids

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I love little domestic memes so I decided to make one myself and yes.

Who’s the first to wake up in the morning:

Who’s the one to make breakfast:

Who’s the one to serve the other breakfast in bed:

Who would suggest a quickie in the morning before work:

Who suggests they both ditch work to lay around all day:

Who chooses the movies:

Who initiates kissing during the moving, thus distracting the other from the movie all together:

Who orders lunch:

Who steals food from the other’s plate without asking:

Who curls up next to the other and falls asleep due to a full tummy:

Who distracts the other from trying to work at home:

Who asks to go get ice cream like a five year old:

Who takes pictures of their partner eating ice cream:

Who makes a sexual joke about the dripping ice cream on their partner’s face:

Who cooks dinner:

Who cleans up the kitchen afterwards:

Who stays up until 2 reading:

Who stares at their partner while their sleeping:

Who kisses their partner while they sleep:

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                    it was yet another fight the two of them were having and he didn’t hesitate once, to tear off the necklace and throw it across the room, only to hear it shatter a little – but that didn’t matter for patrick, as his eyes were stuck on the woman in from of him. ❝ i am not a fucking object to keep, alaska. you treat me like some dog, that if you don’t get it your way, i am getting punished. it isn’t how the world is fucking working. i am not an property to own, okay?! ❞ 

                         ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — she stared at him, wondering if she really did that. “of course you did it. the necklace, the bracelet. everything you did and said. you continue to ruin everything, alaska.” she heard a voice inside of her head but instead of saying something, since it was her fault only, like always, because she was the one who always started their fights, she took of her necklace, the one with the keys for both his necklace and bracelet and approaced him. she didn’t look into his eyes while she unlocked the bracelet, letting it fall on the floor. ❝ i’m sorry for everything. ❞ alaska said, trampling on the bracelet. she heard it breaking under her foot but she didn’t care.  ❝ take care of you. ❞ maybe hoping that after his “i love you”, things will get les confused between them wasn’t a good thing. without another word, she turned around, dropping her necklace with now-useless keys on the floor. and since it was obvious that he wasn’t happy, it was better for both of them if she stopped bothering him, so she walked away, closing the door behind her, trying as much as she could to hold back her tears.

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                           Right now, he had an reason to smile despite the pain he was feeling over his whole body. What was important to him, was the fact that the two of them had just shared their honest feelings for each other, and it left his stomach almost tingle a little bit. Patrick hadn’t been in love before, but when he met with Alaska, there have always been this spark between them; proving the fact that the two was definitely inseparable. “Yeah.. You’re mine and I’m yours.” An wider smile was appearing on his face then, admiring people who remembered stuff that he told them, especially that line. For him, it had been an indirect confession, but she had taken it as an joke, like the two always would.

                    ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — She wondered how could he smiled like that with all those bruises on his face. But she couldn’t help but to smile as well. She knew he didn’t feel well but to see him happy was enough for her to be happy as well. Running her fingers through his hair, Alaska sighed softly, thinking at how they met. No, she didn’t plan to fall in love with Patrick. Either to have their friends with benefits relationship. But in that moment she didn’t regret anything. Smiling at his words, she pulled away, since the doctor needed to check the rest of his wounds but she kept holding his hand, brushing her thumb against his skin slowly. ❝If he’ll stay here, will you come to check on him from time to time?❞ She asked, in the end giving up on the thought of making him go to the hospital.

[axska-blog]

Fluff & Romance Starters

"Well aren't you sweet?"

"The stars look especially lovely tonight."

"I've never seen such gorgeous eyes before."

"May I have this dance?"

"I can't stop thinking about you."

"Let's build a pillow fort together and eat marshmallows in it!"

"Want to play a game?"

"Let's play tag!"

"Stop being so cute!"

"Let's get to know each other over dinner."

"All I want is snuggles and kisses."

"Let's go to the park and have a picnic!"

"Let's just enjoy the day."

"Want to watch the sunset with me?"

"The sunset looks absolutely beautiful."

"I don't think anyone could ever be as lovely as you my dear."

"You look incredible in that."

"It's quite stunning, isn't it?"

"These flowers, I got them just for you."

"Would you like to dance with me?"

"Do you believe in love at first sight?"

"I think I'm in love."

"You're the best friend I ever had."

"Could you ever consider us as more than just friends?"

"I want this to never end..."

"Can I kiss you?"

"I want to kiss you..."

"Never have I felt this way about anyone before."

"A fairytale with a happy ending always brings a smile to my face."

"Just being next to you is electrifying."

"Sometimes I just can't control myself when around you."

"Let's dance!"

"I want to hear you sing."

"Let me sing for you."

"I could never leave you, I love you too much!"

"I'll always be right by your side to protect you."

"You'll never feel alone with me by your side."

"I want to always protect you."

"Is it possible to love too much?"

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                    ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — She loved the feelings Patrick gave her. Not only in moments like that, when the need for each other was so strong but when they were together in general. Her fingers grabbed his hair, while she continued to kiss him, hips rolling against his own. When he touched her skin, her body started to tremble in anticipation, a low moan leaving her lips. ❝Oh god.. Patch. I want you.❞ The way he seemed to take so long to touch her was driving her crazy, because Alaska knew he was as impatient as she was and yet, he still acted like that.

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                          First then the male began to approach the scene once more, so that his slender fingers could brush away some of her hair there had stuck to her forehead, because she was seating and grasping for air at times. Patrick hated to see her in a state like this, and couldn’t help but feel to blame, as they had fought just before he left, and then she ended up doing stuff like this. The male simply hated how he was so blind and stupid to leave her alone, when he knew about her darkest secret. “No buts baby..” He spoke, leaning in to press an gentle kiss onto her forehead, smiling warmly at her. “No one will know.. It’s just for the night, so you won’t get dehydrated.” The male explained, knowing a few things about this, since his gang members was going through these things often.

                    ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — She didn’t blame him for what happened. Yes, maybe their fight was the reason because she ended up like that, but it was her fault for acting jealous when she didn’t even have the right to. So when she saw the guilt on his face, Alaska sighed, groaning from time to time, when she felt the pain. ❝Oh, okay.. okay..❞ She closed her eyes a little when he kissed her, a soft smile playing on her lips. Alaska nuzzled his cheek while he was still leaned over her, humming. She yawned, wanting to sleep. ❝But I’m not staying more than a night, just to be clear- I don’t like to stay alone in the hospital.❞ Yes, she acted like a child but she really hated the hospitals, since she stayed an entire year in one when she was diagnosed.

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                        The whole scene was beginning to become heartbreaking to look at, even Patrick felt himself emotional affected, but he couldn’t show any tears; weirdly enough. The way she smiled at the doctor, was even more sad than he’d be thinking so, the fact she was so used to it, that she knew what would work and wouldn’t be working. While he was sitting on the sideline, without having anything to say or do, useless. Wanting to be much more in situations like these yet, he could only be stroking locks of hair out of her view. “Do what you think is rightful doctor.. These are pretty.. deep.” The red-haired then said, looking up at the familiar man with a pair of desperate eyes, not even caring she didn’t want to go to the hospital. All he needed, was to be sure she wouldn’t be suddenly dying on him; that was the worst thought to go around with. Living without her as simply impossible.

                     ┌ ♛ ┘ ; — Even if she saw the disappointed look on her doctor’s face, Alaska kept the little smile on her lips. Yes, she fucked up things again. And she probably will do that a lot of time in the future because sometimes, when she felt too sad to handle things and her soul was too bruised, pain helped her for a few moments. ❝I’m sorry. I know I promised you I won’t do it again--❞ Poor man. He probably was sick of their calls. But Alaska knew he loved them, because he always looked after her and Patch as if they were his own kids. Ever since she was diagnosed with severe depression, he took care of her, long nights when her panic attacks didn’t allow her to sleep. And when Patrick came in her life and she trusted him enough to show how broken she was, that man was there for both of them. ❝But--❞ With a pout, Alaska looked at Patrick, flinching when the doctor started to take care of her wounds.

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Jealous messages

[MSG]: Did you have fun with you-know-who last night?

[MSG]: I guess my company doesn't interest you any more.

[MSG]: What do you see in that guy/girl?

[MSG]: (S)he's kind of hot... you think?

[MSG]: Is he bigger than me?

[MSG]: When's the wedding?

[MSG]: I heard you and ___ are an item.

[MSG]: Is there... someone else?

[MSG]: I never agreed to an open relationship!

[MSG]: Does she do that thing that I do for you?

[MSG]: I see you'll flirt with just about anyone.

[MSG]: I'm a fool for thinking I was special to you.

[MSG]: How serious is it between you two?

[MSG]: You've been spending a lot of time with ___ recently.

[MSG]: So you tell all girls/guys that, I see.

[MSG]: So that's your type, huh?

[MSG]: Who's better in bed, me or him/her?

[MSG]: I can't bear to see you with someone else.

[MSG]: You're just a slut.

[MSG]: Just curious... not like I'm jealous or anything...

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                      i wanna be immortal                                          like a god in the sky                     i wanna be a silk flower                                  like I’m never gonna d i e                       i wanna live forever                                         forever in your h e a r t               && we’ll always be t o g e t h e r                            from the end to the start                                                                       ┊reblog && like && follow ┊                                                        [ 18 + NSFW Warning ]                                                             【 biography 】

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