Hi. I’m Chiara, I’m a 19 years old and I’m from Italy (excuse me if my english isn’t that well!) I’m writing here because I havent post anything in a while. These days I started feeling bad. Bad with myself and the world. I feel that everything I do, it’s the wrong thing. I started having nervous breakdown with autolesionism. I used to have this at 14 years, with anzxiety (a lot) and panic attacks. I had a therapy to do,for EIGHT years and, finally at my 17 I started feeling better, happier, I started to smile ad everything and I started to find the good things in the bad things. But now I can’t handle my life anymore. I have everything: A family who loves me and accept me, I have a beautiful girlfriend, friends, a dog who I can’t live without. This is EVERYTHING to me. But... I don’t know. I tried many times to kill my self and the only thing I couldn’t think was: why? why me? why it has to happen this. I sincerly don’t know what stopped me. This disease, if it’s the right name to call such an evil thing. It’s evil because us teenagers should think to live NOW, to the future... but why can’t I? This thing it’s destroying the relationships between me and my Girlfriend. Why am I writhing this here? Because I know that there’s someone here who can understand me. I don’t know what else to say... just... I can’t live like this. P.S these are me and my girlfriend.. look at how beautiful she is...
