ccopy

hi im caity & i enjoy listening to music and feeling sad 🌊

[aevie]

go outside to heal inside

[mothermishy]

c_i_u

[kissedbythevoid]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BHBE2r3Akiu/

[redrola]

[1010ll]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BmiY9XsltRz/?

[aycaramba1111]

extra #49

lol just read my last one and like that did not work out at all hahahah

i mean i think we’re ok with each other now but not really friendly just acquaintances now

i need to remember to not get invested in anything until it becomes real

although that was becoming real

i dont know i guess i just have to have a better judgment of character next time

anyway im on holidays now

nothing much is happening

watched dazed and confused yesterday and it gave me that feeling that i need something more in my life or i want to live more

and just do anything cos who cares

that’s about it

also how do you not get mad at your friends for no reason. one friend, no matter what they do, endlessly annoys me and it’s creating a rift and i dont really mind because i am finding them quite annoying but also i dont want drama i need to show myself i am above drama i am too mature for there to be more drama so i think i do need to put some effort in to prevent that

[cutjepie]

[r-siken-deactivated20210531]

self-portrait against red wallpaper, richard siken

[piratehunted]

[methoxydimethyltryptamine-deact]

Girl’s night out (of body experience)

[bestofgentleearth]

[1010ll]

https://www.instagram.com/p/B3rp6VIATlX/

[kissedbythevoid]

https://www.instagram.com/p/6V7ne3o1tO/

[aycaramba1111]

extra #48

alright so lots changed since last time but still related ??

uh

so 

someone liiiikes me

and was like Holding Me at the party last week

and slid into dms

and now we been messaging

and they asked me on a date

and im extremely nervous

but now fb convo a lil stale

and it’s making me really sad hahshashash

please i hope this works out 

[aycaramba1111]

extra #47

went america

was alright

didn’t love

i like being back i missed my friends endlessly

had a panic attack/ episode one day it fuckin sucked

uhh im in good spot in most of my relationships atm

think everything is ok

nothing interesting is happening to me anymore

party saturday im looking forward to

friend told me their friend likes me

purely from my dp

not sure how to take that

kinda interesting someone feels like that toward me tho?? catfish?

it looks like me but obviously it’s from a good angle

hmmm scary if i meet them and they think im ugly 

i am scared of any interactions that might possibly lead to romantic relations

i think i am uncomfortable with the idea that anyone likes me ever 

and every possibility terrifies me

[aseaofquotes]

 Nathaniel Hawthorne, The Scarlet Letter

[kissedbythevoid]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BdX3sERnHi4/