Jimin cried today and let me tell y’all it wasn’t cause he’s sad or upset. No, this one was purely out of love. These tears were of sheer joy and the fact that he himself finds it hard to believe that a simple boy from Busan who left behind an established dancing career, a family and every sense of familiarity for a simple hope that maybe one day, maybe one day he could become an idol. Maybe one day he will stand on a stage surrounded by people cheering his name, singing along to the songs he made with his brothers, people who are there to watch him when he does what he’s the best at; being the baddest mf performer that is out there.
These tears were of nothing but the realisation that hit him like a brick that yes, yes he deserves this and yes, he made it. He made it. He made it when every step of the damn way people questioned him, ridiculed him, hated on him and the people he loves the most only for all of them to be people who will never get half of the love that these boys get.
All those sleepless nights when he collapsed his way to practice, when he practiced till his legs gave out, he sang till his throat hurt, he rehearsed and rehearsed till he couldn’t anymore. Day in and day out he doubted himself, he spent years agonising over every damn aspect of his self. He starved to fit in, he gave in to maintain the masculine aura that was expected of him. He gave up every single sense of what made him Jimin to fit in the expectations of what other people want from him. He gave himself up every goddamn step of the way to be what others needed him to be to see the day when he goes up on a stage in front of thousands of people and he can be himself. He can step up on that stage and smile, goof around, dance his life out and sing till he can’t anymore. He’s not afraid of what they say cause he knows he’s fucking gold when he’s being himself. He can be Park Jimin because he damn well knows, that’s enough for him and for us.
So this goes out for you, Park Jimin, the strongest man I’ve ever known. The man who stood right in the face of adversity and didn’t loose a shred of the kindness that makes him Jimin. He looked the worst of this world in the eyes and still kept his intergrity and his kindness intact when it was so fucking easy to just let go.
Saying that you’re an inspiration at this point feels like an understatement cause I don’t know you personally and I never will but the fact remains, you are everything I can ever aspire to be in this life of mine.
Here’s hoping that these happy tears grace your eyes often and the sad ones never do.
I can say it with my whole chest that this is the man I bias, this is the man I adore and nothing is ever going to change that;
Jimin, Love ya, I promise. 🤞
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