Maven da Raven

here to babble. 16

[babbling-brooke]

🌃Intro Post🌃

hey, what's up, i'm maven. i just moved cities and obviously... it's a big change.

a little about me: i'm 16, i love puzzles, watercolor painting, and karaoke. i'm an introvert, a pisces, a ravenclaw, and kind of a mess :D

this blog is kind of just my new space to ramble about whatever and occasionally vent. this is my fresh start and i wanna record it.

not as personal as a person, but not as lonely as a journal, i guess, is what i'm going for here.

things are going to be different in new york, i can feel it.

[babbling-brooke]

7. Spooky Season

it's raining cats and dogs and it smells like autumn. i love it but i can also feel the seasonal sad coming on (┳Д┳)

i wonder what i'm going to be this year for halloween. i kinda want to be alice from alice in wonderland but i'm not blonde and i don't want to wear a wig.

i might go as violet from the incredibles or the mom from meet the robinsons.

who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i overheard someone talking about a halloween dance that was being planned but might get cancelled this year, not sure why.

on the school fb group, someone messaged me and i don't know if i should respond but like... he seems like he's reaching out to be friends??? maybe???

ugh, i can't tell when people are being polite or if they have an actual objective for talking to me.

will update soon. ¯\_(⊙︿⊙)_/¯

[babbling-brooke]

6. a new day???

that girl that was my guide from the other day said hi to me. we didn't talk a lot, but she checked up on me and made sure i was getting along with the schedule and the school's layout.

again, seemed great but definitely had to leave. (pictured below)

ε=┌(;･_･)┘ so fast so rush

we had a full day today of getting into our subjects and checking out the learning plan for every class. I already hate my bio class because i'm sat in front of two loud guys that are clearly going to be *sooo* much fun.

i ate lunch alone and reread old texts from my ex.

i hope it didn't look as pathetic as it felt.

(┳Д┳)

[babbling-brooke]

5. first day.

today went okay i guess. i was hoping i would be sitting next to someone really cool and we'd hang out a little after school.

it was so loud but dead silent ಠ_ಠ

the person i was sitting next to in my math class said hi and we know each other's name now from roll call, but that's about it.

that's how all the other classes went too.

i'm trying not to give up hope, i just need to find someone that I have something in common with. the club fair isn't for another few days. i don't think i'll join any kind of art club but it'd be cool to at least find someone that likes watercolours?

i did meet a super sweet girl but it was kind of forced upon me and she was kind of there just to be a tour guide. she showed me where everything was during lunch then left. she seemed lovely but she was clearly in a rush.

it's okay. i have more days to come. i haven't fumbled my fresh start yet.

[babbling-brooke]

4. school tomorrow.

school starts in like 9 hours. i want it to. don't want it to.

i drank so much chamomile, i'm sweating so bad. i need to fall asleep soon or i'm going to be so done with everything before anything even started

i also got some melatonin to see if it'll work better this time. I was literally jogging earlier just to try to tire myself out. this had better work.

okay, putting myself to bed now and listening to music.

night :)

[babbling-brooke]

god forbid i get any fucking sleep

(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

[babbling-brooke]

4. school tomorrow.

school starts in like 9 hours. i want it to. don't want it to.

i drank so much chamomile, i'm sweating so bad. i need to fall asleep soon or i'm going to be so done with everything before anything even started

i also got some melatonin to see if it'll work better this time. I was literally jogging earlier just to try to tire myself out. this had better work.

okay, putting myself to bed now and listening to music.

night :)

[babbling-brooke]

3. school is starting soon.

i've been stalking the school's fb page and seeing who follows it. the school has a lot of sports teams and programs. i'm trying to guess what kind of clubs they might have so when the eventual club fair rolls around, i'll know exactly where to go.

i'm hoping that if i don't make immediate friends in classes, i could at least make one in like a yearbook club or something.

my friend and my ex-boyfriend used to make our own kind of karaoke club after school. It was mostly just us but sometimes people would join to see what it was.

yeah, it was basically just us eating junkfood and belting out songs that were stuck in our heads :P

they're not gonna have that here, but still, fingers crossed for a newspaper club or a yearbook club??

[babbling-brooke]

2. shopping day

obviously if i wanna have my 'new school, new me' moment, i have to have the fresh clothes. mom started her job so I figured out the bus route to the mall.

public transit makes me wanna barf sometimes because why is this guy playing his music on max volume and smelling like parmesan??

i can handle annoying but please just pick one of my senses to bug.

anyway, i got some new clothes, i'm feeling pretty good about my outfit plans. i didn't go with anything too nerdy, no graphic tees. i'm aiming for dark academia, but still cute and fun somehow. idk, i'm figuring it out :)))

i want to get different shaped glasses but mom said to wait until she got her first paycheck.

[babbling-brooke]

1. day damn one.

first day in new york and a homeless lady traded me a fridge magnet for my leftover lasagna. not mad about it but like we didn't even have to trade??

she asked for my leftovers after my mom and i went for dinner. i was going to try to give the magnet back but she kinda ran off before i could say anything.

so i guess we have a vermont state fridge magnet now. i refuse to get rid of it because the story is too good :)))

anyway, it's nice to get dinner before my mom starts her vampire shift job — she's starting her 8pm-6am shift in a few days once we get settled in.

and after that i get to stay up as late as i want >:)