A Simple Place For My Thoughts

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Missed Your Queue

What can I say?

Timing is everything.

Don’t worry about after, don’t second guess it. Cause if you over think it, you’ll surely miss it.

Time robs us all, takes away the opportunity. The hope that we carry.

That when we think we are ready. Step out on stage, only to be shocked. The shows packed up and gone. you missed your entry. Left of a stage where you hoped your dreams were to be made with applause like thunder. Only to be met by the emptiness of the theatre. Turns out, someone else stole your thunder. Out of the blue, you missed your queue. The spotlight was stolen right from under you.

People will tell you “there’s always another, try a different one later”

NO! Don’t tell me about another! It’s not what I want. It won’t be the same to what I almost got.

But...

I know they are right, but I wish it was not.

I hurt myself today. hearing I lost my spot.

It meant so much to me, but I guess that’s just what I thought.

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Lighthouse

Lost out at sea, on the darkest of nights. The waves gently rock me all through the night. With starlight above me, such a beautiful sight. Sirens around me, calling into the night. I can not resist, can not put up much of a fight. Their calls are alluring, perhaps I can swim through the night. That was until, I saw that beautiful beam of light. From the lighthouse back home. A beacon of life, I must change course. I must go back. Guiding me home to my familiar shores. Though I do tend to look back, peer beyond this tiny shore. For its always inviting, to come out once more. For the sea is a friend, one that I quite adore. Up till the point, it is a friend no more. With waves so big, no way it will miss. It’ll devour you whole, leaving no trace. Never forget that it’s also a grave.

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End

The wind blows cold

Right through my bones

The time has come

Where I will now fall

Don’t cry for me

My dearest love

For I have served you

So you may live on

Keep our children safe

And carry on

For you my dear

Your knight is now gone

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Devil in Disguise

Follow the sound of my drum beat

Follow the sound of my heart beat

We always meet up on that dark steet

Then we find ourselves in my sheets

I get to watch you as you undress

You put on a show to see how long I last

My mind is going wild, as you tease me for a while

Now you’re on top, and you want what I got

I’ll grab you by your hips, then you bite your lip

That look in your eyes, Gets me every time

I know what your craving, you get it every time

I love the way you move, just the way you do

when you lean in, wow what a great view

Now I’ll grab you, flip you over

watch as I begin to takeover

Using rope and giving orders

Your body you’ve surrendered

Your flesh is now mine, your ass I’ll tenderized

And when you have a mouthful, I want to see mascara lines.

Our nights are fantastic, sinners going at it

Meet up on that street, you know we’re going at it

By the morning sunlight, you know that she’s had it

Can’t walk straight, yeah we have some bad habits

No one gets to know that we’re constantly going at it

Cause we’re just like fucking rabbits

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A Sword

Used to this day, I carry my blade.

Protector to those, who need my aid.

No need for thanks, as long as you’re safe.

Used to this day, I carry my blade.

My back you will see, turned to you it will be.

For my sword is drawn, away from you it will be.

Standing on guard, to save you from pain.

Used to this day, I carry my blade.

If the day ever came, where I am betrayed

a knife in my back, that I exposed every day

My stance will then turn, so will my blade.

You’ll find yourself on the other end of my

Blade.

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Dreams

Dreams of now and then, I never know,

My head works funny when I’m feeling low.

Most of the time, I forget them instead,

Other times they’re stuck in my head.

A memory the past, one I quite liked.

Plays through my mind durning the night.

Only to awake to know that’s not my life.

It plays in my head, not like the rest I ever had.

Now it’s quite stuck there, not leaving my head.

Now when I sleep, it starts to play in my head.

Something of great pleasure, now only dread.

Don’t ask me about those thought in my head.

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Broken Home

I stand here alone

No need to go home

The winds blowing cold

Out of that broken home

I may lay my head

But rest I will not

For inside that home

I wish I was not

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Conquered

I’ll break down the gate and storm your castle,

Tear down your flags, all have been torn.

Retreat to your tower, Soon I’ll be inside.

My presence now looms, you feel me close by.

Your castles now conquered, I am deep inside.

Struggle Princess, you are conquered tonight.

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Seized

No longer by your side,

No more light in my eyes,

Bang on my armour,

It’s hollow inside.

Serving no purpose,

Given no reason.

Rain slows me down,

Rust has become my prison.

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A man in knights armour, inside a tin can. Do you not see the shaking of his hands. For he truly knows terror and truly knows fright. When he had to face his demons at night.

He lays in his slumber, stiring all night. Dreams of a kingdom that he did quite like.

For the Queen was quite beautiful and moved with such grace. She was the light that brighten his day.

The Queen was so gentle, she was so kind. Just being around her, felt so divine.

The Queen took off his armour, the weight off his shoulders. She had shown him he didn’t have to wear armour.

Because there was only calm and order, no longer did he have to look over his shoulder

The knight then knew, she had truly adored him. She was there to truly support him. To be the one that got to hold him.

Everything changed one terrible day. Deep in the rose garden, he hear her say. “I give you my pardon, but things cannot remain the same. Now you must leave my kingdom, this wonderful place.”

The knight was in shock with his heart now broken. Couldn’t comprehend why those words were spoken.

He put on his armour as she kissed him goodbye, after his Queen couldn’t even look him in the eye. She left the rose garden, never looked back.

Now the knight was alone, had to leave town. Walked down the streets, where there was a crowd. “Never come back!” “Our Queen doesn’t want ya!” “You’ll never be anything this kingdom adores!”

The knight was then beaten, his armour was torn. He truly had nothing, not even a horse.

Out of the gate, he saw a dim light. Took only a moment for it to be bright. Right in his face, was a candle light. Two small children who were roaming the night

“Excuse me Sir Knight, are you alright? We had heard your cries out into the night.”

The knight got up, he rose out of bed. Knowing he shouldn’t go back to bed, for he’ll never escape those memories in his head.

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Rose 🌹

This is something that we called garbage.

A wrapper used up, thinking it’s finished

Only to believe it’ll serve no purpose

Poor little wrapper oh so much more it could be

You shouldn’t believe everything you see

Because everything has its hidden potential

It only needs love, someone to care

To be told there is still beauty in there

Now, tell me now, what do you see

Do you see what more that little wrapper could be

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A tale as old as time

Oh Tell me sweet love of mine

Do you ever want to go back in time

And enjoy those moments

Enjoy those moments

Like I do

Cause every time I find myself with you

We’re always every close, yeah we were just like glue.

Every time I saw you, I’d fall for you,

Always telling jokes and playing our games.

Every time I look back. “Those were the days” and I say that every time with a big grin on my face.

Even when there tears running down my face every time I see you everyday.

I always put flowers on your grave,

Telling you everything that happened today.

God I miss you

Oh God I miss you

every day

Oh tell me my sweet love of mine,

Do you ever want to turn back the time.

Or should I just lay here and hope to die.

Cause all I want to do is have you back in my life.

Were we could play together in paradise. telling our jokes and playing our games, finally hold you close and never let go.

Cause it’s been too many years where you’ve been alone.

But not any longer, not one more day. I’ve grown to weak from this pain.

So I’ll lay next to you on your grave, knowing this is going to be the day. Don’t worry darling, I’m on my way, and I can’t wait to see you again.

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You know my name

I am made of nothing but nightmares and dread.

I am the reason you stay in bed.

The weight in your gut, the storm in your head.

I am silent to most, and heard by others

I am close like a friend, but never to defend.

No, you’ll never dare call me a friend.

For I am you and not another.

Deep in your mind is where I slumber.

I am that voice that likes to pretend, making up stories about you to all your friends.

You trust me well cause you think there is no one else.

So stay inside and under the covers

For no one else, you wish to bother.

That is my tale and many know of my fame

And even to this point. I haven’t mentioned my name.

yet you know me well, so say. My. Name.

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Queens knight

I am the knight that stands tall

For my friends, my shield never falls

For I am their knight. Protector of all

for when I’m around, you’ll feel calm,

Though threaten my queen and you’ll be sorry. For one fact, I show you no mercy.

I shall stand tall, while carving you down.

For my queen, who is all. I promised her, I shall never fall. Vanquish the beast, that is all. For I am a knight, her personal wall.

Protect the kingdom and keep her safe, follow those orders to this day.

Even tho my armour is dull and broken

Keep her safe, oath unbroken.

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Hello

Hello, to waking up Alone

Hello, To feeling all alone

Hello, to all this the falling snow.

watching it fall as I let go

Hello to the freezing cold.

Hello to when I fall slow

Hello to my bleeding mind. It’s seems to be fading all the time. Can’t seem to get it out of my mind. Damn this month gets worser every time.

Hello to all my regrets,

remind me that all my feeling are dead.

Hello to the thunder inside side of my head.

Hello to the bottle sitting by my bed.

Hello all the things that I never should’ve been said

Hello to feeling so alone,

Hello to feeling so cold.

Hello, to waking up Alone

Hello, To feeling all alone

Hello, to all this the falling snow.