Permanently Exhausted Pigeon 🏳️‍🌈

32, proud bi British Fangirl, INFP. This blog is a mix of personal musings, TV obsessions, and mental breakdowns. My obsessions include Motherland: Fort Salem, Legend of the Seeker, Wynonna Earp, Firefly, Stargate SG1, Legends of Tomorrow, Harry Potter, and The Elder Scrolls. My ask is always open for help/advice/satisfying curiosity.

[studentlifeproblems]

[crea-miserymind]

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With the Cession Marshal on their heels, the unit splits up; Scylla and Nicte attempt to draw the Marshal away, while Tally, Abigail and Adil meet an old ally; President Wade's political stance puts her in danger.

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[backtoyourownworld]

So this is me 18 weeks on and still stuck in a secure psychiatric hospital. Now with a covid outbreak on the ward.

[backtoyourownworld]

So I’m back in a psychiatric hospital. Fuck.

[backtoyourownworld]

I just want to be left alone. These doctors won’t back off.

[izloveshorses]

me: :(

ABBA: chiquitita you and i cry, but the sun is still in the sky and shining above you! let me hear you sing once more, like you did before, sing a new song chiquitita <333

me: :) 

[backtoyourownworld]

So I’ve stopped seeing my therapist, who called my psychiatrist, who I think is now considering having me sectioned.

I will not go back into a psychiatric hospital.

[konoko]

everyday feels like it’s getting worse

i feel like i’m broken

i don’t feel my heart

i don’t want to be alive anymore

i don’t want to exist anymore

i feel like there’s no place for me

i really hope i die soon

[backtoyourownworld]

What a shit weekend. All I’ll say is that handcuffs fucking hurt, psychiatrists are clueless, and alcohol is still not my friend.

[jaubaius]

[mikkeneko]

i figured this was some sort of flex about the driver’s precision to not hit the cup, and it was that i guess? but also so much more

[recovering-alcoholic]

You’re not an addict because you’re a piece of shit. You’re a piece of shit because you’re an addict. You didn’t come out of the womb an evil person. You came out of the womb a beautiful baby who, unbeknownst to them, had a couple wires crossed, so when you tried alcohol for the first time it set something off in your brain that’s beyond your control. And it isn’t a question of willpower, or how strong you are. You’ve been fighting a losing game since the first time you got drunk.

Addiction is a disease. It’s a degenerative disease. It is incurable. It is deadly. And it’s no different than cancer. You got it. Why? Luck of the draw.

But the hardest part of having the disease of addiction, besides from having the disease, is that no one in the world sees it as a disease. They see you as selfish. They see you as weak. They see you as cruel. They see you as destructive. They think, “why should I give a fuck about her if she doesnt give a fuck about herself or anybody else. Why does this girl deserve my time, my patience, my sympathy.” Right? “If she wants to kill herself, let her.”

[megregorro]

satisfaction guaranteed

[valtsv]

don't lie you didn't "choose" to be bisexual i KNOW you watched pride and prejudice (2005) and had Thoughts about elizabeth and mr darcy

[valtsv]

the multiple people in the notes replying to this with "it was pirates of the caribbean, actually" has led me to revise my earlier statement. you just watched a movie with kiera knightley in it and wanted to both kiss her and be her. and honestly, same.

[konoko]

[fairycosmos]

in all seriousness it’s very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it’s irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience

[just-a-bird-in-a-sweater]

You're not overreacting. You're not stupid. Your feelings are valid.

Please know that it's okay to feel this way. It's okay to be stressed, hurt, sad, overwhelmed.

You're gonna be okay. Take deep breaths.

[naaivemelody]