* ROLLINS SPAWN !

OH    BABE    ,    YOU'VE    GOT    HEART.

[devourshopea]

📱from badbagelll !!

𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐣  :  i know this sounds stupid  ,  but do you ever feel like maybe we’re meant for more ?  like  …  i don’t know  ,  maybe each other ? 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐣  :  our moms actually think we love each other. that’s so weird  ,  right ? 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐣  :  i didn’t tell you why i was grounded because i didn’t want to disappoint you. not you. 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐣  :  question for you. you don’t really like that guy  …  do you ? 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐣  :  you know i’m always here for you  ,  right ?  you’re my little j. i’ve always got your back. and you’ve always got my heart. 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐣  :  𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞  ,  𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 ?  𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐥𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦. 𝐢'𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞. 

↳        @badbagelll​         :         𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐒 𝐌𝐘 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐃𝐈𝐃𝐍’𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒  , 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐃𝐈𝐃.

[badbagelll]

.・。.・゜✭     ━━    @o188 !

❝    dad!    ❞    feet drag across the floor  ,  before she throws her petite frame onto the couch next to him.  a few moments pass before she sits up and uses his shoulder as an arm rest.    ❝    all that’s left are peanut butter cookies  ,  and i’m not touching them with a ten foot pole.    ❞    jesse’s bottom lip juts out subtly  ,  but enough to make it obvious she was pulling her signature pout.    ❝    can we pleeeease make some cookies?    ❞

[badbagelll]

blazedroses‌    /    𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄  !

“    how much you wanna bet she’s gonna bail on family dinner    ——    again? you know how much work gets involved with special family time!    ”    (    @badbagelll    /    sis things!!    )

there’s a sharp inhale, the plates in her hands clattering as she slams them down rather harshly on the table.  teeth clench as she looks over at her younger sister, already ready to abandon the dinner altogether if she keeps up the behavior.    ❝    would you please just shut up?  you’re so freakin’ indignant all the time and it gets old really really fast.  i’m not in the mood for this, billie.  so do you want some of the dinner i made, or are you too stuffed by your bitterness?     ❞    

[alwaysfine]

CARISI FAMILY VERSE : MOODBOARD  ♡  feat. @o188  &  @badbagelll !

𝐟 𝐚 𝐦 𝐢 𝐥 𝐲  is   nature’s  𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝  𝙢𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙞𝙚𝙘𝙚.

[allthingschristmasandwinter]

[badbagelll]

(    o188‌    /    daddy.    )

a chuckle forms when jesse expands her arms for emphasis  ;  part of him likes to think she got that particular trait from him.  it’s too easy to love her.  to adore her.  it’s too easy to feel a sense of pride as he grows  —  more and more curious with each day.  sonny knew this day would come, eventually.  that she would wonder.  that she would ask.  she was too smart for her own good, sometimes, and part of that had to do with how he and amanda handled questions when they came.  there was always honesty, where it was needed.  she and her sister deserved to believe in things like magic and santa claus.  they deserved wonder in their lives.  given the nature of the job, both he and amanda had seen the outcome of when little girls were forced to grow up too fast.  they knew by looking when the magic was gone.  neither of them wanted that for their little girls and so they took care in explanations while leaving room for imagination to flourish and fill in some blanks.

an arm wraps around her to give a little hug as she curls into him and he’s suddenly reminded about how he always loses when it comes to letting the girls get away with certain things.  it was absolutely bedtime but now the two seemed to be hunkered in for a serious conversation about the origins of her and sister.  the chances of amanda coming home and finding them still talking away were getting better by the minute.    ❝    easy, easy.  one question at a time, here.    ❞     a hand pets through blonde locks as he laughs at her enthusiasm, and he wishes amanda were with him to see their daughter’s thought process through the whole thing.    ❝    babies grow in tummies, right? you know that much.  now i’m not a mommy, as you may have noticed, so i have no idea how the mommy knows when the wish comes true  —  but there are special doctors that have a special camera that let us see you and g when you were still growing.  ❞

❝    i don’t think my arms are big enough!    ❞    with arms outstretched  ,  a giant smile appears on the little girl’s baby pink lips while fingertips wiggle and her soft giggle fills the room.    the innocence sparkling in her eyes is all credit to her parents  ,  a quality that’s been preserved through the ways sonny and amanda chose to handle jesse’s many questions and concerns that she’s presented with them so far.    she’s lucky  ,  for both amanda and sonny showed her pure  ,  unconditional love from the second she was born.    jesse had never experienced what it was like not to have that                  to not have parents who loved each other and their children more than anything.    and because of that  ,  jesse knew that no matter what  ,  sonny and amanda would always be there to scare away the monsters under her bed and lift her up should she fall.    

as sonny settles in next to her  ,  jesse curls her body into him as small arms wrap around his arm  ,  hugging the limb close to her and resting her cheek against it.    ❝    okay  ,  okay  ...  one question at a time.    promise.    ❞    jesse takes a deep breath as she’d seen both her parents do a million times  ,  head nodding at his question a mere second before another giggle escapes.    ❝    i know!    you’re daddy!    ❞    jesse unwinds her arms from around his so tiny hands can easily take sonny’s into her own  ,  where she begins spinning his wedding ring in circles on around his ring finger.    ❝    so the mommy has to tell the daddy when the wish comes true?    ❞    another question  ,  dimpled hands pushing messy strands of golden hair out of her doe eyes.    as he continues  ,  the little blonde’s eyes fixate on him  ,  petite fingers still twisting his ring.    ❝    you could really see us when we were still inside mama’s tummy?    what did we look like?    ❞    curiosity spreads across doll like features as she pushes herself upright more so there was less of a chance she would get too tired and accidentally fall asleep.    her promise to slow down the rate of her questioning only moments ago has clearly been forgotten  ,  for the child spews out two more.    ❝    how long did you have to wait until you got to meet us outside of mama’s tummy?    ❞

[timelessgif-blog]

“All clear. No monsters. Safe to go to sleep, okay?”

[badbagelll]

@o188 !

[badbagelll]

&. painbled‌ / noah !

     HE DEFINITELY WASN’T EXPECTING SOMEONE TO BE SO NICE TO HIM. it’s actually the last thing on his mind given his appearance and overall the way he carried himself. it has him a little shocked with mouth hanging slightly open as he takes the seat beside her. “ i know who you are. ” clears his throat awkwardly, hand shaking hers. “ didn’t we go to school together for a while or something? ” bites down on his lip, holding on to her hand for a little longer than intended. “ i’m noah. ”

𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙙𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣  ,  head cocks to the side  ,  the tips of her blonde curls nearly resting atop her thigh.    ❝    you do?    i hope it’s only good things.    ❞    she laughs softly  ,  trying to hide the immediate draw she feels towards him.    it takes her a moment  ,  but as she shakes his hand  ,  she remembers.    oh  ,  she remembers him.    ❝    wait    ....    i remember you too.  you played soccer.    ❞     she looks down as she moves to tuck a strand of blonde hair behind her ear  ,  before looking back to him.    ❝    nice to officially meet you  ,  noah.     ❞    eyebrows furrow immediately though  ,  for she knew he hadn’t graduated yet  ,  but she also can’t remember the last time she saw him at school.    ❝    i never see you around anymore  ....    ❞

[charlesleclerrc]

Look, could we do this later? I need to be alone right now.

[badbagelll]

&. painbled‌ / noah !

     HE STEPS ONTO THE TRAIN, looking around for a seat anywhere. clears his throat as he spots one, slowly stepping in the girl’s direction. “ mind if ━━ mind if i sit there? “ 

@badbagelll.

𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚’𝙨 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙞𝙣 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙨  ,  her long blonde curls brushed out of her face as the brown eyes given to her by her father scan over the inked words on the page.    the sound of a voice catches her attention  ,  and she looks up  ,  a genuine smile instantly finding its way to her face.    ❝    of course i don’t mind.    ❞    jesse folds the corner of her page down  ,  hand snapping the book closed before offering him her hand.    ❝    i’m jesse.    ❞

[mamadols]

favorite fictional female - in no particular order

“Well you didn’t get me anything and I have feelings too”

- Daphne Conrad (1/3)

[badbagelll]

&. o188 / daddy !

oh.  oh boy.  this is one of those questions, the ones where amanda feels absolutely necessary  —  but she’s working a long shift at the precinct and that leaves him to fend for himself as his daughter asks one of the most important questions of her life.  jesse was always curious about things … how they worked and why.  it was only a matter of time before this question, in particular, came up.  panic only lasts for a moment before he’s smiling and taking a seat on her bed  —  having been in the process of tucking her in when she asked what felt like such a big question.  a ploy, maybe, to stay up a bit longer but sonny doesn’t mind.  he never does.  instead, he folds his hands together and tips his head a little as he tries to find the right words, given her age.

❝    well. you know how mommy and daddy  —  we love each other a lot, right?  sometimes when two people love each other so much, they concentrate really hard and they make a wish.  and then  …  all that love comes together and the mommy helps it grow into a baby.  that’s why you and g are so special, jesse.  you’re both made of more love than you can imagine.  ❞

𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚢 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚜 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚍𝚜 as petite frame sits straight up as though she wasn’t being tucked in to go to sleep only a moment ago.  she’s bright eyed and awake, eager for the answer to her question  :  where do babies come from? it was a question that had drifted through her mind before, but she'd never been curious enough to ask until now.  she’s sitting criss cross applesauce now, and the amount of space she takes up on the bed is so little that she doesn’t need move an inch when sonny sits down next to her.

𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚍𝚜 𝚟𝚒𝚐𝚘𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚜 𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚢 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚔𝚜, long blonde hair bouncing with each nod.  ❝    mhm, that’s why you’re married.  cause you love each other even more than this!    ❞  the seven year old opens up her arms as wide as possible, a toothy grin on her lips before she lets her arms fall to her sides and hands fold under her chin as she intently listens to sonny’s further explanation. ❝    but daddy, how did you know the wish really worked? how did you and mama know she had to help grow g? and me? and... and ... where did we grow?    ❞  the questions spew out all while she moves to snuggle into his side  ------  a true love bug. 

[exhale-stardust-deactivated2020]

I wish I didn’t care as much as I did. I have a big heart yet I hardly know how to take care of all of the emotions that comes with it.“

Me (via exhale-stardust)

[badbagelll]

jesse: daddy where do babies come from

sonny: wherE'S YOUR MOM

[badbagelll]

⊰ ♡ ⊱ &.  881o / uncle di !

he’s determined to change her mood and it seems to be working; he can see the internal struggle to stay sour.  to keep up her cranky front.  it reminds him so much of himself.  his brother has already made such a comment about her before  —  has already playfully jabbed at him about their own childhood.  sonny often came to the rescue when diangelo was in one of his moods  (  something he still did, to this day  )  but those little tricks didn’t seem to work on his daughter.  jesse was a tough one; she was stubborn, like her mother.  sonny couldn’t win in a fight against any of them and he knows it, sets his pride aside for the sake of finding the peace again.  apparently, jesse had spent the day kicking up quite a fuss and refused to even speak to her parents  —  meaning what little he’s gotten is already progress.    ❝    jesse.    ❞   the voice is one he used to use when playing with a stuffed frog with her.  sir hoppington.  it was stuffy and it was english  —  a strange contrast to the thick staten island he and his brother usually radiated.  ❝    i do believe you’re being diffcult.    ❞

she can tell he wants a smile, and despite wanting so desperately to keep up the act, she knows she isn’t going to be able to much longer the second she hears him switching into the voice of her favorite stuffed animal since she was two, a frog  ------  sir hoppington.  she shifts in an attempt to show irritation, eyebrow raising.  ❝    sir hoppington, really?  that’s the best you’ve got?    ❞  but then he speaks again, and the tug on her lips is getting stronger.  oh, here it comes.  

the second she looks up at him, she cracks.  lips pull upwards and jesse can’t help as she breaks into a smile, pearly whites being seen for the first time since she’d gotten home that day.  there’s even a soft giggle as the memories of diangelo sitting with her, stuffed green frog with a top hat in hand and making her giggle non stop flood her mind.  not only the memory of laughter, but the feeling of love.  ❝    that wasn’t even fair! you know i’m always gonna laugh at that.    ❞  there’s still a smile on her lips as she moves closer to him, arms wrapping around one of his as she rests her head against his shoulder in a sudden display of affection.  ❝    thanks for making me smile uncle di.    ❞

[whentherightonecomesalong]

Daphne Conrad in every episode 3x20 “Time Changes Things”

[badbagelll]

⊰ ♡ ⊱ &. 63l3‌ › @battleincarnate​ / pawpaw !

        ❝    don’t worry ,   honey ,  i’ll get ‘em all    ❞    elliot replied with amusement as he brushed her hair out before starting on her pigtails.   it’d been a few years but he’d done enough braids over the years to be able to do them almost perfectly.   looking up at him with those big innocent eyes she reminded of him when lizzie was this small sitting between his legs to get her hair done    —   though his nostalgia quickly switched to a young maureen as she spotted his tattoo.

           he’d taken off  his watch because he’d remembered the few times his daughters hair had ended up caught in it and decided not to risk it but now he wished he had,  knowing she was too much like her mother to let it drop.  thankful at least that liv’s current rank was no longer the number inked on his wrist and there was no way the girl would make the connection.  he hoped she wouldn’t connect it to a badge number at all but she was a smart kid and she knew her mothers off by heart the same as eli knew his.     ❝    it’s uh…  it’s my favourite number.     ❞     he answered lamely,  hoping she’d accept that and move on.

❝    okay! i believe in you!    ❞  jesse giggles, her bell like laugh echoing in the small living room in the rollins girls’ apartment as elliot’s fingers thread her hair together expertly.  she’s silent, but only because she’s still thinking about the numbers she’d seen in some kind of black ink on the inside of elliot’s wrist    ------    4015.  she just assumes it’s a badge number, for it consists of four numbers just like her mama’s does. eyebrows crinkle as she contemplates, trying to remember if she’s seen the number anywhere.  so far nothing comes to mind, but that doesn’t mean she won’t ask.

once she’s free, only a moment passes before she takes hold of his arm and pulls it closer to her angelic face, nose scrunching as she inspects it.  tiny pointer finger runs over the inked digits to see if they would come off, satisfied that they weren’t going anywhere after several attempts.  at his explanation, jesse’s eyes immediately narrow, the eight-year-old completely unconvinced.  ❝    your favorite number?    ❞  with a grasp on his hand still, jesse plops herself on the couch next to him, settling herself in to conduct a full series of questions.  ❝    why is a badge number your favorite number?  four-oh-one-five .... so whose badge number is it pawpaw?    ❞