i am just here to say that i hope u are doing well! i found ur works a couple months ago and revisit often, u are so talented and i hope to see u posting again soon <33
sooooooooo, hey.
sorry i'm using this super duper sweet message as a means of explaining my absence. i love u anon, thank you for your kind words<33
in short; i haven't left the 5sos fandom but at this time, i no longer write for it. these days i've been testing the waters in another fandom and i've grown really fond of the community there.
i'm sorry to disappoint everyone. i had written for 5sos (across multiple platforms and multiple pairings) for ten years and i think, personally, i'm at a time in my life where i'm just ready for something new. no slight to the fandom, to 5sos (i still love their music and them, in fact i even got tickets for next year) or anyone else, but i just don't have it in me to write for them anymore.
i'll leave everything as is (aside from wattpad, that's a different story) so anyone can feel free to read what i've written for as long as they'd like.
i love everyone who's followed me, interacted with my posts, suggested ideas for fics, and every like, comment, reblog, just everything. i'm so, so thankful.
hi hello I love your works sm <3 and I've been thinking ab hooking up w luke behind people's backs (bonus points for one of the guys being your brother) and just like. yeah ykwim. been ovulating like crazy recently and luke been at the forefront like crazy š¤Ŗ
this is in progress btw!!!! just so you know :3
i wrote a whole thing, hated it, and now i'm working on an alt version that's way better!! hopefully i can finish it by the end of the week
summary: your roommate is full of surprises, it seems.
warnings: 18+ only. minors DNI. hints of dub con, veuryism, teasing, submissive!luke, dominant!femreader, sub/dom undertones, praising, light degradation/teasing, oral sex (male & female receiving), safe sane and consensual, explicit sexual content.
words: 3,783
a/n: lou planted this little seed in my head and i didn't expect a whole thing out of it, esp given my difficulty writing but.. lord, am i a whore for submissive luke. i kept this fairly mild but, alas, enjoy. x <3 (or don't, up to you.)
feedback and constructive criticism welcome. requests are open!
Picking up shifts at the diner, unfortunately, were unpredictable at times. The restaurant was either over-staffed or under, with no inbetween. So when your phone rang during the twenty minute drive to town, there was a fifty percent chance youād get the donāt bother, itās slow spiel from the manager.
After confirming twice ā just to be sure, of course ā that your presence wasnāt required tonight, you decide to swing by and grab a bite to eat before returning to the apartment. You fire off a quick text to your roommate, Luke, asking if heād like anything. Heās a terrible, terrible cook. Canāt use an oven to save his life, poor thing. The two of you mainly survive off of your passable skills of recreating TikTok recipes Luke wants to try and Lukeās obsession with takeout.
When you donāt receive a response before placing the order, you decide to choose something for him anyway. The only thing Lukeās worse at than cooking is answering his phone. Half the time heās left it somewhere with no knowledge of its whereabouts, and any other time heās got Do Not Disturb on, so thereās really no point in contacting him at all. Thatās a problem for his future girlfriend slash eventually wife, not you, his long-time friend and reluctantly, current roommate.
Living with Luke isnāt all bad. Heās got a beautiful voice. When he sings in the shower itās like a personal concert, and although he leaves wet towels on the floor and finishes off the shampoo without telling you, heās respectful. He doesnāt bring any girls home, so thereās no explicit noises wafting through the thin wall separating your bedrooms. And in return you do the same, keeping any activities strictly elsewhere.
Itās not like youāre having much luck in that department anyway.
Guys these days, at least the ones youāve been meeting, donāt take too kindly to your best friend. The number of times youāve heard oh, thatās him? youāre sure youāre just friends? is honestly ridiculous. God forbid youāre close with someone platonically these days.
And like, okay, yeah, you know Lukeās an attractive guy. With his stupid blonde hair he never styles but always falls perfectly, and his pretty, sparkly blue eyes, heās honestly a main love interest in a romance novel for sure. But youāve been there for Lukeās horrible acne and shuffle-dancing obsession, for his drunken karaoke nights that consist solely of the HSM3 soundtrack, youāve seen him at his worst.Ā
But thatās the whole thing. Heās.. Heās like, the cutest guy on campus. The one who dates the cheerleaders or volleyball players or something equally cliche. He tells you about his failed sexcapades and shitty dates over popcorn and dollar store candy. Youāre best friends, nothing more, nothing less.
Even if sometimes you wish that wasnāt the case.
Yeah, a girl with a fleeting crush on her guy best friend. A terrible cliche, really. But you know it wonāt go anywhere, especially considering the fact that youāre one hundred percent not Lukeās type at all. If his hookup stories are anything to go by, youāre the moon and heās out there looking for the sun. He likes submissive women. Lukeās not bossy but he wears the pants in the bedroom, as he says, and thatās so incredibly far from what youāre into itās funny.
Stupid crush aside, you head back to the apartment, shaking the thoughts of Luke around in your head like a loose screw in a drawer. Youāll only be living with him for six more months, and when the lease expires on your apartment the two of you will go your separate ways. Heāll probably move in with Calum and Michael and youāll figure something out. You canāt be stuck with him forever.
With your head full of fuzzy, Luke-centric thoughts and armed with a bag of delicious takeout from your favorite spot, the trek up to your second floor apartment seems to pass by in a blur. The fluorescent lights buzz and hum and flicker above you and eventually, within what seems like seconds, youāre fishing the apartment keys from your pocket to unlock the door.
Except nothing could have ever prepared you for what welcomes you on the other side.
The apartment is dark, save for the television illuminating the open living room in a soft glow. Your heart leaps into your throat after the door clicks shut, shoes squealing on the cheap flooring as you freeze in place, and somehow you manage not to drop your dinner.Ā
You canāt make out whatās unfolding on the television but you hear it, the noises and sounds of skin and pleasure, yet what catches your attention solely is your roommate. Bare skin flushed, lounging on the couch with his thighs splayed open, head tilted back with his plush, pink lips and the whiniest sounds spilling out of them. Hands roaming in places youāve only imagined youād ever see.
āIāā Your tongue feels heavy in your mouth. Like lead, preventing you from making your presence truly known. It feels all types of wrong, witnessing Luke like this, while heās clearly in the middle of something and hadnāt expected you to be home.
Youāre torn. Should you chalk this up to an awkward moment? One you can laugh about later on, and never truly acknowledge the swarm of lustful butterflies stirring inside you? Or, do you just rip the moment apart and start packing your things?
Despite the low light and gentle sounds from the video Luke had put on the t.v., you can clearly hear the sharp, low breath he sucks in when his eyes flutter open. Glimmery, sapphire blue youād liken to the ocean, now a dark navy that makes your skin prick with goosebumps. It was a look youād only read about in stupid books, so desperate and hopeful and sinful all at once.
āYouāreā youāre home,ā He sounds hoarse, as if every moan heād retched around the apartment reduced his voice to a mere rasp. Lukeās hands donāt halt their exploration, one wrapped loosely around himself while the other traces the inside of his left thigh delicately. āGot a little ahead of myself. Māsorry.ā
What the fuck?
Youāre incapable of speaking, mouth fallen open like a fish out of water because what?
āLuke, I..ā Your words almost sound slurred, blending into the soft sounds in the apartment. You slowly set the takeout bag on the floor, feeling so dirty with the way your eyes refuse to leave Luke. He looks almost ethereal in the television light, like something out of a magazine. āWhat..ā
āI was hopingā hnnnfā hoping youād wanna watch,ā The way Lukeās looking at you feels wrong. Wrong, because thatās how Luke looks when heās on the prowl, when his sights are set on some girl at the bar. Never you, though, because youāre not his type. Nothing makes sense. āFrom what youāve told me ā shit ā you like watching. Like being in control,ā
Lukeās breaths stutter as his chest begins to rise and fall a bit quicker. āAndā fuck, Y/N, you have no idea how long Iāveā been thinking about it. Fantasizing. Wishing youād come home and find me like this. Telling me where to touch, when toā Iā oh fuck.ā
Lukeās clearly on the edge already, desperately clinging to anything to keep himself from going over the cliff. He squeezes the base of his cock with a low hiss. āPlease,ā He says. Almost a plea, with how whiny it is. āPlease.ā He repeats.
Something inside of you snaps, then, like a rubber band pulled and pulled and pulled so tightly, a flush taking over your cheeks and body, ears hot. Your feet move of their own accord, brain a frenzy of the most ridiculous thoughts, as you slowly step closer to the couch.
Despite stretching across the entire sofa, even with his legs bent and thighs open the way they are, Luke looks so small. The way his dark lashes flutter, his hair messily strewn across his forehead, lightly dampened with sweat. He looks beautiful.Ā
You want to ruin him.
āYouāre so desperate for it,ā You say, arms crossing over your chest, nerves fluttering and buzzing every bone in your body. Words come easy, ironically now, like theyāre not coming from you at all. āYou did all this,ā You gesture to him with your chin, eyes narrowed. āHoping Iād be into it?ā
Lukeās cock kicks in his hand. āYeah,ā He says breathily, plush lower lip tucked between his teeth. āEven if you werenāt, Iād probably get off to you yelling at me for it.ā
Good Lord, is Luke Hemmings even real?
āSlow down,ā You scold softly. āYouāre working yourself up too much. It wonāt be worth it,ā He sucks in a tiny whine, you watch as his throat bobs with the noise catching there. Lukeās hips shift, as if it pains him to slow but he complies. āWhat else have you fantasized about?ā
Luke looks bashful, then, and tears his eyes away from yours. āNo, look at me.ā You tell him.
He listens so well. You consider complimenting him, telling him just that, but perhaps youāll save that for later. After this, whatever the hell it is, is over.
āJustā um,ā He shudders, working himself slowly, thumb running over the tip of his cock. āFuck, likeā thought about you riding me ā my face, actually. God, I love your thighs.ā
āYou want me to ride your face?ā You ask.Ā
āYes.ā He whines softly, hips jerking.
āDo you think you deserve that?āĀ
āNo.ā
āAt least youāre self aware,ā You snort, stomach twisting as color floods Lukeās face. So bashful and embarrassed, though he doesnāt stop touching for a second. Slow and tortuous. āWhat do you think you deserve?ā
Luke squeaks out a rasped, āNothing.ā
You watch in awe as pre-cum pools at his tip, swiped away by his thumb, beautifully slick along the length of his cock. You canāt help but let your mind run wild with the worst scenarios imaginable. The positions youād put him in ā the noises you could draw from him. Heās simply putty in your hands and you havenāt even touched him.Ā
āI wouldnāt say nothing,ā You hum, arms uncrossing. āYou at least deserve to cum.ā
Luke hisses thankfully at that.
āBut Iām trying to figure out how.ā You say.Ā
Luke tosses his head back with a low, strangled groan.
āOh, I know. You poor thing,ā You tilt your head, tone mocking, as if talking to a puppy. āThink you can be a good boy and make some room for me? Just sit up a bit.ā
āFuck. Yeah, ākay.ā Luke nods quickly, so eager to please, letting go of his dick in favor of shuffling up, sitting halfway against the arm of the couch.Ā
With the length of his legs there isnāt much room but itās enough.Ā
Youāre slammed with a thought so sudden it makes your head throb. Holy shit, this is happening. The nerves have been dormant, though youāve been well aware of them, resting below the surface of desire that swims in your veins. The one thing you deemed unattainable, dangling like a treat in front of you.
Willing and oh so pliant.Ā
āDonāt touch,ā You tell him, his hand quivering on his abdomen. Fingers itching to get ahold of himself again, cock kicking against his stomach. You donāt bother kicking off your shoes or discarding any clothes ā thatās all part of the scene, the power imbalance between yourself and Luke. With him exposed like this, with you covered up. It sends warmth pooling between your thighs.Ā
Your knees sink into the couch between his splayed thighs, guiding one down so that his foot rests flat on the floor, giving you more room. Lukeās hips shift at your simple touch, so featherlight, cool fingers on hot, flushed skin. āYouāre not the only one whoās been fantasizing.āĀ
āY/N,ā He moans softly. God, it sounds so heavenly.
āItās funny,ā You continue, letting your eyes wander, but not touching. Keeping your hands from feeling him in every way youāve been thinking about for so long. āYou talk this big game, that you call the shots. With those big shoulders and big hands, oh Iām sure you could hold me down and do whatever youād like. And yet, youāre desperate for me to tell you what to do. How funny is that?ā
With every demeaning little quip from you, Lukeās cock kicks out another spurt of pre-cum. It dribbles onto his stomach, sticky and slick. And despite your desire to watch him squirm and beg and not give in, you find yourself wondering how he tastes.Ā
āY/N,ā He says again, a frenzied tilt to his gravelly voice. āPlease, Iām begging. Anything, do anything.ā
āYou sound so pretty when you beg,ā You hum. āI wonāt make you do it, though. Not yet, anyway. Iām dying to get your cock in my mouth.ā
Lukeās face screws up, as if heās fighting the urge to cum right there. Stomach tensed, cock flushed red and oh so hard against his stomach. Heās so beautiful.Ā
Carefully, you take him into your hand. Heās velvety smooth and warm, veins tensing beneath your hold. Slick at the tip, so inviting. Something akin to a squeaky, broken moan escapes him. āYeah? Youād like that?ā
āPlease,ā He almost slurs. āPlease, Y/N. Please.ā
āSo polite,ā You shuffle closer, warm breath fanning over the tip. You lick tentatively, keeping your eyes on him to see how he reacts. He preens instantly, a muttered yes slipping from his open mouth. āBe a good boy for me. Donāt touch.ā
It feels hot in the apartment, video playing on the television drowned out by Lukeās heavy breaths and the blood pounding in your ears. The moment his tip slips past your pretty, slick lips, Lukeās absolutely gone. Heās heavy and desperate on your tongue, pulsing from the sudden heat of it, only fueling you further. Slow movements, not to overwork yourself.
Your hand rests on the base of his cock, while the other plants firmly on his hip to keep him steady. He could overpower you at any point, no doubt, but you believe firmly that he wonāt. He likes this too much. Your point is proven when you witness his face crumble, tongue hanging out of his mouth like a fucking dog, desperate.Ā
You hum around him, letting your throat relax, keeping a consistent pace. Letting him writhe, just barely, below you.
āY/N,ā He pleads brokenly. āIā Iāmā Iām not gonnaāā
You withdraw from his cock with an obscene, slick pop. āHm? Whatās that?ā
āIām not gonna last long,ā He says between breaths. āI swear, Iām not usually like this, Iāā
āBut youāre so worked up, baby,ā You tilt your head, pouting your lips. āItās alright if youāre a little quick on the trigger tonight. Weāll work on that.ā
Instead of working him with your mouth, you gather a decent amount of spit and let it dribble down the length of his cock. Your hand moves slowly, so torturous, feeling every inch of him. āYou know what? Iām feeling generous. If you beg me enough, Iāll let you taste me. How about that? You think you can do that?ā
āChrist,ā Luke mutters, his voice rising in pitch. āFuck, Y/N. God,ā His eyelashes flutter as you work him leisurely. āPlease. Fuck, wanna taste you so bad. Iāll be so good, I fuckinā I swear. Wonātā wonāt touch. Please, Iādā Iād be so good. So good. Please.ā
Heās so debauched. Destroyed, sweat-slicked and persistent.Ā
āHm, I donāt know if you want it enough.ā You hum.
āI do, I swear,ā Luke sounds so broken, like heās seconds away from cracking entirely. Unable to catch his breath properly, wetness pooling at the corners of his eyes. Exactly what youāre looking for. āY/N,ā Your name sounds like a prayer falling from his mouth. āPlease. Let me taste you.ā
āThatās better.ā
You withdraw from him entirely, and Luke canāt seem to decide if heās upset about the lack of contact with his dick or excited about the idea of whatās to come. Regardless, you make a slow show of it, unbuttoning your pants and dragging them slowly down your legs. A lustful, yearning shade of navy blue swims in his eyes, as they zero in, hazily, on your thighs.
Your underwear join your pants soon after. āAlright baby, go ahead and lay down for me.ā
Resisting the urge to coo in praise when he does exactly as you say, you drink him in one more time before doing as promised. Luke looks thoroughly wrecked, put through the wringer and he hasnāt been given the chance to cum yet. You wonder if heāll get off to tasting you, but that thought doesnāt last long because you know he will.Ā
Heās flushed in shades of red, patterned across his pale skin, not easily seen from far away. The blooms look like flowers of all shapes and sizes, and your fingertips graze over his chest and neck. Luke tilts his head up to give access, silent permission, before letting his eyes fall shut when your hand tangles in his sweat-slicked hair. āYou want me?ā You ask.
āYes,ā Poor boy sounds so used, pent up and ready to burst at any second. Like a gust of wind could float through the apartment and heād spill all over himself. āGod, yes.ā
The couch isnāt the biggest but youāre able to get comfortable, settling your thighs on either side of Lukeās head. The heat radiating from his body is delicious, warming you thoroughly. You tug carefully on his hair to draw his eyes open. They flicker to your heat first, then meet yours.
āDonāt touch,ā You remind him again, but gentler this time. You can tell his mind is hazy, thoughts likely jumbled and not making a lick of sense. He nods, blinking slowly, tempted to find your heat again. āYouāll get the okay when Iām done, alright?ā
Luke nods again. You swear thereās a small dribble of drool in the corner of his mouth.
āGo ahead, sweetheart.ā You adjust yourself accordingly and Luke doesnāt waste a fraction of a second before his tongue swipes across your cunt, warm and wet, humming in satisfaction at the taste that greets him. You can hear him shuffling beneath you, restraining himself from touching his neglected cock, wishing to clamp his hands around your thighs.
He mouths at you like a man starved, lacking finesse but showing off his greediness, his willingness to please. You canāt judge him too harshly, for youāve scrambled his brain a good bit. You have time to teach him properly. If heās interested, that is.
A moan claws its way up your throat with every flick of his tongue, nips of his teeth, his desire to prove heās worthy enough to have his head between your thighs right now. Itās adorable, you think.Ā
Your fingers tighten in his hair, slowing his frantic movements to guide him, allowing your hips to rock ever so slightly, the friction delicious and eliciting moan after moan from your chest. Perhaps youāre in the same boat as Luke, so pent up so quickly, for your stomach begins to coil with a sharp, electric heat and you know it wonāt be long now.
Your toes curl, hips finding their own way, chasing every movement of Lukeās tongue and teeth and lips and everything theyāre after. His eyes are wet, mouth hot, and the rubber band finally snaps.
It isnāt intentional but your grip on Lukeās hair is almost lethal, hips forcing downward, the friction of his nose nudging your clit the final nail in the coffin. You let go, allowing your moans and whines and shuddering sighs to fill the apartment alongside the slick sound of Lukeās overeager mouth, receiving your release with pleasure-ridden hums.
āYou can touch,ā Your brain feels like static, warped and numb. But thereās no movement beneath you, no yearning to get himself off. Instead, Lukeās arms clasp around your thighs and draw you impossibly closer like a madman.
Then, a broken, muffled moan against your heat, vibrating and thrumming beneath your skin. Fingers sinking into your thighs, locking you in place. The overstimulation of Lukeās tongue against you is overwhelming, but you donāt mind it. Not for the sake of what youāre considering the best night of your life.
You lift your hips, pulling at Lukeās hair to detach his greedy mouth, his lips slick with your release, eyes distant and watery and a softer blue.
A glance behind you proves he had gotten off to tasting you. Pearly white ropes decorate his heaving chest and stomach.Ā
You return your gaze back to him. His eyes have fluttered shut. āYou did so good,ā You tell him, words almost blurring together from the post-orgasm haze. Your knees cry in agony from the awkward position on the couch, and you relent, climbing off of him and collapsing into a heap of sweaty limbs on the floor. āSo good, Luke.ā
It feels like an eternity passes, your hearing slowly recuperating and fixating on the video still playing on the television at a low volume. You find the remote and switch it off.
The apartment is blanketed in darkness, then, aside from the small stream of moonlight poking through the curtain behind the couch. Enough to make out Luke, still breathing heavily, laying flat.Ā
āYou okay?ā You ask quietly.
āI think Iām in love with you.ā Luke says into the shadows.
āLukeāā He isnāt thinking clearly. Heās riding the aftershocks of his orgasm, is all.Ā
āDonāt worry about it now, Y/N,ā He says. āWe have so much shit to talk about but Iād rather do it tomorrow.ā
Your anxiety rears its ugly head. āI guess Iāll see you in the morning, then?ā You donāt get the chance to even attempt to stand before Lukeās hand clasps around your wrist.
āWhere the fuck do you think youāre going?ā He asks, no heat behind his words.Ā
āTo my room, to sleep?ā
āHell no,ā Luke scoffs, a light laugh following. āYouāre staying in my room tonight, Y/N. And after we talk, Iām getting my mouth on you again.ā
You donāt have the energy to quip back at him, to make a joke. Instead, you nod, leaving your abandoned clothes in favor of following Luke to his room. The thought of your dinner still wrapped up on the floor doesn't even cross your mind.
You werenāt supposed to be home tonight but fuck, if getting cut from work leads to nights like this, you may just have to quit your job.
i know it's starting to get repetative -- me coming online just to say life's hectic and i can't write for shit, yadda yadda yadda you know how it goes
i've actually been making some progress on my ao3 works (i think i got two up in like, a month? wow, look at me) and quiet progress on my wattpad stuff but it's still a lot, yanno?
and i came back on here this morning for shits and gigs to see what's been going on (because tumblr is still as confusing to me now than it was years ago) to find out someone had stolen one of my one-shots and literally changed the names. like, not inspired, not kinda similar -- the whole kit and kaboodle
which, hey, at the end of the day i'm posting on a public platform with no real intent to like, sell my work or whatever but it's mine and that sucked.
it won't stop me from sharing my silly little stories or anything but if my progress is slow, it definitely contributes to the why
anyway, i hope yous are all doing well
i may not post frequently but i will be actively lurking :3
are you ever going to write that ghostface luke blurb šš
omg, so this came in right after i answered someone else's question but YES! i've drummed up a cute ghostface!luke christmas thing and i should have it up by friday :') (yes, ghostfaceluke christmas is now a thing, you'll see)
howās the ghostface!luke fic going? iām so excited youāre the best smut writer ever and itās so dry out here šš
i kind of went ghost mode (no pun intended), work was hectic and life yanno.. but i swear i will get a ghostface!luke out and i've decided it'll be a cute little christmas thing. so. do with that what you will.
i wouldn't say no because my brain is an endless pit of 'what can i drum up next?' but i will say i wasn't planning to.. although.. in light of recent blonde durk and stoner hemmings tiktoks i might rethink that idea...
soooo excited for ghostface!luke itās not even funnnyyyyyy
i sat down and wrote like, i dunno. 1k words or something.
it felt weird, i sent it to a friend and decided i didn't like it. i feel like i'm not great at the whole "hey he's hot" to "hey let's fuck" pipeline so i'm trying to work on that!
i just wanted to make a little post thing here and say a few things if y'all don't mind
i'm still figuring out this whole tumblr thing (in terms of actually getting interaction lol) and with my (very unmedicated) ADD i often do things vastly out of order. so if i haven't written your request, please don't think i forgot about you! i keep them in my asks and kind of pick at random depending on what i'm inspired by.
i really, really wish i had more time to write than i actually do and i really appreciate everyone's kindness and suggestions <3