HALP - Helping Adolescents Living With Pain

spoonie gang 🤩

[baileyhalp]

[frithyeerfarm]

the introduction

you know that post on tumblr that goes something like ‘me, disabled, mentally ill: i bet i could start a farm’?

the notes are chock full of people who long for open skies and rolling hills but feel trapped by the hand that nature dealt them.  people afraid of the overwhelming amount of time, effort, and money that goes into homesteading because their body or their brain won’t give them a break.  people who look longingly at homesteading youtube and think “man, that sounds awesome, but there’s no way i could handle all that on my bad days.”

yeah, me too.

my credentials?  agoraphobia, generalized anxiety, depressive episodes, and a laundry list of skeletal/muscular issues that force me to get creative when it comes to getting things done on the bad days.  i’ve got a partner that is invaluable but he works long hours and waiting for him to come home isn’t gonna get the rabbits fed.

but i decided to try this whole farm thing anyway, because i looked at the state of the commercial ag industry in this country and didn’t like what i saw.  so i thought, even if it sucks, even if i have to beat myself to get it done, i’m gonna do it.  but i’m gonna do it my way, not the way everyone says i should do it.

so i did, armed with naught but a fierce love for animals, dogged determination, and a high-speed internet connection.

and it works.  well, it works well enough.

people kept telling me i needed to talk about how i make it work up here, when waking up functional is a gamble i can’t always win.  so here i am, i guess. to show that even if your dishes are dirty, the laundry is weeks overdue, and the only thing you managed to do today was go outside and make sure your animals had food and water, that you can still grow your own food and make it work.  you just gotta figure out what works for you.

i don’t know how useful anything i say will be, but if it helps even one person realize their dreams that’s enough for me.

my name’s shazza, i’m having a bad day, and i’m doing my best.

[concept-mixtape]

concept playlists <3

you’re slow dancing at the end of the world in a field of wildflowers waiting for the darkness to consume you & you’re choking on violet smoke but the world is so beautiful

it’s judgement day & you’ve been sentenced to an eternity in the sixth circle of hell, your new home is a flaming crypt & satans eyes look like black holes but you want to crawl inside them

you wake up wrapped in gossamer & abandoned in a sun drenched clearing & your head is throbbing but your body is singing

buzzed & melancholic driving home from a party with your best friend and shouting lyrics out the window into the cool air & the empty streets while the streetlights twinkle like faux stars

road-tripping through the summer with your best friend to find yourselves with the help of cherry cola & 70s music & the wide open road but falling in love instead

it’s 5:39 am on a friday & you were woken by the patter of rain at your window, soft grey light filters through your curtain & your chest is bursting with melancholy

summer is stretching out forever in this foreign town & you’re bored out of your mind but that girl is staring & something stirs in your chest & you can feel your freckled cheeks blush

you blink & suddenly you’re groggy & confused in a place you don’t recognise & you swear you saw something move out the corner of your eye & you only just noticed the unearthly screams coming from behind the fireplace

your lover left for good & now you cry yourself to sleep on your rooftop watching the sun set in black and white with the taste of cigarettes and cheap wine in your mouth

you’re dancing manically at midnight with monsters in a graveyard & you’re not exactly sure how you got there but you’re not mad about it

xtra: gen z indie kid / amortentia

[coffehousecreations]

Some aesthetic playlists for writing

For when you’re in an 80s teen montage

For when you’re in a jazz coffee shop in NYC

For when you’re on a quest to find the fae queen

For when you’re in a teen road-trip scene

For when you’re chilling on a spaceship hopping from planet to planet

For when you’re running along the roofs of renaissance Italy

For when you’re a farmhand taking his lunch break in the meadow 

For when you’re a high end classy ass art thief

For when you’re kicking butt with the beauty and sass of a k-pop star

For when you’re attending a coronation ball for the crown prince 

For when you’re going on an adventure

For when you and your best friends are trying to figure out life together

let me know if you want me to add more!!!

[imsorrysweety-deactivated202403]

[ayladlyla]

[cupidclaws]

Love yourself

[russiansandgod]

[allforbts]

© Lilac_wht | Do not edit.

[bellaxiao]

[falconpunchyourmom]

Parallel Earth.

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

AMAZING

[thaebae]

I LOVE

[lostgirll666]

🥀.

[lostgirll666]

🥀.

[isloveevenrealanymore]

I’m so tired..

[baileyhalp]

i wonder if i’ll ever be able to run far enough

[baileyhalp]

i want to escape

but i can never go

[det3rra]

heres some concept playlists even tho nobody asked

a subway car at 4am with 2 people on it or a cafe and you meet the eyes of someone staring at you and you both just blush a lil or like laughing with a group of people you know you don’t belong with or holding ur head in ur hands on ur front porch

going monster hunting with two of your best friends bc an old woman told u that theres a werewolf at the end of the railroad track. youre armed with only a baseball bat, two broken flashlights and half a pack of gummy worms

for going out onto a balcony in the middle of summer and not feeling the heat and for running away; a disenfranchised youth vibe

sitting outside with your best friends one hot summer night. you breathe in the humid air and the hot wind blows through your hair. no one says anything. no one has to.

[taste-in-music]

Bad Bitch Playlist Masterlist

So yeah here’s another masterlist. Enjoy!

Empowerment: Songs with a feminist twist for the badass (woman) in all of us.

young, wild, and sexy:  Pop songs with a cheeky twist from artists like Carly Rae Jepsen, Hayley Kiyoko, and Ariana Grande.

DUE TO PERSONAL REASONS, I’VE DECIDED TO STAN MYSELF: My favorite self confidence and self love anthems. Includes tracks from Lizzo, Kesha, and MARINA. 

Rock Isn’t Dead, & It’s Future Is Female: Rock songs from badass female artists and female-fronted rock banks. 

Sass: Pop songs with an “IDGAF” edge to them. Features artists like Dua Lipa, Zara Larsson, and Hailee Steinfeld. 

Bubblegum Pops: Sugary pop songs with spunk.

Songs To Fuck Shit Up To: This one’s gotten, like 3k notes and wow?? Thank y’all for that? As the title suggests, it’s songs that make me feel like kicking down a door. Artists include Lorde, Billie Eilish, Wolf Alice, and Arctic Monkeys.

Kiss It: Badass songs by badass lady rockers like Amy Winehouse, ZZ Ward, Elle King, and Gin Wigmore. 

Requested by @eller42