Giant Horny Nerd

26 transfem she/her weird giant

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I think this year has if anything informed to me that the ultimate goal is to be stealth, this world is going to treat you like shit for being trans and there is no reason to not take that step and leave it all behind.

[bansheeofa]

I think the spring spirits are getting to me, I just saw the fucking warframe splash screen and felt warmth spread through my stomach I'm so fucking cooked

[bansheeofa]

[bansheeofa]

I think the spring spirits are getting to me, I just saw the fucking warframe splash screen and felt warmth spread through my stomach I'm so fucking cooked

[bansheeofa]

I love being an unwell trans woman, everyone goes out of their way to let you know how loved you are!

[bansheeofa]

I really wish I had the mental ability to be okay with getting chubbier. I think chubby women are so beautiful but I get such bad mental hangups upon gaining any weight and noticing changes in myself. Even more frustrating seeing that I'm very lucky with the weight distributing well. bleh

[bansheeofa]

Doesn't help that every skinny trans woman ever that posts a picture of herself is treated like she's the prettiest princess ever for being skinny and if you're anything else you get openly considered less than.

[bansheeofa]

I really wish I had the mental ability to be okay with getting chubbier. I think chubby women are so beautiful but I get such bad mental hangups upon gaining any weight and noticing changes in myself. Even more frustrating seeing that I'm very lucky with the weight distributing well. bleh

[bansheeofa]

Sometimes when your puppy had a bad day at work you just need to help her paw off while you grab her hips like she could never do to herself

[bansheeofa]

My christmas wish is to wake up as a cis woman for the 15th year running. I'm sure Santa is getting around to it.

[bansheeofa]

Can't wait to be one of those self mutilated corpses that get posted to the internet

[bansheeofa]

Feeling terrible today, can't focus, keep trying my hardest to feel better. Abusive mom I'm low contact with starts texting me on some bullshit trying to bait me into talking.

[bansheeofa]

wonder when they're gonna cook up an every day existence that feels worth living

[bansheeofa]

For a brief brief moment you could get every book you had ever dreamed of off the internet; able to fulfill any academic desire to learn and grow. Its gone now, you can't do it, academic publishers aren't even making books anymore they make a web module that can't be pirated and has guaranteed sales back to the company for just as much or more money than printing books. Libraries are defunded, and I really think this is it. People are anti-intellectual to their core and have no understanding that this will destroy them, and lead to fascism. Much less the average amerik(kk)an is ready for fascism.

[bansheeofa]

its so fucking frustrating to be trans, and to spend your entire childhood being a weird maladjusted miscreant that either can't make friends or will have the friends you do make removed from you at puberty. Then you have to make the correct friends and you never quite fit in right and people abandon or drop you constantly. Then one day you finally transition and people abandon you for that, and then at every step of the way the fact that you're trans at certain points means that you're cut off. No more, you aren't involved, there isn't room for a tranny to visit a budding family, or even to play games with you any more. Every queer space doesn't really want you nor help you. You're just sort of made to be picked up, used a bit, and kicked to the fucking side. Its been almost thirty years of this and I want off the ride so fucking bad.

[bansheeofa]

Crazy the government made it get hotter outside so everyone would have to dress sluttier

[bansheeofa]

Uh shout out estrogen I guess idk anymore

[bansheeofa]

I really fucking hope wizards gets off this kick of just letting you play lots of spells for free usually as a sidenote on already good cards. Especially out of anyone's library or graveyard at the going rate.

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I really fucking love my friends and am glad that they got into jobs out of university, but fuck does it piss me off so bad at times. Why did I play runescape with two people that were at work today, and learned they walked to the game store near them at lunch to play a game of commander. It frustrates me so violently to live in poverty while knowing people get to make computer science money and get a plethora of fuck off time every day to not miss out on their hobbies.