#vent

[saltynsassy31]

I feel like im about to vomit all over again

I wish I would already

[im-going-to-start-killing-again]

when you realize you lowkey think your friends are annoying af but you also think everyone else is annoying af and you don't wanna be stuck with no friends so like what do you even do

[flesh-connoisseur]

just a thought

haven't spoken to one of my grandmas in more than a month and it was weird because, after I moved countries again and isolated myself to the point of not reaching out to anyone, she always put a kind face and sent me a message every now and then. yup, guilt constantly eats my bones since this shitty behavior started, but now she didn't sent me anything so it was due time for me to reach out, I'm not complaining, she still works and has stuff to do and I can't act like this.

anyway, I sent her a voice note of almost 20 mins and I kind of told her that I got even more depressed after this whole uni thing, not exactly using the words depression and stuff because that'd be extremely worrying to her and the last thing I want is her feeling even more sad because of me. I really hate opening up in the slightest about my problems to my grandparents bc they worry a lot but yeah idk my own parents are constantly making my moods worse and I don't have anyone else to talk to, I think it's sad that the first message I send to her in more than a month is discussing a topic like this, but idk I just need her support.

I'm sorry if this sounds like gibberish I didn't proofread before posting bc I'm holding back tears and just wanted to let this thought out before it ate me from inside, tajnk you all

[alextheangel222]

i don't want to die , the idea of dying scares me . I just want to disappear, I want to be gone ,I want to disappear from everyones lifes . I think about disappearing so much but am also so afraid to go though. I saw how people do it and I can recreate it if I want but I don't have the guts . Well maybe one day I'll go peacefully like I always wanted

[alextheangel222]

Every sad or depressed thing I reposts here or on tik tok is a cry for help.... Nobody takes it serious because of how many times I said I'm ok . I know how much of a hypocrit I'm for wanting people to take it serious :<

[maggxtzz]

drew a mermaid with her boobies out on my thigh and my mum won't stop asking if I like girls now

Hey lady , I don't even IDENTIFY as a girl actually

Anyways not like she knows anything about any of that as far as she's concerned in a straight cis girl I'll probably never come out

[alextheangel222]

i just want to feel something even if it's pain