Trying To Find My Way In This World Is All..

My name is Barbara and I really have no idea how to use this site but I thought it would be a great way to clear my thoughts.. Any questions feel free to ask..

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Some people never get how over this bullshit i am.. I know if my actions would match what i felt maybe than they would understand.. I have lived a hard life surrounded by people who say they love me... but do they really.? I have fought through this life trying to be the best part of me I can be but it has never been enough.. When will this life end so that I can finally be happy within my own sins.. I have never claimed to be the best person but i sure am tired of fighting my demands alone.!

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"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."

Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

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Moments

There are so many times i looke back at life and try to figure where I went wrong.. Trying to grasp the moment that lead me here to this forbidden land of loneliness.. Does anyone else ever see the world as a wrong moment as I do.?

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"Start believing my own lies Like "Everything will be okay" Oh, I still dream of a simple life.. Boy meets girl, makes her his wife, but love don't exist when you live like this"

Bruno Mars- Young Girls

[barbarav1206]

Behind every beautiful girl lies a beautiful story with an even stronger man behind the scenes.. I love you babe.! Thank you for being one of the reasons I smile.! #BeautyLoveAndHappiness #ThanksToHim #F.I. #CantForgetMyBabyGirlToo #Z.K.I.

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Exactly.!

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You are the reason I promised myself to always be better than what I was.. I LOVE YOU MY BABY LOVE.! We will have everything we deserve & more.. #ThisIPromiseYou #MyBabyLove #MommysOnlyLove #JustYouAndI #AgainstTheWorld

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This is all I want to do.. Nothing more or less.. Just be truly successful in the sense of family first than materialistic.. #WhatIWishFor #HopefullyOneDayIGetIt #Love #LovedBack #MostOfAllGreatMother #BabyGirl

[barbarav1206]

I could lay here forever.. True happiness is where your heart lies & sadly it is with you always regardless of all that has gone wrong.. #InMyFeelings #LoveHimAlways #WishItWasTwoSided

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For the first time in my life I feel like this.. #Emotional #Lost #SoMuchGoingOn #DontKnowWhatToDo #UghIHateThis #Blah

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What our generation seems to lack.. #CareForOneAnother #GreatRelationshipsAreMade #BelieveInOneAnother #EvenWhenTheOddsAreAgainstYall

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This is all I want in life.. I know I may not have all this just yet but I sure am determined to get it especially for my baby girl.. Mama will stop the world for you.! 💋💗💞 #DontHaveItAll #WithDetermination #WeWillHaveItAll #MommyWontEverGiveUp #MadeMistakes #WithMeByYourSide #EverythingsGoingToBeOkay

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I think we all have this issue.. We tend to think that everyone is stuck with us once they care about us, but the sad reality is no one is promised to stick around.. So the ones you got hold on to umm.. #LoveCanTakeYouALotOfPlaces #CaringCanDoJustTheSame #DontBeBlind #CherishOneAnother #IfNotThanLetUmmGo

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Where's my prince charming.? So tired of all the bs games.. Just wana feel love again.. #ReadyForLove #TiredOfGames #Lonely #MommyNeeds

[barbarav1206]

Some very wise words.. We as people just rather ignore this truth than acknowledge it.. #BeTheMaster #OfYourOwnPain #ItFeelsSoRight #YetIsSoWrong

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To some people in this life you will never truly mean to them what they mean to you. They will sit there and act as if you mean something, but know deep down that its only to have someone fill the emptiness they are feeling at the moment. The saddest part of it all is that you know yet you sit there with them and soak up whatever half happiness you get out of the moments spent together.. When will he ever feel what I have.?

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I hope that when my time comes to get married the person that chooses me truly feels in their heart that the past no longer exist to them & the future is me & him because some people find themselves doing it just to fill a void in their own lives.. Smh..