Beansies

21. Repenting and reforming myself.

[beansluvsmilo]

Whoever made a post asking if Adrian would be a dog or cat person I want you to know I saw it. I was typing this beautiful long comment about how I think he likes spiders when Tumblr refreshed. I'm watching the new episode now and it made me think of you.

[beansluvsmilo]

I've seen all the AI fanfiction discourse going around so I just want to add to the pool of fanfiction. Even if it's not good and kinda stupid.

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Imagine...

Going on a date with the Spicy Sweet Chili flavored Doritos. The appetizing purple bag asked you out on a work trip, the shining flames on the bag pulling you in like you were a moth, dumb and drawn to the light. Looking at the bag, at the logo that you can't miss, is what finally got you. Convincing you to agree to a date.

The delectable chips pick you up at your front door, driving one of those Oscar Mayer Wienermobiles. A truck that is showing visible age. Peeling paint, rattling frame that looks like a death trap. How does a bag of chips drive? You have to question your sanity, how did you agree to this date?

It takes you out for ramen, even if you don't like it, it doesn't matter because it picked it. You don't think it'd care if you had a reaction to the food, the way it's top opens to eat is as disturbing as the bill you are forced to pay. Spicy Sweet Chili Doritos walks you to your door though.

They wait, expectant, and you find yourself giving in. Pressing a kiss to the flaming yellow Dorito chips on the front of the crinkly bag. Stupidly, you agree to a second date.

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This is a personal thing for me. I'm in school just doing my core classes before transferring for major classes. I also relied on AI quite a bit for half of my classes. The guilt ate me alive and I did my two summer classes and will do my four fall classes myself. I'll be graduating with a certificate in December, just for required basics, and when I do I'll have only done half of the classes—maybe a little more, completely on my own. (Are there spaces for em dashes?) This is me trying to make amends for that to complete strangers that don't know me. I'm sorry.

Generative AI won't touch any of my academic material ever again. I'm going to do the hard work for my degree. The high school repeats won't be mine, this certificate won't be fully mine. The degree, the specialized courses I take will be. The work that I will need for a career will be mine. The associates degree I get for that work? That will be mine. Anything after that will always be mine.

I'm sorry internet strangers, I'm also sorry for the long rant. This is mine. My crappy fic, my shame, mine.

[beansluvsmilo]

Why the fuck is there a 'walker scobell x reader' tag on here. That's so nasty, not only is he real he is a CHILD. I can't even.

Do we even have a moral code anymore? Who cares if he never sees it, he is still a teenager. The fact that you can write fanfiction about him, edit it, have a beta reader whatever and then post it is insane to me.

Like you can get a request and then imagine being romantically involved with or interested in a child enough to the point you can write out a full fleshed fic? Do we not hear a tiny conscience in our heads going: "Wow! A child! You are interested in a child!"

He just turned 16. At the beginning of this month. I can't even bring myself to interact with a post romantically viewing a FICTIONAL child but a real one? I block you all I hope you know, and report it. 🤢

AND I JUST TURNED 20! Some of these writers are older than that, like why? Why are we writing about real children? Children who are already most likely exploited in their industry as actors/actresses.

And then have the gall to put 'minors dni'. YOU ARE WRITING ABOUT ROMANTICALLY BEING IN LOVE WITH A CHILD!

I will die on this hill.

[worstgenerationloser]

100 followers! Thank you for everybody who has supported me so far, it means a lot, especially my mutuals!

Sorry for yapping but THESE THREE have made me feel like I can continue writing, I breathe a sigh of relief whenever they like my posts/interact with them, @eand47 , @guillotine-enjoyer , and @beansluvsmilo (sorry if I left anyone out, it's VERY late here and I'm tired 😢)

Lots of love to those who might be reading this !! 💕

[beansluvsmilo]

You definitely deserve it! 🎉 🥳

I don't have any other mutuals so you get my undivided attention 🥰.

[beansluvsmilo]

It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

I didn't realize I made my account just shy of New Years lol

[beansluvsmilo]

So I'm rewatching One Piece and I forgot how sad Chouchou and his shop made me. So I'm over here literally bawling my eyes out because of an anime dog.

[beansluvsmilo]

NO THE LITTLE COW FISH IN ARLONG PARK!! HE'S SO CUTEEEEE

[beansluvsmilo]

This judge for the Loguetown cooking competition is funny.

"Are ya ready Sam?"

"YEAAAH!"

[beansluvsmilo]

This whale in episode 63 😭😭😭

[beansluvsmilo]

I love Skypiea, it's my favorite so far. But I can't believe Luffy got swallowed by this giant snake 😭

WAIT THE DOG JUST RUNS AROUND PUNCHING PEOPLE?!

[beansluvsmilo]

Not Zoro running from a giant with an axe in the background while Sanji yells at the Groggy Ring ref 😂

[beansluvsmilo]

"This afro don't take prisoners"

"So funky!"

[beansluvsmilo]

So I'm rewatching One Piece and I forgot how sad Chouchou and his shop made me. So I'm over here literally bawling my eyes out because of an anime dog.

[beansluvsmilo]

NO THE LITTLE COW FISH IN ARLONG PARK!! HE'S SO CUTEEEEE

[beansluvsmilo]

This judge for the Loguetown cooking competition is funny.

"Are ya ready Sam?"

"YEAAAH!"

[beansluvsmilo]

This whale in episode 63 😭😭😭

[beansluvsmilo]

I love Skypiea, it's my favorite so far. But I can't believe Luffy got swallowed by this giant snake 😭

WAIT THE DOG JUST RUNS AROUND PUNCHING PEOPLE?!

[beansluvsmilo]

So I'm watching One Piece and I forgot how sad Chouchou and his shop made me. So I'm over here literally bawling my eyes out because of an anime dog.

[bubbless-s]

When I search up my favourite character x reader and see incest

[iidilio]

I feel that people in recent times have ruined an entire generation. There are literally sick people who are writing as if they were sick with the topic of incest and all its derivatives, as if it were a damn new game that came out on the market.

If I'm honest, I'm afraid that these people have a little brother or sister because of the content they consume. Because if these people have siblings, imagine if they rape their younger sister or brother or abuse them. Let me ask you something, and I want you to be honest with me: if that is their fetish, do you think they wouldn't do it if they didn't have the opportunity? Do you really think that readers and writers only read and write for pleasure or because they know they can't take advantage of someone because they know there are consequences for their actions, and they decide to bring out all those types of fantasies in "fictional characters"?

As the younger sister of two brothers, it doesn't fit into my head to read something like that, because I know what it's like to have siblings, take care of them, and love them. I can't put myself in those people's shoes because I don't understand them; I don't understand their sick fetishes or how they enjoy them.

I just wanted to get everything off my chest because I couldn't take it anymore with everything that's going around on Tumblr. It feels like you're on a page full of pedophiles and incestuous people. Seriously, it's disgusting. And even though you haven't read any of that content, it's disgusting, and no, you can't forget it because you know it's going around on the internet- and you saw it, you know it's there, and you can't do anything about it or even forget it.

You may think I'm exaggerating but in the part of the world where I live there are homicides and abuses against women. You literally see every day on the damn news how a woman or girl was abused or disappeared... Do you know what I saw the other day? a case in which a three-year-old girl was abused by her older brother and cousin.

and then you start thinking about the sick people who genuinely enjoy that damn content. maybe if those people lived the same fear that I and the other women in my country suffer when we go out on the street or meet strangers, they would come to their senses.

That's all; maybe I'll delete it later.

[beansluvsmilo]

No fr cus I've seen actual Incest ones or adult and child, like tf?

[luneraboo-deactivated20250204]

I am making so many “hey mutuals!” posts but this one is serious and it applies to everyone who sees this post actually. PLEASE REBLOG.

I just had to block someone with this flag as their pfp -

For those who don’t know, this is the MAP pride flag. This flag represents pedophiles.

Please reblog so people know that they are not welcome anywhere. Mutuals I BETTER see y’all reblogging this

[titaniumstark]

Me posting on tumblr:

[manny-jacinto]

ZOMBIELAND: DOUBLE TAP (2019)

[fixforthesoul]

OPEN LETTER TO FANFICTION WRITERS ON ACCESSIBILITY; PLEASE READ.

first of all, thank you for spending your time, seldom acknowledged and definitely deserving of a compensation you are not receiving, to entertain us. i’m speaking on behalf of more than just blind readers, but everyone. you’re sick as hell.

i’ve summoned you to provide some information you may not already know. i know a lot of you like fonts. especially those who cross post their work on wattpad. i admire any and all acts of aestheticism to a degree, and can understand the desire to use them. (blind folk, sorry y’all. momma’s making a point.) 𝔰𝔱𝔲𝔣𝔣 𝔩𝔦𝔨𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰, it’s cute. 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐟𝐟 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 is a little cuter to me, if i had to choose. or maybe 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈?

now, sighted folk: if you’re on mobile, i implore you to participate in a little exercise for me. select this text and scroll through all the copy/paste/define/‘search the web’ options until you get to the speak portion. if you need to change a setting for your phone to do so, would you mind? i’d really appreciate it.

please make your phone read aloud part of my post, and be sure to include any bits with those super cute fonts. 𝕚’𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕖𝕟𝕕 𝕠𝕗 𝕞𝕪 𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕒, 𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖. 𝕚 𝕙𝕠𝕡𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕤 𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕝𝕪, 𝕚 𝕕𝕠𝕟’𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕖 𝕤𝕢𝕦𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕪 𝕥𝕪𝕡𝕠𝕤 𝕚 𝕔𝕒𝕟’𝕥 𝕤𝕖𝕖.

whether you participated and discovered it for yourself or you thought this was a crock of shit you’d rather not sniff, i’ll tell you! screen readers cannot dictate words using those fonts. at least, on a majority of devices. not mine, or any of my mutuals elsewhere.

you do not have to change your behavior on my behalf, but please be aware that fonts limit access to your work.

blind readers do exist, i exist, and i am bound by the same feelings of dogged longing that make other sad horny bitches read angsty, smutty, father-wounded nonsense.

thanks for making it this far. i really hope my sincerity is being conveyed, reading makes me so happy and i’m not the only person on this app who relies on accessibility settings more often than not. do with this information what you will, and have the day you deserve!

[beansluvsmilo]

Tumblr Live is shutting down in a few days, I can't wait.

[beansluvsmilo]

A little rant but it annoys the heck out of me when someone uses the image description/alt text feature just to put the word 'Image' there or the title and artist of an art piece. Some of us Tumblr users don't have good vision so we get our hopes up when there's alt text available and it's just 'Image'.

There's a lot of users on here who talk about accommodating people for their crap and can't even input their image into an alt text generator. It's easy. I'll do it right now for this sunset picture I took. It doesn't have to be a heavily descriptive paragraph but just something to let us know what is going on in that image. When you go to add alt text on Tumblr it literally says: 'Adding a description of this image makes your post more accessible for individuals using a screen reader.'

Do you know what kind of people use screen readers? Blind and visually impaired people that's who, how is putting 'Image' in an accessibility tool accessible?! It pisses me off to no end but that's it, that's the end of my rant.