•SO GOOD•SO BAD•

life is so beautiful but can be so hard

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2 years

Its been 2 years since we first met, I remember the first text you sent me. It said happy valentines day, but this year I won't be spending it with you. I'm with someone else now.  I've moved on.  It took me a while, and it still is hard. Whenever I hear your name I look up and hope to see you appear in front of my eyes. We would've been great together. I will always love you and I don't  think I'll ever get 100% completely over the idea of us. And I still wonder about what could have been, but it's time to let go...

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Nightmare

We broke up.

I can't believe it. We love eachother so much but we're not together. I wasn't sure if I wanted to be with you and I just needed some time to think, but you couldn't handle it. You needed to be sure about us. And now that I know I want to be with you it's too late. I love you and I always will...

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It made me think of you...

Our relationship was going so well, I was crazy about you. And I just realised the moment everything fell apart. We had just hung out that afternoon, my mom took you to the station so you could go back home. Later that night she told me the things you said, how you wanted us to live together, and build a life for the two of us. It scared the hell out of me. I was in love with you. But I was still in high school. You are a little older than I am, so you were at a different stage in life. Our love was different, I had never experienced anything quite like it before. It had that Romeo and Juliet kind of feeling. We wanted each other so badly, but I knew it wasn’t right. You are related to one of my best friend, and she didn’t like it. And I was going through a hard time back then. I ended up doing what I always do, pushing people away when I need them most. I should have let you in, so you could be there for me. And we would’ve gone through it together. But it’s too late for should haves, I’ve lost you and no matter what wat will happen between us. We’ll never go back to the way we were before…

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Moving on stays hard

I dreamed about you last night. I believe that dreams have some kind of meaning or truth in them. So, when I dreamed about still being in love with you it messed up my head. I remember the day we met, it was late at night I walked into the room and the first thing I saw was you. You looking al cute and dressed up and those sparkling blue eyes. For the rest of the night you were the only thing I could see. And now the only thing I can think of is the fact that I forgot the sound of your voice, and I don't even remember the way we touched. I know we had this amazing chemistry together but I don't remember the way I used to feel.

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everytime I see you

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A war zone in my mind

All those thoughts inside my head but the words just won't come out

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Too afraid of love

I remember you. I remember the way you looked at me. I remember the words that came out of you mouth. I remember that I didn’t know what to say. I remember being scared. I remember pushing you away. I remember crying myself to sleep. I remember missing you. I remember the regret. I remember trying to let you go.

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Love

Does anyone else know that feeling when your happy, but sad at the same time? Well I do. It’s weird I’m the happiest that I have been in a very long time. I wake up with a smile on my face ready to face the world. Because I know that you will be by my side trough the hard times. But I’m sad too. I don’t think you should let your happiness depend on a person. And well at this moment it is depending on someone. I don’t want to need you, but I do. And that makes me scared! Because what if I lose you? I think I will break into 2000 small pieces. And I don’t think there will be anyone left to pick them up.

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Oh, maybe I’ll escape This prison in my headspace If I just speak my mind

Speak my mind - Vinyl Theatre

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Remember you're beautify

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Reminder

I get reminders om my phone of all kinds of things, but the thing popping op most today was your name. Or more specifically that your birthday is tomorrow. I remember when we met I was only 14 back then end you were 18. Yes, I know you are 4 years older than me, but back then I didn't really care. But I guess that if you are a 14-year-old girl you will never know what's going on in an 18 years old mind. But I don't think I even thought about that. It's so weird that I met you 3 years ago. We have been in contact for two years but I guess it wasn't meant to last. I haven't seen you in about a year. Well actually that isn't true, I have seen you but nothing more than that. I saw you standing there end we both said hello. And that is all I have seen of you this year. But I think I'm better off without you. You are a great person of that I have no doubt. But I don't think you were good for me. You have taught me a lot of stuff about life. You are the first person I ever loved (well besides my family). You will always be my weakness and you have a very special place in my heart. So, every year around this time I will be happy to think about you for a while. So even though we don't speak anymore you will forever live in my memories.

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