Places Left Unfinished At The Time Of Creation

Hi my name is Beca. New Mexico -> Chicago, software engineer, Baha'i. I am an indigenous, (Yucatec Maya) Mexican-American (dual citizen), scribe (Dzib). My father was a migrant. My mother is white. End of life story.

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Humorous Listicle Ideas:

slapstick consensual sports violence humor (violence jokes I like)

From the BJJ instructor files

poshmark listings from Baddi's closet

list of sins: a listicle that just names all the terrible shameful petty small stuff hahaha (like swindling J out of a marble when we were 6, sorry j)

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<3

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thank Chaac for watching over us

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I would have gone with you

all the way

to the end. I fear that

once again

love made me

weak, made me regret

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Disaster comes in so many forms

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Questions you’re afraid to ask your ex:

how long

did it take before

songs weren’t about

me anymore

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This is how I know

we were codependent

because when I think of the way you look when you’re hurt

When I think about your face when you realized our world was crumbling

I felt you in the core of me, I felt crushed, I felt like

I’d do anything to spare you pain It kills me when you’re hurting; I think back to those days and my heart stops when I realize how you must have felt when I was cruel

and stupid. Jamming a knife into what we built.

Disrespecting a love story neither of us was brave enough to write down, to make real.

I never wanted you to hurt.

I wish we could have found the words before we left them behind.

I wish we’d been

Real with each other.

[goldensunset]

did you know? if you do your laundry you can get your clothes back

[mrhealyourgirl]

not the socks.

[alisonzai]

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My ancestors dipped their brushes into trays made of conch shells, ink filling different compartments

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