the beehive

🐝 rowans journal & artbook 🐝

[beediaries]

june 29 2020

i forgot about this diary and i definitely will again, but can you really blame me? look at what 2020 has been like so far on a global level... and then on an american level... and then on an oakland level. 

i feel like it would be irresponsible to even talk about what i’ve been going through personally lately, but i lost someone i care about a lot. i also lost my cat, Finnegan. I’ve since adopted a kitten named Belisario “baphomittens” Dafoe, who is very cute and whom I love very much. also started a new job, which is lit, but i’m currently stuck on the graveyard shift. yuck. oh well. there’s only like three hours left of work, and i’m sure i’ll survive just fine. 

[beediaries]

November 8, 2019. Oakland, California

A shot of angles, points, and domes

[beediaries]

Nov 8 2019, Oakland CA

A view of a grey sky shrouding the sun, seen through the branches of a tree.

[beediaries]

Nov 8 2019

Today's the first of these. I guess this is a weird project to be doing but I'm going to do it anyways. This blog is gonna be a really emotional journey probably, but I feel like somehow it will either be totally worth it or completely pointless. This is my journal!! Its probably not going to be very interesting to anyone but me, but fuck it. I'm down to try it anyways. I'll put my art in here too, and maybe my music. We'll see. I should probably update the layout for browser, but I have to sleep soon. I'm getting up around 6AM to go to the airport. My cousin is getting married this weekend. She and I haven't really gotten along for several years but she recently reached out and wants to talk again. I took her olive branch, and she invited me to the wedding. I'll probably be the only trans person. Probanly the only liberal too. I'm dreading it, especially since my dad is going to be there. Big oof. I should sleep.