Love.
"To you, i would never lie", the words he said to me when we first met. The thing i dont understand is why the fuck did i believe it?! is it because i was searching for love? but i defiantly searched in the wrong places ... . The love i had for him was a love that no one could take away but the pain i endured while with him was a pain no women should ever feel. I found myself thinking of him 24/7, giving up family time to talk to him. I never thought he'd cheat, but i was wrong. The lies were constant, the cheating was every night, i would ask myself every night "am i not satisfying him enough?" The sex was amazing though (at least i thought it was). i showed nothing but love to this man. I would even take a bullet for him anyday. strong eh? thats what love is. Typing this is making think of the tough times i went though for this asshole. Even though it took a year & 6 months for me to let go of this pain, now im a free bird flying in this beautiful big world. Im going with the flow now and living for ME.