People say "Life is short" and "There's more to life than you know." What if I don't want to know. What if I just want to disappear from this world without anyone knowing that I'm gone. I hate making and seeing myself suffer. It's hard. It's so difficult.
Whenever I talk to someone about me and what's wrong with me, they would compare to another person's problem, saying their situation is worse. I find it discouraging and it doesn't help.
I act confident and nonchalant to hide the fact that I am hurting inside. I sometimes don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes, there is no answer. I just move on from the problem.
I seek and reach out for help, but no matter how many times the bond is sealed, it breaks. I can only rely on myself in certain situations.
Day by day, I will become stress or have insomnia. I overthink too much. All the negative energy I endure will build up overtime until I finally reach a breaking point. Then I will start over.
It is a never-ending loop. I only make myself suffer. No one else. I want it to stop. How can I?
