bucky's sexual drive had been in negative numbers for so long.
it might be because of the antidepressants his therapist was prescribing.
he’d read the side effects on the label, and decreased libido had been listed there in tiny, as if it were just another minor inconvenience, like dry mouth or dizziness. but he couldn't complain about that because he needed those pills, as much as he tried to deny it. they kept away the nightmares, the spirals... but they also kept away everything else. the desire, the excitement, the flicker of interest when someone laughed at his dry humor or looked at him like he was something more than a ghost of the past.
it might be because of him.
relationships required energy, patience, trust and he was still working on having that with himself. some nights he wondered if under all the layers of trauma and cold metal there was still a part of him capable of wanting the way he used to, back when things were simpler. back when he was just bucky barnes, before the war, before hydra, before all of it.
but bucky rather think that it was because he never met anyone like you before.
of course he had met cute girls. kind, smart, even a few who had given him that glance that invited something more. but it never quite clicked. not in the way it should. not in the way that it used to.
you were all of that.
kind, smart, you matched his dry humor, laughed at his dark jokes because you knew that was his way of copying, and you laughed in a genuine way, not with the awkward politeness others gave him. you also didn’t shy away from the scars, you didn't stare at his metal arm and make him feel like a freak, like he was beyond repair. you didn’t flinch when your fingers brushed against his cold metal hand.
and you were beautiful and so sexy. was he allowed to think that? because, god help him, he did.
sam always told him that he had a staring problem but with you? bucky was pretty sure you could call the cops on him for how much he stared. it wasn’t intentional, at least, not at first. but then the wind would catch your skirt, revealing just a few more inches of your leg, or you’d push your hair behind your ear, exposing the soft skin of your neck, or bite your lip when you were deep in thought, and suddenly, he was gone, swallowing hard and forcing himself to look away before his thoughts could betray him any further.
after a long day, bucky let himself fall onto the bed.
the second he was alone, he let out a big huff and ran his hands over his face, like that would somehow erase the thoughts running wild in his head. it didn’t. nothing could. because you were still there, burned into his mind. the way you had looked this evening, the way you always looked, had him all kinds of messed up.
the entire town had gathered at the harbor to celebrate that the boat was finally restored, thanks to him and sam. it had been a good day, a rare kind of day where he felt normal, not a soldier, not a weapon. and, of course, you had been there.
bucky had tried, really tried, to focus on everything else: the music, the food, the way the people clapped him on the back like he belonged. and then you had hugged him, your arms wrapping around his shoulders like it was the most natural thing in the world. his hands found your hips. he felt the soft curve of you beneath his touch, he inhaled the faint scent of whatever perfume you always wore and his brain short-circuited.
now, in his bed, the one he had bought only because you told him he could no longer sleep on the floor, bucky rubbed his face, trying to calm himself. the heat crept up the back of his neck, spreading down his spine. hours later, he could still feel the shape of you against his hands, the way your body pressed tight against his. the knot low in his stomach twisted and he felt his pants get tighter. fuck, he mumbled to himself.
bucky took a breath through his nose and moved his hands to palm himself through his jeans. his breath hitched, he was already so hard it hurt. it was pathetic.
he should feel ashamed for letting you, the thought of you completely unravel him. but he didn't because, goddamn, the way you had looked today, the way you had smiled at him, the way your dress hugged your body in all the right places… his fingers found the buckle of his belt, hesitating for only a second before undoing it. it was too much for a man who had spent so long pretending he didn’t want. pretending he didn’t need.
bucky lowered his zipper. god, would he even remember how to do this? he had tried before, he had let his hand wander, hoping that maybe he could feel something again. but it never worked. his body never responded the way it should, his mind too lost in thoughts. but this time, when he slipped his hand inside his underwear, he exhaled sharply as his fingers wrapped around himself, his head tipped back against the pillow and his chest rose and fell slowly.
his eyes closed shut. that way it was easy to remember you dancing as the sun went down, the way you moved your hips, completely unaware of what you were doing to him as he stood there, beer in hand, watching you with a hunger he barely understood, much less controlled. the way your lips had parted slightly when your gaze met his, like maybe you knew, like maybe you wanted him just as badly as he wanted you.
his hand moved up and down his length, slow and deliberate. he felt the thick vein beneath his fingers, the way it pulsed into the warmth of his own palm. bucky tried to breath through his nose to stay quiet, biting his lip down, but his mouth parted and a shaky moan slipped free as he gave in.
he imagined your hands on him instead of his own, your fingers tracing down his stomach and wrapping around him with a softness he hadn’t felt in years. he imagined your voice whispering his name like a prayer and what it would feel like to have your lips against his.
fuck, he was so sensitive. his hips lifted from the bed as his hand moved faster, his grip tightened and his breath came in sharp, uneven pants. his mind was completely lost in the pleasure, it had been decades since he had felt something like this. the years in hydra, the years in wakanda, the years he’d been blipped, he didn’t even think he’d have enough peace to search for pleasure.
but now you were in his life.
his hips continued lifting from the mattress, his body desperate for more. his muscles tensed, his stomach getting tight, tighter. his metal arm reached out blindly, grasping for something to quiet himself. his fingers found the pillow beside him, and he pulled it close, pressing it against his mouth in a desperate attempt to muffle his moans.
he was close. too close.
bucky squirmed on the bed, his body caught between the pleasure and the overwhelming sensitivity. his hips jerked as he attempted to escape his own hand, but his body had other plans, chasing the friction even as it made him shudder.
his head pressed back into the pillow, his entire body shaking as he came with a loud moan against the pillow, and the only name on his lips was yours.
the next few seconds, bucky tried to catch his breath. he dropped the pillow that he used to cover his mouth, his chest rose and fell slowly. he dragged his metal hand over his face, the other one still inside his jeans, fingers sticky. god, he came in his pants. he swallowed hard, his jaw clenching as he used his cold metal fingers so massage his temples.
even now, when his body still felt too sensitive, his mind still hazy, he couldn't stop thinking about you. with your laugh, your kindness, your stupid little smirk whenever you caught him staring, because sam was right, he did have a staring problem. but how could he not?
bucky let out a sharp breath and forced himself to move to clean up. he had no idea how the hell he was supposed to look you in the eyes tomorrow after your name broke from his lips when the first orgasm in years hit him.
pairing: strawberry shortcake x jack abbot. first part.
summary: after matching with your attending on tinder, you now have to spend an entire shift trying to avoid him. everything is going (almost) well until you get trapped in an elevator with him.
tags: fluff, joy is part of the night shift, langdon kinda too, er setting, workplace romance, age gap, coworkers to lovers, protective jack abbot, she falls first, he falls harder.
authors note: this is short and silly I KNOW. i just wanted to portray abbot the way I perceive him after that scene (in the gif). ALSO thank you so much for the reblogs and for asking to be added to the tag list. i never thought that was possible!! don't forget to reblog if you enjoyed it, please. 🙏🏻
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The doors to the ER slid open once again, but this time you wished you could've stayed home.
You'd barely slept. Four hours at most, and ever since you woke up, you hadn't been able to think about anything except the mistake you made with your attending. You wondered if he'd slept well, probably he was sitting at home right now drinking coffee like nothing happened.
And here you were.
Technically your shift didn't start for another two hours, but the anxiety had dragged you back into the pitt anyway, which was funny because ten minutes ago you were seriously considering giving up and starting a new life somewhere in Alaska.
Your stomach twisted again just thinking about having to see him today.
Everything seemed calmer than usual, which honestly felt suspicious. You didn't even want to think too hard about it before you jinxed it. At this point you were convinced you personally carried bad luck around with you.
You nervously adjusted the sleeves of your oversized pink hoodie while scanning the station looking for the girls, and Whitaker.
It wasn't difficult to find Trinity. She was sitting beside Whitaker, aggressively stabbing at the computer keyboard before dramatically letting her head fall onto it. She quickly lifted her head again when Dennis touched her shoulder and pointed toward you with his head.
The second she saw you, her eyebrows pulled together in confusion.
"Why are you here?"
Not even a hello.
"What room is free?" You asked immediately.
"Okay… not even a coffee first?" Whitaker joked.
"This is serious."
Something in your expression must've looked genuinely unstable because Whitaker's smile disappeared almost instantly.
Both of them stood up immediately and started walking through the hallway looking for an empty room. Luckily you nearly ran straight into Victoria on the way there. She gave you a confused look but smiled anyway, though the second she noticed Trinity and Whitaker walking in front of you like bodyguards, she silently followed behind.
The moment they found an empty trauma room, they closed the door behind you. The silence didn't last long, but all you could hear was your own heartbeat while trying to figure out how to even begin explaining what happened.
"Are you dating Abbot?" Whitaker asked slowly, crossing his arms.
You stared at him with a deeply what the fuck expression before dramatically looking between all three of them and pacing once across the room. "This MUST stay here."
"Sure." Trinity answered casually.
"I mean it." You took a deep breath, trying to find the exact words. "I matched with Abbot on Tinder." You said it quietly, but loud enough for everyone to hear.
None of them spoke. Whitaker's jaw dropped slightly, Trinity closed her eyes like she was physically trying to process the information, while Victoria made a noise so high pitched it sounded almost dangerous.
"No you didn't." Santos whispered.
"YES I DID." A nervous laugh escaped you the second you heard yourself say it out loud. "It was an accident tho."
"Oh my GOD." Javadi grabbed your shoulders violently. "OH MY GOD."
Meanwhile Trinity was still staring at you suspiciously. "How is that an accident?"
"My phone slipped." You admitted embarrassed, rubbing your forehead while remembering the exact moment it happened.
"Wait, hold on." Santos started pacing too now. "So you swiped right and the match appeared immediately?"
"...Yes?"
Trinity slowly nodded while Javadi continued looking excited like she was personally watching the greatest romantic comedy of her life unfold in front of her. Meanwhile all you wanted was for somebody to tell you how you were supposed to continue existing after this.
"That wasn't even all of it... He texted me immediately after." You pulled your phone out and handed it to them.
Santos grabbed it instantly, holding it where all three of them could see the screen at once. While she scrolled through the messages, the only thing you could focus on were their reactions.
"No, because this is actually insane." Trinity finally said while handing the phone back.
You buried your face into your hands, already regretting everything that happened this morning.
Because it was insane.
Even though he'd always taken care of you, you'd never let yourself believe it could mean something else. That was exactly why having a crush on him always felt stupid and childish. Sure, he made your shifts better. Sure, your stomach flipped every time he looked at you too long. But it had always stayed harmless inside your own head.
Jack Abbot was supposed to stay safely inside your brain as your painfully attractive work crush. He was not supposed to flirt back, he was definitely not supposed to remember your favorite snacks, ask if you'd slept, or look at you like you personally softened something inside him every single shift.
"Why are we acting like this is a funeral?" Javadi asked, smiling. "He likes you. That's a good thing."
Her smile slowly disappeared when she noticed you still looked seconds away from cardiac arrest.
Honestly, you still couldn't process any of it correctly, and now you knew it was only a matter of hours before you had to see him again.
"Oh my god." You suddenly stopped pacing. "What if I say I feel sick and then pretend to faint, and you say you're coming with me so we can both clock out early?"
"That would be... amazing." Trinity admitted. "But no."
You genuinely considered throwing yourself through the nearest window. Or maybe walking outside and waiting in the ambulance bay long enough for somebody to accidentally hit you. But before you could answer, or even move, you heard Whitaker quietly go "Oh" then Dana saying hello to someone outside.
You could've died right there because the second you turned around, you saw Jack Abbot walking toward the nurses station. Coffee in one hand and backpack hanging from his shoulder, looking unfairly attractive for somebody who hadn't even finished his twelve hours of rest.
Maybe he was feeling the same way you were.
And almost like he sensed it, his eyes lifted immediately toward the trauma room. Toward you.
You were still wearing the bright pink hoodie that was impossible to miss but out of everything happening around him, you still couldn't believe the very first thing he noticed was you.
Abbot's expression shifted slightly with confusion when he noticed all four of you suspiciously crowded inside the trauma room. One eyebrow lifted with visible amusement before the corner of his mouth pulled into a small grin. It was subtle but you knew him well enough to know he wasn't stupid.
Your eyes followed him automatically as he got closer, and suddenly you completely forgot how breathing worked. Once he passed by the room, he lightly tapped two fingers against the trauma room window in greeting without even slowing down. Then he kept walking toward the lockers like absolutely nothing had happened.
The second he disappeared down the hallway, Victoria's mouth dropped open.
"This is the worst day of my life." You whispered weakly, still staring at the hallway where Abbot had disappeared.
"And your shift hasn't even started yet." Trinity replied while walking out of the room.
Not helping at all.
This was it now. There was no avoiding it anymore.
If luck was somehow still slightly on your side (which you seriously doubted) maybe this was just the calm before the storm. Maybe suddenly the ER would completely explode with emergencies and you'd spend the next twelve hours separated on opposite sides of the hospital. Maybe you'd get stuck in triage all shift and never have to leave it. But the second you clocked in, it felt like Jack Abbot was suddenly everywhere.
Every hallway, the bay, even somehow leaving the bathroom exactly when you were walking past it.
Maybe this had always happened and you'd just never noticed before. But now that you knew there was tension between you, real tension and not platonic, everything felt different. Worse.
And to make it even more unbearable, he clearly enjoyed it.
Every chance he got, he somehow ended up beside you. Like he was curious to see how nervous he could make you before you completely short circuited.
The first time happened barely twenty minutes later. You were restocking supplies into the tiny cabinet in triage, trying desperately to think about literally anything except him, when someone suddenly stepped beside you.
"You came in early."
The second you heard his voice, your entire body jumped, making a few gauze packets fall straight onto the floor. God, are you serious?
You crouched immediately to grab them while he casually leaned against the litter beside you, coffee still in hand, looking entirely too relaxed for somebody currently ruining your nervous system.
His eyes never left you. That was the problem with Jack Abbot, he looked at people too confidently, like he already knew exactly what effect he had on them and unfortunately for you, he was right.
You could feel his gaze following every movement while you picked up the gauze, and something about seeing him standing over you like that made heat crawl embarrassingly fast up your neck, making you quickly shook your head, trying to physically force the thoughts away before they got worse.
You didn't exactly have experience with this kind of thing. Honestly, you barely had experience with men at all. Most of your past attempts at flirting usually ended with you avoiding eye contact until the other person gave up and none of those guys had ever looked like that. None of them had been older either, which somehow made this whole thing feel even more dangerous.
"Are you okay?" He asked before taking another slow sip of coffee.
"Mhm."
"You sure, Shortcake?" One of his eyebrows lifted slightly.
Your head snapped toward him instantly at the nickname, and that little grin on his face widened just enough for you to realize that he knew exactly what he was doing. You stood up quickly nearly smashing your head directly into the metal shelf hanging from the wall but before you could hit it, Abbot's hand moved instantly above your head, stopping you from colliding with the sharp edge.
The gesture was small, almost automatic. Which somehow made it worse. He'd always been like that, like protecting you came naturally to him.
"Careful." He said softly.
Your eyes lifted toward him for half a second too long and the moment they met his, something in his expression shifted almost invisibly. Like he was watching every single nervous reaction cross your face in real time.
"Oh my god." You whispered under your breath before immediately escaping the room and leaving him standing there alone.
Within the next two hours, the entire ER somehow realized something was deeply wrong with you.
You dropped your pens constantly. Forgot to give the patients their stickers. Nearly handed someone the wrong chart. At some point you stress ate every single candy left in your pocket without even noticing.
"You dropped the blood pressure cuff three times." Shen whispered while walking beside you. "Is everything okay?"
"I'm just tired."
"Abbot said you came in early."
You stopped walking so abruptly Shen almost bumped into you. "I need to quit."
"You need a psychiatric."
Ellis suddenly appeared beside both of you like she'd materialized out of thin air. "What's wrong with the boss today?" She asked casually.
Shen shrugged, clearly not understanding what she meant, while you immediately kept walking before either of them could continue the conversation.
It was weird. Because it genuinely felt like something had suddenly snapped into place overnight. Like you'd become painfully aware of the invisible string that had apparently always existed between you and Jack Abbot.
And the worst part? Now that you knew it, you couldn't stop noticing it. Especially because he clearly wasn't helping.
If anything, he kept finding excuses to stay close to you. Whenever he handed you the tablet, his fingers brushed yours briefly before pulling away. Whenever he squeezed past you in crowded hallways, his hand would settle lightly against your back for just a second longer than necessary, guiding you forward while acting completely casual about it.
And every single time you looked at him, he was already looking at you first.
The hours dragged by painfully slow, each one bringing you closer to finally going home and sleep for ten consecutive years.
At least you were doing a decent job avoiding him until around five in the morning. That was when Lena sent both of you upstairs to pediatrics to deal with some transfer issue.
The second you heard your name attached to his, a long exhausted sigh escaped your body before you could stop it.
Jack appeared beside you a moment later, adjusting the stethoscope. Of course he looked good doing that too.
The two of you walked toward the elevators together in silence. Oddly enough, it wasn't awkward. Maybe both of you were too exhausted at this point to put actual energy into whatever this thing was becoming. Still, even without looking directly at him, you could feel him behind you constantly.
The elevator dinged open.
Jack stepped aside slightly and gestured for you to enter first with one lazy movement of his hand, just enough to make your stomach flip embarrassingly fast.
You stepped inside while he followed right behind you a second later, and the moment the elevator doors slid shut, your heart immediately started beating harder.
Suddenly you were very aware of the situation you were currently trapped in.
Small elevator. Jack Abbot standing directly beside you.
You focused aggressively on the glowing floor numbers above the doors instead of the man next to you, trying to force your brain to think about literally anything else.
The silence stretched for a few seconds. From the corner of your eye, you saw him open his mouth once like he was about to say something before stopping himself.
"Why are you avoiding me?" He finally asked, turning his head toward you.
"I'm not."
"You are." You could hear the grin in his voice before you even looked at him.
"I'm just tired."
"You can't even look at me." He said with a quiet laugh. Which unfortunately was true. "Did I do something wrong?"
"I did something wrong."
"You did?" He asked confused.
"You're my attending."
"Is that so?" He said, tilting his head. "I swiped right first, so..."
The elevator suddenly felt ten degrees hotter. You stared even harder at the floor numbers, silently begging for the doors to open already.
Jack leaned casually against the elevator wall beside you, arms crossed loosely now. Meanwhile you were one bad heartbeat away from passing out.
"Don't blame yourself." He said softly.
And against your better judgment, you finally looked at him properly. Huge mistake. Because he was already watching you with that same warm, entertained expression from earlier. Like he could practically see how flustered you were becoming and didn't mind it one bit. Maybe even liked it and somehow that made your entire face burn hotter.
You weren't used to this. You weren't used to men who flirted this confidently. While Jack Abbot looked at you like he already knew exactly what would happen if he got any closer.
The elevator suddenly jerked violently, both of you stumbled slightly before everything stopped completely. The lights flickered once and then the elevator went still.
Jack slowly looked up toward the ceiling and your stomach dropped instantly.
For a second, neither of you moved.
The soft hum of the emergency lights filled the elevator while your own heartbeat pounded so loudly you were convinced he could hear it too.
Nope. Absolutely not. You refused to get trapped inside a tiny elevator with Jack looking like that.
"This is actually my personal hell." You whispered, staring at the closed doors.
"You're being dramatic." A quiet laugh left him.
"I'm trapped in a metal box with my attending after accidentally matching with him on Tinder. I think I'm reacting appropriately."
That made him smile properly this time. You hated how much that worked on you.
He pushed himself off the elevator wall and reached toward the emergency panel, pressing the call button.
"Maintenance will reset it in a minute." He said casually.
Of course he sounded relaxed. Meanwhile you felt like your nervous system was slowly shutting down.
You crossed your arms tightly over your chest, trying to ignore how small the elevator suddenly felt. Or how good he smelled standing this close. Your eyes squeezed shut for a second and, for some reason, your brain immediately thought about that Trisha Paytas picture where she's choking herself.
That was literally you at that moment.
"You okay, Shortcake?" He asked again, quieter this time.
Jack was already looking at you again, like he was trying to read every reaction on your face until he finally got the truth out of you.
"Please stop calling me that."
"Why?" One side of his mouth lifted slightly. "You like it."
"I do not like it."
"Are you sure?" His voice dropped softer. "Every time I say it, I see something in your eyes."
You looked away immediately before he noticed the effect he was having on you.
Unfortunately for you, he definitely noticed.
His laugh slipped out again, low and tired and way too attractive for five in the morning.
Jack stepped a little closer then. Not enough to make you uncomfortable, but enough for your entire body to immediately become aware of it.
"You know." He said lightly. "Langdon told me you love it when I call you that."
"He told you that?" Your eyes snapped toward him in horror.
That cocky expression appeared again instantly, and the corner of his mouth twitched when he realized he got exactly the reaction he wanted from you.
You genuinely wanted the elevator to crush you alive.
He looked way too pleased with himself now, arms crossed too while watching you completely unravel in front of him. And the worst part was that your nervousness seemed genuinely cute to him. He clearly wasn't used to girls reacting like this around him. Most women probably flirted back confidently, meanwhile you could barely maintain basic eye contact.
"I hate you." You muttered weakly.
"No you don't."
The confidence in his voice should've annoyed you. Instead it made heat spread through places it absolutely shouldn't.
The elevator stayed silent around both of you for another moment. Neither of you looked away this time.
Your brain kept screaming at you to say something normal. Something professional. Anything.
But then his eyes dropped to your mouth. And the second you realized you were looking at his lips too, the tension inside the elevator shifted so hard it almost felt physical.
Jack's expression softened slightly, like he was thinking about it too now. About how close he was standing and the fact that there was nobody else around.
Your stomach twisted nervously when his gaze slowly lifted back to yours again, like he was silently trying to figure out if you wanted this as much as he did.
And for one horrible second, you genuinely thought he was about to kiss you.
Both of you breathing heavier now, like the air inside the elevator had suddenly disappeared. Your pulse was probably completely tachycardic at this point, which honestly felt embarrassing considering all he was doing was looking at you.
Then he took another small step closer.
Your breath caught instantly.
With his head tilted slightly down now, he searched for your eyes again before his gaze dropped back to your lips for half a second. And without even realizing it, you nervously licked your own lips.
The effect that had on him was immediate.
You stopped hearing everything around you for a moment. There was only him. Until the elevator doors suddenly slammed open with a loud mechanical ding.
Both of you pulled apart slowly, almost reluctantly, like it took actual effort to force distance back between you.
Joy and Shen stood outside the elevator staring at both of you in confusion.
"Oh, okay." Joy said slowly.
You immediately walked out so fast it almost counted as fleeing. Meanwhile behind you, Jack cleared his throat once before casually following after you like absolutely nothing had happened at all.
summary: your boyfriend accidentally brings home his stethoscope, so you use it to check his heartrate.
pairing: frank langdon x girlfriend!reader
tags: 18+, mdni, afab reader, no use of y/n, established relationship, fluff, small bit of grinding, sitting on frank's lap, mischievous seduction
word count: 1.8k
notes: why doctor boyfriend if not do doctor stuff to him :]
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The day is winding down. Aureate light streams in through your half-unfolded blinds, flooding your living room with natural lighting. The only other sources of lights are the numerous candles littering all flat surfaces, matching the sunset that’s dimming outside.
Evening tends to be your favorite part of the day. No more responsibilities now that your workday was over, just finishing up on the numerous things that had to be done before you were able to tuck yourself into bed and let the day wash away. Plus, that meant your boyfriend would be leaving his day shift, heading straight to your apartment to slouch into your arms and moan about how exhausting his day had been.
Bubbles pop in your sink as your hands duck into the warm water, fingers closing around the silverware floating near the bottom. You hum softly to the music floating through your house from your living room TV, fully entranced by the repetitive task of scrubbing at dishes and placing them in your drying rack. A single plate of dinner sits on the other side of your kitchen, covered in saran wrap to stay warm and clean, ready for Frank when he gets home.
You raise your head at the sound of keys outside your door, a smile already pulling at your lips. The door creaks open a moment later, revealing your boyfriend one glimpse at a time. His fingers around the door, his shoe, then his knee, slowly followed by every other part of him.
As usual, he looks ragged, weary from a long day. Multiple strands of hair droop over his forehead, tickling his eyebrows. He looks down as he kicks off of his shoes, those pieces staying stubborn as he lifts his head back up.
“Hey, baby,” he greets quietly. His voice usually tended to be softer when he came home, ears still ringing from the loud environment of the hospital, but you didn’t mind it. It fit the quiet and calm environment you tried to turn your apartment into for his arrival.
Keeping your hands in the sink, you lean back against him when his arm curls around your waist. His chin tucks into the dip between your collarbone and neck, watching as you scrub leisurely at a dish.
You tilt your head to press your temple against his head, smiling like a lovestruck fool. “How was work?” You ask, moving as slowly as possible to tuck the dish into the drying rack. One hand reaches in to pull the plug from the drain while the other reaches behind you to curl around his waist, squeezing at him playfully. “Save any lives?”
He groans, face pressing further into your skin as he rubs his cheek against your jaw like a cat. “Exhausting. Glad to be home with you.” The words are muffled as he presses his mouth to your neck, placing a chaste kiss there.
Once you’ve finished drying off your hands, you turn to face him, both hands now sliding around his waist. You press your chin into his sternum, blinking up at him. “I’m glad you’re home, too.”
As if reading your mind, he dips his head down to press a gentle kiss to your lips, shoulders lowering as he relaxes against you. After he pulls away, he bumps his nose against yours, moving to press a kiss to your cheekbone before finally untangling from you apart from one hand on your hip.
“‘m gonna shower.” Frank raises his hand to brush it through his hair, giving your skin a squeeze. “And then we can watch a movie?”
You nod, covering his hand with your own. “As long as you don’t fall asleep.”
He gives you an almost bashful smile. “No promises.” Leaning down, he presses a parting kiss to your forehead before finally disappearing out of the kitchen. “I’ll be right back.”
After he leaves, you busy yourself with more cleaning up. Once he was out of the shower, you would be too busy spending as much time with him as possible, leading to your mess piling up until you managed to find another moment of free time. You always had to find these windows of opportunities to actually focus on getting things done.
The shower is still running by the time you finish tidying your kitchen, a groan every once in a while the only sign that Frank hadn’t fallen asleep beneath the spray. You glance around to assure you’ve finished everything, focus landing on his backpack, lying abandoned next to his shoes.
Well, there was no such thing as a bad time to gain some girlfriend points.
Kneeling on the floor, you unzip the backpack slowly. Reaching in, you expect to pull out just his lunchbox, however your fingers brush against something cool and metal instead. Curiosity quickly wins out, untangling it from whatever he had shoved in there and pulling it out.
His stethoscope glimmers beneath the golden glow in your apartment. The calligraphy “L” on the bell glints at you tauntingly, as if mocking you with how expensive it is. Frank had lost his old one a few months ago, meaning that you had to listen to a few days of whining about how he had to spend seventy-five-ish dollars just to do his job.
Placing the ear tips in both ears, you press the bell to your own chest and listen to the thud of your own heart. It’s so loud in your ear that you don’t hear Frank’s sock-covered feet padding towards you, hair still wet from his shower.
“Fuck, did I bring that home?” He groans, louder now that he’s had some time to relax. Both hands go onto your hips as he stands above you. “Meant to leave it in my locker.”
You grin as you look up at him, pulling one of the tubes out so you could hear him better. “I’m not complaining. This is fun.”
Taking off the stethoscope, you hang it around your neck. One hand curls into the fabric of his sweatpants to pull yourself up off the ground, his hand curling beneath your forearm to help you up. You use that as an opportunity to grab his wrist, turning and pulling him over to the couch. “Sit, sit, sit.”
Frank watches you with a look of pure amusement as he settles back on the couch, stretching out his legs as you settle beside him. Returning the headset back onto your ears, you press the bell to his chest. “How do I know if something’s wrong?”
“It doesn’t sound like badump, badump?” He jokes.
You scrunch your nose up in playful annoyance, the hand not holding the chestpiece reaching out to poke at his chest. “Be serious, doctor,” you scold. “I’m trying to make sure you’re not dying on me.”
That pulls a laugh out of him, heartbeat thumping a bit faster in your ears. An idea sparks in your brain at how easy it was to audibly raise his heartrate, the corner of your mouth pulling up into a smirk.
“Excuse me.” You sit up on your knees before throwing a leg over his lap, situating yourself down on his thighs. Your knees press into his hips as you squirm slightly, attempting to get comfortable.
Once you’ve settled, his hands on your thigh and thumbs rubbing circles into your skin, you focus back on his heartbeat. You must seem really focused on the way it picks up, because he laughs again. “Are you having fun, baby?”
“I have a diagnosis.” You sing-song the words, glancing up at him. You squirm once more, the apex of your thighs pressing directly in the spot that makes his legs tense beneath you. “I think you have a crush on me.”
Frank’s fingers tighten from where they’ve settled at the top of your thighs, fingertips pressing pale circles into your skin, exposed from the way your shorts ride up higher. Despite the way his pulse thrums even faster in your ears, he still smiles as he watches your face. “What led you to that conclusion?”
You hum in response, giving him a look before shrugging. “Your heartrate picks up when I do this.” Bracing the hand not holding the diaphragm against his abdomen, you give a singular roll of your hips, just enough pressure to hear a sharp intake of breath through the stethoscope’s headset. His grip on you also tightens, a subtle attempt of making you stop moving.
“We call that tachycardic,” he breathes out. His pupils have slowly grown in size, usurping the baby blue you’ve loved since the first time you looked into them. “Heartrate faster than normal resting rates.”
A smirk blooms on your lips, sitting a bit higher on his lap. The bell falls a bit lower, unable to hear his heartbeat and only slightly able to hear his breathing now, but you’re more focused on how he looks like this. Hair unruly as it airdries, pupils blown as he watches you, lips parted to breathe out all of his heavy exhales.
As much as he tried not to be, Frank was always easy to read. In the way he shoved his hands into his pockets when faced with a situation where he needed to think harder, or how he propped his arm up on the back of the couch whenever he wanted you to tuck yourself into his side. Maybe it was the fact that your eyes never strayed far from him when he was in your space, but it was pretty easy to tell what he wanted at all times.
And right now? His eyes are only on you.
Your fingers curl into the fabric of his shirt, body rolling to drag along his again. Finally, he pushes back on your hips, grunting as he attempts to push you away.
“I have a diagnosis of my own for you,” he murmurs into the quiet bubble surrounding the both of you. His spine straightens off of the back of the couch, breath brushing against your lips.
Fingertips trace a spark up your spine before his hand curls around the back of your neck, applying pressure to the sensitive spots beneath your ears. “You have ulterior motives.”
A grin blossoms on your lips, head leaning back into his touch. A challenge of your own. “No idea what you’re talking about.”
Frank gives you a hum of mock acknowledgement, eyes flickering down your body, gaze molten at the sight of you perched in his lap. When he glances up at you, he’s wearing a matching smile. His fingers move from the back of your neck to the back of your head, pulling you down. “C’mere and kiss me, baby.” He mumbles in the limited space between your mouths.
You let a giggle slip out right before you finally press your lips to his, the sound muffled by the kiss. His hand stays in your hair the entire time, manuevering your head to kiss you deeper, until your lungs are sparse of oxygen and your lips are kiss-bitten and rosy.
When he finally pulls away, he grins against your lips. “I’m assuming no movie tonight?”
pairing: jack abbot x fem!reader ( no use of y/n )
summary: in which you get drunk, and jack abbot takes it upon himself to take care of you.
content warnings: implied age gap, sort of a size difference?, reader's drunk so she's veryyyy dizzy, they are kind of aware of the fact that they like each other but also they're doing nothing about it, i think that's it? lmk if i missed something
a/n: hii!! this is my first jack fic ever, so i'm quite nervous!! but i hope you like this <3
The bar was loud enough to be comfortable, quiet enough to pretend you were having actual conversations. You'd stopped trying to follow conversations along about an hour ago.
Your finger traced the condensation on your glass.Under the table, your foot found Jack's. You'd started this maybe thirty minutes ago, toying with his foot idly while he talked to Robby about whatever. You weren't listening anymore.
Jack let you.
He didn't pause his conversation or acknowledge it at all, except he also didn't move his foot away. So you kept going, brushing against him, hooking your foot around his, pulling back, finding him again. A lazy game only you were playing.
After a while, your foot got tired. You stopped toying and just settled your foot over his, letting it rest there and he held it.
You'd been careful, obviously. You knew which leg was his prosthetic. But honestly? You were pretty sure he'd have let you do it anyway. Jack was like that with you. Let you get away with things he'd never let anyone else try.
Jack kept talking and holding your foot. But when you stopped moving, he turned.
You were slumped slightly in your seat, one hand against your cheek, finger still tracing the glass mindlessly. The position made your lips pucker slightly, your focus entirely on the nothing you were drawing on the condensation. Bored. Tired. Drunk enough that you'd forgotten to pretend otherwise.
Jack had to suppress a smile at that. He lifted your foot gently, then set it back down and slowly untangled his from yours.
"You okay?" he mumbled, low enough that Robby wouldn't hear over the bar noise.
"Yeah." You kept tracing the glass.
Jack turned his body fully toward you now. His hand came up, barely touching, just fingertips as he brushed your hair away from your face, tucking it behind your ear from the side he was seeing.
"I'm not sure you are, sweetheart."
He let his hand drop from your hair, and for the first time all night, got a proper look at your side profile.
You finally lifted your head off your hand and turned to him. "No, I am. I promise." You rubbed your eye softly.
Jack shot you a look, that look, the one that said he didn't believe you but wasn't going to argue.
He turned back to Robby, to whatever conversation they'd been having. But he stayed close. And as he did, his hands found the scarf you'd been wearing all night. He started to work it loose, realizing exactly how overheated you must have been.
You let him.
Because it's Jack. And Jack takes care of you. Always has. Always will.
Even Robby didn't budge, kept talking like nothing was happening, because honestly? This was just how Jack was with you. How he'd always been and Robby had stopped mentioning it months ago.
At some point, Jack finished with the scarf and spoke without looking at you. "You should stop wearing that so much." He folded it carefully. "It's May."
You were slumped against the back of your seat now, warm and loose and not really tracking much. "It's really pretty, though." You sounded like a child. But that was a given. You were drunk off your ass.
"Yeah. It is." Jack glanced at you and shook his head fondly.
While you slouched and let the bar noise wash over you, he reached for your bag and opened it. He carefully tucked the folded scarf inside, then set your purse back down within your reach.
Usually you'd hang out with Trinity at the bar, but she'd gone God knows where with Victoria at some point, leaving you stranded at the table with Jack and Robby and their never ending medical talk. Not that you minded, necessarily. Jack was here.
Plus you were tired. You hadn't slept well, hadn't slept well in days, honestly, though you'd never admit it. So you had no idea why you'd even come in the first place. Maybe it was because this was the first day off you'd had in ages. And sitting at home alone, watching baking competitions while you ate chocolate straight from the wrapper, had sounded kind of sad. So you'd come out.
Maybe it was also your chance to see Jack in outside clothes. Not that you didn't enjoy seeing him in his scrubs, you did, obviously, you weren't blind, but there was something about him in regular clothes that hit different. The way his jeans fit. The shirt he’d worn tonight was dark grey, the sleeves tight against his biceps.
Too bad you were too drunk to really appreciate it tonight.
The bar seemed louder now. You weren't sure if that was your drunkenness perceiving it that way or if the crowd had actually picked up. Either way, the noise was starting to press against your skull in a way that wasn't entirely pleasant.
You noticed a little drip of beer left in your glass, just a swallow, really, and you picked it up and drank it, plopping the glass back down satisfied that the little yellow was fully gone now.
Your not quite existent thoughts were interrupted by Jack’s hand brushing up and down your back. "How are you feeling?" He leaned in closer, mouth near your ear.
Ah. The bar had gotten louder. You weren't imagining it.
You turned your head, slightly caught off guard by how close he was, close enough to count his eyelashes, but you didn't pull back.
"Okay." You mumbled it, then turned your head away again, facing forward. Jack stared at you anyway. You could feel it.
"Jack."
"Hm?"
"Stop staring. I'm fine."
He chuckled, a sound you felt more than heard. "You're not fine."
His hand stopped moving, resting flat against the middle of your back. "Come on. I'm taking you home." His thumb started moving again, just brushing back and forth.
You sighed loudly, turning your head back to him. "Will you carry me home?" You were joking. Obviously. Being ridiculous. Drunk and warm and not wanting to move.
"Sure." Jack said it like it was nothing. Like carrying you home was the most natural thing in the world. He was already scooting off his seat.
"Jack!" You smiled despite yourself, rubbing your eyes tiredly again.
He smiled back, softly. And you knew, even drunk, even with your head spinning slightly, that he would have carried you either way. Joking or not.
That was just Jack.
The bar swayed slightly as you scooted out of the booth. Or maybe that was just you. Hard to tell at this point.
Jack was already standing, waiting at the edge of the seat with his hands.
You stared at his hands. Not on purpose.
Okay, maybe a little on purpose. But in your defense, they were right there, in front of you, and you were drunk enough that staring felt justified. His fingers, the way his knuckles looked, the silver band on his ring finger.
You stared anyway. Your drunk brain had apparently decided this was fine. Normal and acceptable behavior.
Luckily for you, Jack was good at reading the room. Or, more accurately, good at pretending he hadn't noticed whatever embarrassing thing you were currently doing. He tilted his head slightly, trying to catch your eyes. "Come on, sweetheart."
You finally glanced up, shaking whatever expression was on your face into something less obvious, and took his hands. He pulled you gently off the seat, and then the world decided to keep moving even though you'd stopped.
You stood there for a moment. Then another moment. Then a moment too long. Your eyes squeezed shut as you gripped his hands, waiting for the dizziness to pass.
Jack didn't move, instead he stood there, watching you with something soft in his expression that you couldn't see because your eyes were still closed.
After a beat too long, he got worried. "Hey." His voice was quiet. "Don't sleep on me." He let go of one of your hands and touched your cheek. Barely.
Your eyes opened immediately. "'M not asleep." The words came out mushier than you intended. "Just dizzy. Really dizzy." You blinked at him, trying to focus. "Please don't let go."
"I won't." He dropped his hand from your cheek but kept the other one firmly wrapped around yours. "You okay with me just holding your hand, or do you need more support?"
"Waist." You didn't even hesitate. Didn't even have it in you to be embarrassed about how quickly that came out.
Jack smiled. "Okay."
He didn't say anything about how that was exactly what he'd been hoping for. Didn't let on that his heart did something dumb when you said it. Just gently grabbed your arm, draped it over his shoulder, and slid his own arm around your waist. "You good?" He turned his head to look at you, close enough that you could see how hazel his eyes were.
"Good." You smiled up at him.
The walk to his car was long. Way too long, honestly. Jack had parked outside and every step felt like three. You stumbled twice. He just tightened his arm around your waist and kept going.
At some point you realized you hadn't said goodbye to Trinity or Victoria. You mumbled something about it, half panicked and Jack just shook his head. "It's okay. Robby will let them know."
Eventually, finally, you reached his car. And then he had to let go of you to get the door open. You groaned loudly. The kind of groan that belonged in a teenager having a tantrum, except you were a grown adult who was simply too drunk and too tired to care about dignity.
Jack started chuckling.
"You find all of this too funny." You leaned heavily against his car, glaring at him with zero actual heat. "I don't like it." He was still chuckling as he opened the door. Soft chuckles that made him shake his head slightly. "Stop making fun of me." You tried to sound stern. It came out sleepy.
"I'm not." He was smiling. "I promise." His hand found your waist again and you felt yourself relax into the touch before you could stop it. "Watch your head."
He guided you down into the seat carefully, one hand on your waist, the other hovering near the top of the door frame like he'd catch you if you forgot to duck. Which, honestly? You might have. The night was fuzzy.
You plopped down into the seat, your head lulling against the headrest like it was too heavy to hold up on its own. The leather was cool against your warm cheek. Nice. You might just stay here forever.
"There you go." He said it quietly.
Jack pushed the door wider, so he could bend down to your level. The interior light spilled over both of you as he leaned in, reaching across you for the seatbelt.
"You smell nice," you mumbled.
He clicked the belt into place. "I smell like a bar."
"You smell nice." You said it again, correcting him.
Jack paused, looking at you properly now. The kind of look that missed nothing. He realized then that you were much drunker than he'd thought.
He smiled anyway, shook his head slightly. He reached up and carefully tucked your hair behind your ear like it was muscle memory now, so you could see him better.
Not that you were looking. Your eyes were closed again.
But then his fingers brushed your skin, and your eyes fluttered open, startled by the closeness. He didn't mention your staring, didn't comment on how your breath caught slightly. Just held your gaze for a moment, before speaking quietly.
"You want to go to your place or mine?"
Your eyes went wide. Wide enough that if you'd been sober, you'd have been mortified. "Is your place an option?" The excitement in your voice was impossible to miss.
Jack's eyebrows lifted slightly and he pulled back a fraction. His hand rested on the side of the door, steadying himself.
"Yeah." His voice was measured. "I'm concerned about you. You've had way too much alcohol. I'd rather not have you out of my sight."
You tilted your head, processing this. "I can take care of myself."
His arm traveled up to the top of the door frame now, leaning in slightly as he looked down at you. The position made him seem bigger somehow. "I know you can." He reached down, catching your hand just as you were about to rub your eyes again. His fingers wrapped around yours gently, stopping you. "But I'd still like to help."
You stared at him. Then your eyes dropped to his hand holding yours. "Okay." It came out small. Nothing like your usual self.
Jack smiled. Then he let go and straightened up, pulling the door closed.
You watched him through the window as he walked around the front of the car, the night dark behind him. He opened his door, slid into the driver's seat, and glanced over at you. "Doing okay?"
"Yeah."
He nodded back, satisfied with that, and started the engine.
The ride was quiet. Your eyes were closed, just letting the movement of the car rock you gently while the warmth from the seat seeped into your tired body.
"I can't wait to see your home." The words came out before you fully realized you'd spoken them.
Jack glanced at you briefly, then back at the road. A red light was coming up, and he slowed the car to a stop. "Why's that?"
You tilted your head against the seat, turning to look at him properly. The streetlight above cast warm orange light through the windshield, catching the lines of his face.
"'Cause I just wanna know more about you." The words hung in the air between you, and you watched the slight shift in his eyes, the way he held your gaze a moment longer than necessary.
Then he nodded. "Guess you will in a couple of minutes."
You smiled. "Do you have a cat?"
"No, I don't have a cat." He paused, glancing at you again as the light turned green and he started moving. "You think I'm capable of taking care of a cat?"
You raised your eyebrow at him, still smiling. "You're doing a great job with me right now." He'd been taking care of you all night. All the time, really, if you thought about it. Which you tried not to. Usually.
Jack turned his head toward you for a second, but long enough for you to catch the look on his face. He was surprised, maybe, like he hadn't expected you to say that. "You're comparing yourself to a cat?"
You shrugged. "Cats are nice. I'm nice."
He smiled. "Yeah. You are nice."
You felt your face warm, shy in a way you hadn't been a moment ago. "Yeah?" you asked, voice smaller now.
"Very nice." He said it like he meant it.
You made a happy sound. The kind of sound you couldn't have stopped if you tried, because Jack Abbot just called you very nice, and he was your boss, and also your crush, and also currently driving you to his apartment, and none of that made sense but all of it felt right.
"You're nice too," you said softly.
Jack didn't respond. Just kept driving, eyes on the road, but you caught the barely there smile at that.
You stared out the window for a while, watching streetlights blur past. But your brain was still turning, still willing to say things you'd never say sober. "Ellis said you're nicer to me than to everyone else."
There. You'd said it. Put it out in the world.
Jack's hands tightened on the wheel. Ah. He got it now. Drunk you was honest. Vulnerable. The kind of vulnerable that usually hid behind jokes and deflection and pretending not to care.
"Would that be a problem?" he asked, testing the ground.
You shook your head, still looking out the window. "No." you paused. "I just wonder why."
The car slowed. You heard the engine cut out, felt the sudden stillness settle around you. You glanced outside but you didn't really look. Pretended to, though.
"Seriously?" he asked.
You met his eyes. And suddenly you weren't just drunk anymore, you were aware of how the car felt smaller now.
"You're asking too many questions tonight, Jack." You grumbled it, but it came out nervous. The kind of nervous you get when you ask something you weren't sure you wanted the answer to. "Just answer the question."
He chuckled. Almost nervous, if Jack Abbot even got nervous. And you realized, dimly, that you'd never heard him nervous before.
"I'm not answering this one." Your heart dropped, but he kept going. "Because you know the answer already."
He was staring at you and you stared back, frozen, because yes. Yes, you did know. You'd known for a while, probably. Known in the way he looked at you, the way he found you in a crowded room, the way he let you get away with things he'd never let anyone else try. Known in the foot under the table, the scarf folded into your bag, known in the way he was driving you to his place.
But hearing it straight up like this while drunk off your mind was something you hadn't expected.
You looked away first. Your heart was too loud, your face too warm, your brain too fuzzy to process the weight of what just happened.
The silence stretched.
Then, softly Jack spoke again. "Come on. Let's get you inside."
You bit your lip, watching as Jack got out of the car. The door closed with a solid thunk, and then he was walking around the front, headlights catching him briefly before he disappeared into shadow, then reappearing at your door. He opened it softly, the night air rushing in cool against your warm skin, and leaned down to undo your seatbelt.
"Didn't mean to make you uncomfortable." He said quietly. "I'm sorry."
You shook your head immediately. "Not uncomfortable." You reached for his hands without thinking. "Just…" You searched for the word. It floated somewhere in your fuzzy brain, just out of reach. "Shy?" You smiled up at him, hoping that was the right one.
He smiled back. "Shy is good."
You smiled back, warmth spreading through your chest. Then he was helping you out of the car, guiding you up and out until you were standing, leaning against the doorframe for balance. He shut your door and the car beeped twice as it locked.
You stayed leaned against the car for a moment, looking at him. He stood in front of you now, arms crossed loosely over his chest, watching you.
"I know your answer." You said softly, barely meeting his eyes. "You know. Before. I know it."
He uncrossed his arms, let them hang at his sides. "Good."
You smiled at him and he smiled right back. "I hope you say it properly one day."
"I plan to, sweetheart." He promised. "Trust me."
You watched him for a long moment. "Soon?"
The word came out smaller than you meant it to. You reached for his hand, not as dizzy anymore or maybe just not noticing it, and he took it immediately. His thumb brushed across your knuckles.
"Soon." He smiled softly.
You smiled back, heart full to bursting, before finally letting him guide you away from the car. He kept looking at you as you walked, making sure you weren't about to fall. You weren't. You were mostly dizzy on love, if that made any sense at all. It probably didn't. You didn't care.
He helped you up the steps to his building, one hand firm on your waist, the other ready to catch you if you stumbled. You managed just fine, though, even found yourself grinning at the ordinary miracle of walking and of his hand warm through your shirt.
At his door, he fumbled with keys for a second before finding the right one. The lock clicked open.
"You're rich," you mumbled as you stepped inside.
He chuckled behind you. "Well, I'd hope so after twenty years of being a doctor."
You giggled at that and you heard him smile even before you turned to see it. He pushed the door open wider, and you managed to walk in on your own, looking around as the space opened up in front of you.
"Woah." yeah, he was most definitely rich.
Jack locked the door behind you, and then he stepped closer, hands coming up to brush softly at your waist, steadying you as you took it all in.
"You like it?" His breath warm against the back of your neck as he helped you out of your jacket.
"You're not messy!" you said, maybe too loudly. "Everything's organized."
You pulled off your shoes and tried your best to put them away neatly by the door. They ended up slightly crooked but together, which felt like a win.
Jack sighed behind you, worried more than anything. You heard him hang your jacket and bag up.
When you turned around, he was watching you with that look. The one that probably meant that he was calculating your blood alcohol content, probably whether you needed water or food or just to be sat down before you fell over.
"You're worrying," you said.
He raised an eyebrow. "I'm always worrying."
"About me?"
He held your gaze for a long moment. "Yeah. About you."
You smiled and then you stepped further into the apartment, still taking everything in, when Jack glanced down at your feet. His eyes caught on two different socks and he grinned to himself.
"Jack, you have a really nice house," you mumbled, wandering toward a shelf against the wall. It was covered in random things. A dusty trophy from some old sports thing. A couple of framed photos, faces you didn't recognize. Some diplomas. A stack of books with worn spines.
"Thanks, sweetheart." His voice came from somewhere behind you. "But we should really get you to sober up."
You turned your head toward him. He was standing there watching you, arms crossed loosely over his chest, a small smile playing at his mouth.
"Am I sleeping here?" You weren't on your tiptoes anymore, trying to see the top shelf. Instead you turned to him, meeting his eyes.
"Would you like to sleep here?" He asked it gently, giiving you the choice.
"Would you like me to sleep here?"
He didn't hesitate. "Of course I do."
"Okay." You tucked a piece of hair behind your ear, suddenly shy again. "If I'm not a bother, I'd like to stay."
He crossed the distance between you, hand finding your lower back as he led you down a short hallway. "You're never a bother."
He stopped at a door, pushed it open, and flicked on the light. His bathroom was clean, just like the rest of his place. He motioned you inside. "Wait here."
He pulled the toilet seat down and you plopped down gratefully, suddenly aware of how tired you actually were.
Jack disappeared. You heard him in the kitchen, water running, a cabinet opening and closing. You let your head rest against the wall behind you and your eyes drifted to his shower.
There was a small collection of bottles lined up along the ledge. Shampoo, conditioner, body wash. Nothing fancy. Just regular guy stuff. But you found yourself staring anyway, head tilted, squinting slightly as you tried to read the labels. Trying to figure out what kind of shampoo Jack Abbot used.
You were still squinting when he appeared in front of you, holding a glass of water. You startled just slightly.
"Drink up." He held the cup out, waiting. You mumbled a small "thank you" before reaching for it, but your hands were less coordinated than you'd realized, and instead of taking it properly you just covered his hand with yours.
He let you. His other hand came up to brush your hair gently away from your face. You felt his fingers graze your temple, your cheek, tucking strands behind your ear the way he always did.
When you lowered the glass, he caught the corner of your mouth with his thumb, brushing away a stray drop of water.
You sighed, content and suddenly so much less thirsty. "Thank you."
Jack took the glass from your hands and set it on the counter, out of the way. Then he crouched down in front of you. "How you feeling, sweetheart?"
You considered the question. Actually considered it, instead of just saying fine like you always did. "Tired," you admitted. "But good. Really good."
He nodded slowly. "Dizzy? Nauseous?"
You shook your head. "Just tired. And warm. And happy." The last part slipped out before you could stop it. You felt your cheeks warm, but you didn't take it back.
He smiled. "Happy's good."
He reached up to softly remove the hair clip from your hair. You felt the tension release as your hair fell loose around your shoulders.
"I look like a mess. I'm sorry." You mumbled it, eyes dropping to your lap. "I got all dressed up for you, and now I'm drunk sitting on your toilet, and I'm going to regret this so terribly tomorrow."
Something flickered in Jack's eyes. Something that he didn't let himself say out loud, like how at least you'd wake up in his bed, at least he'd be there when you did. He stopped himself. But he couldn't help latching onto the other part.
"You got dressed up for me?"
His voice was soft as he reached up again, finding another clip, then another. Little ones now scattered on his sink. He sank back to his knees in front of you, winced slightly, because kneeling on a prosthetic leg wasn't comfortable. But he stayed there anyway. His hands found your knees as he brushed back and forth slowly.
"Yeah. I wanted to look pretty for you."
The words landed somewhere in his chest. He smiled gently, thumb tracing a small circle on your knee. "You always look pretty."
You shook your head immediately, already sighing. "No I don't. Not right now."
Jack shook his head right back at you. "Yeah you do."
You opened your mouth to argue and he just shook his head again. You stopped immediately.
"Uh uh. Enough of that." He shook his head again. "I'm your boss. I'm the one who has the last word here."
You stared at him for a second, then you grinned. "Okay."
He smiled back and started to push himself up. You caugh his reaction this time, the slight grimace, the way he braced himself on the sink, the small groan he tried to hide.
"Are you okay?" you asked concerned.
He waved it off. "Fine. Old man stuff." He stood there for a moment, catching his breath, then looked down at you. "You want to sleep in these clothes?"
You considered it, chewing on your lip for a second. Then you shrugged. "Actually, I wanna wear your clothes."
That stopped him cold. He halted mid step, turning to look back at you. You were smiling up at him with that huge grin. You knew exactly what you were doing. You were aware, on some level, what those words did something to him.
"You're terrible, you know that?" he mumbled, but there was no heat in it. He reached for your hand, pulling you gently up from the toilet seat.
You took his hand, steadying yourself against him, and grinned even wider. "You like me. That means I can't be that terrible."
He shook his head, smiling despite himself. He led you out of the bathroom and down the hall.
His bedroom was nice. A dresser with a few things on top. A lamp on the nightstand. A window with the blinds half drawn, letting in slivers of streetlight
"Nice bed," you mumbled softly, taking in the way he'd properly made it, sheets tucked in, pillows fluffed, a blanket folded at the foot.
"It's good enough," he replied, already moving toward his closet.
You stood there watching him, not even trying to hide it. He was choosing something for you and your drunk brain found that unbearably sweet.
He turned around holding sweatpants and a t-shirt and tilted his head slightly. A question. Okay?
You nodded, reaching out to take them from his hands. The fabric was warm and you hugged them without thinking.
"I'll be in the bathroom. Just call for me when you're done."
You nodded again, suddenly more tired now that you were in his room with his lamp casting warm light and his bed right there looking so comfortable. He slipped out, closing the door softly behind him.
In the bathroom, Jack leaned against the sink for a moment. He turned on the cold water, splashed some on his face, stared at himself in the mirror. You were here. In his home. Sleepy and honest and practically admitting you liked him. Dressed up for him. He pressed his palms against the counter and exhaled slowly, aware of his heart beating faster than it had any right to.
He changed quickly. Sweatpants, a clean shirt. Brushed his teeth. Tried to look normal, tried to calm down, tried to remember how to be just Jack instead of Jack who had you in his bedroom wearing his clothes.
Then you called his name.
He opened the door and walked down the hall. And yeah, the sight didn't help his heart at all.
You were standing by his bed, well, standing was generous. More like swaying gently, having clearly tried to fold your clothes and put them on the chair in the corner. The folding hadn't gone well. Your shirt was half draped over the chair back, your jeans in a heap on the floor next to it. But you were wearing his clothes. His shirt swallowed you whole, the hem falling to your thighs. His sweatpants were rolled at the waist and still too big, pooling slightly at your feet.
He smiled to himself, trying to get his heart to calm down as he reached for the bed, pushing back the sheets, getting it ready for you.
The silence behind him lasted just a little too long.
Ah. You wanted a compliment. "You look as pretty as ever." he said over his shoulder, smiling at you.
"I like your clothes," you giggled, happy over receiving the compliment you'd been waiting for. You shuffled closer until you were standing next to him.
He turned to look at you fondly. "Like them on you, too."
His hand gently found your waist and he guided you backward, lowering you onto the bed until you were sitting, then lying down, your head meeting the pillow he'd just fluffed. You went easily. He thought about how different this was from your usual shyness, how you'd normally get flustered and look away if he got too close. But here, now, you were more than happy to jump into his bed.
But, who was he to judge? He loved having you here.
"God, I'm so tired." You mumbled it, hand coming up to rub your eyes again. "And drunk. So drunk."
Jack still stood above you, watching. He loved the way you curled slightly toward the warmth of his pillow and the way you looked so perfect in his bed.
"I know, sweetheart." He said softly "Just rest now." He reached down and pulled the blanket up over you.
He, then, reached for your shoulder and turned you onto your side. "That's better," he mumbled softly, fingers brushing your hair away from your face. His hand lingered for just a second on the curve of your cheek.
"Sleep well," he whispered. "I'll get you some ibuprofen for your headache and some water tomorrow, yeah?" He gestured vaguely toward the nightstand, even though you couldn't see it. "They'll be right here. On the night table."
You just hummed in response, already slipping under, already gone. You burrowed deeper into his pillow.
He started to pull away, to move toward the door, when your hand shot out. "Don't leave." He looked down at you, at your hand wrapped around his wrist. "What do I get out of being in your bed if you're not here?" you murmured, turning onto your back to look up at him properly.
His heart stopped. He was sure he didn't hear you right.
"Please?" you added, softer now.
"Yeah. Okay." he replied quietly as he rounded the bed slowly, walked to the other side, and laid down at a distance. So much distance you could have fit another person between you. He laid on his back, staring at the ceiling, hands folded over his stomach.
You propped yourself on your forearms behind you, head tilted, staring at him with an open mouth. And then you started giggling.
"Jack Abbot." His name in your mouth was so wonderful, he wanted to close his eyes for a second to cherish it. "Are you nervous? Do I make you nervous?" You seemed genuinely delighted by this discovery. Thrilled, even.
He shot you a look. And yeah. Okay. He was laying very far away from you. The kind of distance a teenager would put between themselves and a date on the first night. He was old enough to not be nervous about this.
But here, now, with you in his bed wearing his clothes and looking at him like that? Of course he was nervous.
"Sweetheart." His voice came out quieter than he meant. "You're in my bed. What do you expect?" Honesty. He'd decided on honesty. "Of course I'm nervous."
You tilted your head, and then you were moving closer, until you were leaning on one elbow, looking down at him from above. Your hair fell forward, brushing against his shoulder. You'd brushed your teeth earlier, used his toothpaste, and you smelled like mint and him. It did something to him. "That's cute."
He huffed out a laugh, reacting the only way he knew when feeling this seen. "Sure."
You giggled again, that wonderful sound that seemed to live somewhere in his chest now, and then your hand found its way up to his chest. And that's when his heart stopped.
Not really. Obviously not really. But it felt like it stopped. Felt like everything stopped.
Your fingers traced patterns on his chest, circles, lines, nothing recognizable. Then they drifted lower, tracing random shapes on his stomach through the fabric of his shirt.
"I am really drunk," you murmured, "but I still know that I'm going to regret this tomorrow." You were watching your hand. "But being drunk also gives me an excuse to touch you. So I'm using it."
"You don't need an excuse to touch me." He watched you, enjoying the view of seeing your pretty face so close. "I promise you, sweetheart."
You tilted your head, looking at him, processing his words slowly, the way drunk people do.
"I'll take you up on that." You said softly. "A lot."
Jack Abbot had never ever felt more thrilled. "You do that, baby."
His hand found the back of your shoulder, gently guiding you down until your head was resting fully on his chest, right over his heart, letting you feel what you did to him.
His hand came up to the back of your head. His big hand engulfed it completely, fingers spreading through your hair, brushing through it slowly. His thumb moved gently against your scalp.
He felt you startle slightly at first and then relax. Your hand finally stopped moving on his stomach. He reached down with his other hand, grabbed the sheets, and pulled them up over you both.
Then he felt your ankle hooking gently over his, just like at the bar. And he smiled to himself in the dark.
He kept brushing through your hair. He remembered watching you once. You'd been stressed about something, pacing the break room, and you'd done this thing where you ran your own fingers through your hair, over and over, until you calmed down.
He hoped this helped.
He could feel it in the way you relaxed further, the way your breathing evened out, the way your body went heavy against his.
You were quiet for a long moment, so long he thought you'd fallen asleep, but then you spoke quietly. "I hope I remember this tomorrow."
He smiled before whispering, “I’ll make sure you do.”
reader being upset because she hears rumours that Langdon has a date coming up but she and Frank have been flirting for so long she thought he might ask her out. but it's just some miscomunication and a happy ending
date
pairing: frank langdon x fem!reader ( no use of y/n )
content warnings: nothing i think! besides maybe reader having awful communication issues
a/n: hai lovely! i hope you like this and thank you for requesting <3
"He's what?"
Your head snapped up so fast you felt a twinge in your neck. Perlah leaned against the counter, casual as could be, dropping what felt like a bomb directly into your lap.
"Apparently he has a date," Perlah whispered, though the wicked glint in her eyes suggested she had absolutely no intention of keeping this information quiet.
Princess, perched on a rolling stool beside you, nearly fell off. "No way." Her eyes went wide with delight. "With who?" She leaned forward, grateful for anything to break up the monotony of a 10 AM shift.
Perlah merely shrugged. "No one knows." But the look she shot Princess promised they would find out.
You sat frozen between them, watching their mouths move as they switched into rapid Tagalog, words flying back and forth over your head. Their voices faded into background noise as five words kept repeating on a loop.
Frank Langdon has a date.
The man you'd been crushing on since your very first month at The Pitt. The man who had spent the past several months doing things that made you wonder if maybe he felt the same way.
The way he'd find excuses to brush against you in the supply room. The coffees that appeared at your workstation whenever you pulled a double, always made exactly the way you liked them. The way his eyes would find yours during the worst cases.
You stared at the computer screen. The mouse sat motionless under your hand, cursor blinking uselessly on the discharge summary you'd abandoned mid sentence.
Frank Langdon has a date.
You bit down hard on your lower lip, the pain pushing back against the hot pressure building behind your eyes. Absolutely not. You were not going to cry in the middle of the ER over a man who, let's be honest, had never actually said anything. Had never made a move. Had never done more than hint and flirt and make you feel special in a hundred tiny ways that apparently meant nothing at all.
Get a grip.
You logged out of the computer, pushed your chair back, and walked directly into a wall of warm muscle.
"Woah there."
You knew that voice.
Frank's hands caught your upper arms, steadying you before you could stumble backward. His grip was warm even through the fabric of your scrubs. When you looked up, because of course you had to look up, the man was infuriatingly tall, he was already smiling.
Frank must have seen something in your face, because his own expression shifted almost immediately. The smile faded. "Hey. You okay?"
For one terrible moment, you couldn't speak. Couldn't do anything but stare at his face, at the genuine worry, and wonder how someone could look at you like that and then go on a date with someone else.
"Yeah, no, I'm fine. Sorry." You pulled away from his hands, ignoring the way your skin seemed to protest the loss of contact, and stepped around him. "Gotta check on a patient."
You didn't look back. If you looked back, you might see something in his eyes that would undo you completely, or worse, you might see nothing at all.
So you disappeared into the nearest patient room.
Behind you, Frank stood exactly where you'd left him. He stared after you, confusion etched into every line of his face, before his gaze slowly drifted to the nurses' station. Perlah and Princess suddenly found the computer screen fascinating. Neither would meet his eyes.
Busying yourself with patients barely helped. It did something, kept your hands moving, your mouth talking, your brain focused on vitals and medications and everything except the image of Frank Langdon on a date with someone who wasn't you. But the moment a room emptied, the moment you had two seconds to yourself, the thought came back.
Frank Langdon has a date.
You'd just finished discharging a teenager with a sprained ankle when you found yourself back at the central board, staring up at the rainbow of markers and patient names.
What patient should you take next? Didn't matter. Pick one. Anyone. Just keep moving.
"Hey."
The voice came from your left, close enough to make your heart seize. You didn't need to look to know who it belonged to. You'd know that voice anywhere.
You glanced up briefly. Just long enough to confirm it was him, standing there in his black scrubs, hair slightly disheveled, looking down at you with an expression you couldn't quite read.
Then your eyes were back on the board, fixed on a random patient name. "Hi," you managed, and even that single syllable came out too quiet, nothing like your usual voice.
Frank actually did a double take. He'd gotten used to your smile. The smile that would carry him through the next hour. But there was nothing now. Just a blank expression and eyes that refused to meet his.
He shifted his weight from one foot to the other, suddenly unsure of himself. His hands itched to reach for you, but something in your posture made him hold back.
"Want to take the fever one together?" The question came out softer than he intended. Not his usual style at all.
You bit your lip, still not looking at him. "Uh, no sorry." You took a step back. "I have to—I have to check on Ogilvie and Joy. And their patient." You were stammering, you realized. Actually stammering. "Resident duties."
The last part came out with a small grimace, as if you'd just remembered that Frank was also a resident, as if you were reminding yourself that he existed in the same professional category as you, that there was nothing special about him, nothing that should make your chest ache this way.
You turned to leave without waiting for his response.
His hand caught your forearm before you could escape. "Hey." His grip was firm enough to stop you but not enough to hurt. "Did I do something?"
He turned you toward him slowly, giving you every chance to pull away, and when you didn't, he stepped closer. Your shoes nearly touched. You could smell him, that stupidly nice combination of hospital antiseptic and whatever soap he used, the one you'd noticed weeks ago and never mentioned because that would require admitting you paid attention.
"No!" The word came out too fast. You shook your head, and when you tried to gently shake off his grip, he let go immediately. "No, no, you haven't done anything. I promise."
For a horrible and awkward moment, you didn't know what to do with your hands. They hovered, before one of them landed on his chest. You patted him. Twice.
"I'm fine," you heard yourself say. "Just a rough day with patients."
You both stared at your hand on his chest. For one endless second, you felt the warmth of his body through the thin scrub top, the way his heart was racing. You dropped your hand like it had caught fire and then you were gone.
At some point, you lost track of time hours ago, you were called to assist. Car accident, multiple patients. Robby's voice called your name as you fell into place beside Frank. Side by side, like always.
You worked well together. You always had. Frank would reach for something and you'd already have it ready. You'd start a sentence and he'd finish it. It was the kind of relationship people spent years building.
But today, there were no lingering looks from you. No soft smiles when he did something right.
Robby called out a compliment when you got a difficult line on the first try, and you smiled at him, the way you used to smile at Frank. Frank tried to add his own praise, laying it on thick, hoping for even a crumb of that smile. Garcia, working beside you, rolled her eyes the moment he opened his mouth.
Frank ignored her completely, too focused on you. You gave him something that barely qualified as a smile. Then you turned back to the patient. Frank felt something crack in his chest.
It got worse.
When he handed you an instrument during the procedure, your fingers hesitated before taking it, careful to avoid touching his. When he reached for the ties on the back of your surgical gown, something he'd done a hundred times before, you nearly bolted away. Only the fact that he already had hold of the ties kept you there, frozen, while his fingers worked the knot with shaking hands.
What was happening? The question rattled around Frank's skull for the rest of the shift. He couldn't focus.
So he did the only thing he could think of. He got you coffee.
You were in the break room, hunched over a clipboard, when he found you. The coffee sat in his hand, made exactly the way you liked it.
"Hey."
You looked up. And then you just… stared at him, at the coffee, back at him. For too long. Long enough that Frank started to feel uncomfortable under the weight of it.
He held the cup out, waiting. His big blue eyes were wide and uncertain, searching your face for something, anything. Then he smiled at you. The smile that showed his dimples, the one that usually made you smile as well.
Your eyes dropped immediately. You took the coffee with careful fingers, making absolutely sure not to brush against his.
Frank felt like someone had poured ice water down his spine. He missed you. He missed your smile. He missed the way you'd throw flirty comments at him across the ER. He missed the way your eyes would light up when he walked into a room. He missed you. And you were right here, three feet away, and he'd never felt further from you in his life.
"Hope I added enough sugar." He tried for casual and failed. His voice came out almost pleading.
You took a sip and shook your head slowly. "It's perfect. Thank you." You set the coffee aside on the counter and picked up your clipboard again, flipping through papers you'd already read twice. A clear dismissal.
Frank wanted to grab you by the shoulders. He wanted to shake you until you talked to him, wanted to demand answers, explanations, anything that would make this stop hurting.
Instead, he tried one more time. "You sure you're okay, pretty?"
He'd called you that once, during your second month at the Pitt. You'd been exhausted, running on no sleep and bad coffee, and he'd brought you a sandwich from the cafeteria. Eat something, pretty. You're gonna fall over. You'd called him handsome right back. And somehow, it had stuck.
You flinched. "Yeah, I'm fine. Thanks, Frank." You gave him a weak smile and you didn't call him handsome. He nodded wordlessly and left. He didn't see the way you stared after him.
The end of shift crawled toward you like it knew they were both suffering and wanted to drag it out.
You felt Frank's eyes on you before you looked up. There was something about the weight of his gaze that you'd grown attuned to over the months like a warmth at the back of your neck. You'd always loved it before. You loved knowing he was looking, that you existed in his line of sight.
He was finishing up with his last patient, an elderly woman with a stomach ache who'd been admitted hours ago and was finally being moved upstairs. You watched him from the corner of your eye as you pretended to focus on your charting. Saw him glance your way, hold the look. Long enough that even from across the ER, you could see the confusion in his expression.
You dropped your eyes back to the computer screen.
You'd barely spoken all day. That was on you. You knew it was on you. Frank had approached at least ten times. Ten separate opportunities to just talk to him, to ask about the date, to clear this whole mess up. But you couldn't. Every time he got close, every time you heard his voice, your throat closed up and your eyes started burning and all you could think about was tomorrow.
Tomorrow, when you'd come back to work. Tomorrow, when you'd have to hear about his date. Tomorrow, when you'd have to pretend to be happy for him while some other woman's name sat on his lips and some other woman's smile lived in his memory.
Better to start the distance now. Better to build the wall brick by brick before tomorrow, when you'd really need it. Before you had to hear how fantastic she was, how beautiful, how funny, how everything you weren't.
Then Frank was suddenly behind you. He didn't do his usual thing, the thing where he'd lean against your desk and make stupid jokes until you gave in, the thing where he'd wait for you to finish so you could walk out together, the thing where he'd annoy you just enough to make you push your charting to tomorrow, letting him pull you out of your chair while you giggled and pretended to be mad, warm all over from the simple pleasure of his hand in yours.
He just stood next to your desk. "I'm going home." His voice was careful. "You need a ride?"
You looked up and God, his eyes. Those stupidly blue eyes that usually softened with warmth when they landed on you. Now they just looked desperate. His hands stayed at his sides. He was resisting the urge to touch you. You could tell. You'd grown to read his body language as well as you read your own.
You shook your head. "No, I'm fine. Thanks." The lie tasted bitter on your tongue. "I'll see you tomorrow, yeah?"
Frank hesitated. For one awful moment, you thought he might push. Then he nodded and he didn't even manage a smile this time. "Yeah. Fine."
You heard the hurt. Frank Langdon, who hid everything behind sarcasm and that infuriating confidence, was upset.
You don't know how long you sat there. But it was long enough for the night shift to start filtering in, for Dana to give you a concerned look from the nurses' station that you pretended not to see. You just kept charting.
By the time you finally finished, your eyes were red rimmed and hurting. You couldn't tell if it was from the sheer heartbreak or from staring at a computer screen for way too many hours. Probably both. Definitely both.
The locker room was quiet this late. Everyone else had gone home or moved to night shift, leaving you alone with your own miserable thoughts.
You pulled your jacket from its hook and draped it over your arm. Your fingers found your phone, and you stared at the screen without really seeing it.
What was Frank doing right now?
Was he home, getting dressed up? Changing out of his scrubs into something nice? A button down, maybe, the dark blue one that made his eyes look even prettier? Was he standing in front of a mirror, running his hands through his hair, checking his reflection before heading out?
Was he already at the restaurant? Was it even a restaurant, or something fancier?
Who was she? Did you know her? Was she a nurse from another floor, a doctor from a different department, someone completely outside the hospital? Was she pretty? Smart? Funny?
Was he going to kiss her tonight?
Would you have to hear about it tomorrow? Would he come in with that stupid smile, that glow of someone who'd had a good night, and would someone ask and would he tell them and would you have to hear it?
You grabbed your phone harder and pulled up the bus schedule. The next bus would be here in twelve minutes. You'd wait in the cold, go home, crawl into bed, and try not to think about where Frank was or who he was with or what he was doing.
Simple. Easy. Fine.
You walked out into the Pittsburgh night, and the cold hit you immediately. But you barely noticed it. Your eyes were on your phone, squinting at the bus times, trying to calculate how long you'd be standing here, while simultaneously trying not to think about how every passing minute was another minute Frank spent with someone who wasn't you.
Nine minutes until the bus. Nine minutes of him being on a date. Eight minutes. Eight minutes of him maybe holding her hand. Seven minutes. Seven minutes of him maybe leaning closer, maybe—
You walked directly into someone.
Your phone flew out of your hand, clattering to the pavement, and you stumbled backward with a yelp, only to look up and feel your entire world stop.
Frank, standing right outside the hospital entrance. Frank, who had left an hour ago. Frank, who should be on a date right now, not standing here in the cold.
"Frank?"
"Hi." You could see him physically stop himself from adding pretty, saw the way his mouth opened slightly, then closed, then opened again on just the simple greeting. Remembering your flinch this morning, trying not to hurt you again.
Your heart cracked a little more at that small act of restraint.
"What are you doing here?" You bent down to grab your phone, grateful for the excuse to look away from him for a second.
Frank was quiet for a moment. "Waiting for you." You blinked at him.He gestured past you, toward the bus stop where you'd been heading. "I knew you were lying."
Heat flooded your face immediately, guilt, embarrassment, the horrible feeling of being caught. You opened your mouth, closed it, opened it again. "Charting was going to take too long. I didn't want to bother you." You scuffed your shoe against the pavement, unable to meet his eyes. "You had… things. To do."
Things. Such a weak word for a date with another woman.
"Never bothered me before."
Your eyes finally met his. He was right. He'd never once acted like you were a bother. You thought about all those nights when he'd sit in the chair next to you while you finished charting, spinning back and forth, making stupid comments, poking at your arm until you swatted him away and told him to stop bothering you. He never listened. He just grinned that stupid grin and kept bothering you.
He never went home without you. Not once.
So why were you surprised to find him here now? Why had you ever thought he would?
"Did I do something?"
Your eyes shot up to meet his. The streetlight behind him cast his face in shadow, but you could still see the concern in his eyes.
"No, why?" The words came out too defensive, and you regretted them immediately. Regretted the 'why' most of all, because now you'd put yourself on the spot.
Frank tilted his head, studying you with those impossibly blue eyes. "You know why." You bit your lip and glanced away toward the bus station. "I'm serious." His voice dropped and he tilted his head again, trying to catch your eyes. "Did I upset you? Did I say something wrong?"
You shook your head quickly, too quickly, still staring at the bus station.
"I'd like to fix whatever I did."
The silence stretched. The bus sign clicked to four minutes.
"Frank, I'm fine." Your voice sounded strange to your own ears. "Just go, before you're late for your date, yeah?"
You finally met his eyes. God, his eyes. You'd never get over his eyes, so blue they almost didn't look real, so blue you'd spent months finding excuses to look at them, so blue you'd written terrible poetry in your head that you'd never admit to anyone.
But now those eyes just looked confused. "Date?"
"Yeah." Your voice cracked slightly. "Your date. Tonight."
Frank stared at you for a long moment. "I don't have a date," he repeated, and his brow furrowed in genuine confusion. "Who on earth said I had a date?"
Your brain, exhausted and overwhelmed at this point, could only manage one word. "Perlah."
Frank's eyebrows shot up. "Perlah?" He tilted his head, processing this information. "And where did she get it from?"
"I don't know. I didn't ask." You mumbled the words, suddenly feeling very foolish. Why hadn't you asked? Why had you just accepted it as fact? Normally you were smarter than this. Normally you didn't take gossip at face value.
But normally your heart wasn't on the line.
Frank glanced down at you. "Okay. Well, I don't have a date."
You raised your head, searching his face for any sign of deception. "Where'd the rumor come from, then?"
He shrugged. "I don't know," he mumbled.
You narrowed your eyes. You'd spent months watching Frank, watching him with patients, with colleagues, with attendings. You knew his tells. You knew when he was hiding something. "Yeah, you do."
Frank's jaw worked. You could practically see the gears turning in his head. Finally, he spoke. "Perlah just misunderstood my conversation with Donnie."
He was looking away now, studying the hospital entrance. The streetlight caught the slight flush creeping up his neck.
"What conversation with Donnie?" you prompted gently.
Frank's eyes flicked to yours, then away again. He ran a hand through his hair, a nervous gesture you'd rarely seen from him. "Was talking about how I'd been planning on asking you out. On a date. And Donnie, being Donnie, probably said something loud enough for Perlah to hear and she… filled in the blanks wrong."
You stared at him. Your brain, which had been through absolute hell today, officially stopped working. "Huh?"
Frank grinned at that, even as a flush spread across his cheeks. He looked almost shy, which was so utterly ridiculous on a man like Frank that you couldn't quite process it.
"My turn to ask weird questions," he said, and his voice had gone softer now. "Why were you so upset with me? Are you sure I didn't say anything wrong?"
"Because—" You stopped. Your mind was still stuck on the words asking you out on a date,. "Because we've been flirting for months!" The words burst out of you, louder than you intended, more upset than you wanted to sound. "Flirting for months, Frank. And then I just—I find out you're going on a date with some other girl, and I'm just supposed to be fine? I'm supposed to just stand there and watch you smile at someone else and bring her coffee and wait for her after shifts?"
"You could have just asked me." His voice was impossibly fond. "You've been here long enough to know that listening to Perlah's gossip is never a good idea."
You crossed your arms, defensive now. "Don't act like you haven't believed half her gossip before."
Frank's grin widened. "That's different. Her gossip is usually right. But you should have learned by now that when it comes to me, you come straight to the source." He stepped closer, close enough that you had to tilt your head back to maintain eye contact. The silence stretched between you, both of you smiling at each other.
"So," you said slowly, "you were planning to ask me out?"
Frank's expression softened further and he nodded. "If you'll let me."
"Yeah." You felt the smile spread across your face. "Definitely."
"Good." Frank's own smile widened, those dimples making an appearance that made your heart stutter. "Let me drive you home first," he said softly, "and we can discuss the details there, yeah?"
You nodded, unable to stop smiling. But before you could take a step toward where his car was presumably parked, you rose up on your tiptoes and wrapped your arms around his neck.
You buried your face in the curve of his neck. You'd missed his touch so badly. And now that you could have it again, you couldn't get close enough.
Frank didn't hesitate for even a second. His arms came around you immediately. "Please don't ever do that again," he mumbled against your hair.
You giggled against his neck. "I'll try my best, handsome." You felt him relax as soon as he heard the word.
Finally, reluctantly, you pulled back. Frank's hands lingered on your waist, clearly unwilling to let go entirely, and you didn't blame him. You didn't want to let go either. But then he smiled and reached for your hand. His fingers intertwined with yours and he started walking toward his car, pulling you gently along with him.
"So," you said, swinging your joined hands slightly as you walked, "are you going to take me to a fancy restaurant?"
Frank glanced at you, one eyebrow raised, amusement flickering in his blue eyes. "That's your first question?"
"It's an important question. I need to know what I'm getting into."
He laughed. "Yeah. I'm taking you to a fancy restaurant."
Jack doesn’t understand why you have to rush off on your own in the evenings without him to go to work. You both work at PTMC, nearly the same hours. The only difference is you work in Labor and Delivery while he’s down in Hell—the Emergency Department.
When he comes across you car while passing the nearby gas station, he sees you with your usual cup of coffee, but there’s a man holding your attention at the storefront. A man that has you smiling and laughing sincerely, which immediately makes his skin crawl in a way he typically hates to be; his whole body is warm with unfiltered disdain.
Something about you drew this ugly trait out of him.
Worse, the stranger touched your elbow, and you didn’t flinch. He came to a halt at the stoplight next to the gas station, the light perfectly long for him to watch out the passenger side window. He gripped the steering wheel hard, ignoring what should have been his more rational side.
Then, you hugged this man.
By the time the two of you broke apart, work was forgotten and he was since honked at by whomever was behind him after the light changed. You looked up, naturally, toward the traffic. With just the quick flit of your gaze, you recognized Jack’s truck. The slight squeal of the tires made you sigh internally, but you were already saying goodbye to the man you just hugged.
Jack pulled into the parking spot next to where you had parked, while you were beginning to open the door to your car, and dumped your purse. The coffee stayed—you weren’t giving up your caffeine in the midst of your boyfriend’s jealousy.
“Need a snack?” You asked casually, your lips parting for a sip.
Jack rounded the long bed of his truck, “I was thinking coffee.”
“You hate coffee jitters,” you countered.
Liar.
Jack squinted at you, stepping into the space of your open car door. You eventually sat while he barred you in. Jack hunched forward, one hand on the roof of the vehicle and the other on the ajar door.
“Who was that?” Jack drummed his fingers along the hollow-sounding metal.
“No one important to worry about,” you sucked your teeth at him. “I wouldn’t meet with my other boyfriend in such a public place, you know.”
“Not funny,” Jack screwed his mouth to the side.
“He was thanking me for helping him and his wife along with their newborn recently after she recovered from an emergency C-section,” you rolled your eyes, dropping your coffee cup into the nearest cup holder. “You never have to worry.”
“I know,” Jack shrugged, feigning dismissivness. You were his one certainty he somehow regularly felt unsure about; he was afraid to lose you. Sometimes he went about it all wrong. “I think I’m a bit of a dumbass.”
“Just a teeny bit?” You pressed your tongue to your teeth, doing a terrible job suppressing your smirk.
“Yeah,” Jack ended up smiling and dipped down, silently requesting an apologetic kiss. “We’re talking microscopic levels of dumbassery.”
You caved easily as you always did and brought a soft hand up to his bristled cheek. You didn’t hesitate to press a sugary sweet kiss to his lips. You thumbed away any gloss you left behind, but you admittedly enjoyed marking your man in small ways as much as showing possessiveness.
“I gotta go,” you hummed against his lips. “I’m gonna be late.”
“Now I see why you leave so early. I didn’t know I was dating the local heroine,” Jack smiled and began to back away.
“Ha, ha. That is rich coming from Captain America,” you rolled your eyes in amusement and reached for the car door. “Watch your good leg. See you later.”
“She always gets one last shot in before she goes for the kill,” Jack clutched his chest in mock pain.
For all his flaws, you reminded him he was loved all the same.
‘getting stuck somewhere inconvenient’ and your bf comes to find you…
aka.. a collection of quick drabbles by yours truly
mdni! (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ
a/n: don’t even ask how i came up with this- i blacked out at work and this popped in my head the other day.. I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYYYY
cw: mild nsfw content (mostly on titus’s part), pope and titus are their own warnings mind you, the old ‘i got stuck’ trick yet it still works, lowkey self indulgent but y’all didnt see that…titus has a daddy kink so..
word count: 1.2k
jack abbot would come home to find his sweetheart of a girlfriend (who was ages younger than him- not that the two cared, they were past that insecurity of their relationship) had someone gotten herself stuck inside the kitchen cabinet.
your torso was just a bit too wide for the width of the cabinet, but your stubbornness pushed you to try to fix the leaky kitchen sink yourself. now- getting under the sink was no issue, fixing the leak again, no issue. it was getting out of the cabinet that was the issue. with your back arched against the curve of the cabinet, you were able to maneuver your hand into the pocket of your shorts, fishing your phone out and immediately dialing jack’s number. he picked up after the first ring.
“hey sweetheart, what’s up?”
“i’m stuck..”
“you’re…you’re what?”
“under the sink..wanted to fix the leak for you..i may have underestimated the width of your cabinets..”
“alright just..just hang tight okay? i’ll be home in 5.”
“okay jackie, be safe getting home, love you.”
“i love you too sweetheart, i’ll see you soon.”
you huffed out an irritated sigh, mad at yourself and your ‘i can do it myself’ attitude for getting you in this position to begin with. luckily, jack was off today, just out getting breakfast after his early morning yoga, so he was just a short drive away from the house.
not even 5 minutes later, you heard the front door open and shut, the sound of off balance footsteps making their way towards the kitchen before the sound of suppressed laughter met your ears.
“yeah go ahead, laugh it up.”
your hands motioned to your current situation, jack’s hoarse chuckles getting a bit louder as he shook his head, setting the brown paper bag down on the counter before he went and stood above you, taking in the way your sleep shorts had ridden up your thighs, the underside of your tank too clad breasts peaking out from underneath the top of the cabinet. he bit his lip out of habit, crossing his arms over his chest before leaning down, just barely catching your line of sight.
“sweetheart, i told you i’d fix the leak. it wasn’t even that bad.”
“no, it wasn’t, but if you waited too long then it would’ve gotten worse.”
“i know, and i appreciate that you fixed it for me, saves me from the back pain- plus seeing your current position, i know i wouldn’t fit through that cabinet.”
“so… ya gonna help me out or not?”
“in a bit, i’m just admiring the view..”
“JACK!”
adrew ‘pope’ cody came back to smurf’s because you hadn’t answered your phone in a while, but your location remained in the same position every time he checked. he had cleared every room twice over and still came up empty handed. that was until he heard clanging and sounds of frustration coming from the laundry area.
he peaked his head around the corner, hand gripping where his gun was located tucked into the back of his pants before his shoulders slumped in relief.
you were in quite the pickle, the string on your pullover hoodie had somehow lodged itself underneath one of the shelves that sat in the dryer, so now for the past 30 minutes you’d been stuck bent over, sweaty, and severely irritated. you continued (struggled) to get the hoodie string out, just about ready to pull the jacket off and walk inside in just a bra and shorts, that was until you felt familiar rough hands caress your hips from where you were bent over.
“andy? honey that you?”
“mhm…what’re you doin’, sweetheart?”
“well i was trying to fix a loose bolt smurf mentioned last time she dried clothes, but i ended up getting stuck..ironic huh?”
andrew hummed in agreement, running his hands along the exposed skin of your waist from where your hoodie had ridden up, causing goosebumps to rise in their wake. you could feel his hips slowly rock against your ass, his welcoming heat creeping up your back as he moved down to rest his forehead in between your shoulder blades, placing a kiss right in between them as his hands crept up slowly to caress your bra clad chest.
“andrew, we’re outside, ‘nd i’m stuck-“
“more like positioned just right, but agree to disagree.”
“andrew! please help me outta here and then we can do whatever you want.”
“whatever i want is right in front of me, princess. plus smurf and the guys are out for the next few hours..c’mon, i’ll be quick, promise..”
“…fine..but if we get caught, so help me, i won’t come over for a month!”
“we both know that’s a lie, plus you love when i make house calls..”
titus danforth has a heavy trunk box at the foot of your shared bed, where he hides all of your toys, ropes, and anything he deems ‘unworthy’ because who are you to seek pleasure in anything that isn’t himself.
yet, here you were, sat on your knees, lock set to the side after you had clipped the key from his key chain early in the morning when he was in the shower- having hid it under the mattress before running off to join him under the hot water. now, you were waist deep in the overly large trunk, sifting through toys, lubricants, and ropes galore, one arm bracing the lid to keep it open while the other moved around the mess you were making, in search of the recently purchased rose toy he promptly confiscated from you after catching you mid use with it once- that day he denied you your release until almost 3 am the next day, when he proceeded to tie your hands to the headboard and eat you out like a man starved.
“and what do you think you’re doing, kid?”
a shriek followed by the thud of the lid making contact with your back echoed through the trunk, a soft groan muffled by the padding of the inside.
“TITUS!? when did you get back?!”
“not long ago, though i must say, i’m disappointed in you kiddo. going behind daddy’s back to get into your play chest?”
the sound of him tutting his tongue against his teeth reached your ears as you heard shuffling behind you, feeling the sleek touch of his suede shoes push your feet away from each other, spreading your pajama short clad bottom to his will.
his hand landed strategically against the globe of your ass, a loud groan of pain bouncing out of the crack that was left from where you were stuck, preening your ass up against his hand as it rubbed against where he had just landed the fatal blow.
“naughty, that’s what you are, kiddo. shouldn’t even be treating you all sweet with how i caught you.”
“please daddy, just wanted to play with my toys, ‘s all i wanted to do cause you were gonna be busy all day.”
“my plans changed, babydoll, maybe if you checked your phone you would’ve seen my message telling you that. now daddy’s gotta be a big meanie to you to teach you a lesson.”
oh boy, you were in for a long, hard, night.
author’s note: a lot of this was self indulgent but i could care less- I HOPE Y’ALL ENJOY ITTT!!!!
Summary: You love pushing your boyfriend’s buttons. And this time, you do so with the help of a little internet prank. Having it end in a way you weren't expecting it to.
WC: 3k
Contains: smut / 18+ mdni / fluff / female reader / oral (f receiving) / overstimulation / a bit of manhandling / Jake being a menace / Jake being a sweetheart / established relationship / starts off silly before we get to the steamy parts 💗
a/n: We're going to ignore that this has been in my drafts for like ten months... 🥲 But when the bestie requests something (even if it takes me forever sorry 😭) she gets it 💗 So thank you to my beloved Mon for inspiring this 💞 Thank you for reading! ₊˚⊹♡ Likes, comments, and reblogs are much appreciated!! ♡♡♡
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You were pushing your luck with Jake all day and you knew it.
You know he doesn't like pranks, even the silly harmless ones. Which is of course why after seeing a silly trend online, you decided to try it out for yourself. Calling your boyfriend buddy or pal—your friend—shouldn't be too bad, right? Surely, Jake will find it funny.
Jake in fact, did not find it funny.
And you would have to face the consequences of that.
Your face is pressed against the pillow, hands gripping the sheets on either side of it like a lifeline, silent screams of pleasure between attempts at catching your breath fill the air. A few whines slip through, but it's mainly a string of incoherent babbles that causes Jake to double his efforts as he brings you to your third orgasm of the night.
How ever did you find yourself here?
It started in the early hours of the morning. While you and Jake were making breakfast, your mind wandered to a video you saw the night before. A silly prank from one of those couple pages, one where a girl decided to call her boyfriend her friend all day to film his reactions. You thought the way he reacted was cute, and it made you wonder how Jake would react. You weren't sure if you even wanted to go through with it though, it just seemed so silly. But you must have been thinking about it too much because it eventually slipped out all on its own.
“Could you open this for me?” You held out a mason jar of your favorite jam in his direction, struggling to open it. Jake turned to you, stopping his pancake flipping to help you out.
“Sure, sweetheart," he easily popped it open, "Here.”
“Thanks, buddy. You’re the best.”
Jake’s brows pinch, freezing for a second, seemingly mulling over your words before brushing them off. There was a small speaker on the kitchen counter shuffling through a mix of his and your favorite songs. The music was low enough to not be obnoxious, but loud enough to drown out some noise. Surely, that must have caused him to mishear you.
You definitely said baby, not buddy.
Jake pays no mind to whatever he thought he heard—which isn't exactly the reaction you were looking for. Before you can do anything about it, however, he gently grabs your wrist to pull you into his chest. He starts swaying to the music, hands sliding to your hips to guide you to the rhythm. He's singing along to the lyrics, some cheesy love song, causing you to smile despite yourself. The way he looks at you is no short of a man hopelessly in love.
After such a sweet morning, did you have the heart to continue your silly little prank?
Yes.
Yes you did.
When Jake comes back home from deployment, a part of him looks forward to running errands with you. It might seem strange, but domesticity is a breath of fresh air for him. The grocery shopping, visits to the post office or stops at the bank—hell even retail shopping. He looks forward to all of that with you because it's a small yet integral part of your lives that is now intertwined, and he likes that.
And after a morning that stretched into the afternoon of running errands with you, there's nothing more he'd love than a coffee.
Jake pulls up to the drive thru of a local coffee chain, one you two frequent often. He knows your order by heart and easily recites it along with his own, before he pulls up to the window to pay. You think back to this morning and the same idea pops into your head. You don't say anything at first, not until he hands you your drink.
"Aw, you remembered my order, thanks pal."
The usual smile Jake wears around you falls off his face. This time Jake definitely heard you. The radio was on way too low for him to give you that excuse.
“I’m not your pal, darlin'," he says coolly, drinking a bit of his coffee as he pulls away from the drive thru. He's trying to play it nonchalant, but you can tell by the way his jaw ticks, he knows you're up to something.
You smile at him innocently. “But you are, you're my best bud," you reply sweetly, taking a sip of your own drink as you watch him side eye you. He's still playing it calm and collected, but you know you're starting to get under his skin. The way he's swirling his drink in his hand like he's trying to process what you're saying says as much.
“You’re pal, huh?” He says it like he's giving you a chance to rectify yourself. His expression is slightly hidden under his sunglasses, and by the way he hasn't taken his eyes off the road. But you'd kill to see the look in his eyes right now.
“Mhm," you hum out simply, studying him for any kind of response. He doesn't give you one though, just nodding thoughtfully as he lowers his cup into the cup holder. That same hand, cold from his drink, snakes its way onto your thigh, exposed by the shorts you're wearing. The icy touch causes you to hiss lowly, eyes darting to the gesture and missing the way the corner of his mouth twitches in response.
He gives your thigh a slight squeeze, voice low in warning, “You do know I could get you off right here, right now, right?”
You hate the way he says it so casual like getting you off is a walk in the park for him. Which it is, but that's not the point right now. You also hate the way your body instantly reacts to him, fidgeting in your seat as your mind runs through examples of exactly how he could do it. And he catches it instantly, smirking and giving your thigh another squeeze with a bit more pressure to tease you.
Maybe he thinks by flustering you he can get you to back down or stop, but with this development in his reactions, it only makes you wonder how far you can push it—push him.
This just means the next time you choose to continue your prank has to be strategic. Enough time to make him feel safe before you throw it on him again. So for now, you'll play it safe, make him feel like you're conceding—like he's won.
You lift his hand from your thigh, intertwining your fingers and bringing it up to kiss your joined hands, almost like a silent apology. His smirk melts into a softer smile, giving you the sign that he's taken the bait. He gives your hand a gentle squeeze as if saying 'it's alright'.
Now to get him when he least expects it.
It happens at dinner. You're sitting across from each other having light conversation when it hits you. You haven't thanked Jake for cooking dinner yet.
“Thanks for cooking dinner, bud. I really appreciate it.”
He stops chewing, sea green eyes looking up from his plate to shoot you an unamused look, "Sweetheart…"
“What?”
His lips form a thin line, “Don’t play coy, you know what.”
“I don’t know what you're talking about,” you dismiss him before changing the subject. He blinks, eyes narrowing warily at the way you switched between topics so quickly. There's no way you're done just yet. You're not. In fact, you only let the conversation go on for another five minutes before you try him again.
“Could you please pass me the dressing, pal?”
That does it.
“Darlin’, I don’t think a pal would have done what I did last night,” he reminds you, taking his time with his next bite of food to keep himself composed. Oh, he shouldn't have said that.
“Mm, I don't know,” you bite on your bottom lip to stop the smile that threatens to show itself, “I’ve been with a few buddies that do that, so…”
Jake’s fork clatters as it drops onto his plate.
You shouldn’t have said that.
He leans back slowly against his chair, dinner long forgotten in front of him. His gaze travels your form, like a predator seizing up his prey. His eyes darken with heat and warning as he all but dares you, "Say that again."
A shiver of anticipation and nerves runs up your spine, more electrifying than anything. You've come this far to back down now.
“I said that I've been with a few buddies that—" He doesn't let you finish. In seconds he's up and striding toward you. When you're within reach he's hauling you over his shoulder like some barbarian. You shriek, flailing in his hold as he takes you away, yet your heart stutters with a giddiness you can't ignore.
“Jake! What are you doing?” You try to wiggle out of his grasp, but he's got a tight hold on you. You barely register you're in your shared bedroom when you're tossed onto the bed. You gawk at him, but all he does is grin at you like you have no idea what's coming for you. “Reminding you exactly who I am to you."
Instantly he cages you beneath him, your rebuttal dying in your throat as he kisses you deep and feverish. That kiss a first sign of many that his patience is running thin. He wastes no time in stripping you of your clothes with expert precision, tossing them haphazardly around the room. His hands grasp at every inch of skin they can reach greedily, while yours get lost in his hair, tugging just enough to pull a deep groan from his chest.
“You and your little games," he nips at your bottom lip, shaking his head, "you enjoy riling me up too much.” It's not long before you feel the brush of his fingers against your core causing your lips to part in a needy gasp. He smirks against your mouth, feeling for himself how wet you've gotten for him. He traces a line up and down your slit with just enough pressure to have you stirring underneath him. "Not so talkative now, are we darlin'?" He mocks you with the smugness of a man who knows he's got you right where he wants you. You curse out his name which only serves to amuse him more. His lips connect with yours again, kissing you harder until its all tongue and teeth. One hand cradles the back of your head to keep the kisses deep while the other stays at your cunt. His thumb circles your clit, desperate little moans slip from your lips, and Jake greedily swallows every single one. He's kissing you like he wants to steal all the breath from your lungs until all you're breathing in is him.
It's not until your lungs beg for oxygen that he pulls away. He grins in satisfaction at your kiss swollen lips, but even more so at the way you practically whine at the loss of him. He gives you one quick chaste kiss before he starts traveling down your body. Every press of his mouth to your skin, every devout touch of his hands leave an ardent heat in its wake. Each one is full of a possessive reverence, one that only a man who knows and loves you entirely could give. It's enough to placate you until he reaches the place where you need him most.
When his mouth finally presses against your core, it's slow and torturous. He hikes up your legs, placing them over his shoulders to trap himself between your thighs—exactly where he wants to be. His tongue flicks slowly, lapping lazily, taking his sweet time exploring your cunt as if he doesn't already know every inch of it. Like he doesn't know exactly how you like it and in turn hits you in every way that leaves you wanting more.
You fist the sheets impatiently, hips bucking against his face for more friction, but the grip his hands have on your thighs holds you down. You call out his name in wanton frustration, but he elects to ignore it. His response comes in licking one long stripe up your slit until reaching your clit and mouthing at it, making your legs jerk like you're trying to get away. Jake's eyes shoot up at the action, his gaze locking with yours—dark and heady. "Stay still," he demands, voice muffled from where his lips refuse to detach themselves from your core. “I can’t—please—I can’t,” you beg in between broken breaths. You know what you're begging for, he knows what you're begging for. But he's not exactly inclined to give it to you just yet.
“Yes, you can, sweetheart. You’re always so good for me," he praises you, twisting his head ever so slightly to nip at your thigh, "Are you this good for all your pals?” That last word is said with a harsher edge, with a bit of ire at the thought of anyone else having you in the way he has. You shake your head immediately, “No! No, baby. Only you.” He hums, the vibrations against your thigh making the ache between your legs worse, “What was that?” He bites down a bit harder on your skin, clearly wanting to leave a mark. And every time you try to speak up, he bites and sucks another mark into your skin, rendering you speechless as your need hits a boiling point.
"Jake!" The way you say his name makes him pause. You're on the cusp of utter ruin in the best way and he keeps depriving you of it, and you're sick of it. He chuckles, a wolfish gleam in his eye as he decides he's toyed with you long enough. He removes his mouth from your thigh, preening at what he's left behind for you to discover tomorrow. The intensity in his stare and tone is almost too much for you, “Now darlin', you be good for me, 'cause if you don’t stop moving and I have to stop what I’m doing—you won’t be able to walk tomorrow with what I'll do to you.” You swallow hard, heart racing in your chest knowing he'd make good on that promise. So you decide to listen—for now.
It really does seem like Jake is done prolonging your punishment, as the next time his mouth connects to your cunt he goes at it harder, fervently. Alternating between suckling and fucking your core with his tongue, driven by the desperate sounds falling from your lips. Eating you out like you had starved him of this all day. Giving you exactly what you need to reach the peak he has been holding you back from getting to all this time.
“That’s it darlin’, give it to me.” You barely hear him grunt out the words as your own moans ring in your ears. You come hard, one hand reaching down to tangle in his hair like you need it to ground you from the euphoria he's taken you to. But he doesn't stop there. He continues his ministrations, helping you ride out your orgasm, and then some. Not even stopping when you tug at his hair to get him away, a deep growl falling from his lips at the mix of pain and pleasure.
Jake keeps going, pulling away for a moment only to readjust his position to allow two of his fingers to enter you. He pumps them inside you at a rhythm that drives you crazy, crying out in want. He curls them just right, hitting the spot that makes you see stars, lips sealing around your bundle of nerves and sucking hard. His free hand slides up your body to palm at your breast, stimulating you even further until you can't seem to form any thoughts. At this point, you're riding his face shamelessly, driven by pure desire.
You come a second time, covering his face in your essence. Mouth open in a silent scream of pleasure as you're positively overwhelmed by everything you're feeling. From the top of your head to the tip of your toes, you're buzzing with an all consuming bliss. Jake finally decides to take a bit of mercy on you. He laps at you softly, easing you from your climax in a gentler manner than before. Dropping whispers of praises into your skin of how good you were for him and how much he loves you.
“You made a mess, baby. Look at you,” he groans in utter want, staring at how soaked you've left his hand and sheets beneath you. He's suddenly aware at how painfully hard his dick is straining against his pants. He's honestly surprised he didn't come undone with how badly you have him worked up.
Jake's clothes suddenly start feeling stuffy, so he reluctantly removes himself from you to get rid of his shirt. Even in your post orgasm haze you find yourself shakily sitting up, hands reaching out to help him remove his belt. He chuckles in disbelief at your readiness to keep going, hooded eyes looking up at him, tempting him to go all the way. But when your hands reach for the button on his pants he stops you. You frown at him, a pout starting to form that he swipes away with a soft brush of his thumb. He cups your face with both hands, your own landing on his bare chest, golden skin beneath your finger tips as he pulls you in for another kiss.
But this time its different. It's searing, full of worship. He holds you against him like only you matter. Like you need to understand this had nothing to do with your silly little prank, and all to do with something he needed to prove.
When the kiss breaks, he's staring at you affectionately, but there's a seriousness to his gaze that pins you in place. “I’m not your buddy, bud, pal—none of that. I’m yours. And I’m gonna remind you of that all night, darlin’.” He whispers a promise full of devotion and heat before falling back onto the bed and pulling you with him. You know when Jake's determination has taken a hold of him there's nothing that can stop him.
You're about to have a long night indeed.
a/n: Once again, comments and reblogs are so appreciated my lovelies! ♡♡♡
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Snowed in with The Pitt??? I’m currently stuck inside. Maybe snuggling up in an on call room or something???
FLUFFY (& SLIGHTLY SMUTTY) HEADCANONS BELOW THE CUT FOR: jack abbot, frank langdon, and michael robinavitch !
JACK ABBOT X READER — you and jack are stuck between a rock and a hard place, aka a dry spell and a snowstorm. the on-call room gets christened acccordingly (pitt crew!reader, established relationship cw for heavy mentions of smut | 1.2k)
Jack Abbot slips you a note when you pass him in the hallway.
You don’t think anything of it at first, not after two days stuck in the PTMC with no real end in sight. The borderline cabin fever has you moving on autopilot — you pour yourself into the work in hopes of distracting yourself from the snowstorm raging outside, only for the exhaustion to turn you into a shell of a human being accordingly.
So, you take the folded piece of paper from your lover and forget about it a second later, until Dana calls after you — “Oh, so we’re passing notes now? What is this, middle school?”
You force out a laugh in response because, in all honesty, you’d barely heard her, as you unfold the paper with tired hands. You find a key card trapped inside, along with Jack’s sloppy handwriting scrawled on the back of a flier sent from corporate, destined for the recycling bin. “Come find me.”
You trace him to the on-call room, where he paces back and forth in anticipation of your arrival. He pauses in place when the locked door buzzes and creaks slowly open. A ray of white-blue fluorescent lighting pierces through the velvet darkness, pervaded only by a deep golden hue from the lamp on the desk and the soft purple night from the small square window across the room. Falling ice raps gently against the glass and fills the quiet with its wild cadence.
“Very clever, Dr. Abbot…” you lilt quietly as you step inside.
Darkness engulfs the room once more when you shut the door behind you. Jack’s towering figure returns to shadow, though a sliver of his scruffy face is still adorned by the dim, orange lamplight. It allows you to see the quiet smile he gives you — a mere hint of a grin that’s more expressive in his dark, mischievous gaze.
“Well, you know I pride myself on my subtlety…”
He closes the distance between you in a few short strides. You threaten to melt into a puddle at his feet when his fingers smooth over your waist, calloused palms sneaking beneath your scrubs to caress your warm skin. He swaddles you in his wide hands and his familiar scent — of lingering cologne, hospital soap, and distant sweat from the long day(s). The mixture fills your senses when he ducks down to kiss you.
His lips meet yours in a chaste, lingering kiss. His nose juts into the side of yours as his unshaven scruff scratches at your delicate skin. You exhale hard through your nose in a sigh of contentment and raise your hands for the stethoscope around his neck, grabbing either end and using it as a leash to pull him impossibly closer to you.
It’s the first time you’ve felt him like this in days — a bitter dry-spell that the storm is threatening prolong.
Jack’s mouth curls into a lazy smile against your wanting mouth when your warm breath fans over his cupid’s bow. You fall further into his chest when his wide hands hold you tighter by the waist. It takes everything in you to pull away from him, kissed mouths smacking quietly in protest.
“I can’t stay in here for long,” you tell him in a grieved whisper. “You know that, right?”
Jack jerks his chin back to peer down at you as his brows raise to his hairline, going lighter to match his greying curls. “I don’t know if you know this, honey, but our shift ended hours ago.”
“Yeah, and there’s no way I’m getting any sleep when I know I could be helping everybody out there.” You nod your head towards the locked door behind you, where the never-ending noise of the E.R. has been slightly muffled. It fills you with an unwavering surge of panic that prevents you from getting any real rest. “We both know I’ll just have a bunch of nightmares that’ll wake me up every hour, and it won’t be fun for anyone, so…”
“Well, how about just give me half an hour, then, huh?” Jack asks you in low murmurs, one step away from getting on his knees and begging. “I feel like this is the first time I’ve gotten to see you in two days.”
“Thirty minutes?” you echo, lips curling into a mischievous grin. “That sounds very generous for you, don’t you think?”
Even in the muted darkness, you catch his eyes flickering something playful as he tells you, “Well, I was talking about sleeping, but… Good to know your head’s in the gutter, Doc.”
Your face flares with embarrassment as you slide out of his hold. His quiet laughter follows you the short distance to the twin-sized bed by the window. The thin mattress squeaks softly when you drop onto it, slouching against the wall with your heavy head in your hands.
“Sorry… It’s just— It’s been a while, and it’s starting to mess with my brain…” you confess behind your palms.
“Well, we can’t have that, now can we?”
You peek through your fingers and find Jack’s towering figure sauntering towards you, with his strong hands curled around the edges of his stethoscope, and with a knowing smirk hinting at the very corners of his mouth.
“Don’t,” you say, still slightly muffled by your hands.
“Don’t what?” Jack shrugs with an air of feigned innocence. His knee digs into the edge of the creaking mattress as he looms over your slouching form.
“You know what,” you argue, peering up at him from beneath your lashes to hold his gaze. You drop your hands into your lap but make no move to stop him when his fingers reach for the drawstring of your scrubs, loosening the knot there. “Robby would flip if he found out we were fooling around in here—”
“He won’t,” Jack interjects in a gruff murmur, keeping his attentive gaze on your face as his warm fingers slip under the waistband of your pants. Your breath hitches when his fingertips brush the silk bow at the center of your underwear, and a smile lifts the corner of his mouth. “But if he did, I think he would respect that I was taking time out of my day to assist one of our best doctors…”
Your mouth parts to speak, but nothing comes out as his hand creeps further between your thighs, which part instinctively to welcome his touch. A warm feeling settles in the pit of your stomach as his fingers slide over the coarse thatch of hair above your pussy and closer to the honey you leak for him, made far more sensitive after so many weeks without him.
Jack watches your eyes glaze over with desire as his own flicker with mischief. “‘Cause we can’t have anything messing with that pretty little head of yours now, can we?”
You shake your head slowly, wordlessly.
His tight-lipped grin widens as your velvety folds swaddle his middle finger in silk. “Want me to take care of it for ya, honey?”
Your whispered plea fills the golden, lamplit room. “Please…”
FRANK LANGDON X READER — after a brief fling with your coworker, you swore that you'd never spend another night with langdon. the snowstorm as other plans (enemies to lovers, one bed trope cw for very brief allusions to smut | 1k)
Frank Langdon is no stranger to spending his nights at the PTMC.
He’s come to know the hard cots and thin blankets quite well over the years — back when he first started his residency, and more recently, when he and Abby weren’t getting along. He told her that he’d already found a place to stay when she kicked him out some months back, which wasn’t totally a lie, because he was staying in the on-call room at the time.
So, while everyone else is grumbling about having to stay the night until the snowstorm passes, Frank is taking it all in stride.
“Do you know if there are anymore free cots?” he hears you ask Dana from across the work station.
“Uh. Yeah. I think so,” the older woman answers, half-distant, as her eyes flit back and forth between the overhead monitor and the tablet in her hand. “I’m pretty sure there’s only one left, though, so I’d get a move on if I were you—”
“Too late,” Langdon says, turning away from his computer to peer over his shoulder at you. His blue eyes are stern but no less playful when they lock with yours. “It’s mine. I already called it.”
“Wow…” you lilt, voice dripping with sarcasm. “And they say chivalry is dead…”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” Frank hums, spinning in his swivel chair to face you. He extends his long legs out in front of him and stretches his strong arms over his head. His biceps strain against the fabric of his dark black scrubs, the hem of which rides gently up his torso to reveal a faint sliver of his pale skin. His pink smile widens when he catches you staring. “I never said I wasn’t willing to share…”
Your eyes narrow into thin slits. “In your dreams, Langdon.”
“Holy shit, how’d you know?” he quips.
“Language,” Dana scolds on instinct, without looking at either of you.
Frank laughs quietly to himself and goes to turn back to the monitor until he catches you walking away in the corner of his eye.
He works with swift, practiced hands to save his chart and log off entirely before following after you. It doesn’t take him long to catch up on considerably longer limbs; though, in a feeble attempt to beat him there, you quicken your stride before you turn the corner into the presentation room.
The lights there have been dimmed to their lowest setting, a faint orange glow, to accommodate the sleeping bodies on the floor. The rectangular table and accompanying chairs have been pushed off to the side to make room for the rows of cots, where your coworkers try to catch some much-needed sleep.
You make a beeline for the last remaining bed, sitting empty by the window, where the swirling snowstorm blinds your view of the city and adds a bitter chill in the air. Frank, meanwhile, heads straight for the long table where the stack of pillows and blankets have been whittled down to one of each.
“Have fun sleeping on the on-call room floor, Langdon,” you whisper with a tight-lipped grin.
“Hey, I got the last blanket on the whole floor,” he retorts, voice bassy and low. Rogue strands of brown-black hair sway over his forehead as he saunters towards you, looming over your form as you lie back on the hard cot. “So, unless you wanna hike all the way up to the O.R., it looks like you’re gonna be freezing to death.”
“Honestly, Langdon…” you sigh. “I’m so exhausted— As long as I get to sleep, I don’t really care at this point…”
Frank exhales hard through his nose, jaw clenching in distant frustration as your eyes flutter shut and your arms fold behind your head. He drops his arms to his sides, with a folded blanket under one and a thin pillow under the other.
“Let’s just compromise here, alright?” he whispers. “Like the responsible adults we’ve never been.”
“No can do, Langdon,” you quip within a yawn. “Ever heard of the proverbial phrase, ‘you snooze you lose…’?”
“Jesus Christ…” you hear a half-asleep McKay scold from the opposite side of the room. “You guys are worse than children, you know that?”
“Sorry…” you grimace. “Frank was just leaving, actually.”
You flash the man above you a knowing look before turning onto your side. The thin, canvas fabric creaks under your weight as you turn away. You smile to yourself when you hear the man grumble like a storm cloud behind you. For a moment, you think that he might actually leave — until you hear a brief bout of shuffling, accompanied by a warm body sliding in behind yours.
Your head whips over your shoulder, and you flinch back when you find Frank’s face mere inches away from yours.
“What the hell are you doing?” you snap in a sharp whisper.
“I’m going to sleep— What’s it look like I’m doing?” he whispers back, squeezing the pillow under you with one hand and throwing the blanket over your bodies with the other. His long legs entwine with yours as he fights to keep himself steady on his shared sliver of the small cot. “Could you give me a little room here? Jeez…”
“There is no room,” you scold, but shift on the hard canvas anyway.
Frank settles further in behind you; a warm weight against your back, a firm shield from the cold window beside you. His taller body contorts instinctively to the shape of yours, and it takes everything in him to keep his hands to himself. Your arms stay folded and tucked under your cheek as you struggle to rest with your giddy heart pounding against your ribcage.
“See? I fit perfectly,” he hums, warm breath fanning over the shell of your ear, making you fight back a shiver that crawls down your spine. Then, more quietly, he mutters, “Wow, if I had a nickel for every time I said that to you— Ow!”
He winces when your elbow digs hard into his ribs.
“You’d still be broke, Langdon,” you quip in a soft whisper with your eyes still closed. “Because that was just a one-time… two-time thing…”
Frank sighs hard through his nose in place of a laugh, relaxing further against your body and fighting back the feeling that he could spend every night sleeping next to you like this — hard cot and snowstorm be damned.
Even though you’re not looking at him, you can still hear the smile in his voice when he tells you, “Yeah, we’ll see about that…”
MICHAEL ROBINAVITCH X READER — the only time alone you get with robby during a snowstorm is in a jammed elevator (pitt crew!reader, secret relationship cw for very brief allusions to smut | 1.1k)
Michael Robinavitch waits by the elevator and, in his fatigued state, forgets to press the down button for an embarrassingly long moment. You catch him standing there, waiting for a lift that’s never coming, and make a beeline to put him out of his misery.
He blinks hard when you appear suddenly at his side, pressing your knuckle against the down arrow for him. It feels like it’s the first time he’s seen you all day, and he thinks it probably has been. The blizzard outside has turned the PTMC into your new home for the time being, and most everyone is floating around like ghosts, between working and trying to catch some much-needed shuteye.
Seeing you now feels a little like a shot of espresso.
“Can’t sleep?” you wonder with a teasing grin, despite the exhaustion sitting heavily in your own eyes.
Robby inhales sharply through his broad nose and crosses his arms over his chest to fight the primal urge to hold you. His hairy arms flex under the navy jacket pushed up to his elbows as he jokes, “Is it that obvious?”
“Not at all…” you scoff.
The elevator dings. The doors part. The two of you step inside in tandem. It’s all business as usual, despite the heavy tension that threatens to pull the two of you together like magnets.
“How’s uh… How’s the patient in central 14?” Robby asks, scratching at the gray patch in his brown beard with an absentminded hand.
“He’s stable. For now, anyway— I’m still waiting for his C.T. results,” you answer with a sigh and press the button for the E.D. floor. Your heavy head swivels to the man beside you as the doors whir to a close. “How’s the Jane Doe in pedes?”
“She’s good,” Robby nods with a distant smile, bracing his hands on the railing behind him as the lift carries you downwards. “She’s taking the formula really well, she’s going to the bathroom normally, she’s…”
He trails off, brows furrowing in a silent look of confusion as he watches you reach again for the button panel. The knuckle of your pointer finger presses hard into the bright red stop switch, and the elevator jerks to a harsh standstill a second later.
His wide eyes follow your form as you lean against the wall with your head tipped back and your arms crossed over your chest.
“What are you doing?”
“I just… I need a second…” you sigh, lashes dancing against your cheeks as your eyes flutter closed. “I haven’t slept in almost twenty-four hours, and Frank’s snoring way too loud in the on-call room, and I just… I need a little quiet. Just for a second.”
Robby knows what you really mean. He always does. He has a way of understanding you without words. It’s why you work so well, he figures, and how you’ve managed to stay together despite the merciless job that often demands so much of your time.
So he doesn’t say a word when he reaches out for you, and you don’t say a word when you melt into his embrace.
He presses his scruffy cheek into your hair and wraps his strong arms around your shoulders. Your cheek squishes into his chest as your fingers curl into his jacket, all but melting against his warm body. You savor the sound of his heartbeat in your ear and the smell of his fading cologne in your nose.
You need to be in his arms like this far more than you want to be home, and god do you want so desperately to be at home.
“Any idea of when the storm’s gonna let up?” you ask him, half-muffled against his chest.
“They said two more days before the ice melts, at least.”
“Shit…”
“Yeah…” Robby huffs, cradling you gently by the back of your neck with one calloused hand, while his other scratches up and down the length of your spine over your scrubs. “I mean, we could always just say fuck it and hike through the blizzard together. And hope you don’t freeze to death in the process… I’ve already forgotten what our bed feels like…”
You part from him, just far enough to meet his brown-eyed gaze, gone all squishy around the edges from time and from how softly he looks down at you. Your chin bobs against his chest as you joke, “You’d really risk frostbite just to spend the night with me?”
“In a heartbeat,” Robby answers without a second thought.
“How romantic…” you lilt drily to compensate for the warmth swelling in your chest.
He shakes his head and ducks down to kiss you. It’s a chaste and fleeting thing, a coming and a leaving, but still the most affection you’ve gotten to share since you got stranded here a day ago.
“Mm…” Robby hums on an exhaled breath against you, pulling away to quip in a gruff murmur, “I almost forgot what that felt like, too…”
Your lips thin into a mischievous smirk that you cage between your teeth.
“Well, then, let me remind you…” you lilt and rise to the tips of your toes to close the distance between you once more.
You kiss him deeper, hard enough to bruise. You press your lips to his like you’re stamping hot wax on paper, leaving a mark on him that’ll hopefully get you through another agonizing shift that’ll inevitably force the two of you apart again.
His soft beard scratches gently at your delicate skin when Robby smiles against you. His mouth parts from you with a soft click as his glittering eyes turn down between your bodies, where your hands trail down the zipper of his jacket, headed straight for his scrub bottoms.
“What are you doing?” he wonders lowly with a cautious gaze, brows raised until his forehead wrinkles.
“Reminding you,” you lilt with an innocent shrug.
His large hands wrap around your wrists before you can untie the drawstring on his pants. His long fingers cage you firmly there as he flashes you a stern, dark-eyed look that makes your stomach do a backflip.
“Not here,” he tells you.
“I can find us a room, if that’s what you’re worried about—”
“We don’t have time for that—”
“Well, I know you, Robinavitch,” you squint. “And I know you can be pret-ty quick…”
“Oh, you are just asking for it, aren’t you?” he quips playfully.
“I’m about half a second away from begging for it, actually, yeah.”
You share a pair of knowing smiles and another languid kiss. You can taste spearmint gum and coffee on his tongue when you lick into his mouth. You sigh heavily through your nose and melt further against him. Neither of you realizes that the elevator has started moving again until it’s too late — until the doors are dinging open, and you’re jerking back from him like he’s burned you.
You’re wiping Robby’s spit from your mouth with the back of your hand when you find yourself face-to-face with Dana, who wears a tight-lipped smile and a knowing look behind her heavy glasses. If she’d caught the two of you in the act, however, she makes no mention of it now.
“Hey, I was just looking for you guys,” she says in her usual raspy voice in lieu of an actual greeting. “Dr. Santos has been lookin’ for you, Dr. Robby— And here are the test results for Mr. Campbell in central 14.”
She passes you a clipboard, and you flash her a wavering smile, praying you aren’t wearing the evidence of Robby’s kisses all over you now. “Oh. Great. Thank you. I’ll, uh… I’ll look ‘em over.”
You give her a curt nod as you step out of the elevator, flashing Robby a wide-eyed look over your shoulder as you go. You almost think you’ve made it out scot-free until Dana’s voice follows you: “I saw that, by the way.”
Your head whips in her direction. Robby pauses mid-stride behind you. You guys couldn’t be casual if you tried.
“Saw what?” you wonder in a voice an octave higher than normal, and with a mouth more swollen than usual, too.
“You know what,” Dana answers drily.
“Actually, I don’t,” Robby chuckles with his brows raised to his hairline. “I think the cabin fever’s starting to get to you, Evans.”
The older woman scoffs in response. “Yeah, you aren’t lyin’ about that, at least…”
She heads in the opposite direction, and Robby falls into step with you. You exhale sharply through your nose — a breath you didn’t realize you were holding; a breath that catches again a second later when Robby ducks down to mutter in your ear.
“Meet me on the eighth floor. Thirty minutes.”
You spend the next half hour reminding yourself to breathe.
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✦Bucky Masterlist - Main Masterlist - Read on aO3!✦
✦summary: you and Bucky hate each other, so it's not unusual for him to act cold around you. but this is differant. this is... feral. and you're starting to wonder what's wrong✦
✦warnings/tags: bucky barnes x female!reader, enemies to lovers, ragebating Bucky Barnes, emotional angst, everyone's bad at feelings, fluff, sex pollen, sex pollen level smut, a little plot for the porn (dry humping, manhandling, bucky's feral, emotional sex, dry orgasm, truly foul dirty talk, hyperspermia, pussy eating like crazy, fingering, dumbification, dirty talk, sensitive reader, finger sucking, bucky gets nasty, body worship, overstimulation, sex pollen stamnia, mean!bucky, oral f!recieving, begging, praise kink, monster dick bucky, he fucks like a machine, breeding kink), no use of y/n, no descrption of reader✦
✦wc: 11.1k✦
✦Author's Note: i'm so normal about sex pollen✦
It doesn’t bother you. If you tell yourself enough, you’re really going to believe that it doesn’t bother you.
But he’s everywhere.
There isn’t a corner of the damn building without Bucky Barnes. You go to the kitchen and he’s there making a sandwich, watching you move around the counter like he thinks you’re going to bite him. In the gym he’s at the weights and the punching bags, and you try to ignore him but he grunts and moans and you think he’s doing it on purpose. the living area he takes over the TV and watches whatever he wants to catch up with the times. No matter how politely you ask him to switch to something else, he always tells you to just wait. Then you try, but he’s spread out on the couch until your knees have to bump, and your face gets all hot, and you have to stomp away before you start acting on all your stupid thoughts.
Because it’s not just Bucky’s eternal presence and stubbornness and smirking that burrows under your skin. It’s that you like it.
That when you’re next to him on the couch, all you can think about is that place where your body’s connect. He’s warm. Tall and warm. Your skin tingles at the contact point, and whenever he shifts it’s like you’re being shot up with a drug.
“You’re squirmy.” He grumbles, glaring at you in the dark. “No one ever teach you to sit still?”
You stick your tongue out. “No one ever teach you to mind your own business?”
“Hard to mind my business when you’re movin’ all the cushions, doll-“
“Then go sit somewhere else, robot man.”
Bucky’s jaw twitches. “I’m not a robot.”
“Uh huh.”
“I’m not-“
“You act like one.” You snap, and Bucky closes his eyes. Like he’s fucking praying.
“I was here first.” He mutters. You don’t balk.
“Congratulations.”
You hold his glare, and Bucky lets out a heavy breath through his nose. He narrows his eyes, tongue flicking over his lips. His full lips. Pretty and chapped, but in the perfect, soft way-
Get a fucking grip.
“There’s a chair over there.” You point across the room, sinking back into the cushions. “Go sit in it, if I’m so squirmy.”
Bucky scowls, and opens his mouth, but whatever jab he’s got for you, you don’t want to hear it. You reach over and unpause the movie—probably another one of Sam’s this is what you gotta catch up on, Barnes suggestions, because there’s no way Bucky picked out the Goonies himself—and fix your glower on the TV screen. You hate this movie. You’re going to watch it all the way through, just to show Bucky that he doesn’t bother you.
You spread your own legs wide, too. If men are allowed to do it, so are you. Bucky grunts as your knee pushes over his thigh, and you smirk at the TV.
It has nothing to do with the thick muscle you can feel under his sweatpants, that you keep your legs like that for the rest of the night. Bucky’s fingers flex a few times, and brush over the inner curve of your knee and the top of your thigh, like he’s thinking about just shoving you away. At one point, you hear him grunt, and look over with mockingly raised brows.
“Everything okay?” You almost simper, and he grunts and nods.
That’s all you get. Bucky fixes his anger on the movie, you win this round, and you get to be close to him without thinking about it.
You’ll think about it later. In the comfort of your own bedroom, you’ll think about it and think about it and think about it all night. You’ll think about it until your wrist hurts. But Bucky doesn’t get to know that.
As far as he needs to be concerned, you never spare him a second thought. It’s all he spares you. And you’re not going to be the pathetic girl who falls for someone who only thinks of her as a buzzing gnat around his head. Who worships the ground of a man who would step on her like a flower into concrete, not because he was seeking to hurt, but just because he didn’t notice you were there at all.
Although Bucky does seem to notice where you are.
The farmer does like to keep track of pests in his crops.
“You skipped the mission briefing.” Bucky grunts in the morning, glaring at you over a cup of coffee.
Something soft in you swells like a prodded bruise. He noticed where you were.
You ignore it in favor of flipping him off.
“I was busy.”
“Too busy for your job?”
“It’s not my job-“
“Your name was on the roster.” Bucky slams the folder down on the table, and your lips twitch.
“Have you been carrying that around all day?”
“That doesn’t matter-“
“Yes, it really does-“
Bucky hisses your name. There’s a fury under his tone, that makes your mouth snap shut. If he notices, he doesn’t say anything.
“You need to be there, Steve was talkin’ about safety shit, and if you don’t know it you could get killed-“
“I know how mission briefing work, I’ve been here longer than you have-“
“Really? ‘Cause you don’t act like it-“
“I don’t act like it?” You snort. “Last I checked I’m ranked higher than you, Sargent.” You raise your chin, letting your lips curl. “Which is why I’m allowed to defer missions, and you’re not.”
“I’m skipping.” You shrug, grabbing an apple from the counter. “And if I’m skipping, I don’t need to be at the briefing. But thanks for checking on me, dad.”
Bucky’s eyes narrow. You expect him to snap something about experience and you not being responsible enough or needing to care more.
But instead his fists curl and uncurl at his side. His nostrils flare. He grabs the counter, his scowl burning right through you. You take a large bite of your apple, and his gaze darts down. Juice drips down your chin, and you wipe it off with light fingers. That only seems to make him angrier.
“Why’re you skipping.”
You shrug. You should say none of your business. But part of you is childish. A very big, loud part that wants him to react to something you know he isn’t actually going to care about.
“I have a date.”
“A what.” It’s not a full reaction. He’s mostly staring at you like he didn’t understand the word. Maybe they called it something different in the 40s.
“A date?” You roll your eyes, a little meaner than you mean to be. He always bring that out in you, though.
Bucky always brings everything out in you. It’s incredibly annoying.
“You know.” You push mockingly. “Where you go out with someone. And flirt like people, instead of robots.”
“Robots flirt.” Bucky grunts, and you snort.
“Yeah, but they don’t have sex-“
The counter cracks. It’s loud, echoing through the kitchen. You start and twitch, and Bucky blinks at his metal hand, like he’s just as surprised as you are. He looks back to you, shakes his head, and takes a large step back.
“What’s-“
“Steve’s callin’ me.” He mutters, and you blink.
“No, he’s not-“
“Have fun.” Bucky ignores you. His words sound pushed through his teeth. “On your human date.”
Then he’s gone.
And you’re left in the kitchen with your apple and a cracked counter, staring at where he’d vanished through the door. You don’t care about the date.
You just need to know what the fuck that was.
There’s a part of you that feels bad, for the man Natasha set you up with. She’d picked him out specifically because he had a vague resemblance to Bucky—because you’ve never told her your secret, but you didn’t need to, she’s Natasha—but it wasn’t enough.
He didn’t have the underlying accent, or the gleam in his eyes. You made a sharper edged joke, and he just laughed. He didn’t spar. He didn’t push your buttons in a way that made you light up. He just smiled at you all night—wrong smile, too—and then didn’t pay. Bucky would’ve paid.
You have no evidence of that. It’s just a feeling, that comes from how he still opens doors for you, even when you’re at each other’s throats. All polite and handsome and insufferable. You hate him.
And there’s not a single point during the night, where you’re not thinking about him.
“We should do this again.” The Date—you’ve forgotten his name, and it’s certainly not a good time to ask—says at the end of the night.
You’re shivering. Bucky would’ve offered you his jacket. He did once, on a mission in the Andes. You got all cold and he rolled his eyes and muttered that he told you to bring another layer, but still gave you his jacket all the same. This man is just grinning at you after not calling you a cab and saying he wanted to stand outside in the misty, chilly night. He said he wanted fresh air, and now your freezing, and he thinks he’s getting a second date.
At the very least, you feel a little less guilty about only thinking of Bucky and the mission the whole time. He deserved it.
“Sure.” You smile, because even with superstrength, it’s easier to tell a man yes and then vanish than it is to deny them to their face. “Have a good night.”
He tries to hug you. Your phone buzzes, and you duck away to check it.
The mission is over.
Two days early.
Your jaw tightens.
Most people would think that a job being done early is a good thing. That it means the team was just so focused and coordinated that they sped through every single step, and ended in a total victory. But you’ve been on this job too long. Early mission conclusions only ever happen for one reason.
Something went wrong, and they have to come back.
You rush back to the compound with barely a goodnight to the Date. It’s mostly because you forget, in the blur of worry. You’d skimmed the mission files before they left, just to make sure it wasn’t anything too dangerous. Bucky had been mad about you not going with them. Maybe he’d thought they’d need the hands, but it had just looked like a retrieval mission. Old Hydra facility with some data Tony wanted. Nothing too hard.
But they’re back early.
And if someone’s hurt, you could’ve stopped it. You could’ve been there, instead of on that stupid fucking date. Which also means that Bucky was right, and that’s incredibly annoying. He’s going to weild it over your head, and the mocking is going to turn you on more, and you’ll have earned it which isn’t going to help anything at all.
You get back to the compound, and it’s not in lockdown. There aren’t med staff flooding the grounds or emergency sirens blaring. You go right to the hanger, and find that it’s already been cleared out. The jet isn’t being quarantined.
Maybe they really did just… Finish early.
You’re heading back to your room when you slam right into them.
Steve and Bucky, standing in the middle of the hall, arguing in hushed voices.
“You need to go, Buck-“
“I’m fine-“
“No, you’re not. You can lie to the docs, don’t lie to me-“
“I ain’t lyin’, I’m fine-“
Your too lost in your own head, barely even hearing what they’re saying. You barrel straight into Bucky’s back.
He goes rigid. You stumble a little, and he grabs your upper arm.
His hand is hot.
Not sexy hot—although it’s also that—but literally, physically hot. Almost searing, against your shivering skin. You look up at him, and swallow.
He’s flushed. There’s sweat clinging to his brow, and an exhausted shadow over his features. His eyes are so blown out they’re almost fully black. You blink at him, and his mouth falls open in a ragged pant.
“Hi.” You whisper.
His throat bobs. “You’re back.”
“I- I got the alert.” You glance over to Steve, who’s gone oddly pale. “Did the mission go okay? It was fine that I wasn’t there, right-“
“Yep!” Steve almost shouts, and you blink. “I mean- We were all good. Wish you were there, we all missed you, but- We were fine. Right, Buck?” Steve grabs Bucky’s shoulder. “We were all good.”
Bucky doesn’t look away from you for a single second. He grunts, and his grip tightens on your arm.
“Let go.” Steve mutters, and Bucky shoots him a glare.
He releases you like you burned him, then wipes his hand on his pants. You scowl. He was the one touching you.
“I was gonna.” He grumbles, and Steve sighs.
“I know, but-“ You get a weary look. Like Steve doesn’t want you to hear their conversation. “I think- You know what I think-“
“Steve-“ Bucky cuts himself off with a groan, running a hand over his face.
He still hasn’t looked away from you. Or moved that far out of your proximity.
“I’m fine.” He says, low and under his breath. You’re rooted to the ground under his gaze, unsure what you could even think of to say. “It’s- I’m fine.”
Steve’s lips press in a thin line. Bucky takes a large, jerking step back. Like he’s dragging himself away.
“How was your date?” He grunts.
“Bucky-“
“I’m just askin’ a question.” He snaps, still not sparing Steve a look.
The attention is getting to be too much. Bucky is looking at you like he wants to eat you alive, and it’s making your body almost buzz in anticipation. You want to jump on him and feel those hot hands all over your body. His nostrils flare like he can smell your arousal. If he can, you might jump off a bridge.
You hope he’d catch you, then fuck you until your can’t even walk.
Get a fucking grip.
“Bad.” You cross your arms over your chest, trying to keep your heart from bursting out of your chest. “He sucked.”
And that’s the kind of thing Bucky would usually mock you for. Skipping a mission just for a bad date.
But a low, rumbling growl falls from his chest. His tongue darts over his lips. He takes a half-step forward, and you lean in to the gravity of his stare.
“We have debriefing!” Steve shouts, grabbing the collar of Bucky’s suit. “Bye!”
Before you can even register it, Steve’s dragging Bucky down the hall. You swear you hear another feral noise, and a crash after they turn the corner.
Something had to have happened on the mission. You just have no fucking clue what.
Bucky’s only been acting stranger. You’d pretend it didn’t bother you, if you could get away from it for a single fucking second.
You walk through the compound, and he’s somehow more everywhere than he was before. Around every corner, in the library, on the grounds, even in the control room while you’re going through the mission files.
“What’re you doin’.” He grunts, and you sigh.
You’re not surprised he’s there. It’s the fifth time today that he’s snuck up on you.
“I’m going through the reports on the mission.” You drawl. “Don’t you have better things to do than follow me around?”
Bucky grunts. It seems to be a no. You roll your eyes and go back to poking through the system. It’s hard to pretend that you can’t feel his presence behind you. There’s heat almost rolling from his body, and thick, spicy and musky scent that’s filling the room. It’s making you a little dizzy. It’s all you can do, not to look back at him.
That would be dangerous. He probably still looks feverish and animalistic. You might moan.
You find the files for the mission, and try to open them. Big, read access denied, contact your handler for permission to these files flashes over your screen. Your mouth falls open, and you whip back to glare at Bucky before you can think about it.
Mistake. Just like you’d thought, big mistake.
He looks even worse and better than you thought. He’s wearing just a t-shirt and sweats, and they’re clinging to his sweaty body. His eyes are hooded and his lips are parted. His attention is so wholly fixed on you that it almost makes you fall out of your chair. You almost forget you’re annoyed with him. Every single nerve in your body is alight, and your fingers are itching to comb through his sweaty hair.
You somehow—just barely—fight it.
“Why can’t I access these files.”
Bucky leans over you, his nostrils flaring. If you reach up, you could trace the stubbled line of his jaw. It’s hard to maintain your glare.
“Barnes-“
“You weren’t on the mission.” He mutters. “Not your files to see.”
You scowl. “I can access the files of every other mission I was on-“
“Steve should change that.”
God, you wish he wasn’t so pretty. It would be easier to think about punching him.
“I know something happened out there.” You hiss, sitting up a little taller. “You can’t hide it from me. I’ll figure it out.”
Bucky chuckles. It’s a low, raspy sound that runs through your body, making you shiver.
“Sure, doll. Have fun with that.”
You shoot to your feet, and Bucky lurches back. Another one of those deep, rumbling growls rolls from his chest, and for a second you think he’s going to pounce on you.
And then you blink, and he’s gone. Leaving you with only that hazy smell, and desire rolling through your veins.
You wish that was the extent of it, but it’s barely the start. And it only gets worse.
Bucky doesn’t do his movie nights anymore, which means you get the TV all to yourself. You watch what you want, and try not to look at the spot next to you. Where your body feels like he’s supposed to be. You stretch out your legs, but they ache strangely without his touch. You get more restless without him. Around midnight, you shuffle to the kitchen, hoping one of those soothingherb thingys that Wanda says help with her nightmares will be there.
Instead, you find Bucky.
He’s drinking a glass of ice, with a little bit of water. He freezes when he sees you, and moves further behind the counter.
You sigh. You’re too tired to fight him.
“Can’t sleep?” You mumble.
He just nods.
You sigh, and walk over the cupboard.
“You want hot chocolate?”
A grunt. Better than silence. You make two mugs, one for you, one for Bucky.
And maybe it’s just that you’re really starting to worry, but you don’t bother pretending to hate him. Your fingers brush when you pass him his mug, and his body seizes like you shocked him, but you just offer a tiny smile.
His mouth falls open. He stares at you like he’s spent years only looking at the muddier reflection of stars in the water, and has finally thought just to tilt his head up. You let out a small, shaking breath. He’s still burning up. You can feel it from your place a foot away. But you don’t dare to push it.
Not when he’s looking at you like this. The way you’d always, secretly and shamefully, dreamed he would.
“I’m watching Star Wars.” You mumble. “You wanna…”
You trail off, and Bucky’s throat bobs.
He nods again. A new tendril of worry blooms, overlapping with the growing tangle of them in your gut. He might not be able to speak.
But he follows you to the living area, and takes his place on the couch. His knee pushes against yours. He’s breathing awfully shallow, but you’re a selfish coward that wants him close, so you don’t mention it.
You barely pay attention to the movie. All you can focus on is Bucky at your side. How he doesn’t even seem to be sparing the TV a glance. He’s not really touching you, save for that place where your thighs are always pushed together, but every time you shift he grabs your knee. You blink at him, and his throat just bobs. He still hasn’t said a word. You’re afraid that when he does, it will break this fragile illusion.
That he wants to be here.
Near you.
He passes out near the end of the movie. His head falls against your shoulder and his body goes limp, almost a blanket over yours. You don’t move, just staring at a lit up, black screen. He looks more peaceful than you’ve ever seen. His fever isn’t breaking, but it does seem to be easing. You run your fingers through his hair, and he makes a low sound like a purr.
Then he takes a deep inhale, right against the crook of your neck, and a different noise leaves him.
It’s almost a moan.
You swallow. Suddenly you need to move. You don’t know what’s going on with him, but this can’t be what he actually wants. To be asleep almost in your arms, purring and moaning. That’s not a part of him you get to have.
But when you try to move, his grip around you tightens.
You feel almost sick.
It takes almost an hour, to roll off the couch without him pulling you back. When you’re free, you still cover him in a blanket and press a hand to his brow. Just to check. You can’t really help it.
His fever is building again.
You wish he would just tell you what was wrong. Even if he thinks you hate him, he can’t think you wouldn’t care enough to help.
When you start to walk away, he moans again. You could swear it sounded a little like your name.
You force yourself to go to bed. You’re not sure if you want him to remember in the morning.
If anything, you just pray he gets better. It’s hard to hide your undying care for him, when he’s in pain. Impossible to ignore how much it bothers you, that he’s hurting. ‘
But it is Bucky.
And he’s never going to make anything that easy.
You walk out of your room in the morning, and he’s right there. Lingering in the hallway, staring at you with those blown-out eyes, working his jaw like he’s trying to bite his own tongue off.
“Hi.” You say lamely.
He stumbles back like you punched him. “You- You’re-“
“Bucky, are you-“
“’M fine.” He says it mostly to himself again. There’s sweat gathering on his brow and bags under his eyes.
You’re not going to tell him, but you’re getting worried. This is the third morning in a row you’ve found him here. The first night you asked if he’d slept there, and he’d scowled and stomped away.
But from the look of him, you don’t think he’s been sleeping at all.
“Do you need something?” You ask. You sound soft, but you can’t help it. The worse he looks, the more your heart tightens. “I can call Steve-“
“Don’t get Steve.” He steps back. The same jerked movement from the first night. It’s the only way he’s been moving around you, lately. “I’m fine.”
You give him a doubtful look. His tongue flicks over his lips. You take a step forward, and he takes another step back. Like you’ve got a polarity field around you. Like he can’t even stand to breathe the same air.
And yet he’s here. Outside your door, and breathing through his mouth like an animal.
“Bucky-“
“Don’t.” He shakes his head, stumbling another step back. “Just- Don’t.”
You swallow, and don’t give chase when he walks away. Jogs away. He yanks himself away, then runs like he thinks you’re going to catch him and drag him back. You won’t.
But you do go right to Steve.
“What happened on the mission.”
Steve flinches, gagging on his sandwich. You’re glaring down at him with your hands on your hips, and you think he knows his little charming smile isn’t going to work on you here. That doesn’t seem to stop him from trying anyway.
“Hey, um- Do you want a cookie-“
“Steven.” You hiss, and he swallows. “What happened.”
Steve winces, avoiding your gaze. “I’m not supposed to tell you.”’
“What do you mean you’re not supposed to tell me-“
“I mean I- I can.” He mutters. “But then Bucky will kill me. And I don’t want Bucky to kill me.”
You scowl. “Tough shit, because guess who’s going to kill you if you don’t tell me?”
Steve sighs. “Is it you?”
“Yep.”
He stares at his sandwich, like it’s somehow going to get him out of this situation. You wait for him to realize it won’t. You have plenty of time.
“I’m really not supposed to tell you-“
“I really don’t care.”
“Well- You will.” Steve looks up with a sad little puppy eyes.
You don’t have the same reservations about punching him in the face, that you have with Bucky. He’s basically asking for it right now.
“Steven, I swear to fucking God-“
“I can’t tell you.” He cuts you off with a shake of his head, and you scoff.
“No, you just won’t tell me-“
“That’s not- I can’t, okay? Please stop asking me to-“
“Why, because Bucky doesn’t want you to?” You leer. “Because last I checked, you’re the Captain. And if Bucky is your friend, you should be telling his teammates he’s in danger so they can help-“
“That’s the problem!” Steve shouts, and you blink. “You- Look, you’re going to want to help, and I can’t let you.”
“You can’t let me help?” You echo, and Steve winces.
“I know how it sounds-“
“Do you? Because what I’m fucking hearing that your best friend is in danger, and you won’t let me fucking help-“
“Why do you even want to help?” Steve fixes you with a pointed look. “All you ever do is complain about Bucky and how he’s annoying you. I would’ve thought you didn’t care.”
You narrow your eyes, and Steve raises his brows. You know what he’s doing. Smug fucking asshole.
“That won’t work on me.” You grunt, and he shrugs.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Steve-“
“But,” he says causally. “If I did, I’d say that’s why I can’t tell you. And you know that.”
You hate it when he speaks in riddles. Like you’re just supposed to read between the lines when your brain is fogged with worry about Bucky.
“I- I don’t-“ You let out a slow breath, looking down to your shoes. Heat is flooding your cheeks. It’s annoying. “It’s not- I’m just- Please.”
Your voice cracks suddenly. You’ve been losing more sleep over this than you’re ever going to tell anyone. You almost feel ill with it—like the worry is an infection, knotting up your stomach and making your heart pick up—but that might just literal exhaustion. Something happened. No one will tell you what. It’s making you feel useless and hopeless and torn up to tiny, useless shreds.
“Bucky.” You say slowly. “Is- He’s not okay. I know he’s not okay.” You force yourself to meet Steve’s gaze. “Just- Lie to me and say he’s fine, and fix it, or tell me and let me help. But I- I can’t just-“
You don’t even know how to finish the sentence. There’s a burning feeling behind your eyes and a lump in your throat. You’re so worried. Worried this is something that’s going to kill him, and you’re going to lose him forever.
And there’s pity, in Steve’s gaze. It’s enough to make him break, his voice softening completely.
“Alright.” He murmurs. “But- You can’t tell him I told you.”
You nod quickly. “I’ll say I just got into the files, or- Something- Please.”
Steve sighs. “Okay. Okay.” He shakes his head. “It was on the mission. Bucky was distracted the whole time, and when we got jumped he wasn’t being controlled with his punches. He swag to hard on an Hydra agent. Knocked them back into some vials, and- Well they burst. All over both of them. We put the agent in containment, but he was displaying worse symptoms. Bucky- I think it’s the serum, or just… Bucky. But he’s been controlling it better.” Steve grimaces. “But that doesn’t mean he’s not still knocked up with stuff.”
You nod slowly. That’s not that bad.
But Steve didn’t want you to know for a reason.
“What are the symptoms?”
Steve won’t meet your gaze. “Fever. Nausea. Hormone flares. Um- Increased… libido.”
Your eyes widen, your mouth falling open. “What.”
“Hydra makes some weird stuff. Tony thinks this was, um- A breeding drug. We don’t know why they were developing it, but- There’s no other name.” Steve’s nose wrinkles. “The agent- His cell is disgusting.”
“But- Bucky-“
“I told you, he says he’s got it under control.” Steve shrugs, but doesn’t really sound like he’s convinced himself. “The agent has been, ah… begging for anyone. Bucky doesn’t have the same liberty with what will help. He says it’s going to pass, and he’ll be fine.”
“And will it?” You breathe. “Pass?”
Steve shrugs. “It did for the agent.”
“Before or after the mating?”
Steve’s silence is an answer. You swear under your breath.
“Why wouldn’t you tell me this, Steve? We- We need to get him to someone, this could fucking kill him-“
“I know that!” Steve snaps. “I know that just as well as you do! As he does! But- Jesus.” He shakes his head. “He won’t take anyone. He’ll only- Well- You know.”
“I know? I don’t fucking know, none of you have been telling me shit-“
Steve says your name plainly. You blink.
“What-“
“Nothing. Just- Why do you think he’s been lingering around you?”
You stare at him. He raises his brows, and you swallow.
“Steve-“
“I didn’t say anything-“
“Yes, you did-“
“Nope.”
You press your lips in a tight line. He can’t mean what you think he means. That would be to easy. Too good. “Bucky- He doesn’t- That’s not how he feels about me.”
Please don’t say it is. It’s not fair if you’re lying.
“Funny.” Steve shrugs. “He says the same thing about you.”
This is a bad idea.
Bucky hasn’t left his room in a day. You’d spent all of last night replaying your conversation with Steve, trying to pick it apart for a single reason he didn’t mean what you thought he did. What you hoped he did. What you’d always hoped for, only in the dead of night where no one would ever find out.
But it didn’t matter how you turned or picked at Steve’s words. There was only one conclusion. The beautiful, horrible one that you can’t even fully wrap your head around. It would mean you spent years hating him for no reason. Year thinking about kissing his stupid face, when you could’ve been actually kissing him. If Steve’s right, you’re going to kill Bucky.
After you fix this for him.
If Steve means what you think, you can fix this for him. He just has to let you.
Which is why this is a horrible idea. If Bucky turns you down, you’re going to have to quit your job and change your name and move to Indonesia.
But if he doesn’t turn you down…
You steel yourself and knock on Bucky’s door. It’s worth the risk, just for him. Always just for him.
“Fuck off, Stevie-“
“I’m not Steve!” You call, and for a second there’s no response.
Then there’s a muffled banging, and you almost fall forward when Bucky yanks the door open.
He looks even worse than before. And better. And hotter, and oh God, your knees are already weak.
His shirt is gone, and his broad, muscled chest is shining with sweat. His hair flops over his eyes, mussed up and soft looking. He’s breathing through his nose, even as his swollen mouth hangs open. His metal fist is curled against the door, making the wood crack under his fingers. Standing through his sweatpants is the long, proud outline of his cock.
You swallow, your mouth watering. Bucky says your name, and you can’t tell if it’s supposed to be a plea or a prayer.
“You shouldn’t be here-“
“Steve said you need me.”
You stare at each other. Bucky’s tongue flicks out, and you chew on your lower lip. This is it. If he turns you down, you’ll walk away and live. A new life, across the world. You’ve never been to Indonesia, but you hear they have good food and community, and you’re sure you’ll be able to fit right in over time, and if you don’t at least Bucky will never find you to make you relive this humiliation, because it’s been almost two full minutes and he hasn’t said anything, so you should probably pull out your phone and start researching Indonesian names-
“Steve shouldn’t have told you anything.” Bucky growls, and you swallow.
“I- I made him.”
He sighs. You could swear his dick twitches. “Of course you did.”
“I was worried about you-“
“You don’t have to be, doll. I’m-“
“If you say I’m fine, I’m going to fucking punch you.”
Bucky scowls. You scowl harder. You have a feeling neither of you are going to back down.
“You’re sick.” You say plainly, and Bucky lets out a sharp exhale through his nose.
“Maybe. But it’s not the kinda sick you can help with-“
“Steve says it’s the kind of sick only I can help with.”
He’s silent again. You risk a tiny step forward, and he takes one back, muttering your name. It’s a warning. A plea.
“Don’t do this.” He mutters, fists balled at his side. “Not outta pity, not for me-“
“It’s not pity.” You stop in his doorway, making your voice soft. “I want to help, Bucky. Let me help.”
He shakes his head, squeezing his eyes shut. “No, you- You just- You don’t feel like that for me-“
“You don’t feel like that for me.” You breathe, and Bucky’s body locks up.
“Who says?”
“You’re an ass to me-“
“You’re an ass to me.”
“I don’t mean to be.” You whisper. “I- I don’t- I’m not good at… You know.”
Bucky’s throat bobs. He still doesn’t move.
“Me neither.”
You nod. “But…”
“Yeah.” He swallows. “Yeah. I do.”
You take a deep breath. His whole room is filled with that musky, spicy smell. The heat is almost rolling off his body.
“Please ask me to help.” You don’t bother to hide the desperation in your voice. He needs to know that you mean it. “I- I want to, Bucky, I want you so bad-“
Bucky muffles your pleas, crashing forward and pressing his mouth over yours.
It’s not the soft, loving kiss of your fantasies. It’s rough and desperate, the kiss of a man finally letting his leash snap. He grabs your neck and scrunches his fingers in your hair, dragging a moan from the back of your throat. It turns into a hungry cry, when he pushes his tongue between your lips. Your knees wobble from the bruising force of it. You grab his shirt for balance, scrunching the fabric between your fingers.
Bucky grunts, pressing further over you. One arm drops to wrap around your waist, and the other slide up to cradle the back of your head. The touch his shockingly gentle, for the demanding way he’s almost eating your kisses. You’re standing nowhere near a wall, but he’s caged you all the same. There’s nothing to do but feel the way his cool, metal fingers dig into your hips, and the unrelenting heat of his mouth.
You kiss until your breathing is ragged. He tastes like mint and salt, and it’s a little addictive. Even after you’re light-headed and whimpering, Bucky sucks on your lower lip and takes just a little more. You whimper, gasping for air that he doesn’t seem to need. He tugs on your hair, forcing you to tip your neck back, and he plants open, hungry kisses over every place he can reach.
“You gotta be sure.” He murmurs against your skin. “Tell me you’re sure, doll, ‘cause- I don’t think I can go easy.”
And oh God, isn’t that lovey thought. Bucky not going easy. Combined with his tongue flicking over a pulse point, you almost fall over from the pure thought of it.
But he’s asking real permission. His hold on your hip is getting tighter, and his shoulders are squared and tense. He’s keeping himself from taking what he really wants, until you give him total permission.
You didn’t know you could want him more.
“I- Oh-“ Your eyes flutter, as he nips on sensitive skin under your jaw before kissing away the hurt. “I’m sure, Bucky, I- I don’t want you to go easy.”
For some reason, that only makes him more tense. He takes an uneven breath, pressing his brow against your head and almost pulling you off your feet as he hugs you tighter. You wait, slowly wrapping your arms around him and dragging your nails soothingly over the nape of his neck.
Bucky draws himself back, his expression unreadable as he scans over your face. You offer him a tiny, nervous smile, and he lets out a shaky laugh.
“You- You got no idea, do you?”
Your face falls to a pout. “I have a lot of ideas-“
“No, you don’t.” He drops his brow over yours. “You got no fuckin’ clue, what you do to me.”
And your brain stalls. It gets all gooey and soft, as you just blink up at him. You’re already on unsteady legs. You never thought he’d catch you if you fell, but with the way Bucky’s looking at you right now, you think he’d dive off a cliff to be at your side.
“Bucky…” You breathe, and he drops his forehead against yours. Your noses bump. His gaze darts between your lips and eyes, and you think you might be burning alive.
“You smell so good.” He mutters, before leaning down to press a soft, sweet kiss to your lips. “Taste better than I imagined.”
“You-“ You almost whimper, when he pulls away. “You imagined?”
He chuckles, kissing just your upper lip. You’re already putty under his hands, and you might turn to just a steam of desire if he doesn’t stop kissing you so softly.
“Didn’t you?”
You nod, and Bucky’s lips twitch.
“Bet I imagined more.”
And you doubt that, but Bucky’s kissing you again before you can tell him that you imagined so much it scared you sometimes. The way you were sure that you’d never be able to recover, from an addiction to a drug you’d never even taken.
You’re certainly never going to recover now. Kissing Bucky is even better than you’d let yourself dream about. His lips are just as soft as you thought. Even with the way he’s holding himself back, his touch is possessive. He traces your sides like he’s trying to memorize them, and kisses you the same way.
“Got no idea what I’m gonna do to, either.” He rasps against your lips. “If you let me, doll… You shouldn’t- But-“ He groans, pushing his nose into your cheek, kissing over the slope of your jaw. “Fuck, I want you to.”
You want him to. You want to feel those sloppy, devout kisses everywhere, to get that infernal tongue between your legs. His cock is almost bursting through his sweats, protruding into your thigh. He’d be heavy on your tongue, and split you better than the toys that you’ve used in his place before. The ache in your core throbs from just the idea, and you can feel your heart trying to burst all out of your throat with confession of desire and adoration. But you’re not sure if he’s going to believe them.
“Tell me.” You whisper. “Tell me what you’ve dreamed about doing to me.”
Bucky pulls back, and you worry you’ve stepped on an invisible landmine. That you’re going to be shoved out of the room, the door slammed in your face instead of behind you, locking you out of the room you’ve longer to be in since you met him. Bucky stares at you. You open your mouth to apologize and take it back, but he loves to move faster than your lustdrunk mind can understand.
You squeal as he walks you backward, but not out of the room. He kicks his door shut as you pass it. It slams, right as Bucky pins you between against the wall. He kisses you before you can protest or ask questions, and keeps going until you’re squirming against him and unsure if you should pull him closer or push him away. His kisses wander your cheeks, over your nose and hairline and back down to your ear.
“I wanted you just like this.” He chokes out, and your swallow. He sounds wrecked, and you’re not even kissing anymore. “Wanted you everywhere. Would see you in a meetin’ and think about bending you over the table. You’d get under me on the training mats and I’d wanna get in a headlock between your legs. Bet you taste so good.”
He shudders, pressing his face into the crook of your neck. His dick has shifted to push right near your core, and it’s almost too much pressure, while not being nearly enough.
“Would sit next to you on the plane and think about gettin’ on my knees.” He rasps, beard ticking against your skin. “Worshipping your pussy like it deserves. Makin’ you- Fuck- Call my name-“
Bucky moans, his hips jerking forward. A tiny moan escapes your lips, and Bucky almost whines and does it again. You don’t think he can help it.
“Wanted to stuff your pretty little lips with my cock.” He thrusts again, his whole weight almost collapses over your body. “You’d get all mouthy and I- I jerk off to the idea of puttin’ you over my knee or gettin’ you lying in my bed. I’d- I’d fuck you so nice, doll, I swear I’d be good, but- Fuuuck-“
He’s rutting between your thighs, and seems to forget the story he’s supposed to be telling you in favor of sucking on your neck. You whimper, pushing your hand between your bodies. Not to stop him—never to stop him—but to wrap your fingers around his cock through his sweats.
Bucky moans, his voice breaking with raw, starved relief. You try to pull him back to kiss him, but he just wraps closer around you. He’s almost shaking. You think he’s trying not to fuck your hand.
You can’t have that.
“It’s okay.” You drag your fingers over the line of his cock, and he whimpers against your neck. “I- I’ve thought about it too.”
Bucky slams forward, and you smile at the air.
“Wanted you to shove me down and fuck me stupid. Wanted to ride you until I passed out. I bought a dildo, baby, just to pretend it was you.”
You use your free hand to pet the back of his head, slowly sliding his sweats down to give yourself better access. Bucky’s thick and heavy in your hand. Your fingers don’t even come close to wrapping fully around, and whenever your nails graze his balls, he bucks forward with a strangled moan.
“Wasn’t as big.” You breathe, stroking his dick in long, tight motion. “You’re so big, Bucky, I don’t think it’s gonna fit.”
He grunts, his teeth grazing your neck. “Gonna- Fuck-“
You squeeze him at the base, and he doubles over. He’s almost fully collapsed against you. You want to feel him come apart.
“Gonna make it fit.” He hisses in your ear, and you hum.
“How?”
“Open you up.” He mutters, words slurred like he’s drunk. “Get you all over me, doll- Wanna watch you cum over and over and- God-“
His dick is twitching, and you giggle. He’s working himself up.
“You think this is funny?” He rasps.
You smile, swiping your thumb over the weeping slit of his dick. “A little. You wanna make me cum but you won’t even touch me.”
He makes an annoyed sound, and tries to push off of you. You tug his cock a little harder, and he falls back over with a moan. You giggle again.
“You- You’re a fuckin’ brat-“
“I’m helping you, Barnes.” You whisper in his ear.
He chuckles, and the sound rolls through your body. “Helpin’ me would be sitting on my face- Fuck-“
Bucky’s whole body shakes, when you squeeze him one last time, and his control slip. You pet him through his orgasm, unsure if you want him to notice how you press your legs tighter to try and get more stains of his cum. He pants and groans against your skin, his lips latching back around that one bruise he seems to be obsessed with.
There’s so much cum. Bucky grinds into your fist, and it just keeps coming and coming and coming until your fingers are sticky and drenched. The idea of him doing that inside you is almost a little terrifying. You’ve never wanted anything more.
A choked sound like your name comes out, muffled against your skin. You smile, leaning back to try and meet his gaze.
Bucky seems to need a second. You hope you didn’t already wear him out.
“You okay?” You whisper, and he tenses.
Bucky pulls back, and your pulse picks up into a drum.
Whatever he’d been before, it had been tame compared to this. His jaw is clenched, his attention fixed on you like a predator. His chest heaves, his hands limp at his side. You swallow, feeling a lot smaller than you did a second ago.
You can’t stop yourself from looking down. It only makes things worse.
He’s bigger than he felt. His cum is dripping down his thigh, and it’s barely been a minute, but he’s already getting hard again. You drag your eyes up the expanse of his chest—all flushed skin and muscle—and realize he hasn’t stopped staring at you. You lick your lips. He mimics the movement.
“It won’t fit.” You says again, but your tone has lost all the teasing mockery of before.
And Bucky’s smirk is dangerous. A thrill rushes through you at the sight of it. You’ve gotten exactly what you wanted.
“Gonna make it fit.” He growls.
You yelp, as he grabs your wrist and yanks you forward. You don’t even slam into his chest before he’s lifting you off the ground with another mind numbing kiss. It’s a distraction. You know that. You don’t really care, though, returning it in a second.
Bucky carries you like you’re a doll, your knees bent like some princess and his warmer arm locked around your waist. He leans over, lowering you to the mattress with a shocking care. For a second you’re fully lost in him. The gentle motion of his lips over yours, the way his hands wander and map your body as he settles you into the mattress.
“So soft.” He mutters. “All that bite, doll, but I knew you’d be so fuckin’ soft for me.”
You’d like to protest, and say that you’re not soft. But Bucky’s kisses are making your head spin, and no single, clear word can make it out of the daze. All you manage is a high, long whine.
Bucky chuckles. His hand pushes under your shirt, almost tickling over your sides.
“You like that?” He tease, his knuckles tracing over the underside of your boobs. “You like bein’ my sweet girl?”
You are not sweet. You try to snap that, but it mostly just comes out a feral grumble. You don’t know how he’s the one with a sound mind right now. You’re not under a sex drug.
You’re just under Bucky. Where it’s very, very warm, and sticky, and nice. His cum is dripping over your clothed core and midriff. You shiver as it hits bare skin, and Bucky smirks against your lips.
“Say it and I give you more.” He rasps. “Say you like it.”
And it’s a game. You know that you like it. He does too. But he’s poking and teasing you, trying to get you spar with him. To get you to play.
So you glare at him when he leans back, spreading your legs wider at the same time. You keep your mouth stubbornly shut.
Bucky grins. He traces the curve of your hips with massive hands, his thumb angling to smear his cum over your navel.
“Look at you.” He mocks. “Beggin’ for me and then can’t even admit she likes it.”
You wrinkle your nose, turning up your chin. Bucky smacks your inner thigh, then rubs his metal palm right over your pussy. The sudden sting then harsh pleasure make your hips push off the bed with a cry. Bucky takes his hand away to splay it on your abdomen, shoving you back down.
“You like gettin’ tossed around, too?” He laughs, and heat floods right to your core. “I’ll toss you around, baby. Make you into a nice little cockslut for me, even let you put my in that pretty mouth.”
He grabs your jaw, and you part your lips in a second. Bucky groans, his cock getting impossibly harder.
“Already listen so well.” He mutters, teasing his two forefingers over your mouth. “Just can admit you fuckin’ love it, do you? Can’t be a good girl and tell the truth.”
You narrow your eyes in defiance, and pretend to bite down on his fingers. It’s not a real bite. Just teeth grazing knuckles. But Bucky understands what it means.
Permission to go further.
His eyes gleam. His cock is already leaking with pre-cum.
“Alright, babydoll.” He rubs your thighs, a dangerous smile playing on his lips. “Have it your way.”
In a single second, Bucky rips off your clothing like it’s paper. You barely have time to feel the cold of the air before he’s grabbing your waist, flipping you onto your stomach, and dragging your ass up in the air. You yelp, fisting your hands in the sheets, and try to twist and see where he is.
A dazed part of your brain that doesn’t remember his hands on your hips sees no one behind you, and almost freaks out.
Then the first stroke of Bucky’s tongue hits your pussy, and you collapse fully into the sheets.
“Oh my-“ Your eyes roll back, as he teases the very tip of his tongue around your clit before dragging it through your folds. “Oh my God-“
“Sensitive fuckin’ pussy.” Bucky muses, and you feel the stubble of his cheek pressing against you thigh. “Barely even touching it. Wonder if I-“
His thumb drags circles just around your clit, and you squeak. He kisses the curve of your ass, going a little fast. You whine trying to drag your own ass in circles to match his motions. You can’t see him. Can’t know if you’re doing well outside of his lips tracing your thigh, and the pleased hums against your skin.
Bucky jerks his thumb suddenly to the side, pushing directly over your clit. You scream, your knees sliding back. Bucky grabs them and pushes them back up, fully exposing your pussy to the air.
“Look at you.” His breath is warm, over that most sensitive spot. “Bet I don’t even need to fuckin’ prep you. You’re so wet, you’d just…”
He makes a deep, rumbling sound, and you almost sob as he drags his tongue right back between your puffed pussy lips. You clench around nothing, his stubbled scraping your clit. Bucky angles his face, letting his tongue flick over your clit. It goes back and forth and back and forth, toying with it before pressing flat. He sucks, hard like a lollipop, and you almost sob into the mattress.
“Sweet.” Bucky whispers, his metal arm wrapping around your legs. “So fuckin’ sweet.”
“Bu- Bucky-“
“Shhh.” He kisses right over your pussy. “Wanna taste, pretty girl. I gotta fuckin’-“ He moans, and the vibration shoots right up your spine. “Gotta taste-“
Bucky presses his face fully into your cunt, and the sound that leaves you almost isn’t human.
He’s good at this. So good at this. It’s a little unfair. Your mouth can’t do anything but hang uselessly open, as Bucky works his jaw against you. He eats you like he’s starved for it. Like he’s a man that wants to drown of an insatiable thirst.
Two hands hold you up in the air, as his tongue plunges ruthlessly in and out of your cunt. You keen, trying to push further back, and the warmer hand wraps up to your spine and shoves your stomach down. It’s a tighter fit like this. Bucky drags his tongue around, and it hits every sensitive area. His beard tickles and scratches, and cold fingers tease your skin.
You get more and more sensitive, with every flick and suck and groan. You’re so wet it’s almost drooling down your legs, mixing with the stains of cum he’d gathered from your midriff and smeared over your legs. The dual heat with his cold hand makes all your nerves stand on end. You pussy clenches again, and Bucky chuckles.
“That’s right.” He mutters, making out with your clit as you gasp for air into the bed. “That’s it, baby, you’re already lettin’ go, aren’t you.”
You whine, and Bucky nips at your ass.
“Aren’t you?”
“Ye- Yes.” You mumble. “’S good, Bucky- So good-“
“I know.” He grunts, pressing his cold, metal thumb down into your clit. “Fuck, baby, I know.”
You whimper, and Bucky starts up on your dripping pussy again. He’s lapping at it, pushing his tongue into your tight hole as he plays with your clit, and white lines your vision.
“I- I’m gonna- Fuck- Bucky-“ You scratch at the sheets. “I’m gonna- Oh God-“
He smacks your clit, spits onto your pussy, and resumes with double the effort. You cry his name, as your orgasm wracks your body. You can feel yourself seizing around him, twitching and writhing in his tight grip as your vision lines with white.
And Bucky doesn’t stop. You’re making a mess all over his face, and he’s rising up, but it’s just pushing you further into the mattress. You whimper, your cunt too sensitive, but he doesn’t even come up for air.
“Shit- Bucky- Oh- Ohhhhh-“
The ache quickly fades into pleasure again. Blinging pleasure that’s just on the wrong side of too much, but pleasure all the same. You squeal, and Bucky just moans against your cunt.
Then you hear it. The slam of his fist against his cock.
He’s jerking off while he eats you out. He’s fucking himself so hard you can hear it, hear the slap of skin, feel all his little moans and grunts right against your pussy, and the thought sends you right over the edge again.
Bucky moans louder, as you cum on his tongue. Just like before, it seems to make him more and more feral. You have a feeling what lucidity that let him tease you before is gone. He’s eating you out the same way he’s kissed you, with rough lips and a fervor that’s almost animalistic. You’re boneless and whimpering into the sheets, taking it over and over as Bucky just keeps working his mouth against your cunt, and fucking his hand.
Then, suddenly, he’s gone. You whine from the lose, trying to roll over and look at him, but he just shoves you back down with a growl. The sound of his hand is getting faster and faster, and a hot weight drops over your back. Bucky presses his face into your neck, and takes a deep breath. You whimper, and he groans. His hips must be rocking, with how the bed is shaking.
“Smells good.” He rasps. “Gonna- Fuck-“
Bucky snaps back up, and you feel him cum more than you even hear it. Hot ropes spurt over your ass and back, seeping down the back off your thighs and into your pussy. You moan at the sensation, pushing back on trembling hands. There’s always just more of it, until you’re so marked up with him you’re sure you’ll never be able to wash it off.
You don’t want to.
With how Bucky grabs your hips and spreads the stain over your skin, you don’t think he does either.
“Shit.” He breathes out, and you hum in agreement. “Gotta- Flip for me, c’mon-“
Bucky helps you roll over. His touches are gentle again, but the gleam in his eyes hasn’t faded. You blink at him, flat on your back with your legs spread. Bucky traces the lips of your cunt, then slowly pushes two fingers inside you. Fucking his cum back into your tight hole. You mewl, eyes fluttering. Your head tosses back, and Bucky smiles
“Good girl.” He coos.
You try not get all gooey and weak just from the praise. Bucky laughs, and you think you might’ve failed.
“Strangling my fingers, doll.” He teases, pulling them right out.
You whimper. You’re too wet and ready not to take something. It’s really not fair to make you wait.
“I know.” He kisses your brow, voice rough. “Trust me, I fuckin’ know. You just gotta tell me you like it, then-“ His cock drags between your folds, and you keen. “All yours.”
You blink at him, opening your mouth to comply.
But you’re at an advantage.
Bucky’s hard again. His body is wound so tight above you, and his every word is thick. Like it’s an effort to speak. He’s still trying to fight against the drug running through his veins.
You want him to give in.
So you close your mouth, and give him a defiant glare.
Bucky growls again, and there’s no more teasing.
His mouth pushes over yours, and it’s not a loving kiss. It’s rough and quick, stealing your breath in seconds and distracting you as Bucky grabs your knees and shoves them back. You try to chase his lips, when he pulls away, but he shoves you back down with a grunt.
“Wanna be a brat.” He grunts. “Gonna get fucked like a brat.”
You almost beam. Yes, please.
Bucky folds you under him, your knees pressed to your chest and your cum-stained pussy on full display. He doesn’t waste time, tapping the head of his cock against your clit before slamming right inside. You’re so soaked you take it with only a hitched breath, but that doesn’t mean your eyes don’t roll back.
He hits right against you pelvis, when he bottoms out. His heavy balls sit on your ass, and the stretch of him is just enough pain to heighten the pleasure. Bucky kisses all over your face as he lets you adjust, but your pussy is greedy. He’d prepared you too well. You’re more than ready within seconds.
“Bu- Bucky-“ You gaps out, and he growls against your neck. “Move.”
If he’d told you to wait, you wouldn’t have been surprised.
But the drug seems to have overtaken him again, and all you get is a noise like a snarl against your throat before Bucky draws almost all the way out, and slams back in.
The air is knocked clean from your lungs. This time, he hit right against your g-spot, and your whole body seizes up. Bucky makes a low, deep noise, and repeats the motion. Again, he drives right into that gooey spot deep inside of you. You clench around him, and he doubles over, rutting deep inside of you.
“The- There-“ You whimper, fingers scrambling in the sheets. “Fuck, baby, right there-“
Bucky grunts an agreement, and starts to fuck you into the mattress. The angle is so deep you’re worried he’s going to permanently rearrange your guts. Every slam of his cock into your makes you see heaven, and Bucky pants over your, his eyes locked onto yours as your face contorts with pleasure.
He’s not even fucking you like a brat. He’s fucking you like a doll. He grabs at your limbs and moves them below him like you’re just a sleeve for his dick, and he needs you into just the right spot. One hand fists in your hair, forcing your neck a little up so you can watching your arousal gleam on his cock every time he pulls out. He moans every time he pushes back in, and you watch your cunt swallow his dick whole. A wet, smacking sound filling the room as he drills into you. He bends you even further to kiss over your neck and breasts, his tongue dragging in rhythm with his dick.
You try to clench around him every time he bottoms out, but your head is sort of empty, and now you’re just a drooling pussy around his massive cock, moaning his name and happily milking every bit of pleasure.
“Oh- Oooooh-“ You mewl, smiling like a cockdrunk idiot at the air. “Buuuucky-“
His mouth presses back over yours, and the kiss is strangely soft. His fucking hasn’t slowed or relented, but there’s a care with how his lips move over yours that makes you feel worshipped.
That’s what he’d said he’d do. Worship you. And you can really feel it here.
Bucky draws back, and the hand that had been fisted in your hair moves to your jaw. He squeezes again. You open for him easily, and his lips twitch.
“Good girl.” He coos, even if the words are tighter than before.
He spits into your mouth. You swallow obediantly, and open again when he squeezes your cheeks. Bucky slams forward with a groan, looking like a man wrecked.
“You fuckin’ like it, don’t you-“
“Love it.” You gasp, unable to even think to deny him again. “Love you, Bucky- Oh- Oh my god-“
Bucky makes a ragged, choked sound, and cums almost without warning. Your mouth falls open in a silent scream, as he pumps you full of his release. It feels like even more than before. Like you’re going to burst with how full you are, spurts of it still being forced out as Bucky fucks you through. You’ve never felt so totally claimed, with him all over every inch of your skin. He kisses you and you giggle, dazed and almost high on the feeling.
And he’s not even done.
The period of lucidity between orgasms gets shorter before it gets longer. Bucky’s ability to control himself almost vanishes all together. You get a kiss and broken mumble of your name before you’re being flipped back onto your stomach and fucked from behind. There will be handprints on your ass and thighs in the morning, and the sheets are stained with your drool from how Bucky railed you from behind.
You’re dragged into his lap right after, and he pushes his thumb into your mouth, then ruts up into your gaping cunt. You’re all moans and ditzy smiles by that point. When rolls you back onto your stomach and sits up on his knees, you just take it with moans and giggles and cries of delight.
He hasn’t just ruined you. He’s pulled you apart a million times over, until you’re just a puddle that sings his name.
You don’t even fully realize he’s done, when he kisses pulls out that last time. You whine, and clench around nothing, but expect to get filled right back up.
Then Bucky kisses you, and it’s slow. Savoring and sweet. Romantic. His voice is hoarse, but it’s lost the strained quality. He’s fully teasing again, smiling against your lips.
“So soft.” He coos, rubbing your thoroughly abused pussy with his warm hand.
You writhe, trying to get further and closer at the same time. Bucky chuckles, and kisses the corner of your mouth.
“Jesus, doll. You’d think you were the one that got sex drugged.”
You try to glare at him, but forget why the moment you see his pretty eyes, shining on yours.
They’re blue again.
“You’re back?” You breathe, and Bucky grins.
He ducks down, and presses another quick kiss over your lips.
“I’m back.”
You’re ordered not to move, while he cleans up. You don’t think you could if you tried. Your body is jelly, everything is sore in the best way, and your head is spinning with too many thoughts of what the fuck happened.
You told Bucky you love him. You told Bucky you love him. You’d never even fully admitted it in your head and he just fucked it right out of you. You said it fast, too fast, he thought you hated him four hours ago and now he must think you’re some kind of freak for just saying you love him.
He makes you drink water and go to the bathroom. Draws you a bath and brings you a snack and changes the sheets. You manage to find the strength to stand out of the tub and dry yourself off, wrapping the towel around your body before shuffling out in the center of his room.
God, he’s so handsome. All tan muscles and scars you want to trace with your tongue. Too bad you fucking blew it, and now you’re never going to get to touch him again-
Bucky turns, and smiles when he sees you. You swallow, bracing for the worst as he crosses the room.
He takes your face between his hands and kisses you. Deep and gentle and maybe he just forgot-
“Love you too.” He says against your lips. “Just- Uh- While we’re saying it.”
Oh.
Or that. That’s nice.
You throw everything you have into kissing him back, but end up tackling him down onto the bed with the sudden surge of strength. Bucky chokes out a laugh in surprise, wrestling you over onto your back with kiss and wandering hands. You giggle, trying to push back, and he nips at the tip of your nose.
Then he pauses, and pulls up with a small, worried frown.
“You’re stayin’ the night, right?”
You almost snort. There’s no getting rid of you now. You’re going to stay forever, and as long as he’ll allow after that.
“Yeah. I’m staying.”
✦End note: this was longer than my college thesis btw. and i. put more effort into it.✦
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thinking about bucky fucking me for hours… oh my gosh I’d do anything to get fucked dumb by his thick cock. jus all curled up, legs around him, crying overstimulated into his chest and he’s just fucking into me- fuck lemme stop haha, I think I’m ovulating
i have literally two days untitled im officially ovulating so i am right there with you
like in have been thinking about him so bad lately.
like his arms are wrapped around you so tightly and all you can focus on is how good it feels when his cock slides in and out of you. you can feel the vibrations of his grunts inside his chest as he fucks up into you and all you can do is lay there and take it
and fuck he praises you just for that
“letting me do whatever i want to this pussy, isn’t that right?” you moan as you nod into his chest and before you know it he has the two of you flipped.
he hovers over you at his point, making sure press his right hand down on your lower stomach. you could quite literally feel him in your stomach and he fucking loved that. his eyes blown wide as he notices just how deep he is in you, when he feels your stomach protruding just enough on his palm to make him hike your body up enough where your hips are angled to take more of him.
“good fucking girl, takin’ all of me like this…” not like you had much of a choice and even if you did you wouldn’t want to be anywhere else
maybe like nurse!reader x frank or something like that.. unless ur tired of writing for him ofc! <3
favorites - f. langdon x fem!reader
summary: frank knows he's not supposed to have favorites in the workplace, but there's just something about you that he can't seem to resist, for better or for worse.
warnings: SMUT (minors dni, 18+ only), (slight?) infidelity, frank is a munch, fingering, p in v, protected sex, no use of y/n, frank has no kids!! mentions of divorce, regular pitt gore, idiots in love
author's note: I'M FINALLY DONE GET THIS OUT OF MY DRAFTS!! thank you for the request anon!! i hope i did it justice. something actually took over me while writing this... i don't condone infidelity but.......
wc: 9.1k
Frank knew he wasn't supposed to have favorites.
Really, favorites—or any sort of personal bias—is unprofessional. It’s especially unprofessional in his line of work, where you’re expected to be able to operate with anyone regardless of your own personal feelings or partiality. And, for a while, Frank understood and abided by this rule. Sure, it was hard sometimes to work alongside Santos after he finished his leave from rehab, but even their strained relationship had morphed into something more respectable these days. Frank liked to believe he treated everyone the same. In Frank's eyes, he has no favorites.
Well, except you.
You’re a different story. Something a little more... complicated. You’re a difficult thing to describe, Frank thinks, and an even more difficult thing to behold. You’re impossibly smart, witty, quick on your feet, hard when you need to be and sweet when you can. All of these things draw Frank to you, and he has a hard time understanding why.
When Frank came back to the Pitt after his leave of absence, terrified out of his mind about jumping back into the environment where he once fell down a hole too deep, he was convinced maybe his return was a bad idea. Maybe, after all this time, the voices were right. He shouldn’t be allowed to be a doctor.
These whispers swirled in his head like poisonous ivy on brick walls, growing their way to the core of his brain where they planted and nursed the most horrid of self loathing thoughts. Frank was halfway through his first shift back, contemplating the validity of what the voices had been saying to him, when he saw you for the first time.
You were tucked away into a corner, medicine bottle in hand as you bit your bottom lip, listening intently as Mateo rattled off some unimportant patient details. You nodded every once in a while to prove you were paying attention, your dedication shown through your body language and intense facial expression.
It didn't take long for Frank to realize you were a nurse, and a new one at that. You still had that anxious air surrounding you—one that Frank knew all too well.
He attempted to listen to what Collins was saying to him—really, he was trying. But his eyes kept drifting to the side of your face, the curve of your hips, the small smile that escaped you when he overheard Mateo trying to soothe your nerves. He couldn’t look away.
From then on, it was difficult for him not to treat you differently.
If there was any opportunity to have a nurse on a case, whether that be administering medication, patient assessments, or monitoring vitals, your name was the first thing out of Frank's mouth. Yes, he knows there are many talented nurses in the Pitt, but none of them were quite like you. None of them worked so well with him, none of them understood and returned his playful banter the way you did, none of them could take one look at his facial expression and determine exactly what was necessary for him to succeed in the way you always did.
It was almost magical the way he felt around you. In between stolen snacks from the staff lounge, shifts that ran overtime, and shared caffeine addictions, Frank grew fond of you, against his best wishes.
But it was so hard for him to fight it. He attempted, he really did. For a while he didn’t return your morning smiles, he feigned annoyance at your weekend updates with Mohan, but it was all futile. You were intoxicating—funny, gorgeous, sarcastic, and most unfortunately for him, engaged.
That was the second thing Frank had noticed about you his first day back: the sparkling rock on your left hand. He had to admit, it was a sizable ring, which made it all the worse. It was salt in the wound. Frank, a man who had just gotten over his marriage, enthralled with you, a woman about to enter into hers. The irony was not lost on him.
He watched in the following months as you let loose a few small details about your fiancé. Things like how you met (at a coffee shop, boring if you asked Frank), what he looked like (blonde, Frank never trusted grown men with blonde hair), and his name (Chad. Don’t get Frank started).
With every mention of your wedding, with every compliment of your ring, it felt like someone was dragging nails across a chalkboard directly in Frank’s ear. Chad’s presence irked him in a way he wasn’t able to understand, or rather, in a way he didn’t want to accept.
One sided affection was growing increasingly difficult for him. He felt crazy, desperate, running his fingers through his hair at night and asking himself, why didn’t he meet you sooner? But Frank knew, deep down, there was nothing he could do to change the fate of your relationship. You were happily engaged to a man you loved, who loved you. It didn’t matter that he noticed the way your lips tugged into a smile the first time Frank caught your eye during the day, or the packet of goldfish you’d slide his way halfway through his shift, or even the quiet moments you two have had in the stairwell together after a particularly difficult case. There was no hope for him.
So, Frank took what he could get. Sure, it was blatant favoritism, but Frank couldn’t bring himself to care.
//
“Okay! I think you're all done.” You smile, patting your palms on the tops of your scrub clad thighs. The elderly woman in front of you, staring at her freshly dressed numb burn wound, beams back at you with a grateful expression as her frail hands clasp together in appreciation. Her young daughter that sits right by her side looks at you before saying, “Thank you, miss. For being so kind.”
“Absolutely, my pleasure.” You respond, beginning to clean up the materials around you. “And, Ma’am, do you remember your steps for after you're discharged?”
“Yes, I think I’ve got it.” The mother begins to reply. “No harsh chemicals, only soap and water before the antibacterial cream, and then change the bandage daily.”
“Yup, you got it. If there are any complications, if the pain suddenly becomes unbearable or if there's any swelling or pus, come right back here and we’ll get you sorted.” You explain.
The kind woman thanks you again as her daughter helps her up and out of the room, making sure to give you one last smile on her way out. You give a small wave back just as a familiar face approaches you.
“Feel like helping me today?” Langdon asks as you turn to look at him. His brown hair falls in front of his face as he angles his eyes down to meet yours. Something swirls in his irises, something familiar and warm, and you find yourself feeling clammy at the sight.
You roll your eyes in fake annoyance, clearing your throat. “It’s only 11 and you're already asking for my help?”
“Pretty please?” He says, his voice turning syrupy and low. His bottom lip juts out into a pout. You find your eyes trailing over his oh so soft looking mouth. “Robby and I have a patient in Trauma 1 that I need you for, like asap.”
You laugh and shake your head as you give him a silent nod. You’ve never been able to say no to Frank, and he knows it. He grins in response, flashing you his million dollar smile before turning around, motioning you to follow him.
You try not to let his words swirl around in your head as you trail behind him, but somehow they find their way to the forefront of your mind.
I need you.
For the next thirty minutes, you and Frank are glued to each other's side as you work in Trauma 1. Where Frank goes, you follow. You’re there for it all—the first time the patient codes, the blood transfusion you assist on, the frantic calls from Frank as Robby rushes into the room, it all swirls around you and him like a complex symphony.
Frank watches you in admiration, though you’re so engrossed with the task at hand that you fail to see it. His eyes follow as you skirt around the room, listening to every order Robby gives you, nodding and jumping into action. This is one of the things he admires the most about you—your dedication. The silent way you accept direction without hesitation.
The thirty minutes pass like seconds. Before you know it, the patient is stable, and you watch as Frank and Robby chat quietly. You don’t feel like interrupting their seemingly private conversation, so you take your leave and head to the staff lounge, rubbing the soreness out of your shoulders as you walk down the halls.
In the privacy of the staff lounge, you take a quiet minute to yourself. You crack open another redbull and give a sigh of relief at the taste. You need the boost this morning—you felt restless last night, tossing and turning in the comfort of your bed. A million things were running through your mind as you attempted to sleep. You tell yourself to get a grip, to shake it off. There are more important things to worry about, better things to do with your time than lament on things you shouldn't be thinking of.
When you think you’re beginning to take too much time, you force yourself back on to the floor. You walk fast towards the direction you last saw Dana, hoping to chat with your charge nurse for a few minutes before tagging along with Perlah and Princess. You’re so engrossed in your own mind—still replaying the same thoughts that kept you up last night—that you don’t see the shine of the floor below you, somehow missing the bright yellow bucket full of soapy water.
You don’t see the puddle of liquid in front of you until you’re slipping in it, falling backwards and smacking your head on the linoleum tile with a gasp. Pain blossoms at the base of your skull as your body lays on the ground. Your eyes flutter softly, vision turning blurry before, eventually, it fades to black.
//
Your ears are ringing.
Someone is faintly yelling words you can't quite pick up somewhere in the background. You feel a pair of hands behind your neck as someone is propping your head up, and just when you think you may have escaped this incident unharmed, just as your eyes begin to squint open and you make out the face of Dana and Robby, the back of your head throbs.
“Oh, motherfucking christ—” You sputter, attempting to sit up. “Jesus that hurts.”
“Hey hey. Take it easy, kid.” Robby orders, grabbing one of your arms to help steady you.
Dana crouches down beside him, immediately handing you an ice pack that feels freezing against your palm. You accept it gratefully as your eyes continue to adjust to the harsh fluorescent lighting of the ED.
“Quite a fall you took there,” Dana starts. “Here, let me check to see if your head's bleedin’.”
You groan as her hand ghosts against the back of your skull, hissing when the tips of her fingers barely come into contact with your pulsing skin. When she removes her fingers to examine them, they’re dry, which is a relief—at least you won’t need stitches.
“Do you know where you are?” You hear Robby ask.
“I’m in hell,” you reply. You watch as a little of the concern melts from his face, a small smile replacing the serious expression he had been sporting since he watched you slip.
“We should examine you for a concussion,” he continues, beginning to stand back up. Your ass is still firmly planted on the floor, one hand propping yourself up as the other ghosts the ice pack against your temple. Your entire head feels like it's on fire, like someone just took a wooden mallet and went crazy against the inside of your mind.
You're just about to take Robby’s helping hand up when the sound of rushing footsteps catches your attention.
“What the fuck?” You hear Langdon say, and you don’t have to turn to know the way he’s looking at you. Your head starts to pound even further. “What the hell happened?”
“I acquainted myself with the floor,” you mumble, finally taking the aid to get yourself back on two legs. You feel like a baby deer finding its footing for the first time, wobbling slightly back and forth as you try and steady yourself.
“Are you okay?” Langdon asks, his arms finding their way to yours, attempting to help stabilize you.
“I’m fine, totally good. Just embarrassed.” You laugh, immediately regretting it as you wince from the pain.
“How hard did you hit your head?” He asks, eyes scanning over your face. He turns to Robby before asking, “Has anyone assessed for a concussion?”
“No, not yet, I was just abo—”
“Someone help me!” A voice cries out.
Robby, Dana, and Frank tense immediately. Your reaction time is a little slower, and you’re still a little confused until you see Whitaker on the floor, attempting to stop the convulsions of an elderly man currently laying on the floor.
“Jesus, we got people dropping like flies!” Dana yells before running over to help the poor fourth year med student. Robby isn’t far behind her, grumbling to himself about how he can't catch a fucking break, how its always one thing or another.
“Langdon!” He booms from across the room. “Take over for me. Check her for anything, I gotta go.”
Frank gives him a wordless nod, taking no time before leading you towards an empty room not too far away. You feel like a grandma being walked across the street. Langdon’s hands are wrapped around your body, guiding you towards the seat of the bed before they remove themselves, shutting the door behind you both.
“It’s a fucking shit show out there,” he breathes as he swiftly brings up a stool, positioning himself in front of you. “We’ve got doctors cracking their skulls open, patients seizing on floors—it's not even lunch.”
“Yeah, well. I wasn’t planning on practically seeing god today.” You huff. “Holy shit my head hurts.”
“Yeah, let’s make sure you didn’t give yourself permanent brain damage.”
He wheels himself around the room in a comfortable manner, like he's done so many times before. His fingers wrap against the cool metal of a flashlight, and before you know it he's shining it in your face, making you flinch.
“Jesus! A little warning, please?” You hiss.
“Sorry, sorry.” He smiles sheepishly. “Just let me check out your pupils and then I’ll turn it off.”
He scooches his stool closer to you, finding a respectable place that is semi in between your legs. There's still enough distance that it's professional, but it's just close enough that it makes you sweat.
“Can you tell me your name?” He finally says, clicking the flashlight off. You assume that means your pupils are fine, and he’s moving on to the cognitive aspect of his makeshift exam. You roll your eyes. You're almost positive you don’t have a concussion, just the makings of an incredibly nasty bruise and bump, yet you answer him anyway.
“And what day is it?”
“Wednesday.”
“The…?”
“The twelfth, jesus. Do you want the year too?”
“I wouldn’t say no.”
You playful wave your hand, dismissing him. The pain in your head has slowly receded, not as prominent as it originally was. It thrums slightly in the background, though, not completely over.
“Alright, can you look at my finger?” He starts again, breaking the small silence. He holds his index finger in front of your face. “I’m just gonna move this around, and I want you to follow it, okay?”
“Yes, Dr. Langdon,” you attempt to tease, but your voice comes out lower than expected. You watch as Frank swallows hard.
“Tell me what you did this morning.” He stares intensely into your eyes as he asks the question, still moving his finger around the peripheral of your vision. You follow your order, eyes never leaving his hand as you think of your answer, hoping you don't seem as frazzled as you feel. Did he get closer or are you imagining things?
“Woke up. Ate breakfast. Came to work. Helped on a couple different cases before the one with you and Robby. Went to the staff lounge to down a redbull and before I knew it I was slipping on the wet floor.”
“Good, okay.” He breathes. He stops moving his finger around which allows you to look at him once more. His stethoscope hangs loosely around his black scrub top, the white of his undershirt peeking through his collar as his chest slowly rises and falls. He looks handsome today. Yet again, he always looks handsome, and you find yourself biting the inside of your cheek to keep yourself from telling him that very same thing.
“You were great this morning. With Robby and I, I mean. You handled it like a champ.”
“Thanks,” you whisper. You never know what to do when Frank compliments you. “It’s all you guys. You’re easy to work with.”
“Yeah, but you were collected. Purposeful. Calm. Even when Mateo almost threw up.” He chuckles.
“I try.” You say, and it’s true. You always try. You always give it your best, but it's just easier with Frank. You’re not sure why.
“I’m gonna take your temp now.” He decides, rolling away from you for a second to get a thermometer.
“That feels a little unnecessary,” you say. You don’t want to be a bother—Frank’s a busy man, a coveted one at that. You know he could be helping someone else right now, and you'd hate to think that you were stealing him away from people who needed him more.
“Nope, don’t even.” He replies. “I’m checking off every box.”
He brings the electric thermometer that reads your temporal artery to your forehead. He clicks the button and watches for a few seconds as the device seems to think for a moment, giving you a small smile when a normal and acceptable number flashes on the screen.
“Thank you, again. For checking me for the concussion.”
“No problem.” He responds. “Can’t have you getting worse. Don’t know what I’d do if I had to ask Jesse to do anything instead of you.”
You try not to think too much about what he says to you. You try to pretend you don't notice the way he favors you over other nurses. You try to pretend you don't care. You try to pretend it doesn't kill you.
When Frank finishes putting away the thermometer, you think he's done with his exam. Yet, he doesn't get up to leave. Instead, he leans back, stretching his arms in the air. His shirt riles up, a sliver of his skin between the tops of his pants peeking out. Your eyes scan down the hair on his abdomen.
You clear your throat. Looking at Frank like that is wrong, for many different reasons. When you get up to move, Frank puts out a hand to stop you, wordlessly communicating that he doesn't want to leave yet—that the exam isn't over.
“What are you checking right now?” You ask as Frank sits in front of you, seemingly doing nothing.
“Your responsiveness.” So, bullshit, basically.
“And how is it?”
“Well, for starters, you're responding.”
You give him a small chuckle. You feel appreciative of the calm moment between you two—you’re only halfway through the day, yet you feel like you’ve been going one hundred miles per hour all morning, never stopping to catch your breath. Especially with your newfound head wound. The rest and ice will do you good, you’re sure.
“How have you been?” Frank asks in hopes of breaking the silence. Your eyes flicker up to meet his, and you give the normal response. I’m good, smile. Work is crazy, cheek bite. Thank god I’m off this friday, chuckle.
Through your painfully normal response, Frank watches as your eyes betray you. Your body plays the part perfectly, posture open and inviting, smile bright and cheerful, but something distant swirls in the dark parts of your irises. Frank catches it all.
He frowns. He wants you to be open with him, but he doesn't push it.
“And your—” He coughs, choking on something oddly shaped like his pride. “Your fiancé?”
Your eyes widen. Right. You have one of those.
“He’s.. fine.”
“Good. That’s good. Have you been telling him about all the amazing shit you do here?”
“Um… No. Not recently. We’re actually…” You try to think of how to phrase it. “We’re having a little bit of a disagreement right now.”
“Oh.”
“Yeah. It’s stupid, nothing serious, obviously,” you lie. “I just feel bad. I feel like it’s been distracting me.”
Frank tries to act like he's not enthralled. Obviously, he's sad that you’re feeling inadequate with yourself and distracted at work, but Chad can go kick rocks.
“You’re not off your game. Not at all. You were amazing this morning.”
“Thanks.” You reply, still deflected. You toy with your slightly melted ice pack, squishing around the slushy-like gel between your fingers. Your eyes bounce around the room. You don’t want Frank to see the discouragement in them.
“I mean it. You’re a great nurse, and partly the reason why I’m a great doctor. I… I couldn’t do this without you, I hope you know that.” He whispers.
It hasn’t been the easiest thing for him, coming back. There have been so many demons he's had to face, so many challenges he's had to overcome. The cold glances he's had to brush off his shoulder and the shame of his actions all seem a little more bearable when you’re by his side.
He smiles when you look at him again. There's a slight awe in your eyes, like you can't believe what you've just heard, but it's true. Frank thinks the world of you.
“Can I ask what you're fighting about?” He says, lying to himself about his intentions. God forbid a nice doctor care about his a nice nurse. “We’re… friends, so I guess I can ask.”
You sigh. You don't want to let on too much, to make him worry about you or anything. “He’s staying with a friend right now. We’re just disagreeing on stuff about the future. Really, it’s nothing.”
He can see the way you’re downplaying your true feelings in real time as arguments replay in your mind. Harsh words being tossed around, all about how you’re too busy, you never see me anymore, we never have sex anymore.
You don’t tell Frank any of this, obviously. You would be mortified if he knew about the state of your relationship. (Or secretly enthralled, depending on how honest you want to be with yourself.)
“Well, he’d be an idiot to fuck this up with you.” He confesses.
You laugh. It’s heartfelt, Frank can tell. He’s proud of himself for pulling it out the depths of your lungs. After a second, your eyes fall back to the ice pack that's now fully jelly in your hands, feeling a similar melted sort of emotion. You start to speak, but feel like your words fail you.
“I don’t—” Want him. Love Him. “I just—” Want you instead. “It’s—” Easy. Kiss me. “—Complicated.”
“Well,” he starts again, “We don’t have to talk about it if you don't want to. And, anyways, I have to finish your exam.”
“There’s more?” You groan. This has been the longest concussion assessment of your life.
“Mobility. I’m just gonna check around your neck, see if anything hurts. That sort of stuff.”
You gulp. “Sure.”
Frank rolls his stool in front of you once more, a pair of plastic gloves now hiding his hands from the fluorescent lights of the room and the soft feeling of your skin. He inches slowly towards you, trying to find a compromise between the space he knows he should give you and the space he wants.
Quietly, he brings up his fingers to the side of your neck, lightly brushing against the area where your jaw meets your throat. You swallow thickly.
“I’m gonna press lightly on the sides of your throat, and then I’m gonna ask you to move your head around. Let me know if anything I do hurts you, okay?”
“Y-Yeah.”
You watch as his gaze leaves your face to focus on the task at hand. He’s gone from being Frank, to being Dr. Langdon. It’s sexy admirable.
You feel the light pressure of his two fingers as they make their way down your throat. You wait patiently for his instructions, trying not to gasp when his grip changes from two fingers to five, his hands practically engulfing your neck.
“Mkay,” he murmurs, cocking his head. “To the left… Good. Now the right.”
You feel yourself getting hot. Your heartbeat is spiking, you're sure of it. What a horrible time for Frank to have his hand on your carotid artery.
“You seem flushed? Are you alright? Is it hurting?”
“Jesus—No. It’s nothing. Sorry.” You cringe.
He halts his movements. You feel his hands soften around you, feeling lighter around your throat. Oh great, you think. He thinks he's hurting me.
When you finally get the courage to open your scrunched up eyes, you see that he’s back to Frank now. Frank, whose hands are around your throat, his latex clad fingertips barely brushing against the small hairs on the back of your neck. Frank, who’s the closest he’s ever been before. Frank, whose eyes are bouncing back and forth between your eyes and your lips.
It’s wrong. You know it is. It’s bad to want it. It’s bad to think about it.
It’s even worse to do it.
But it happens anyway.
You don't know who starts it. One minute you’re trying not to crawl out of your skin in embarrassment of the way your body betrays you, the next your heart turns to putty as you feel his lips brush against yours, soft and slow with hesitance.
You kiss him back. You don’t think you could pull away if you tried. He tastes like the peach-nectarine red bull he drank this morning. He smells handsome, if that's even possible. Like the ocean. Your hands itch to cradle his face, to make their way into his dark brown hair that always looks perfect, no matter how many times he runs his fingers through them.
It’s deep. It’s sweet. It’s everything you’ve wanted since the first day you saw him.
You play with your fingers to distract yourself reaching out to touch him, as if he’d turn to gold and crumble from your midas touch. Your fingertips run over something hard.
Your ring.
And suddenly it's over.
You pull back from him. You're breathless, you feel disheveled. Your lips feel swollen. Your head hurts worse than when you practically slammed it on the floor like a basketball.
“Are you—shit. I… I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have—”
“We shouldn’t. I can’t, I have—”
“Yeah, yeah, obviously. Shit.”
“Yeah. Um. I should… go.”
“Yes,” he breathes, “You’re all good. No… no concussion. Or brain damage.”
“Thank you,” you say, scrambling to stand up. “For… Yeah, okay.” You find your footing faster than you did in the halls. You’re not sure what you would do if Frank tried to help stabilize you, but you imagine it can't be anything good.
You leave the room without looking back.
//
For the rest of his shift Frank is torn into pieces.
He feels awful. You came to him, hurt—possibly concussed—and what did he do? Kiss you. Stupid idiot. You had trusted him. Confided in him about problems you were having in your personal life, problems you were having with the man who put that rock on your finger, and Frank just couldn’t help himself, he had to ruin it.
It was clear you were avoiding him. Painfully so.
You immediately walked away in the opposite direction if he spotted you, never giving him the chance to ask you for help with a patient. Every time you caught his eye, you were deep into conversation with whoever was around you, always managing to avoid his gaze he so desperately wanted you to see.
You’re nowhere to be found when he’s roaming the halls, right as Frank is in between cherry picking cases. You’re somewhere in a room down the hall when Frank sits down to log some information, pretending to look busy as he clicks the mouse around an empty screen. He feels like a kicked puppy.
The worst part is he knows he did it to himself. He knew at the beginning of your friendship that he wasn’t capable of knowing you without loving you, and he worked with you anyway. Now it's all ruined, he thinks. You’ll never speak to him again. You’ll probably never want to be in the same room as him, especially alone. It’ll be horrible to work with him, you’ll hate every minute of it.
He’ll be a gentleman about it though, transfer to night shift. Never speak to you again. Wishing you and your future toddler twins a good life as you cradle a new baby that looks just like fucking Chad. He can see it all play out in his head. He’ll die alone. The cat he doesn’t have will eat his face.
The hours pass by quickly as Frank loses himself in his head. He goes through the motions. He’s done it all before. It’s not good to work distracted, but there's no use in trying to clear his mind. He wants to talk to you desperately, but he doubts he’ll get the chance.
And he’s right. You take off like a shot when your shift ends, leaving a trail of dust behind you. No one seems to notice but him. Frank feels so twisted inside, like he’s fucked everything up beyond repair. He pinches the bridge of his nose as he sits in the driver's seat of his car. He let himself get too comfortable, be too hopeful that anything could change between you two.
He drives home in disappointed silence.
//
When Frank finally makes it back to his house, to his sparsely decorated apartment that's just a little too small and a little too dark, he collapses with exhaustion. His bag is tossed somewhere haphazardly, his lanyard with his medical ID thrown loosely on his kitchen counter. He slides off his scrub top and doesn't bother to look where it lands.
A hot shower should fix everything.
He stands under his showerhead moments later, his shitty water pressure doing an even shittier job at getting the shampoo out of his hair. He tries to distract himself with miniscule things in order to prevent thinking of you. This ends pathetically, however, when Frank realizes he doesn't have much of anything else to distract himself with.
He’s not married anymore. He barely has any friends. All he does is work, and if Frank thinks of work, then Frank thinks of you.
“This is pointless,” He mutters to no one.
When he finally deems himself clean, appreciative of the small relief that the shower has given him, Frank tosses on an old pair of sweatpants that ride low on the bony parts of his hips, sliding over a black steelers t-shirt to go with it. He reheats some leftovers from the night before, going through the motions of being too eager and burning his mouth over and over with every bite.
He’s impressed with himself about how his cooking skills have grown. Now that he lives alone, all of the decisions fall to him. It wasn't like he never cooked when he was married or anything of the sort—Frank always helped out. But now, he’s on his own. He wonders briefly if you’d like the meal he’s eating. If you’d like his cooking.
He stands in the kitchen for longer than he should. His plate is clean now. The dishes are washed and dried, put away in their respective cabinets. But Frank can’t bring himself to move. From here, he can see the entirety of his home as it lies before him. His small living room with a couch and a TV he got on sale. The door to his bedroom cracked slightly askew, allowing for the tiniest bit of light to bleed in from his bathroom.
His apartment is cold. Empty. It feels lonely and like salt in the wound. It’s times like this when Frank misses you the most. He closes his eyes and selfishly imagines you in his kitchen, smiling softly at him as he cooks for the two of you. The way you’d look on his couch, watching a movie so scary you’d have to turn to look away, burying your face in his chest.
He tries not to think about you in his bed. It never ends well for him, and he feels all the more shameful the next time he sees you.
When he’s done playing pretend in his mind, he makes his way to his couch alone. He turns on some shitty reality TV show to distract him, and make his space less quiet. He rots in the same position for what feels like hours.
Frank’s eyes just begin to flutter shut when he hears the faintest knock on his door.
At first he thinks he’s imagining it. It’s late, and Frank doesn't talk to his neighbors. It must’ve been from down the hall.
But then it happens again. He pauses the show and groans as he stands, stretching out his arms and legs before he rubs his eyes. He knows he didn’t order anything, so maybe someone’s just got the wrong house?
He contemplates a few different possible scenarios until he opens the door, and it’s clear the person in front of him is at the right place. You stand anxiously, toying with your fingers like you did that morning. You look at him like a deer in headlights, almost as if you weren't expecting him to answer. Neither of you say anything.
He breaks the uncomfortable silence. “How the hell did you get my address?”
You seem relieved when he speaks, like you were afraid he might shut the door in your face. “I have my ways.”
“That's… frightening.” He admits. “Do you… do you want to come in?”
“Yeah.”
He maneuvers his body and opens the door widely for you, allowing you to step inside. You slowly creep into his living room, looking around and taking in his scarce decor, his degrees hung on the wall. He barely has any photos in frames.
His apartment radiates the same sort of Frank-esque smell that graced your senses earlier that morning, and you find yourself inhaling deeply, as if you were running out of breath. You hope he doesn’t notice.
When Frank shuts the door behind you, he leans against the kitchen counter in order to give you some space. He thinks maybe you’re here to yell at him, to tell him you’re transferring to Presby or even moving just to get away from him.
But he can’t help himself from worrying about you, which is why he ends up asking, “Are you okay?”
You don't answer him, which only puts him on edge more. He's always been used to easy conversations between you two. He hates this switch. He hates himself for it even more. The guilt that starts to bubble in his stomach again at the sight of you suddenly feels unbearable. He thinks he may just die if he doesn’t try to make amends in some way, he can't bear the thought of losing you because he couldn't control his desire.
“I’m so sorry,” he begins to say, “For this morning—”
“No, no. That wasn’t your fault at all. Don’t apologize.” You confess. “Actually, that’s why I’m here. That’s—That’s what I want to talk to you about. If you have a second.”
“O-Of course, yeah.”
“Um… so I left work really fast. As I’m sure you saw. Partly to avoid you and partly because kissing you made me realize some things that I had been ignoring. So I went home and got into a really big fight with Chad.”
Langdon gulps at your confession. He wants to reach out and touch you, but he decides against it.
“We fought about… well about everything. He said that I wasn't in love with him. And… he's right. I’m not. And also, apparently he was sleeping with the ‘friend’ he was staying with, so. Tried to tell me it was my fault because I wasn't giving him any attention.” you whisper.
You stop yourself to catch your breath. You feel overwhelmed talking about something so fresh. You feel almost embarrassed in a way to admit this—that you had been so in love with Frank that it ruined your already crumbling relationship.
“I ended things with him. Gave him his stupid ring back and told him to get the hell out of my house. I gave him the night to pack a bag but I couldn’t be there any longer, so I just left. I couldn’t think of anywhere else to go.”
Frank stays quiet as you explain the situation you find yourself currently in. He watches as your eyes dart around the room once more—you're nervous. You're worried he’ll kick you out, make you go back to your home where you have to come to the realization that the man you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with is a cheater.
“I’m so sorry.” He says. He hears the way his own voice cracks. He hates seeing you emotional, and it’s getting to him. “He didn’t deserve you at all. And fuck him for trying to say it was your fault.”
He watches as you take a shaky breath. You look up at him. You’re dressed more casually than when he last saw you, a pair of low rise jeans and some old band t-shirt covering your body. You look nice for someone who's just had their world turned upside down.
“Believe it or not… I’m actually not that torn up about it. In his defense, I don’t think I've mentally been there for the past six months. I’ve been distracted.” You admit. Your stomach does a somersault when you watch as Frank clenches his jaw. You have to admit being cheated on feels shitty, but there's a certain feeling of freedom blooming in your chest as you stand in your favorite resident’s living room.
“By what?” He asks. His voice is low. His arms are crossed, and his fingernails dig into his arms. They leave tiny crescent shapes in his skin.
You gulp. “By you. Always by you.”
Frank freezes. The hair on the back of his neck stands up straight, sending a chill down his spine. He can’t believe the words that are leaving your mouth. He feels like he must be dreaming. It just isn't possible for you to be standing in front of him after all this time, newly single, saying you’ve wanted him just as much, if not more, as he’s wanted you.
Your confession hangs heavy in the air. Frank gets flashbacks to this morning. The feeling of your neck in his hands, the shape of your lips as they slotted so perfectly against his. He starts to understand that he was so worried after the kiss had happened, so convinced that he had screwed everything up, that he forgot to see the way you’d melted against him and moved your mouth against his.
“About this morning… Did you mean it? Did you mean to kiss me?” you whisper. “Because if not, I’ll go, and we never have to talk about it again.”
Frank pushes himself off of the counter and walks towards you. He gets closer than he did this morning, yet his hands make their way to that same spot on your neck, just below your jaw. You exhale shakily as you wait for his reply.
“All I do is think about you. Every goddamn day.” He breathes out. “I’m sorry about how that fucking asshole treated you, but I’m not—I’m not sorry you’re not with him. You deserve to be with someone better than that. Who wants you.”
Something crackles between you two. Now that you both know where the other stands, it’s hard to not act on it.
“And do you want me?” You ask lowly.
“Yes.” He replies, not missing a beat.
“Then kiss me. Please.”
Frank moves you closer with one small tug at your neck, bringing your face to his as his lips lightly brush against yours. Your eyes flutter shut, and you sigh into him as you let your hands wander. As your hands move up towards his hair, his move down your torso, resting lowly on your hips. He feels the rough material of your jeans underneath his palms. He hooks his fingers around your belt loops and pulls you closer, your body coming flush with his.
“We don’t have to do anything,” he says once he breaks away from you. The last thing Frank wants to do is rush you and scare you away, so he’ll let you dictate how far you go tonight. He’ll take anything he can get, even if it's just a kiss. As long as it's with you.
“Please, Frank. Haven’t stopped thinking about you for months,” you confess against his lips.
The admission makes him rock hard. You feel like play-doh in his hands, so soft, so willing. You look at him in a way that makes him flush. You’re so perfect, he thinks. And by some miracle, you want him just as much as he wants you.
So how could he refuse you?
He slides his hands down your ass to the back of your thighs, hoisting you up around his hips as he carries you to his bedroom. You feel his erection press through his sweats, and when he lays you down gently, you bite your lip at the sight of his outline through the sweatpants.
It doesn’t take long before his hands are tugging at the hem of your shirt, signaling to you that he wants it off. You work on sliding it over your head as Frank removes his own shirt, his chest heaving up and down as his eyes rake down your body. His lips find their way to your neck as they kiss on your pressure point, causing you to squirm. You run your fingers through his hair as a way to distract yourself from the pleasure. He kisses his way down your chest until he comes to the swell of your breasts, reaching behind you to unclasp the garment. He groans as you help slide it off your body. He takes one nipple in his mouth and you gasp at the feeling of his warm tongue swirling around your areola.
He gives both of your nipples a little bit of attention, suckling slightly, watching the way they gleam with his spit in the moonlight before he keeps moving down your body. When he reaches the top of your jeans, you give a little hip lift in desperation. He gets the hint. His fingers undo the button and zipper, grabbing both your pants and underwear before sliding them down your legs. He discards them somewhere in the darkness of his room before his eyes are back on you. Your thighs are pushed together in slight embarrassment of how wet you are. A flush creeps its way down your neck as Frank slides his hands up and down your hips, trying to coax you open for him.
“You don’t have to,” you breathe out.
“But I want to. Please let me, baby. Been thinking about it forever.”
You melt at his words. You’ve never been able to say no to him, not at work and not between the sheets of his own bed. His pleas cause your legs to spread open. He moves his head down to the same level as your soaking pussy, grinning when he sees how wet you are for him. He takes a moment to admire how you practically drip onto the sheets.
You cry out when his tongue finally licks a fat stripe up your cunt. Your fingers tug at his brown curls, his name leaving your lips in small whispers as he moves his mouth against you. It’s sloppy, and the sound he makes against your pussy is obscene. He wraps his hands around the outside of your thighs, throwing your legs over his shoulders. This changes the angle of your hips, allowing his tongue to dive deeper into your core as your back arches from the sensation.
Before you can register him moving, Frank’s middle finger breaches your entrance. He pushes it in slowly, watching in awe at the way your tight walls engulf his digit whole. You groan at the intrusion. He curls it ever so slightly, a chuckle caught in his throat as your hips begin to grind down on his palm.
Frank wants to tease you, he really does. But for your first time together he can barely contain his excitement, let alone make you wait any longer than you have to, so he slides his ring finger in as well, developing a smooth rhythm that has you crying out his name.
He presses his tongue up against your clit, sucking it into his mouth as his fingers work to bring you closer and closer to your first orgasm of the night. You feel the familiar ache in your abdomen as he picks up his pace.
“Frank, fuck, fuck—” You whine. “‘M close.”
He groans against you in response. He wants nothing more to have you cumming into his mouth, your sweet slick dripping down his tongue as he licks your pussy like it was made for him.
Your thighs begin to tremble and shake around his head. You scrunch your toes in pleasure as your eyes roll into the back of your head. You see stars as Frank brings you to the edge. When you cum, it's with a gasp and an arch of your back. You throw your head back against his pillow, and Frank doesn't let up on his movements as he works you through your orgasm.
When you finally come back down from your high, you see Frank with a shit eating grin between your legs. The lower half of his face shines with your juices.
“Oh my god,” you blush, bringing your hands up to your face to hide your embarrassment.
“Fuck, that was hot.” He laughs, pressing a wet kiss to the inside of your leg.
He climbs back up your body, wiping his mouth before kissing you softly. His tongue runs over your top lip, sliding its way into your mouth. You taste yourself as he deepens the kiss. Your hands run up and down his shoulders until your palms come flush with his chest. You feel the softness of his hair over the sharp edges of his muscles, sneaking your fingers down to the drawstring of his sweatpants. You undo them as Frank suckles at your neck.
You gingerly slip a skilled hand down his pants until you feel his erection through the thin fabric of his boxers. He hisses through his teeth at the relief the pressure from your hand gives him. You bite your bottom lip before cupping him gently, then raking your nails over his lower stomach once more before slipping your warm hand into his underwear. You gently grab his cock, watching as he shudders into your body. An involuntary whimper escapes his throat as you slowly begin stroking him up and down, feeling how hard and angry he feels even in the dark.
“‘M not gonna last long if you keep doing that.” He groans.
You can't help but smile at the way his face scrunches up in pleasure as you continue to tug at his weeping member, occasionally running your thumb over his slit, gathering the precum before spreading it down his base.
“Can’t wait anymore. Need you.” He states plainly, grabbing your wrist and removing you from his pants before he stands up, removing his sweats and underwear in one motion.
His cock, now free from the restrictive fabric of Frank’s boxers, pulses red between his legs. You drop your head back onto the mattress. He’s big.
“Need you to fuck me, please,” you beg as he leans over to his bedside table, ripping open a condom. He throws his head back as he slides it over his penis, eventually lining himself up to your dripping entrance. He drags his mushroom tip up and down your soaked folds, tapping your clit lightly. Your legs twitch at the stimulation.
“You're my favorite, you know that?” He teases.
You drag him down for a kiss. Your nails scrape down his back as he slowly begins to push himself in, watching with hooded eyes at the way you take him so well. It's lewd—down right pornagraphic the way you sound. You feel yourself stretch around him, chest rising and falling as he kisses you deeply, swallowing your moans as he begins to move his hips.
He’s slow at first—calculated, like he’s thought long and hard about each stroke. His hips find a rhythm that makes your mouth fall open and leaves your mind blank, only one thing running through it—Frank, Frank, Frank.
Your hands fall from his back onto his soft sheets, scrunching them up in between your fingertips. Frank leans back and grabs your thighs, throwing them over his shoulder before pressing his torso into yours. You gasp at the change in angle. Suddenly, with each thrust he reaches deeper and deeper, grunting each time his thick head brushes against the spongy part in your walls, enthralled at the way it makes you moan.
His pace feels unrelentless and unforgiving. For a man whose admitted to liking you and respecting you so much, he sure fucks you like he doesn’t. It only brings you closer to the edge.
You watch his face in a haze. The way his lips part slightly, the small beads of sweat that have gathered on his forehead due to the physical activity, the way those piercing blue eyes that you love so much suddenly look pitch black with lust.
He reaches his thumb down to circle your aching clit, biting his lower lip as he watches your back arch, pushing your tits into his face. He wants this burned behind his eyelids forever, buried alongside him in his grave.
Your high pitched whines and hics let him know you're close again. He feels the way your walls clench around him, gushing out your arousal with each slam of his hips. You move your legs down to wrap around his hips, linking your ankles together to pull him impossibly closer to you as he continues to pistol into your pelvis. You cum unexpectedly, like a white hot blaze bubbling in your stomach, shooting down your veins before you even realize it's happening. It renders you speechless. Tears prick the sides of your eyes as Frank works you through it, his encouraging yet incredibly sexy voice whispering praise in your ear.
When you come down from your high, you feel the way his hips stutter. Their movements, once precise, now feel erratic and dangerously close to finishing. You watch in amazement as his eyes squeeze shut. He grows louder and louder, slurred words leaving his lips as he tells you how good you’re doing, how nice you feel, how he could fuck you forever. His hips slam and eventually stall, a growl making its way into your shoulder as he releases his warm load into the latex of his condom.
Your fingers find the sweaty hair at the nape of his neck as he pants above you. You two laugh gently before Frank’s arms give out, leaving him to lay on top of you. You bear the weight of his body for the light neck kisses he gives you in return. Something tugs at your heart. The moment is slow, hazy in the best way. It's yours to share and hold.
When he finally pulls out of you, you whine at the loss of contact. You could have stayed like that forever. With Frank, forever.
“I know,” he whispers. He can already read your mind.
He walks to his bathroom and is gone for a moment, discarding his condom and cleaning himself up slightly before wetting a washcloth to wipe you down as well. It’s warm and comforting as he cleans up the mess you made between your own thighs, a mixture of the condoms pre-given lube and your own arousal.
When you hear the start of his shower, you smile softly. It feels so domestic, like what you’ve always craved with Frank. Like what Chad never gave you.
He helps you up off the bed, cracking another joke about you slipping as your legs try to find some balance. All you can do is give him an annoyed look before his lips are on yours again, dragging you from his room to the shower.
You fall asleep in his arms afterwards. You're dressed in an old shirt of his, a pair of his boxers clad on your lower half. His sheets smell like you and him. You two speak softly about what this all means, how long you’ve wanted this, how much Frank has needed you. About how he’ll never let you go now that he has you, and no Chad is changing that.
You kiss him gently. A thank you, an I’ve missed you, and an I love you seemingly all said with one small peck.
Frank doesn’t fall asleep immediately. You’re slumped against his chest, softly breathing in and out as his fingers curl against your lower back. From here, Frank begins to memorize the slope of your nose from up close, the fluffiness of your eyelashes that flutter occasionally. He’s thankful for this moment of peace. He always wants this, he realizes. You, in his arms. His ring on your finger. Your toothbrush next to his. The smell of your shampoo on his scrub tops that will no doubt distract him.
He drifts off thinking of his rule that he followed dutifully for a long time. He’s still following it as far as he’s concerned. He knows he’s not supposed to have favorites, and he doesn’t.
Well, except for you.
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When the Kids Are Sick in Bed, Mommy Gets Some Head
Summary: With the kids sick and their fun weekend plans canceled, Frank and Y/n get up to some unexpected fun of their own.
Word Count: 4,383
Warning: Smut, NSFW, 18+
Author's Note: This one kind of got away from me. I initially started writing this for this submission with no intentions of including any smut. But once I started writing, things just took that turn and there was no going back lol Hope you all enjoy it! Let me know your thoughts!
Y/n always woke up at around 6 in the morning. Ever since Theo started preschool, her internal alarm clock always rang at 6. Whether it was the weekend or a weekday. Whether she slept early or late. Her body didn’t know the difference—or maybe it did, and it just didn’t care. Either way, today was no different.
Blinking away the sleep from her eyes, she checked the time. 6:05 AM. Exactly 25 minutes before their actual alarm would go off.
Glancing beside her, at her husband still fast asleep, Y/n sighed. It was tempting to let her heavy lids close once again and enjoy a few more moments of rest. Unfortunately, as nice as that would be, she couldn’t. She shouldn’t. Not when there was still a laundry list (laundry included) of things left to do.
Today, Frank and Y/n were taking the family out to the lake for a weekend full of sun, sand and some quality time together. They usually try to make the trip out at least a few weekends throughout the summer. But with a new project at work forcing Y/n to work odd hours, Frank having to pull overtime with the hospital short-staffed (as always), all on top of getting the kids to and from their summer programs, they just haven’t been able to make it work.
After updating the communal calendar with their schedules for this week, Frank and Y/n turned to each other in shock. The stars finally aligned. For the first time in what felt like forever, they shared the same days off.
They knew exactly what they needed to do. More specifically where they needed to go—Lake Eerie. Not only was a long weekend out on the lake well-deserved, it was also well overdue.
Back when it was just the two of them, it had always been their favorite way to get some quality time in and unwind after a grueling work week. Wading out in the water all day with a pack of beers. Returning to shore only once the sun began setting, and the clouds above them turned cotton candy pink. Afterwards they’d usually chill out on the cabin deck, grill up some burgers. Sometimes, when things inevitably got hot and heavy between them and they were too lazy to head back inside, they’d even end up in each other’s pants, right there under the stars.
Of course, once they had the kids, lake weekends became a lot less practical and therefore a lot harder to come by. Now whenever they did manage to get out there, their itinerary evolved into a sanitized, child-proofed version of it once was. They traded in boozed up bonfires for building sandcastles. Their cooler was now filled with juice boxes rather than beers and seltzers. But the most notable difference was that it was far more work packing, unpacking, then packing everything all back up again, now that it was four of them rather than just two. But hearing the kids’ soft snores and seeing their content little smiles from the rear view mirror on the drive back home made it all worthwhile.
Frank and Y/n stayed up pretty late the night before getting things ready while the kids were in bed. It was around 11 PM when they finally threw in the towel, deciding to leave the rest for their future-selves to figure out in the morning.
Now that it was said morning, Y/n cursed her past-self for making that selfish decision. She moved to get up and get a head start on it all but was held down by the arm draped over her stomach. “Too early,” Frank murmured. His morning stubble scratched her skin as he nuzzled his face into the crook of her neck, urging her to stay in bed.
Already set on starting the day, she ignored him. But the harder she tried to pry his arm off her, the tighter he held on.
Who could blame him for wanting a couple more minutes cozying up in bed with his wife when the chance to indulge in lazy mornings together were hard to come by as of late. His lips pressed a hot kiss against that spot on her neck he knew would have her folding. And in no time, Y/n relented with a sigh. In part because, yes, he knows just what buttons to press to get what he wants. But also because she wasn’t willing to exert any more energy fighting a losing battle with him this early. They had a long day ahead of them.
Turning over her shoulder, she shuffled closer into him. His arms wrapped around her tightly. He hummed in satisfaction as her fingers trailed up to the nape of his neck to rake through his messy head of brown hair. They stayed like this tangled under the covers, basking in the peace and quiet till their alarm finally went off.
Ring. Ring. Ring.
Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz.
Rolling right on top of Y/n, Frank groaned as he reached over to shut it off. The ringing and buzzing stopped, but he stayed in place, hovering over her, taking her in with his eyes. There was something about being the only one to see the beauty of her totally undone, to be the only one with the privilege of waking up beside her like this every morning, that stirred something within him. His eyes traveled hungrily down the delicate skin of her neck, to the swell of her breasts and the peak of her nipples hidden under one of his old college shirts. Then they went lower, admiring the curve of her hips and waist, stopping at the cheeky pair of striped panties peeking out from under the ratted hem of his shirt. When his eyes traveled back up her body, landing on her face once again, he was met with a disapproving look.
“No,” Y/n said plainly.
“What? I didn’t say anything.”
“You don’t need to.” If his intentions weren’t already painfully obvious by the look on his face, his knee nudging her legs apart gave him away for sure. Luckily Y/n slipped out of his grasp before he could press the other buttons he knew would have her in the palm of his hand.
“You had your chance to get a quickie in earlier, before the alarm went off. You chose to sleep instead,” she said, already halfway to their bathroom. “It’s too late now.”
Their white sheets ruffled under the weight of Frank plopping himself down on them face-first. She was right. But he wasn’t ready to give up. Stubborn as always, he rose from the bed quickly to join her in the bathroom. He came up behind her, hands resting low on her hips, pulling them against him as she stood up. She continued with her skin care routine unphased, ignoring both the stiffness pressing right against her ass, and the dull aching between her legs as a result.
“Y/n,” he hummed in her ear. His striking blue eyes looking at her through the mirror. A wandering hand slid up her waist, across her stomach, cupping her breast greedily. “C’mon, we both needed the extra sleep, but we’re up now— ”
“Yeah, we’re not the only ones up,” Y/n joked, reaching behind her to palm him quickly, teasingly.
Frank threw his head back, swearing under his breath, trying to get a hold of himself. The pained look on his face almost made her feel bad if it weren’t a) so funny how easily riled up he got and b) such a turn on seeing the effect she had on him.
“That’s not very nice,” Frank said, shooting her a sharp. His free hand came down on her ass with a smack.
The sound of her laughter cut off abruptly as she yelped in surprise. “That wasn’t very nice either,” she said, peeking over her shoulder to see a red hand print on her left cheek.
“You started it,” he groaned, burying his face against the side of her head. He inhaled deeply, hooked on her scent, as he kneaded her breast in his hand. “C’mon baby. Please.”
“We don’t have time,” she said, closing a jar of moisturizer. “There’s still a lot left to do.”
“It’ll be quick baby, I promise.” His other hand wrapped around the front of her waist now, pulling her impossibly close to him. “You feel that? How fucking hard I am for you right now? I’m not lasting long.”
That dull aching between her legs started pulsing harder, and faster. It would be so easy to give in right now and satisfy both their needs. But Y/n stayed firm. His utter desperation for her was its own form of satisfaction that she wasn’t done enjoying yet. It gave her just enough willpower to keep him yearning for her a little longer.
“How about,” she started, offering a compromise, “You take care of the kids, get them all ready. I’ll get breakfast started and finish the packing. And if—and this is only if—you can get the kids all ready by 8:15, we can get a quickie in before leaving at 8:30.”
That was all Frank needed to hear. 8:15? He’ll make sure they’re set to go by 8, on the dot, if that’s the case.
—
Frank crossed the hallway to Theo’s bedroom, light on his feet, a spring in his step. His little deal with Y/n, aside, he’s been dying to share their weekend plans with the kids. They’d kept it a secret all week long, wanting to surprise them on the day of. To see their faces light up in excitement. To watch them rush to get ready because the sooner they are, the sooner they’ll get there.
Like their parents, Theo and Emmie loved going out to the lake. They’d splash around all day in the water till their little fingers and toes were wrinkled and pruned. They’d scavenge for shells and treasure along the shore. They’d usually end the night roasting marshmallows under the moonlight listening to Frank tell them spooky stories around the fire pit.
The hinges of Theo’s door creaked lightly as Frank stepped into the dark room. The only source of light came from the color-changing dinosaur lamp sitting on the bedside table. Knowing what a mess the room usually is, he treaded carefully. One wrong step meant tripping on a toy or slipping on a stray shirt laying on the ground. Drawing the curtains open, and seeing the mess he’d just traversed, Frank made a mental note to tell Theo he needed to clean up before they leave today.
The boy’s peaceful expression scrunched in confusion as Frank shook his shoulders gently. Groggy eyes fluttered open adjusting to the light. Little arms stretched out as he woke. Mouth opened wide to let out a yawn. But what came out instead was a scratchy, dry, cough. Quickly followed by another, then another after that, until the poor boy was doubled over in a fit of them.
Leaning back instinctively, avoiding the cloud of germs now floating in the air between them, Frank placed the back of his hand against Theo’s forehead. The boy was hot to the touch.
“I don’t feel very good,” he said in a nasally voice. And taking a closer look at him, Frank saw that he didn’t look very good either. Red, puffy eyes and blotchy cheeks to match.
Frank tucked the boy back into bed, telling him to just go back to sleep before quickly crossing the hall to check on Emmie. He had a strong feeling she was probably in the same state as her brother. If one of them got sick, the other was not far behind. And unfortunately, he was right. Emmie was burning up too and a bit lethargic when he tried to wake her.
“Just lay back down bug,” Frank assured her, pushing tangled strands of hair away from her face. “I’ll be back up to check on you in a little.”
–
Transferring all the bacon onto a platter, Y/n was too preoccupied to notice Frank enter the kitchen.
“So,” he started grabbing her attention. Uh-oh, Y/n thought turning to face him. That tone was was a forbearer of bad news to follow. And when she saw his lips pulled in a tight line, she put the tongs down to brace herself for it.
“The kids are sick,” he said, leaning against the counter, grabbing a hot piece of bacon from the platter. Y/n swatted his hands away but not before his sticky fingers got a of slice.
“Frank,” she scolded. He was no better than Theo and Emmie sometimes. The kids would often come in while she was cooking to ask for a “free sample” (a phrase they learned from their trips to Costco) of dinner before she’d even turned the stove off. Their impatience was clearly a trait they inherited from their father.
“How bad is it?” Y/n asked.
“Pretty bad."
“Like Halloween 2023 bad?” Y/n asked.
The kids gave Frank and Y/n a good scare that Halloween. At the beginning of the week, they had both come down with a flu that hit them so hard by Tuesday, aka Halloween, they were off to see Uncle Robby at the emergency room. Frank knew they needed medical attention beyond what he could give them at home. Emmie with a stubborn fever that refused to go down and Theo with labored breaths that paired with his asthma could be dangerous. Safe to say there was no trick-or-treating for the Langdons that year—aside from the bowl of candy on Auntie Dana’s desk that she insisted they both take two large handfuls of once they were cleared to go home.
“No,” Frank shook his head in horror at the memory. “Definitely not that bad. But bad enough to cancel our weekend plans for sure.”
Y/n sighed, already switching gears to make a batch of chicken noodle soup, scouring through the cabinets for the ingredients resignedly. It was just their luck that the one weekend they finally had together as a family was going to be stuck at home. Not to mention it was too late to get their money back for the cabin or the boat they rented. But on the bright side, since they were both off they could at least tag team nursing her poor babies back to health together.
“I’ll have some soup ready for them in a bit. Can you go find where we stashed the humidifier? I don’t remember where we put it after…” Y/n trailed off as she felt Frank coming up behind her. She froze in place. His hands rested low on her hips, in the same needy, urgent way he had in their bathroom not that long ago. And his voice, still thick with that morning gravel, was low in her ear.
“It’s in one of the storage bins in the garage. But before we get to all that, I was thinking—”
“About getting your dick wet while our kids are upstairs sick?” Y/n cut him off. “Really, FranK?”
“Well, when you put it like that, I sound terrible. But yeah. We made a deal.”
“The deal is obviously off.”
“No. I kept up my end, now you’ve gotta hold up yours.”
“Okay, even if the deal was still on—which it's not—you didn’t keep up your end,” she pointed out, turning to face him now.
“Techincally, yes, I did,” he said. Each word punctuated with a step forward, till he had her pressed up against the counter.
“How so?” she asked. Inhaling a sharp breath, she kept her composure. Though there wasn't much of it left to keep. Not while they stood chest to chest. Their lips separated by a hair’s breadth. His arms, on either side of her, trapping her against the counter, not letting her slip away from him as easily as she had in bed. Ignoring that dull aching starting up again, she reminded him, “The deal was you get the kids ready. And they’re not. They’re not even out of bed.”
“Exactly,” he said, lifting her onto the counter with ease despite her lame protests.
Their counters just happened to be the perfect height for him to settle between her legs. His hips lined up perfectly with hers, and he took full advantage of that, pulling her right to the edge, wrapping her legs around his waist so she could feel all of him. So she could feel how badly he needed this, how badly he needed her.
“I checked their temperatures, and tucked them back in. I got them ready to stay in bed and rest,” he explained.
“You think you're so clever, huh?”
“I think a deal’s a deal. And that you’re playing hard to get.”
“So what if I am,” she challenged. Though her voice had no edge. She was losing herself in the sloppy kisses he laid along on her neck, hitting that spot, that button he knew would have her like putty in his hands, again and again.
“We share two kids and a mortgage. It’s a little late to be playing hard to get. I’ve already got you. That rock on your finger is proof,” he went on, hands roaming over every inch of her he could get his hands on. From her ass, to her hips and waist. But feeling her just wasn’t enough. He needed more. “I mean what’s a man gotta do to get in his own wife’s pants? Beg?”
It was a joke, but he felt her breath hitch and her muscles tighten at the word. Beg. “Is that it baby? I have to beg?”
Y/n hadn’t quite put it together herself till now—that begging is what she was after. All she knew was that she loved whenever he got like this. So shamelessly desperate for her, cock literally throbbing for her. The high of knowing that even after all this time together, he still wanted her as badly as the first time made her feel so good. So sexy. So desired. Things she doesn’t often feel when she’s busy in mom-mode or doing chores or stuck behind a desk at work. So, yes. Some begging would be nice.
“Cause I’ll do it, y’know. I’ll get on my knees and beg,” he said, proceeding to do exactly that.
Their eyes locked as his lips grazed the inside of her knee, traveling up her thigh one feather light kiss at a time. There was no escaping him now. Not that she wanted to. She wanted all this just as much as he did. In her fight to resist him thus far, her insides had coiled up so tight they were about to snap. And the seams holding her together were on the verge of busting wide open. But she was too deep into this game that she started to back out now. She couldn’t give in. Not yet. Not before she had him truly begging.
So before Frank could dive any deeper between her legs, Y/n grabbed a handful of his hair pulling his head away. “Uh-uh,” she said, looking down at him in disapproval. “I don’t hear any begging”
Frank let out a dark chuckle. “You really want me to beg? Want me to tell you how bad I wanna rip these panties off of you, hmm? How I just wanna bury my face between your legs and get a taste? Will you let me, baby? Please? Please, let me eat your pussy out baby. C’mon.”
He’d inched his way closer to her core, to the damp spot on her panties like an X marking the spot, hoping his words were enough. And they seemed to be as Y/n lifted her hips, allowing him to pull her panties off and place her legs over his shoulders. Spread out bare before him, Frank groaned at how wet and ready she was. Licking his lips, ready to finally receive some form of gratification, Y/n tugged on his hair again.
“You’re killing me,” he complained, throwing his head back. It wasn’t much of an exaggeration either. If his blood started pumping any faster he just might burst an artery.
“What do you say?” she asked, running her fingers through his hair just the way he liked, as if it would coax the right answer from him. “What do we always tell the kids to say when someone gives them something they want?”
“Thank you,” he said. The second her hand eased its hold on his head, his tongue was at her entrance, licking a thick strip up and through her folds. He groaned, coating his tongue in her. “Thank you so much, baby. Thank you for letting me have this sweet, pretty pussy.”
He continued lapping her up, starting off slow, savoring her intoxicating taste. “God you taste so fucking good,” he said, speaking his praises right into her.
The vibration of his voice against her. The vice grip on her thighs, keeping her right where she was. The way he gradually increased his pressure and speed bringing her closer to unraveling totally. It was all too much. Y/n had turned into a moaning mess. His fingers spread her folds apart, paying special attention to her swollen clit. A shockwave of pleasure shot through her as he circled and sucked on the sensitive bundle of nerves. Her head fell back against the cabinet with a thud and her hand dug into his hair again, this time pulling him closer rather than pushing him away.
“Oh fuck,” she moaned. “Just like that.”
In that instant, with those three words, the power dynamic shifted. She was at his mercy now. He pulled back, just far enough to lose contact but still close enough for her to feel his hot and heavy breath.
“What do you say? What’s the magic word baby? ” he taunted her, throwing her own words back in her face.
“Please,” she said softly. Eyes shut tight trying to hold onto the fading feeling of his mouth on her.
“I didn’t hear you,” Frank said. “What was that?”
“I said, please.”
Langdon smirked at the bite in her tone. Turns out the little game she started wasn’t as fun now that they’d switched courts. “Please, what? Tell me what you want?” he said, torturing her the same way she tortured him.
“Please, put your mouth back right where it was,” she said. “I’m so close, baby. Don’t stop. Please.”
“Look who’s begging now,” Frank teased. “And why should I give you what you want?”
“Because I promise to get on my knees next.”
Now those were the magic words Frank liked to hear. Without warning, he dove back between her legs. Like a man starved, he was relentless and insatiable. Y/n had lost all her senses to him. All she could hear were the wet, lewd sounds his lips and tongue were making. All she could see were stars as her eyes rolled back in utter pleasure. All she could feel was him bringing her closer and closer. Until finally the chord inside of her snapped.
Her thighs clenched around his head, holding him hostage as she rode through her climax. When she finally opened her eyes, Frank had stood up and they were face to face. Immediately their lips met in a hungry, heated kiss. Still reeling from her own high, she had barely noticed Frank lifted her off the counter till her bare feet touched their hardwood floors.
She knew what he was trying to get at. And she obliged. He deserved it for being a good sport in all this. He played along when he could’ve easily just bent her over the counter and taken her the way he wanted to.
Her lips trailed over his stubble and down his neck. Her hands moved further down, running across his chest and down his abdomen appreciating each curve and dip of lean muscle before reaching his sweats. Keeping her hands on the band of them, she got on her knees. She paused, looking up at him through her lashes, enjoying the view of him from that angle. Parts of his chin still glistening with the evidence of her climax. The veins on his neck straining in anticipation. His blue eyes glazed over with lust.
Frank cupped her cheek with one hand, running his thumb across it, then over her soft lips. Y/n took it in her mouth eagerly, her tongue swirling around it, giving him a preview of what was to come. He didn’t think he could get any harder until he heard his thumb leave her mouth with a pop.
Mouth watering and core slickening thinking about wrapping her lips around him, Y/n started pull down the his sweatpants finally setting free his—
“Mommy?” a small voice called out from just around the corner.
Wide-eyed and frantic, Frank and Y/n scrambled to look presentable. When Emmie walked in just a moment later, Frank was still adjusting his sweatpants into place and Y/n had just kicked her underwear, that had been lying in the middle of their kitchen floor, out of sight.
“What’s wrong sweetie,” Y/n said, picking the girl up into her arms. Emmie whined and mumbled about not feeling good. Frank rubbed her little back gently. Despite being a doctor, there was nothing in his arsenal of knowledge that could solve the common cold. It just had to run its course.
“I’ll bring her back to bed,” Y/n said.
“And then we can finish what we started, right?” Frank asked, just above a whisper. Y/n looked over her shoulder to see him gesturing suggestively at the on-going issue beneath his sweatpants.
Taking a page out of his book, Y/n took the upper hand once again. “What do you mean? We are finished?”
“No. Deal’s a deal—”
“Exactly. Deal’s a deal. I said I’d get on my knees, and I did. Didn’t I?”
Frank rolled his eyes, running his hands through his hair in frustration. “Real clever Y/n.”
“Learned from the best,” she winked, disappearing up the stairs.
Sitting on Bucky's lap.
It starts because there's no where else to sit. It's a bit awkward at first and then over the course of the evening it becomes comfortable.
Eventually, over months, you start sitting on Bucky's lap all the time, even when there are seats available. The team give you guys so much shit.
Which wouldn't be a problem if only he wasn't so damn in love with you.
The first time you sat on Bucky Barnes’ lap, it was entirely accidental.
Which was probably the only reason either of you survived it.
Avengers movie nights had become a weekly disaster.
Tony insisted on hosting them despite nobody actually wanting to watch movies in the same room as Tony Stark because he talked through every important scene and paused films to explain things nobody asked about.
The common room was packed already by the time you arrived.
Sam and Steve had claimed the larger couch.
Natasha was sprawled across an armchair with the kind of elegance that made normal sitting look embarrassing.
Clint occupied an entire loveseat by himself despite not needing nearly that much space.
And Bucky—
Bucky sat at the far end of the sectional couch looking deeply regretful about agreeing to participate in social interaction.
You smiled automatically at the sight of him.
Because you always did.
Unfortunately, every remaining seat was taken.
You frowned slightly, scanning the room.
“There’s nowhere left.”
“Sit on the floor,” Sam suggested immediately.
“You sit on the floor.”
“I was here first.”
Tony pointed toward Bucky without looking away from the TV.
“Tin Man’s got room.”
The entire room went briefly quiet.
Because technically yes, there was room.
Bucky occupied one corner of the sectional entirely alone.
But sitting beside Bucky Barnes and sitting on Bucky Barnes were two catastrophically different things.
You looked at Bucky hesitantly.
He looked back.
For one terrible second, neither of you said anything.
Then Steve—traitor that he was—shifted slightly farther into Sam’s side.
“Looks full here.”
You narrowed your eyes at him.
“Coward.”
Steve smiled innocently.
Natasha looked deeply entertained already.
“You could always sit in Barnes’ lap.”
Bucky choked on absolutely nothing.
You stared at her in horror.
Natasha raised one perfectly shaped eyebrow.
“What? Efficient use of space.”
“You are a menace.”
“Thank you.”
Bucky still hadn’t spoken.
Which somehow made this worse.
You glanced at him carefully.
“…Would that be weird?”
Bucky’s eyes widened slightly like he hadn’t expected you to genuinely consider it.
Truthfully, neither had you.
You and Bucky weren’t exactly touchy.
Not because you disliked each other.
Quite the opposite.
There was just always this… awareness between you.
Every accidental brush of hands lingered too long.
Every moment standing too close felt charged somehow.
And now everyone was looking at him expectantly while you stood awkwardly beside the couch.
Bucky swallowed once.
Then muttered:
“I mean… if you want.”
Natasha immediately smirked.
“Oh, he’s doomed.”
“Romanoff,” Bucky warned.
But his voice sounded rougher than usual.
Your heart beat stupidly hard as you carefully lowered yourself onto his lap.
At first it was incredibly awkward.
Not because Bucky made it awkward.
Because he went completely motionless.
Like if he moved too suddenly he might combust.
You tried very hard to ignore how warm he was beneath you.
Which was difficult.
Super soldier body heat should honestly count as a weapon.
Your back pressed lightly against his chest.
One of his thighs bracketed yours naturally.
His metal arm rested rigidly beside you like he was terrified to touch you accidentally.
The room immediately erupted.
“Oh my God,” Sam whispered dramatically.
Clint pointed at Bucky.
“He looks like somebody held him at gunpoint.”
“He does,” Natasha agreed.
Bucky glared at all of them.
You were trying very hard not to laugh.
“This is fine,” you said weakly.
“No it’s not,” Sam answered instantly. “Barnes forgot how to breathe.”
“I’m breathing.”
“You haven’t blinked in thirty seconds.”
Bucky finally looked down at you.
Your eyes met.
And suddenly the teasing faded into background noise for one dangerous second.
Because he looked…
Overwhelmed.
Not upset.
Not uncomfortable.
Just intensely aware of you.
You smiled slightly before you could stop yourself.
Bucky’s expression softened immediately in response.
Then, cautiously, his flesh hand settled against your side.
Not gripping.
Just there.
Steadying.
Your stomach flipped violently.
“Oh, he’s touching her now,” Clint announced.
“Everybody shut up,” Bucky muttered.
The movie finally started after that.
And slowly, impossibly, the awkwardness faded.
Because sitting with Bucky felt…
Nice.
His chest warm against your back.
The low rumble of his voice when he occasionally commented quietly.
The way his hand shifted absentmindedly against your side whenever you laughed.
At some point during the movie, you relaxed fully against him without even realizing it.
Bucky noticed immediately.
Every muscle in his body softened.
Like your trust physically melted tension out of him.
By the end of the night, his metal arm rested loosely across your lap while your head leaned comfortably against his shoulder.
Nobody missed it.
Especially not Natasha.
“You two are revolting,” she informed you both pleasantly.
You lifted your head sleepily.
“What?”
“You’re cuddling.”
You looked down.
Oh.
Bucky’s arms were around you.
Fully around you.
At some point that had happened without either of you acknowledging it.
Your cheeks warmed instantly.
Bucky looked down too.
But instead of pulling away—
His grip tightened slightly.
Just slightly.
Like he didn’t want you moving.
Natasha’s smile turned positively vicious.
“Oh, this is going to get worse.”
It did.
Very quickly.
The second time you sat on Bucky’s lap, it was deliberate.
The common room was crowded again.
There were other seats available this time.
You ignored them automatically and crossed straight toward Bucky instead.
He looked up from his book immediately.
Eyes tracking you instinctively.
“Hey,” he murmured.
“Hi.”
Then, without really thinking about it, you settled into his lap naturally.
Like it was normal now.
Bucky went still for exactly one second.
Then his arm wrapped around your waist automatically.
Comfortably.
Like his body had already memorized yours.
Sam stared openly from across the room.
“No.”
You blinked.
“What?”
“There are literally empty chairs.”
You looked around.
“…Oh.”
Bucky’s chest rumbled quietly behind you.
A laugh.
“You can move if you want,” he said softly.
But his arm tightened infinitesimally around you when he said it.
Liar.
You smiled slightly.
“I’m comfortable.”
Bucky’s entire posture relaxed immediately.
Sam pointed dramatically.
“Did everybody see that?”
Steve looked deeply amused over his book.
“It’s pretty obvious.”
“What’s obvious?” you asked suspiciously.
“The fact that Barnes is one missed nap away from carrying you around in a baby sling.”
Bucky flipped him off without hesitation.
You laughed so hard you nearly slid sideways.
Bucky caught you instantly.
Strong hands gripping your waist securely.
“Careful.”
His voice dropped lower when talking directly to you.
Softer too.
Natasha noticed everything.
Of course she did.
“You know,” she mused one evening while watching you climb into Bucky’s lap during a briefing despite several empty seats nearby, “at this point I think she just likes making you malfunction.”
Bucky looked at her flatly.
“She’s sitting.”
“You stare at her like she invented oxygen.”
Your face immediately burst into flames.
Bucky looked mildly alarmed now too.
“I do not.”
“Barnes,” Clint said. “You literally stopped listening to Fury because she fixed your collar.”
Bucky frowned.
“It was crooked.”
The room erupted instantly.
You buried your face in his shoulder laughing while Bucky glared at everyone over your head.
Which honestly only made it worse.
Because now his hand was rubbing absentminded circles against your back.
Possessive.
Comforting.
Intimate enough that Steve quietly hid a smile behind his coffee mug.
The problem was that nobody realized how bad it had gotten for Bucky.
Not even you.
Because somewhere between movie nights and briefings and lazy afternoons tangled together on couches, sitting on his lap had become second nature.
You did it constantly now.
Reading reports.
Watching TV.
Scrolling through your phone.
Sometimes you sat sideways across his thighs while talking to the others.
Sometimes you leaned fully back against his chest while he wrapped both arms around you automatically.
Bucky never complained.
Never hesitated.
In fact, he started unconsciously making room for you before you even crossed the room.
Like some part of him expected your weight settling against him now.
The terrifying thing was how much he needed it.
Because every time you sat with him, the world quieted.
The noise in his head softened.
The hypervigilance eased.
You grounded him without even trying.
And Bucky—
God.
Bucky was so deeply in love with you it physically hurt sometimes.
He knew exactly when it happened too.
One rainy afternoon in the tower.
You’d fallen asleep on him during a movie.
Curled against his chest with one arm looped lazily around his neck.
The others had long since filtered out of the room, leaving only the soft sound of rain against the windows.
Bucky looked down at you sleeping in his lap.
At your relaxed face.
Your soft breathing.
The absolute trust in the way you melted into him without hesitation.
And suddenly it hit him with horrifying clarity.
Oh.
Oh no.
He loved you.
Not casually.
Not halfway.
Completely.
The realization should’ve terrified him.
Instead it just felt inevitable.
Like he’d been falling for you slowly every single time you smiled at him across the room.
Every time you chose his lap over empty seats.
Every time you trusted him enough to curl into his arms like it was the safest place in the world.
Bucky brushed a strand of hair carefully away from your face.
You stirred slightly against him.
His chest tightened painfully.
“Jesus,” he whispered to himself.
“What?”
Bucky nearly jumped out of his skin.
You blinked sleepily up at him.
Still half asleep.
Still warm and heavy in his lap.
Bucky stared at you.
Then sighed softly through his nose.
“Nothin’.”
You narrowed your eyes lazily.
“You’re doing the overthinking face.”
“I don’t have an overthinking face.”
“You absolutely do.”
Your fingers drifted absentmindedly along the back of his neck.
Bucky nearly stopped breathing.
“You okay?” you murmured.
There was so much genuine concern in your voice.
So much affection.
And suddenly Bucky couldn’t do it anymore.
Couldn’t keep swallowing the feelings down every time you curled up in his lap smiling at him like he mattered.
His hand slid carefully against your waist.
“You know,” he said quietly, “most people don’t sit in their friends’ laps this much.”
You blinked slowly.
Then your expression changed.
“Oh.”
Bucky’s stomach dropped immediately.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean—”
“No,” you interrupted softly. “No, I just…”
Your cheeks warmed visibly.
“I thought maybe you liked it.”
Bucky stared at you.
“You thought maybe—”
“You always hold me.”
“Because I like holding you.”
The words slipped out too fast to stop.
Silence.
Then your eyes widened slightly.
Bucky closed his eyes briefly.
Great.
Perfect.
But when he looked back at you, you were smiling.
Small.
Soft.
Almost shy.
“Good,” you whispered. “Because I’m kind of in love with you.”
Bucky’s entire brain short-circuited.
“You—what?”
You laughed quietly at his expression.
“I figured that was obvious.”
“To me?”
“Yes?”
“Doll, I thought you just really liked sitting down.”
You burst out laughing fully then.
The sound hit Bucky right in the chest.
God, he loved you.
You cupped his face gently.
“I love sitting with you because it’s you.”
Every protective wall Bucky carried cracked apart instantly.
He kissed you before he could overthink it.
Slow at first.
Careful.
One hand cradling your jaw while the other tightened around your waist instinctively, keeping you close in his lap.
You kissed him back immediately.
Warm and certain.
When he finally pulled away, his forehead rested against yours.
Both of you breathless.
“You know,” you murmured softly, “I’m still gonna sit on your lap constantly.”
Bucky’s mouth curved into the softest smile you’d ever seen from him.
“Good.”
Then he kissed you again just as Sam walked back into the room.
Sam stopped dead.
Looked at the two of you tangled together on the couch.
Pretty please give me Frank with freshly signed divorce papers celebrating his freedom with the girl he’s been crushing on for months, resulting in slutty wine tipsy sex? I need it.
slutty | f.l
pairing: frank langdon x f!reader
warnings: alcohol, frank's an ass, reader stands up for herself, smut, nsfw [18+ only], fingering, biting/marking, hate fuck, bickering, semi-public sex, unprotected sex, frank is divorced,
word count: 5236
summary: in which you reach your tipping point
author's note: happy belated birthday mom!!
oneshot | masterlist
“I’ll admit, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him and that weekend we had,” your friend confessed. “You know what I was like back then. I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin, but it was like he saw past that. Like he saw my soul and made me feel alive for the first time in, god, so fucking long. I appreciate you letting me vent, but tell me more about how Frank’s being a total douche canoe to you.”
You laughed and Alice cracked a smile. You hadn’t felt in a laughing mood all week. You’d been counting down the days to seeing your friends and getting drunk, and in true fashion, Alice was the one to break you out of the mood you’d been in and actually laugh.
“Aside from him, the job is great, you know? I feel appreciated for the work I do, and it’s a great place to be. But Frank…he’s like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. He’s fine one minute then chewing me out over little shit the next. And it’s not over shit in my control, anyway, so I usually tune him out. I think he’s waiting for some other kind of reaction, like tears or something, but I’ll never cry. And he doesn’t bother me enough to make me cry. So I tune him out and it just makes his rage worse, but I still have a job? I don’t know what his angle is. Like, does he expect me to quit? Sue over abuse in the workplace? I don’t know. But it pisses me off more than upsets me or anything. I don’t know, dude.”
“He’s hot, right?”
“So hot.” You groaned, wishing you had another drink. “Another round? On me this time.”
Alice nodded, so you walked off to the bar to get a couple more drinks. And two more shots each. If you were going to divulge your crush on one of your superiors, it called for more alcohol.
When you returned to the table, your other friends were gearing up to go home. Wishing you both a good night and to get home safely before leaving you to your own devices.
“How long have you had a crush on Frank?”
“You don’t waste any time, do you?” You asked, while she simply grinned and reached for a shot. You picked up another, cheersing before throwing it back. “I don’t know, maybe a month ago? I caught him on a good day, well, good for me because he wasn’t nitpicking, but bad for him, because he had some shit going on. I overheard a call—lawyers, I think—and something about divorce papers. He apologised about the call, whatever I overheard, and I told him I didn’t care what shit he had going on in his personal life, but not to take it out on me. And he’d been pretty good since then. Asking me how my day was, and actually seems like he’s interested in the answer, and if I say it’s been a good day, he’ll say something along the lines of ‘you didn’t piss me off today, so it was a good day for me too.’ Cunt.”
“You know when we were little and you’d be told that the boys are only picking on you because they think you’re cute?” Alice asked.
You threw a balled up napkin at them. “Don’t say he’s picking on me because he thinks I’m cute. He thinks I’m incompetent.”
“You’re a resident, incompetent is par for the course until you complete your residency and pass your boards,” she pointed out, brushing the napkin aside. “You go back tomorrow, yes?”
“With a raging hangover, most likely. Why?”
“Wear that blouse you think is too skimpy because it shows too much boob. I want to see if he says something about the way you’re dressed, even though you change into scrubs.”
You sighed, reaching for the last shot and throwing it back without waiting for her. “If he says anything about my clothes, I’m calling him the fuck out. I’ve had enough of his shit, and at this point, I don’t give a single fuck if I have a job the next day or not.”
“Atta girl!” She cheered, downing her shot. “I’ll bring dinner over tomorrow night so you can tell me how it went.”
You felt rough. And it was your own fault. But you forced yourself to get out of bed and changed into the outfit Alice suggested the night before. Picking up a coffee and bagel on your way to work before heading into the locker room.
“Woah, mama.” Trinity whistled lowly. “You look hot. Late night last night?”
“Something like that.” You laughed, leaving her imagination to run wild.
You didn’t have the desire to tell her why you were really dressed up, but your interest had been piqued by Alice’s observation. You wanted to see if there was any weight behind it, and you were probably still dealing with alcohol lingering in your system which gave you the courage to actually go through with it.
Before you could doubt the stupid decision, the door to the locker room swung open and you were staring at Frank.
“Langdon,” you said, turning your back to him as you unbutton your blouse and grabbed your scrub top from your locker.
He mumbled your surname, for what it was worth, making his way to his locker to drop his bag. Still, you watched him—the tightness in his posture, the way he clenched his jaw like something pained him.
Maybe there was some truth to Alice’s theory.
Changing into your scrub pants was next, struggling your way out of the tight denim you couldn’t believe you actually got on this morning, before slipping into the more comfortable blue scrubs. Shoes swapped for your comfy trainers, pen in your scrub pocket, stethoscope around your neck, and your notebook between your teeth as you stuffed your clothes into your locker.
You blew out a breath, tucking some hair behind your ear before hastily leaving the locker room, ready to start your day.
“Morning,” Dana greeted. “Surprised to see you standing.”
You laughed. “Me too, honestly,” you replied. “Caffeine and spite are very powerful motivators.”
Dana simply grinned. “There’s a kid in bed four who swallowed a marble.”
“Glass?”
“X-rays should be back soon,” she replied.
“Thanks Dana,” you told her, heading to bed four to check in on your first patient.
The kid was in good spirits, for the most part, it was the helicopter-mom that was doing your head in. The way she hovered, the way she didn’t move out of your way so you could do a proper exam.
“Well, the good news is that the x-rays don’t show any sign of blockage, meaning the marble will likely pass by itself,” you informed the mother and child. The mother, who exhaled like swallowing a marble was a death sentence, finally seemed to relax. “The bad news is we’re going to have to monitor your son for another few hours, at least until the marble passes naturally.”
“I’m going to poop the marble out?” The child asked.
“You sure are! Well clean it before we give it back to you,” you assured him, and he pounded the air with his small fist. “Just promise me you won’t do this again, okay?”
“I promise.”
You didn’t believe him. Neither did the mother, who launched into a lecture the child was probably too young to understand about how much this trip was going to cost them.
As you moved on to the next patient, a woman complaining of abdominal pain, you tried your best to ignore the looming figure hovering behind you. Langdon had called for an assist, the patient requesting a female doctor, and you were it.
“Are you comfortable with Doctor Langdon observing?” You asked the patient. “As I’m still a resident, I require a senior doctor shadowing some of my cases.”
“That’s fine,” she said, flinching in pain before you even had a chance to ask if you could examine her. “I just feel more comfortable with a woman examining me.”
“You don’t have to explain yourself,” you assured her. “Is the pain more centralised to one area, or is it everywhere?”
“Lower right,” she explained. “I have a history of ovarian cysts.”
You nodded as you donned a pair of gloves. “Does this pain feel like the last time you encountered it? Or is it new?”
“Same but worse,” she replied.
“Do you mind if I touch your stomach to examine you?” You asked.
“That’s fine.”
As you palpated her abdomen, you were aware of some bloating. She was in agony as you apologetically pressed down again.
“Any spotting or bleeding?” You asked.
“Heavy bleeding, nausea, vomiting,” she listed off her symptoms.
“We’re going to need to do an ultrasound to be sure, but it’s very likely that you’ve had a cyst rupture, in which case, we will need to send you upstairs to have the surgeons make sure there’s no abdominal bleeding or ovarian torsion that’s causing further complications.”
Langdon handed you the bottle of jelly before powering the machine up.
“This jelly will be cold at first, which I apologise for,” you said, applying some jelly to her abdomen before grabbing the small wand and pressing it to her stomach. “Langdon.”
“Calling an OR,” he replied.
Her right ovary was riddled with cysts, a large one which looked like it had burst and now there was fluid causing the symptoms.
“One of the cysts has ruptured,” you told the patient. “That’s likely the source of your pain and nausea, so we’re going to send you up to surgery.”
You grabbed a cloth to wipe the jelly from her stomach.
“This is just what I needed today,” she groaned. “Can you get my phone? I need to call my boss and tell her I won’t be in for the rest of the week.”
You passed over her purse, quickly leaving the room with Langdon while the nurses finished up.
“You did good,” Langdon admitted.
“Compliments feel weird coming from you,” you replied, taking a seat at the nurses station so you could type up some quick notes in the patient’s chart.
Frank huffed. “Whatever.”
You stifled a laugh. “How the hell have you dealt with this behaviour for over four years?”
Dana looked at you over the rims of her glasses. “Believe me, I ask myself the same question every day,” she replied. “It’s like herding cattle sometimes.”
“Can’t say I know what you mean.”
“Don’t shut down when he’s throwing his weight around,” she said, and you knew you weren’t talking about cattle anymore, but about Frank. “He’ll respect you more if you give him a taste of his own medicine.”
“It’d be easier if he wasn’t a cunt.”
Dana laughed as he crossed in front of you, giving you both a quizzical look. “Who’s a cunt?”
“You.” As if it wasn’t obvious. “Don’t you have patients to offend with your presence?”
“I’d rather be a cunt than arrive for my shift dressed like a hooker,” he replied.
“I’d rather look like a hooker than be a bitter divorcee,” you quipped, barely giving him time to process his own jab before you dealt your own blow.
Fire raged in his eyes as they found yours again, holding your gaze while Dana laughed beside you, doing nothing to help the situation or hide her own amusement. She did, however, make herself scarce. Leaving you to deal with Frank by yourself, however you saw fit.
You’d already admitted to calling him a cunt, and then followed up by calling him a bitter divorcee. You knew the situation was only going to escalate. Suddenly, you wished for an audience. Someone to witness the demise of Frank Langdon. Luckily, you knew it was only a matter of time before the nurses station filled up with witnesses. You were just hoping you’d be balls deep in your argument for him to even notice the crowd.
You laughed, you couldn’t help it. The rage burning inside you had your blood boiling—vision red. And you laughed because it was funny that he thought you’d just take it. That you’d get a blank look on your face as you stared through him, never listening when he goes off on these rants.
“This isn’t fucking funny,” he exploded, and you’re quick to your feet. Like hell you were going to take this sitting down.
You’ve never snapped back before. Not when he’s talking about your piece of shit car. Not when he’s trying so hard to get under your skin to get some kind of reaction from you, any kind, that you never seem to give. But today you’d had enough. Today was the day.
You know the type. He’s waiting for a reaction, the one you know he’s desperately looking for; your tears, a trophy of his success in being the worst person you’ve ever met. The person who makes your life so much harder than it needs to be.
Because this is what he does. He finds a weakness and picks it apart. Except he hasn’t found yours yet, and you don’t know if he ever will.
The only way to deal with bullies is to beat them at their own game, much like Dana said. You’d always been a firm believer in treating people the way you’d like to be treated, but kindness can only get you so far.
It was time to be a ruthless cunt. and Frank didn’t know what was about to hit him.
“What’s not fucking funny is how you think you’re such a nice guy, but the second something doesn’t go your way, you’re quick to criticise and pick apart every little fault of a person, when really you’re just a vindictive, little old man yourself. You want to know why I’m laughing? Because it’s pathetic, you’re pathetic. You’re a fucking snake, spitting venom and using your words to choke your victims. Constricting them. Tightening the fucking noose around their necks until they break under the pressure. You’ve tried with me for two fucking years and I’ve taken it because I’m a fucking snake too. I see through the façade, and you’re not going to fucking break me. No wonder your wife is divorcing you.”
You could see the anger in his eyes. The twitch of his jaw as he clenched his teeth.
“While I’ve got your full, undivided attention, there’s a patient that needs your immediate attention. I’d suggest you use some of that rage that you’re feeling towards me right now and use it to do some good. Go on. I’m sure there’s some lesser man worthy of your insults.”
Then there’s the silence. You could hear a pin drop, and you know everyone heard you. You know they’re waiting for Frank to snap back, really drive home the final nail in your coffin.
Except it never comes, but Robby’s laughter does. It rings out loud and true, and you know why. Of course you do. Because if anyone knew Frank the best, it was Robby, and if he heard any of what you just said, he’d know the context. He’d know that it was called for, and that while many people had tried to go toe to toe with Frank in a verbal sparring match, not a single person had left him without an argument.
You turned with a smile and looked at Robby, who’s laughter has caused a few nervous chuckles to fall past other bystander’s lips.
“Hey, Robby,” you greeted. “How’s your day going?”
“Oh, it’s much better now,” he assured you.
As you walked back to your desk to finish some notes, a building full of your coworkers, and patients, staring at you in horror, the only sound that rang out beside Robby’s laughter was the loud slam of the locker room door.
Success.
“Um…what the fuck just happened?” Dana asked you. A few other people were waiting for your answer that never came. Eventually, Robby clapped his hands, ordering everyone back to work.
You were counting down the minutes until you were asked to pack up your things and leave, except it didn’t come.
“I got Frank an apple turnover as a peace offering,” Ciara told you, placing the tray of drinks at your desk alongside the bag that held the turnover. The drinks started disappearing as nurses and doctors alike grabbed their order.
“Fuck him,” you dismissed, opening the bag and taking a bite out of it. “Thanks, Ciara. Want to get a drink after work? I think I need it today.”
“Only if you tell me what the hell that was about earlier?” She countered.
“Done,” you answered.
Dana’s voice rang out, directing you to the incoming trauma. You thanked Ciara as she headed off to make the rounds, while you moved towards the doors as your next patient was wheeled in.
“Ciara got my order wrong.” Langdon, always complaining about something. God, he drove you insane.
You sighed, grabbing the other cup from the tray and showing him the name on the side. Frank was scrawled along the side, plain as day. “That’s because it’s my drink, this is your one.”
You took a sip of his coffee that you held, immediately spitting back into the cup. Dana tried to hide her smirk behind the rim of her own cup, while Princess and Perlah watched the interaction with a carefully blank expression.
You offered him the cup, turning to look at him and immediately wishing you hadn’t. He was so close you could smell his cologne. His jaw ticked as he grit his teeth and debated with himself whether he should keep the tea that he’d spat back into the cup, or swap for the latte which you’d treated the same way.
“You’ll be able to taste the apple turnover mixed with the latte. I think there might even be floaties. My gift to you,” you said as if this was a normal conversation to have. “Maybe even a hint of teriyaki chicken and avocado.”
“I’ll keep the tea,” he said through gritted teeth.
“Excellent choice. Lemon balm is a great tea. Helps with stress,” you told him. “Drink up.”
Dana’s stifled laughter broke the death glare Frank bore through your skull as he turned his attention to her. Rolling his shoulders as he took a tentative sip of the tea.
The rest of the shift passed by in a similar manner, though Langdon did his best to keep his distance. The rumour mill was churning, wondering who was at fault this time. Yet another argument that caused tension between the two doctors who were always butting heads.
By the time your shift finally came to an end after a grueling day, a few of the nurses and other residents had heard about your invite to the bar. They all made their own way, which gave you time to gossip with Alice before anyone from work showed up and learnt all about your crush on Frank Langdon.
Though you assumed they already knew.
“Hey, can I see you for a minute before you head home?” Frank asked politely and you wondered who gave him a tune up. His attitude had changed dramatically, and you were half inclined to hear him out.
“Do I need an audience for this chat?” You asked hesitantly, watching him shake his head.
“It’s not like that.”
You followed behind him but kept your distance. The sooner this was over with, the better. He led you to the break room and you closed the door behind you.
“If this is about earlier…I’m not apologising,” you started.
“I don’t deserve an apology, I’m trying to give you one,” he replied.
You hummed, not trusting yourself not to stay something that pissed him off and wanted to take the apology back.
“I was cruel earlier, saying you looked like a hooker. I’m sorry,” he said. “And you’re right, I am a cunt and everything else you called me. I hope you can forgive me.”
“Did someone from HR feed that to you?”
He chuckled. “If they did, they’d be in here,” he replied matter of factly. “I wasn’t fair to you. I’m sorry. And I understand if you want to take this further.”
“Why did you single me out?”
He shrugged. “Guess I’m just a vindictive bitter divorcee stuck in my ways.”
Your lips twitched into a smile but you quickly wiped it off your face. Still, he saw it. You know he did.
“Thank you for apologising. I’m late for drinks with my friends,” you said, wanting to leave before you completely put your foot in your mouth.
“First round is on me,” he told you.
“Yeah,” you exhaled the breath you didn’t know you were holding. “Thanks.”
At the bar, you fell into the chair beside Alice, a drink in front of her, with another one waiting for you.
“See, I knew you’d look hot in that outfit.” She grinned. “What the hell happened today?”
“He said I looked like a hooker, so I called him a vindictive divorcee. Ate his apple turnover, spat in his coffee, and he apologised to me.”
“From the beginning,” she begged.
“I was talking to Dana and called Frank a cunt. He asked who was a cunt, and I confessed that it was him. He said he’d ‘rather be a cunt than look like a hooker’ so I said ‘I’d rather look like a hooker than be a bitter divorcee.’”
Alice laughed as you sipped your drink.
“I was already seeing red at that point, so I laughed because I could see he was gearing up to say something else. So I just…didn’t give him the chance. I said exactly what I thought of him, minus the crush obviously, and the entirety of the pitt heard. Then, when I thought he was going to kill me, Robby started laughing, so I asked him how his day was going, walked back to my desk, and then heard the locker room door slam shut,” you recounted.
“I can’t believe you actually did it,” they said. “Do you still have a job tomorrow?”
“Yeah, it seems like it.”
She nodded, watching you sip your drink before continuing.
“Anyways, I was about to leave when he asked me to talk. The kicker? He apologised. He actually took ownership of his behaviour.”
“Jesus, and I just thought he’d be too busy ogling you to formulate an argument,” they replied with a laugh.
“Oh, he got a good eyeful of my cleavage when entered the locker room,” you assured them. “I wasn’t sure if he called me a hooker because he’s attracted to me, or because I actually look like a hooker.”
“He’s attracted to you,” she confirmed.
“He’s a tool.”
“So fuck the bratty attitude right out of him, what do you have to lose?”
By the time everyone showed up to the bar, you’d already had a couple of drinks. Your inhibitions were loosened, and most of the nurses had already pieced together the context of the argument—they just wanted confirmation.
Santos and Garcia were apparently right on the money, Langdon said some misogynistic shit and you snapped. Alice got a proper run down of the events—a more detailed explanation—even though you thought you did pretty well. Everyone else had a more colourful picture to paint, from the flare of your nostrils, to the shade of pink his cheeks turned—not from embarrassment, but from anger.
“I swear he had steam coming out of his ears,” Garcia said with a grin. High praise, coming from her, when she had her own battles to fight with him. Sure, it seemed more playful than the arguments you had with Langdon, but that just proved to you he didn’t play well with others.
“There he is,” you said. “Thomas the Frank Engine.”
Laughter greeted you as everyone turned his way. Frank, who might have heard Garcia’s quip about him, didn’t let it show. Instead, he smiled, though it didn’t seem to reach his eyes.
Exhaustion. Each shift took a lot out of everyone. To unwind, you often found yourself talking shit with Alice and some other friends, trying to decompress as best you could. Sometimes you hit the gym, trying to work out your anger in a more productive way. Today, you drank, and so did several of your colleagues—even Langdon, true to his word—bought a round for everyone.
There was something about the man that made you take pity on him tonight—all jokes aside, he looked terrible. Friends weren’t an easy thing to come by, and from your own experience with your parents’ divorce, you assumed they’d picked sides.
And Langdon looked like he needed a friend.
“Assholery aside,” you said, sliding onto a seat next to him at the bar. “Are you okay?”
He blew out a breath. “Been better, honestly.”
You nodded sympathetically. “They all picked her side, huh.”
Langdon laughed flatly. “Yeah, it doesn’t make any sense. They were my friends first.”
“They only know one side of the story if they chose her to stand by,” you replied. “And even so, they’re clearly not good enough friends if they dropped your ass so easily. You can make new friends—friends she’ll never get to meet. Friends she’ll never get to poach.”
“Do you want to be my friend?”
“Friends can criticise, but only if it’s done out of love, not malice,” you told him. “I don’t know if I can be friends with someone who is cruel and judgemental to a woman based on her looks.”
He nodded. “Suppose I deserve that, huh?”
“A piece of advice?” You offered, earning a nod in response. “You need to get over her, and the best way to do that is to get under someone else.”
It wasn’t an offer, you told yourself, but somehow Frank wound up at your apartment, lips attached to your own as your fingers tugged the long, dark strands of his hair. The kiss was frantic—desperate. His hands groped at your hips and ass, tugging you closer to him as his mouth dominated your own.
Frenzied, like he hadn’t been touched in months. Every moan you pulled from him, every gasp you gave him, only spurred him on more. Barely registering that you were backed up against a strangers’ car, or that he was just as gone as you were.
“Langdon,” you moaned, his hips pinning you to the side of the car doing nothing to hide the raging hard on he was packing.
He groaned lowly as you bit his lip, grinding his hips against yours, desperate for some kind of friction. “Fucking hell.”
You laughed, tipping your head to nip at his jaw. The soft spot where his neck met his ear. Little kisses—harsh sucking—earning a hiss from the slightly older man who’d been making your life hell.
Your mouth stilled as he popped the button of your jeans, denim like a second skin, barely enough room for his fingers to ghost over your panties.
“Now you have nothing to say, hm?”
Arrogant. Cocky. Bastard.
The thin fabric did nothing to hide your arousal. Wet soaking the material, his finger seeking your most sensitive bundle of nerves.
“You’re an ass,” you huffed out, crashing your lips back to his as he applied the slightest pressure, your hips rocking to meet his hand.
His laughter was muffled, as was your moan.
Frank grabbed the waistband of your jeans, fighting the material over the swell of your ass. He tugged your panties to the side, nimble fingers slipping between your folds and applying a delicious pressure around your clit.
“Fuck,” you panted, rolling your hips desperately trying to seek more friction. ”Please,” you begged, cupping his erection over his jeans.
Frank groaned, earning a gasp from you as he pressed a finger into your pussy. “You’re soaked,” he marvelled, hooking his finger inside you and stroking the spongy wall that had you seeing spots. “Fuck, there she is.”
You fought to undo his jeans, forehead resting against his shoulder as he brought you closer and closer to your high. Fingers tugging his boxers down, freeing his cock, and earning a hiss as the cool night air hit his leaking tip.
“So fucking needy,” you tutted, earning a groan as you swiped your thumb over his tip.
“Fuck you,” he huffed, gritting his teeth as you started stroking his cock.
“You will,” you quipped, breath catching on a moan that took you by surprise. “Fuuuuck.”
Frank growled, your hand moving against him, his own inside you—both desperate not to be the first to let go. Your body was betraying you with each passing second—the coil in your lower abdomen tightening, your legs feeling weak, the gasps and moans that fell past your lips—yeah, Frank was sure he was going to make you cum first.
His hips bucked as you slowed your motions, tugging his mouth back to yours to stop him saying whatever smartass comment he was thinking. His kiss was frantic, teeth clashing, his tongue mingling with your own. Your grip tightened in his hair, stilled around his cock, as your orgasm hit you with a vengeance.
“Oh fuck, oh fuck.” You threw your head back, your cunt clamping down around his fingers, hips grinding against his palm. He dipped his head, chuckling as he nipped at your exposed neck, rutting against your palm.
“Are you on birth control?”
“That’s none of your business.”
“I didn’t come here tonight expecting to get laid,” he pointed out. “So no condom.”
“Are you clean?”
“What the fuck?”
“Your ex wife was cheating on you,” you stated. “It’s a legitimate question. Are you clean?”
“Yes, I’m clean.” He huffed.
“Good, me too. And yes, I’m on birth control, but you better pull out.”
Frank pushed your jeans down further, hooking one of your legs over his arm as he positioned himself between your legs. Thick head sliding through your slick folds, notching at your entrance. He pushed in slowly, both of you watching the way your body welcomed him with ease. Foreheads pressed together, breaths mingling, and then you were kissing him again. Rolling your hips for a slightly better angle as he slowly withdrew himself and slipped right back in.
“So fucking hot,” he mumbled. “Gripping me so tight, feels like fuckin’ heaven.”
You gasped as he picked up the pace, the time for savouring the moment now over. Hands wound tightly in his hair, kisses being disrupted by moans and groans.
“Frank,” you panted, his hand slipping between your bodies to rub your clit, attempting to bring you closer to your high again. “Fuck you, I’m so close.”
“Me too,” he groaned. “Be a good girl and cum on my cock, hm? Milk my fucking cock.”
You let your head fall forward, biting down on his neck to muffle your moans. He grunted, pace sloppy and relentless. You whined, screwing your eyes shut as your orgasm crashed over you once again. Body convulsing, pussy clenching around him oh-so-good. Fuck, he was a goner. Grunting as he stilled, cock twitching as he emptied himself inside you.
“I thought I told you to pull out,” you snapped.
“Fuck, sorry. ‘M sorry,” he apologised.
“Felt too good, hm?” You teased.
“Fuck you.”
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