[benedictawrites]

I really don't want to be mediocre.

I desire excellence, but not enough to pay its cost.

I doubt myself so much I fear I might never bloom. I heard yesterday that we all are intelligent, the difference amongst us all is that some people bloom late so they do not discover the light in us, the potentials we all have to be radicals.

I want to live and not regret it. I don't want to cry knowing I could have done better.

I want to be the best version of myself there is. Well, I can only try co, life is a first time experience for us all... No one really knows it all.

Oh well, this is inspired by the fear from realizing that I'm academically cooked plus a few other situations.

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[benedictawrites]

I just did a very small and untidy cornrow on myself. I am so happy and proud of my self. I'm so grateful to God. I am now wondering, why did I ever stop trying??

The B! I knew when growing up was creative...she tried to write, draw, paint, sculpt, mould, dance! B did everything she felt she wanted to even going against the rules at some point.

It feels like fear and the thought of what is right (mostly going to school) makes us restricted to a cocoon! It makes us unaware of the so much potential we have.

Jack of all trades, master of none. Better than a master of one. That's the full quote right?

Society makes us believe we should just go to school and learn what we're taught...be good at one thing. We ain't taught to allow ourselves to be bad at things to try out the things we desire so much.

Enough of me blaming the society! I am at fault to. Fear has restricted me and I have allowed it .

Well, all these started with me realizing I can actually braid my hair! I allowed myself to learn and be okay with whatever outcome I received - I barely received the best but I'm super glad I tried.