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You have been kidnaped and brought on the finalizer where you meet the famous Kylo Ren. The one who brought so much fear and destruction to the galaxy. Not being able to know the truth about your identity, he keeps you imprisoned on his ship.
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8. Kylo
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Kylo Ren x fem.reader
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A/N: The whole chapter is in Kylo’s POV ♡
As I stepped outside the room and closed the door behind, a cloud of sadness came washing over me. I stood still, recollecting myself before taking a deep breath and putting my helmet back on. Doing my best to brush the feeling aside, I walked to the courtyard. My pace quick, wanting to be done with it. As usual, I couldn't get you out of my mind.
*Be careful…* The words had come from your lips softly. Even if you were mad at me, you wanted me safe. You cared…
And here I was, leaving you alone yet again when it was my idea to bring you along with me. Maybe you were right. Maybe there was a part of me that was afraid you'd befriend Henry a little too much. Or maybe I was just selfish and liked to have you exactly where I could see you.
Whatever it was, it didn't feel right…
Walking the castle grounds kept reminding me of my time here. All the training; the exhaustion, the pain… Why did I bring you here? What was I thinking? This place looked and smelled like death… but I can't lie, having you here brought me comfort.
I don’t like being vulnerable, in fact I despise it, but with you it seemed to be unavoidable. Making me show parts of myself I tried to bury for so long. Some I didn’t even knew I had and some I didn’t knew still existed.
I finally reached the courtyard and got to the flying pod. Opening the small trap at the back. I examined the energy supply. Making sure that the maintenance was still in good shape when an arrogant red headed officer came into my peripheral.
“Good night Mr. Ren, I assume your return has been going well?” the man asked with a smirk.
I turned my head to where General Hux was standing, having much difficulty hiding my annoyance. “What do you want?” I asked, returning my attention to my task.
He took a step closer and spoke in a low tone, “a little birdie told me that you have brought a toy from home, is it true?”
Asshole… “Don't you have anything better to do? I’m busy.” I replied nonchalantly, not wanting to partake in his stupid games.
Hux nibbled the inside of his cheek with his hands behind his back before he finally answered, “The council wants to see you, it seemed urgent. I guess they didn't like what happened on Ebus. Maybe you shouldn't have underestimated the rebels like I told you—”
“I will go see them tomorrow morning.” I cut off
“Tonight, they want to see the supreme leader as soon as possible…” he added, his tone playful.
I nodded in response, watching him smile and walk away. I sighed, closing the trap back before looking at my arm band.
00:45
Great, you were probably already asleep. Not only did I feel bad for bringing you here but now I was making you wait. Which was exactly what I didn't want to happen. Hopefully this stupid meeting will end quickly.
I adjusted my helmet, gathering the energy to face the council before I stood up and walked all the way to the back of the castle. I stepped down a hidden path, where it led me to a set of stairs going underground. As I moved through the humid and claustrophobic pathways. I kept thinking on how stupidly I messed up.
For banta’s sake, by wanting to keep you all to myself and be closer to you, I was making you colder and distant. All I wanted was to spend as much time as I could with you and right now, I could barely manage to have a full evening. How was I supposed to fix this? I try shaking the thought of you out of my mind as I turn the corner and stepped into an open space.
My footsteps echoing and getting lost into the darkness. I keep walking a little longer before coming to a halt. Feeling the force getting stronger by the second. Keeping my calm as 3 figures dressed in black cloaks appeared.
Force clouding, how original…
The room was becoming slightly more visible as orbs of cool grayish light floated around. I barely had time to think; feeling a strong pull from my chest. I was being dragged and put down to my knees right in front of them. Their presence, ominous as usual. From the moment I became supreme leader, I had never seen their faces and I doubt today would be any different.
“Kylo Ren, finally blessing us with his presence…” the one on the left said. His tone deeply sarcastic.
The figure on the right chuckled darkly while the one in the middle raised his hand slightly. Gesturing to the others that he wanted to speak, “Care to tell us why we lost Ebus? Supreme leader…”
My legs began hurting from the lack of movement. They were keeping me in forced control, kneeling. My jaw clenched as I was losing sensation. I took a deep breath, trying to remain in control, “They were undoubtedly informed of our plans. There's nothing more we could’ve done. Our only advantage was the element of surprise, we lost it before—”
“ENOUGH!” The middle-cloaked figure shouted. “All I hear are excuses… Following your failure, you keep disappearing. Proving to us and the rest of the council that you do not deserve to even be considered a Sith!”
The rage started to build within me and for a fraction of seconds, I snapped, “I may have found someone who might know who is responsible for the breach. If I can enter their mind I could—”
They all looked surprised, “—What do you mean you can’t enter their mind?” The one on the left cut me off.
By their following silence awaiting my response, I had now realized that I had said too much.
“Speak boy!” The one in the middle yelled again.
I was hesitant but I had no other choice than to talk. “I can't seem to be able to read one of my prisoner's minds.”
They glanced at each other and without a word, the figure on the right raised his hand at me and began to look into my mind. Images of the attack on Ebus started to rapidly flood my vision. The small base we raided; troopers shooting at civilians by the port and landing stations. Most people looked like merchants, traders and workers with little to no wealth.
The following were ones of when I reached the inside of the rebel base. Who was hidden inside of a cliff. As I looked around, I noticed a name tag left on a console. «Viper» Noticing nothing else around, I took the metal pendant and shoved it in my pocket.
My eyes began to water from the extensive probing they were performing. Trying to get as much information out. The next one landed on the day I met you. A dirty prisoner barely standing with holes in her clothing with tousled and unbrushed hair.
By instinct, I closed myself to the intrusion, but my actions were not well received. Feeling an electrifying, debilitating pain all throughout my whole body shortly after. Making me fall forward on my hands.
“You think you can defy us?” They all laughed as he forced himself back inside my head.
This time I couldn't do anything about it. My vision filled with memories of the day I found you strapped and tortured by my guards in the interrogation room. The blood running down your arm while your red glassy eyes were looking up at me. The painful sight leaving a bitter, metallic aftertaste in my mouth.
The intrusion abruptly stopped but left me weak on the ground. I folded on myself, unable to move further as the anchored force finally left my body.
“Seems like he did try to get information, but it was like he said, unsuccessful…” one of the figures spoke aloud.
“I think we've seen enough. Bring the girl to us next week. She won't be able to hide from us. In the meantime, prepare your soldiers for Arelegon. We cannot afford to lose this one too.” Another ordered before they all vanished.
The room was dark again and I could barely move. As I was still laying on the cold floor, my body felt heavy. The force feeling faint in my hands. I try to recenter myself while laying down, but I couldn't fight the drowsiness that washed over me and fell asleep.
-
My whole body was damp when I woke up. I instantly removed my helmet. Feeling it tight, humid and suffocating. I must've been hot and sweated while I was out. Strangely enough, I felt cold. Wait, how long was I out?
As soon as I felt the sensation in my toes and fingers coming back, I quickly jumped on my feet. Moving rapidly through the tunnels and headed outside. I noticed the change in the colors of the sky, which was a lighter shade of red and gray. The cold breeze feeling fresh on my wet skin.
Fuck, it's morning. I was gone for the whole night…
A pinching sensation crawled through my chest as I recollect what’d happened before I passed out. The fact that I needed to bring you to the council in a week sinking in.
I sighed heavily as I began to walk towards the castle. I was relieved that they weren't aware of your presence here. Even if you were not force sensitive, for some reason, I couldn't fully read your mind. Weird energies kept finding their ways to us. Until I find out what they are, I need to keep you safe.
Moving inside the castle, I finally arrived at the dimly lit hallway leading to my room. Seeing a shadow walking in my direction. As the light lit his face, I recognized him instantly.
What the fuck is he doing here? I extended my arm and dragged him to me through the force. “Why are you here Hux?” I say keeping him in place.
He smiled, “She's really something uh, such a minx. I can understand why you'd want to keep her.”
“Answer!” I raised my voice, further losing patience.
“A true beauty, you should learn to share...” He smirked smugly.
That little piece of shit. I began to squeeze my fingers around his throat through the distance.
“She's making you weak, get rid of her!” He struggled to speak.
I took a deep breath and sent a jolt of dark energy, making him fall on the floor unconsciously.
He was never going to let go. I need to get you out before anyone else knows you're here. I ran up the stairs. Barging into my room. My eyes quickly landing on your shape in my bed.
Seeing you peacefully asleep as I approached, made me realize that I was scared. A fear of losing something I don't have and can't ever possess. I felt powerless. One of the things I feared the most was already happening; You were no longer safe with me. Quickly, I began gathering some of my stuff in an old satchel that was laying around my desk. Notebooks, important documents, even some clothes.
After a couple minutes, I came to you kneeling on the mattress. I tried to wake you softly but saw that you were too deep asleep to be in any way receptive. And so, I grabbed you. Turning you so you would face me completely and put your arms closer to your body. I lifted you slightly. Putting the satchel and my helmet on before picking you up from underneath your back and knees.
I made you leaned on me before rising from the bed. Leaving the room with a sense of heaviness. I left Hux unconscious in the pathway, just walked over him. I made sure to keep my pace steady as I made my way through the silent hallways and back to the courtyard. Afraid of waking you.
I pressed the button on my arm brace. Opening the passenger's door before gently sitting you down. In response, you winced and furrowed your brows. Maker, even when asleep you were giving me an attitude…
I strapped you and passed my gloved thumb on your chin. Closing the pod and walked around it to sit in the pilot's seat. I took another look at you before taking off and noticed a reddish mark on the side of your neck.
Was it there before? I can't remember.
My blood ran cold as I leaned forward. Seeing the faint purple veiny patches surrounding the small wound. That motherfucker…
I flip the necessary switches and turn the engine on. Without wasting anymore time, I took off. Putting the pod through hyperspace. I remove my helmet before flipping another switch and turning the wheel around it. Moving even faster than we did before. If my calculations were right, we should be there in fifteen minutes. Which is the best I can do considering the distance and the type of ship we're in.
I returned my attention to you. Who's still peacefully sleeping at my side. Maker, no wonder why you were so tired. I should've known that moron two-watt bastard would've done something like that. If he injected you with what I think it was, there was only one place I knew I could take care of you while keeping you safe.
-
We finally landed on the rich earthly planet. My hands becoming moist and almost numb. I took a deep breath. Knowing that I needed to act fast. I untied myself before moving around the pod.
Taking you into my arms and rushing inside the cabin. The air dense and humid. I opened the door. Pushing it with my foot and went into a small room on my right. I lied you down on the bed before putting a hand to your forehead. Noticing your temperature rising quickly.
Fuck, I ran to the back of the pod, opening the trap at the back. Taking a small white bag and ran back inside. Kneeling at your side, I drop the bag on the floor. Taking the scanner out along with a health analyzer cylinder.
My hands were shaking from the adrenaline, but I took a cotton swab and parted your lips. Sampling your saliva into the tube and activated it.
While that was processing, I took the scanner wand and proceed to pass it along your whole body from head to toe.
The results came instantly. Telling me your heart and oxygen levels were good but as I suspected, you had a fever. Hearing the beeping from the analyzer shortly after, I grabbed it. Growling low as I saw the cause of illness and was out the door the next minute.
I must’ve walked a good twenty minutes through the forest to finally arrive at a pond. Where like I predicted, would be some neon purple and blue headed mushrooms. I picked some and went back to the cabin.
I went directly to the kitchen, grabbed a knife and chopped the mushrooms, keeping only the tops. I minced them before putting them in a cup and added some water. You were dehydrated, I knew it would make it easier for you to swallow.
While approaching the bed, I quickly noticed the drops of sweat against your temple. Your flushed skin caused by the fever. I took the time to look at your state while sitting down. Lifting your head slightly so you could lean on my chest.
I pushed back strands of hair sticking to your face before bringing the cup gently to your lips. “Comon, dink” I whispered. You were more than just sick now; you were going in and out. “Comon Larel, drink…” I pushed the liquid slowly into your mouth and tilted your head back gently. My eyes watering in the process. Wanting desperately for you to be okay.
I didn't know how much time the plants needed to take effect and so I got comfortable with you on the other side of the bed. My body was exhausted and hurting from the council's visit, to say the least, but I also didn't want to leave you alone.
I stared at you, cradled in my arms. Your temperature going down a bit. Your breathing steady. I smiled knowing you would be okay. Gently passing the back of my fingers on your temple. God, how could someone as small as you make a men like me bend so easily? I’m strong, powerful and independent but when it comes to you? You shook my every beliefs…
A/N; Hi guys! I wanted to thank you all for the love you give to my stories. I had to take care of my health but I'm happy to be back.
After getting out of the shower, you wondered how you got so easily carried away. Drying your hair with a towel as you walked to the living room. The place was already smelling like the meat and eggs that Kylo was cooking.
You went to sit on the sofa. Looking right in front of you. Still wondering what was behind that locked door.
“What would you usually do tomorrow?” He asks from the kitchen.
“Work...” You answered half paying attention.
Hearing the shift in your tone, he lifted his eyes to see what was distracting you and cleared his throat, “I have to go back to the council tomorrow and I want you to come with me.”
You whipped your head in his direction, now moving to sit at the table. “What?”
Bringing your plates, he sits next to you. Pouring water into your glasses from the pitcher. “I don’t like what happened the last time I left. What if something happens again while I’m gone and I’m not there to protect you?”
You watched him take a few bites confused, “I was sick, there’s nothing you could’ve done. Plus, I have work. I can’t just come with you—”
“This is not your choice to make. Matter of fact, you will stop working, effective immediately.” He says firmly yet calm.
You remained unmoved. You were flabbergasted to say the least. The way he previously was behaving with you almost made you forget where you were. “Please Kylo, that’s all I have...”
He looked surprised, “Your place is by my side, safe and protected.”
You scoffed, shaking your head, “This is ridiculous, you can’t possibly shelter me from everything. I can’t always be by your side. What will people say? I’m a prisoner...”
He rose from his seat almost mechanically, taking his plate and walked a step towards you. “For the last time your place is by my side. I don’t care what people think...” He lifted a finger, tracing the outline of your jaw, “...You’re mine”
You scoffed, shaking your head, “let's not pretend that this isn’t about Henry.”
He winced, still holding your chin. “He doesn't matter. Like I said, you are mine…”
Your palms were damped. Maker why was your chest moving so fast? “Can I at least have today?”
He looked at you for a moment and sighed, “If you must but if you don't feel well, I want you to come back right away.”
-
As soon as you could, you prepped for work and rushed through the corridors. You were hesitant going back to work so quickly after being sick, but you had to. This might be the only chance you get to see Henry again.
You’re mine...
His words made you shiver. The sensation lingering along your spine. You didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad one and you didn’t want to find out.
As you rounded the corner, you bumped into Eira, “Omg! Are you okay?”
You hold your forehead, “Yeah I’m fine...”
“What are you doing here? You need to rest!” she urged.
“Yeah, well about that, I need to talk to Henry.”
She paused, “He just finished his pilot training. He should be back around 6.”
“Where?”
“The Hangar.”
“Thanks, I wish I could stay but I really have to go.” You pressed, moving quickly around her.
_
After your shift you went directly to the vessel's departure wing. Seeing Henry rummaging through his work bag.
You approach him slowly, “hey you…”
He instantly turned his head to you as he heard your voice, “you're alive!” he exclaimed smiling and coming to hug you. Holding you a bit longer than usual.
You pulled away slowly, “it would take way more than a simple virus to get rid of me.” You replied smiling.
His eyes were shining, “well I’m thankful that you’re okay.”
You felt his hand grab yours and pull you to him. The gesture feeling loving but assertive but pulled away as soon as you heard him hummed softly, deepening the kiss.
“Henry I...”
“Please, you don't understand, I like you, I like you a lot.”
Looking at the ground, you took a deep breath and stepped back, “I just, I can't think about this right now. I’m not even supposed to be here. Starting now, I’m bound to the supreme leader. Do you understand? I must follow his every move. Henry, I need to get out of here…”
His eyes scanned around before quickly pulling you aside. As if wanting to be less exposed in the hangar. “I know, that's why I also needed to talk to you. We're planning an escape...”
“Whaat??”
“Shhhhh!” he quickly puts his hand over your mouth whispering, “My pilot privileges opened new opportunities. I was able to get in contact with a rebel base not far from the outer rim. We might be able to get out of here…”
You were shocked but mostly hopeful, “when?”
“I have to confirm but it should be in about a week from now.”
You sighed, going into your pocket. Handing Henry a sealed envelope. “I will try to be back in time but if something happens to me or simply can’t make it, could you give this to my sister?”
He hesitated but took it, “Well, I can hold on to it for you if you want, but I intend on getting you back home myself” he smiled.
-
THE NEXT MORNING
“I still don't understand why you want me to go with you…” you shouted from the bedroom. Getting dressed in the new clothes Kylo gave you.
You winced looking at your reflection in the mirror. Finding yourself barely recognizable. All dressed in black; tight pants along with a sleeve shirt and a long leather jacket on top. You also had shoulder pieces which was made of hard leather with a cape attached at the back. A symbol of the first order on your left arm was sewed in dark gray. Your boots were long enough to cover your calves and had a little heel that made you stable.
Who was this person looking back at you? You looked fierce. You looked like you were invincible. You looked like you belonged at his side…
You quickly shook your head and stepped into the living room. Still holding your leather gloves in your hands.
He smirked, “you look perfect.”
You sighed, feeling your cape move behind you as you walked closer to him, “Isn't it a bit too much?”
“It's never too much” he gestured at the gloves, encouraging you to put them on. As soon as they were covering your hands, he held your wrist. Carefully and securely locking a dark metal bangle on it.
“Wha-what’s this?”
He twitched an eyebrow, “It's a codex band. My code is encrypted in it. If someone stops you or tries anything, show them the bracelet. It will protect you when I can't. It also works as a key for the ships, in case of emergencies.” He explained, watching you examine your new accessory.
There must be something else to it right? The bracelet was really locked on there good.
“Are you that afraid to lose me?” You teased.
“More than you think…” he answered without hesitation.
As you stood there just watching him, he bit his bottom lip. Coming soon after to softly kiss you on yours. “Maker hyal, you have no idea what you do to me...” grabbing your hips, feeling his tongue caressing yours sweetly. Making you melt in his hands as if it was the most natural thing in this galaxy.
How does he do that?
Why am I so weak in his grip?
Seeing your body and eyes responding to him. He remembers your earlier request and releases you immediately. Feeling his self-control slipping away, he cleared his throat and stepped back. “We should go, Madam.”
You couldn't help but smile, “Madam?”
He smiled briefly, “You asked to know me better. I’m simply acting the way I would with any respectable and knowledgeable woman.”
You chuckled, “You often kiss respectable and knowledgeable women like that?”
He nibbled his lip, “Only as of late...” he smirked before putting his helmet on and rolling his head towards the door, “…After you.”
-
As you walked through the corridors by his side, you felt nervous. Maybe it was the two stormtroopers following you with blasters in hands or perhaps it was because you now looked like his personal assistant, his new shadow…
Let's be honest here, you're not really a real war hero. You’re more of a criminal to their eyes. You need to keep a low profile if you're planning to stay alive. The less they know about you, the better.
Arriving to the departing station, you saw Henry. Standing still, rigid, with his helmet under his arm. He doesn't even acknowledge your presence. Only facing forward.
Kylo halted in front of him, before turning to speak with an officer. Meanwhile, Henry uses the opportunity to slip a small piece of paper inside your palm, returning immediately to his previous position.
You tried to act as calm as possible. Watching Kylo come back and opening the door to the small flying pod. He showed his hand for you to take. Which you did as he helped you get inside. It wasn't much. Had barely enough space for the two of you. But you had to admit that he was taking a lot of the space himself.
Once in hyperspace, you kept thinking back to your new arrangements with the supreme leader. The problem was that you wanted him as much as he wanted you and it was really hard to deny him. You even failed at it the first day. Just thinking about your morning shower yesterday was making you blush again.
Plus, having his thigh pressed on yours in this small flying pod wasn't helping either.
Maker, why is it so hot in here?
Thankfully, it wasn’t a long trip. Only took a few hours before you finally arrived.
The planet was a mix of deep red and gray clouds in its atmosphere but as soon as you flew through it, a big black and grey castle came into view. It looked old and forgotten. Everything around felt very much dead. Cannot even imagine what must be roaming around in the shadows.
You saw no signs of life as you landed, “is there people living here?” you asked opening the latch before getting out.
He puts his helmet on, stepping out himself, “not a lot…”
Kylo kept his covered face high and posture straight as you walked in the grand entrance. The echo of your footsteps bouncing off the tall walls and getting lost into the empty space. If you thought the finalizer felt cold, this was its final boss. There was nothing around. No furniture, no plants, no lights. Everything felt damped and lifeless.
“So, this is where all dreams and hopes comes to die uh?” you teased, kind of…
You noticed his helmet move slightly. Knowing he was chuckling under there. You followed him through the corridors that he seemed to know so well until you arrived at a spiral staircase, where he uncovered his face.
He turned slightly to you, taking your hand before guiding you, “I used to live here. When I come, this is where I stay.” He explained, pushing the door at the top open.
The stairs led to a small room at the top of a tower. A double bed was placed against the back wall of the room. A desk full of papers and trinkets that was spread all over. Some on the table, some on the floor. Books scattered around, everywhere really…
“Yeah, I know I need to clean up. I don’t usually bring people here…” he mumbles nervously passing a hand behind his neck.
But you were too focused looking at all the little treasures surrounding you. Meanwhile, he went and pulled on the blankets that were covering the window. As you approached it, you could understand why it was covered. It was the same sad and cold scenery you saw earlier.
“Kylo?”
“Mh” he responded absentmindedly.
“How long did you stay here?”
He sighed turning to face you, “about six years…”
“Kylo—”
He came crashing his lips onto yours. Holding your head between his hands before pulling back slightly, looking at you from above, “Please, not today. Another time, I promise.” he whispered before kissing you again, “I must go. I need to give word of my presence on the grounds. You can stay here, you'll be safe, okay? I won't be long.” He kissed you again and left.
-
As you were looking out the window. You couldn't fathom what he must've gone through living here. You had just arrived and was already aching to leave. Not to mention that being here and watched by the first order was probably not the most relaxing experience. Which funny enough was exactly the state of your current situation.
You reached inside your pocket to pull out Henry’s note;
[4D. xx]
Four days?? What happened to the; a week from now? You sighed ripping the piece of paper to shreds.
You were so lost in your own thoughts that you didn’t even realize that the door had opened. Kylo was back and looked lost.
“Is everything alright?” you asked worryingly quickly shoving the pieces back in your pocket.
He nodded while playing with his gloved hands before removing his helmet. He anxiously looked away and swallowed, “I requested that our dinner be brought here instead of the great hall.”
“Okay… Is it why you're like this?”
He straightens his back being suddenly very aware of himself, still avoiding your eyes.
“Kylo? Why are you so far? Why are so weird with me since yesterday? What is going on??” you gestured to the space between you.
He smiled shyly now looking to the floor, “You asked to know me and I'm keeping my word.”
You rolled your eyes, “I didn't ask you not to come near me…”
“I know but, I don't think I’d be able to stop.” His voice now low and pained. He took a few steps forward, his eyes now shooting straight at you, “You don't understand having you here—”
He was cut off by a knock. A woman entered with a basket which Kylo immediately took from her hands.
She didn't have time to respond that he thanked her and sent her on her way as quickly as she came in.
He took a deep breath before walking toward his bed. Sitting on one side while you sat on the other. Watching him get the fruits, meat with cheese out of the basket. “That should work for tonight…” he mumbled giving you a piece of bread.
As you ate, he kept staring at you, making you self conscious. “What?”
He stared a little longer before replying, “Nothing you're just, I can't believe you're here with me.”
You looked at him confused, “You brought me here by force...”
“Yeah no, I know.” He sighed as he took another bite, shaking his head.
You bite your tongue before looking at the rest of the room, “Why so many books?”
He looked at you before looking around, “research, ancient science and studies mostly. I spent so much time in this room. I never really liked coming here to train so, when I was—”
“—you were distracting yourself…”
He stared in front of him. Pursing his lips and remained silent.
“Kylo… Kylo?”
He finally snapped back and said: “I must go back to my duties. but I'll try to be back a soon as possible.”
Your brows furrowed unsure of his state of mind. “Oh okay, well I guess I'll stay here…”
He simply forced a smile and stood from the bed silently.
“Hey?”
He stopped midway through opening the door. Turning slightly around, listening.
Warnings; quite explicit. save a spaceship ride a mandalorian, he's a needy mess, you are too
A/N: Sorry for not posting as much. I was dealing with health and mental issues and now that I'm doing better. I wanted to say ty for the love you give my stories, you guys rock. xx
After getting dressed and got your backpack ready, you walked down the ramp. Seeing the Mandalorian resting against a tree. Waiting for you to come out. The sun shining on his beskar as if he was chosen and protected by the gods. You couldn't help but smile to yourself as it was somewhat true.
“What?” He lets out noticing your presence. Feeling a bit self-conscious, making him change his posture slightly.
You blushed softly, “You look good in that armor.”
He looked surprised and quickly straightened his back. “Um, thank you...” He replied nervously before clearing his throat, “I thought we could try and go in a different direction than last time. Maybe we'll have better luck.”
You nodded, gesturing to him to show you the way. Even though you haven't had the chance to see this part of the forest yet, it wasn't much different than what you had seen yesterday. The forest was dense, but the trees were distant enough to let light in. Some places were even covered in moss which was definitely a good sign.
After a moment of walking. You finally break the silence, “Din?”
“Mh?” he responded without looking.
“Why did you accept to take my contract?”
He chuckled before taking a deep breath, “You kind of reminded me of my son...”
“Your son?”
He looks to you, “Just like him you were, well... an unusual bounty...”
You smiled, “Is that so?”
You halted, reaching for your water bottle in your backpack. He noticed and stopped in his tracks as well. His fingers came to brush yours as you continued to walk. It felt natural to caress yours into his palm. The gesture feeling surprisingly intimate. Looking at you with a hand holding his belt while he shifted his weight onto one leg.
“What?” You peeked at him, feeling his gaze upon you.
He shook his head gently, “simply admiring...” he answered.
You rolled your eyes and took another sip, “want some?” Showing the bottle to him but he doesn't reply. Instead, he looked around slightly on edge.
“You heard that?”
“What? Your helmet shrinking over that big head of yours?” You replied teasing but he doesn't pay you attention.
“THAT, did you hear that???” He became agitated and took his blaster off his belt. Pointing it to the greenery on your side.
Your brows furrowed, “what are you on about?” And then you heard it. A high, deep growling coming from the trees behind you. You quickly turned around and took your blaster out of its holster as well. “What was that??”
The silence was deafening as he remained still. You could only hear the sound of the forest along with your own breathing.
“Din?” You whispered.
He doesn't say a word, focused and on high alert. The greenery not so far away from you began to move. Before you knew it, the Mandalorian pushed you out of the way as a big creature on two legs, small hands, big torso and a weird face came rushing towards you. Pushing the men in beskar with its head against a rock wall nearby.
You quickly get back on your feet trying to ignore the sensation of your burning hands as your palms and knees took most of the fall. Grabbing your blaster that got out of your grip, you shoot the beast on the side of its head, but it only served as a distraction as it began charging you.
“MOVE AWAY, JUST GO!” You heard Mando’s modulated voice cracking slightly from the intensity of his yelling.
Although you weren't quick enough. Giving the beast the opportunity to swing you against a tree trunk base. He screamed at the beast as he took his beskar spear and shoved it into its side.
“GO BACK TO THE SHIP!” he urges. Giving you no saying in the matter, but you don't listen. Picking up your blaster off the ground once again before climbing into the tree you just got thrown against.
“CYARE, GO BACK TO THE SHIP! THAT’S AN ORDER!” He commands as he’s still trying to take down the beast.
You could watch him from above. Using his flame thrower in the beast’s face. Which as a result did almost nothing except making it angrier.
You need to think of something and fast before he gets killed. As you looked around for a solution. You noticed a cracked branch from the tree you were hiding in.
As you moved closer to it. You could see the man underneath, fighting for his life. Shooting his blaster at it while it did little to no damage. While pushing and kicking the branch out with your foot, you couldn't help but wonder what was that creature fucking made of?
Hearing Mando's screams made you grow more desperate and finally you shot the base of the branch off with your blaster. Hearing a loud snapping sound as it broke.
“WATCH OUT!” You yelled. Giving him enough time to move away before the branch fell onto the beast. Finally mobilizing it.
After feeling it was somewhat safe, you climbed down and looked to Mando. Who rushed to the beast's side. Taking his spear out to stab it in another place. Using both of his arms to make sure it was dead.
“Well, that was something, uh?” You smiled to him but he completely ignores you. Your brows furrowed, “I wonder what it is…” He remained silent as he cleaned his spear. He acted like he was a complete stranger. Cold and stoic, just like the bounty hunter he was.
“Hey, Mandalorian, I’m talking to you...”
He looked briefly in your direction, “I told you to go back…” he lets out, voice monotone and cold, walking away.
“You can't possibly be serious...”
“When I tell you to go to the ship, you go back to the ship…”
You scoffed, “I am well trained—”
“…It doesn't show”
You remained unmoved, mouth opened, oh he did not just say that. “Fuck you” you snapped back with disgust, which took him by surprise. “You don't tell me what to do. I am as capable to take care of myself as you are.” He shook his helmet going back to cleaning his spear. Noticing his indifference, you moved closer. “What? Am I to do whatever you want without any say in how we move uh? Is that all I am to you?”
“What?” He replied as if your words were the most absurd thing he ever heard.
“Yeah, because I’m a woma—"
He took a deep breath before cutting you off, “yes, you're more vulnerable. Not because you’re a woman but because of this,” he yelled, knocking on the metal plate covering his chest, “THIS is beskar! The most resistant material in this galaxy. Mostly undestructible!” He took a step forward in your direction, “You might have training, but you haven't been trained, not in the way I've been trained...”
“Urgh!” You exclaimed.
As you were about to walk away, he grabbed your wrist, pulling you into his chest. “Where do you think you’re going?” Your eyes were wide open, almost scared as he forcefully kept you in his grip. “We're stuck together, remember?”
You smiled forcefully, “yes and we're a team. We're supposed to work together remember?”
He sighed softly, taking a gloved finger to your cheek before changing his focus completely, looking over your shoulder.
“Where are you going?” You asked, as he ignores you once more. Walking further away. You followed before loosing sight of him. “Hey, walking away is my thing..”
After a moment, you pushed a branch blocking your way. Reveling the man standing in front of what seemed like a small lake. The area was shining in golden hues. The sun beaming its rays onto the water, made it look like tiny, reflected diamonds were floating on the surface. Large were rocks covered in moss while small plants were scattered around the ground.
“You found the lake...” you state calmly.
He was looking in front of him. Admiring the scenery just like you, you thought. As you walked closer, he looked slightly in your direction. “I smelled it.”
You scoffed, “you can smell with that thing?” Pointing out his helmet.
He was just staring at you, and you just knew he was smiling under there. “I’m sorry.” He gently pushed out, turning his body to face you.
You remained silent. Still looking ahead.
He huffed, “I shouldn't have tried to make you take cover the way that I did. You must understand, I made you a promise. To bring you back to safety and to your brother and I plan on keeping that promise no matter what it takes. I’m a man of my word Cyare.” He hesitantly stepped forward uncomfortably.
You looked into his visor, “why do you always look on edge? Every time we bring this up, it feels like you’re getting more and more irritated.”
He chuckled, “nothing escapes you, uh?” He swallowed, fidgeting with tips of his fingers. His stoic demeanor cracking with each passing second. He softly took your hand. Brushing off some dirt stuck on one of your nails before looking into your eyes. “I care about you. I know we don't know each other well but, you must know that I've been taken by you from the first day I saw you on Navarro. Even though I couldn’t see all of you, somehow it was enough..”
You were taken aback. This didn't make sense. None of it made any sense. “Mandalorian—”
“-Din”
“Yes, Din, you don't know me. This is absolutely crazy... We're stuck here because of me. If you hadn't taken the contract, you wouldn’t be here—”
“–I’m glad I did.”
“What? How can you be happy about any of this??”
He looked down then took a step back. Letting go of your hand. “I wouldn't have met you. Be realistic, you would've never had given me a chance...”
You shook your head in disbelief, “That’s absurd-”
He scoffed, “you think you would have given a bounty hunter a chance? You? Living in mansions and castles and what not?? You were terrified of me the minute you saw me. You wanted to know why I took the contract? Well, that’s one of the reasons. In fact, I didn’t want you to see me differently. The fact that you were scared convinced me that nothing between us would ever happen-”
You furrowed, “So you never wanted me...”
He grunted, “No, no of course I wanted you but-”, He looked back at you, feeling your gaze upon him. “I mean you can't even see my face. What kind of women would want that? You're so beautiful and smart and skillful. Why would you ever be with a man who lives a dangerous life? A man you can’t even see?”
You were speechless, puzzled. Where were all this coming from?
“What?” He asked after a moment.
You simply shook your head.
He blew out some air, “well obviously something I said—”
“—You don’t know me... As much I’m flattered that you view me on such a high profile, you don't know me. Because if you knew me you would know that what matters most to me is honor and loyalty and character. These are the reasons I fell for you, Din Djarin.” There is was. All in the open. You grabbed one his hand, playing with his fingers. “I don't care that I can't see your face because, I can see what's inside that armor of yours and that’s good enough for me. You're more than just a Mandalorian. You're a man, a man who gave me his word, who I know will honor it.” You moved closer to him. Reaching for his arm. “…and I’m sorry, I shouldn't have insulted you earlier.”
He shrugged, “you’re not the first person to insult me. I can take it...”
“No Din, I have respect for you. You have been nothing but kind to me, I’m sorry, truly.
He passed a finger on your cheek, resting on one leg. Taking his time admiring your lips. He then sighed and shook his helmet, “I told you, don't worry about it. It's already forgotten.”
You gave him half a smile, looking at the lake. “What about now? What happens when we go back?”
He sighed looking at the same scenery before changing his attention to you. “We'll see when we get there, mh?. For now, our job is to stay alive and safe and take care of each other...”
With that last part, he pulled you closer. Now feeling his warmth radiating out to you. His body pressed softly against yours. A hand coming to hold you by the waist and the other came crawling under your shirt.
You gasped softly in response. His gloved fingertips moving to tease under your breast before moving his fingers underneath your bra. Grunting as he finally strokes his thumb over your hardened nipple.
He became impatient hearing your soft, quick breaths. Pulling your shirt up completely, exposing your bare breast to the forest.
“Mgh, Mando, shouldn't we wait until we get back?”
He growled seeing your reaction. Undoing your pants so he could glide a finger between your folds. You gripped his chest plate as his leather finger slides across your swollen bud. He pulled his head back, admiring you from above. “Does that feel good, mh? Do you like that?” He purrs, now teasing your entrance. Moving his fingers extremely slowly in and out. Making you squirm at the feeling. He chuckled softly. You couldn't help but move your core back and forth. Pushing against his fingers. “That much uh? Maybe you’d like something bigger sweetheart?”
He simply moved both of his thumbs over your sensitive nipples for you to almost fold in half. He tilted his helmet, looking down at you, “but look at you sweetheart. I told you we needed to take care of each other and I can't leave you like this.” He rolled your nipples between his fingers, pulling gently. Making you moan instantly and rub your legs together to try and get some friction.
You instinctively moved your hands to his trousers. Freeing his cock already dripping of precum. You rubbed your thumb on the tip, smearing it while you made gentle circles around the little hole. He dropped his head back as you continued to move your thumb under his tip. Still fucking yourself on his fingers.
“Stars I need you, I need you right now.” You heard him breathing heavy as if his self control was hanging by a thread. You nodded and he quickly removed your pants before sitting on and against a boulder. Taking your wrist, pulling you gently onto his lap.
When you were finally settled down, he pushed a strand of air away from your face, tucking it behind your ear, “maker cyare you look so beautiful..” he shakes out. Moving his thumbs once more over your nipples as you began to move your core on his length. “Yeah? Oh you're sensitive..” he chuckled, “maybe you need something wetter?”
With that, he slightly lifted his helmet so he could bend his head down and latch his lips around your nipple. Sucking relentlessly, having his tongue licking furiously. You were pouring on his. Writhing in pleasure as he pushed down on your ass and pushed himself more into your core before finally sliding in.
For a second there, everything felt right in the world and you had a feeling he felt it too because he just let your tit fall out of his mouth before squeezing your ass; “Fuuuuuccck…” he stopped you from moving.
“Are you okay?” You asked worried.
He remained silent for a few seconds. His head still down. “Yeah, sorry it's just, maker you feel so fucking good around me...”
He began to move again slowly. Bringing his hands back to grab your tits. Presenting both your nipples to his tongue. You dropped your head back. Feeling the waves of pleasure just coming in.
You kept whining and he kept whimpering. Sucking and pulling and licking and groping your tits. God it was almost animalistic. The way he was overtaken with need. Wanting nothing more than to have you in his mouth, around him, everywhere.
You began to move on your own, seeking your own relief. “That's it beautiful, use it. Oh maker this is so hot....”
His encouragements only made you reached your peak quicker. Coming shamelessly, dripping on his lap. He growled and followed right away.
As you were taking a breath. He rested his hands on your lower back. Leaning his helmet on your chest. His mouth, still free, gave little kisses underneath your collarbone.
You giggled from the tickling, “we should do what we came out here for and head back to camp.”
He continued to lazily give small pecks to your bustier. Grunting as he pulled your clothes back in place. “Finnee, but you sleep and stay asleep in my bed tonight…”
You moved your hand under his helmet. Petting the hair on his chin, “Deal...”
A/N: We keep receiving severe thunderstorms and tornado watches/warnings in my area. We don't usually get tornadoes and severe weather in the summer but for the past two years it's been almost every two weeks and well, I'm scared.. ANYWAYS this is my attempt to soothe and bring comfort to myself while it happens and pass. Stay safe!
The sky was gray and cloudy, with a cool breeze blowing softly. Which gave you little to no relief from the heat of this green and rocky place. Even though you kept drinking water, you still felt dizzy and heavy. It never lasted long but was enough to make you aware of your surroundings.
As you brought branches to the campsite, the Mandalorian moved his helmet in your direction. "I think it's going to rain." he said simply, while working on some parts of the ship.
You nodded, "I better hurry up then."
He didn't reply, only watched you walk back into the woods before returning to his task.
As you moved further into the greenery. You found a waterfall with some berry bushes nearby. Smiling to yourself, you walked faster to them. Ration bars were good, but they were dry and to be honest, probably expired too. You grabbed some and put it in a pouch attached to your waist. As you were carefully picking the best, you heard some thunder approaching, not really paying attention.
After a moment the rumbling intensified, and you could hear someone shouting in the distance. Oh oh, that was definitely Mando yelling. The wind had begun to pick up now, the sky was a complete dark grey with no light from the sun in sight. You knew you had to take cover and fast.
Your name being shouted again made you pick up the pace as the humidity increased. It was getting darker by the second. Making the strikes of white and dark purple lights more visible above you. The rain started to fall and after a short moment you couldn't even see what was in front of you. The pouring rain was coming in waves. Flooding everywhere and everything around you.
As your breathing and panic intensified, lightning strikes a tree about ten feet away from you. Making you scream almost simultaneously. You stood frozen in place. Terrified and lost. You closed your eyes trying to ground yourself and think quickly when a gloved hand gripped your arm.
"You scared me." he panted, the rain and thunder muffling his voice as he stood only inches from you.
"How did you find me? I can barely see a thing!" you shouted.
He looked like he couldn't understand you well over the roaring thunder. Stepping closer, closing the small gap between you, "I was calling you and I heard you scream."
As the wind picked up again, more violently this time, he wrapped his arms around your body. Picked you up and lifted you over his shoulder in one quick motion. The rain continued to pound down mercilessly on you as he ran as fast as he could while you held onto him.
Arriving to the ship, still carrying you, he rushed inside. Pushing a command into his arm brace. The trap door closed behind with a hiss, as the automatic locking system engaged. He set you gently down on your feet. Pushing back wet pieces of hair that were stuck to your cheek.
He stared at you for a moment, the dim light from within your surroundings created a soft glow on your face and his helmet as he looked over you. He could tell you were shivering. Your clothes and hair were soaked and damp and stuck to your skin. He could see your body trembling. Your clothes clinging to your curves, showing your figure underneath.
Without a word, he went to a cabinet and grabbed a towel. Walking back towards you, he started to rub the towel on your hair. Attempting to dry you off and get you warm. His motions were quick yet soft. Gently working to soak up as much of the water as possible. He could hear your teeth chatter as your body trembled from the cold.
He paused for a moment, looking at you concerned. "You're freezing."
"Yeah..." you managed to reply, shaking.
As he wrapped the towel around your shoulders, you heard the rumble of the ship as it was rattled by the storm. The Crest rocking back and forth from the strong gusts of wind. He took a step closer as his free hand came up to your waist and held you steady against him. The cold and shiver still taking a toll on your small form. Your trembling got more and more out of control.
He was secretly hoping his body could give you some heat and relief, but he was just as damp as you. Plus, the beskar of his armor wasn't really much help. He reluctantly let go and pulled away from you after the ship was steady once again.
"We need to get out of these clothes," he said in a firm tone. He took a step towards the small bunk bed at the back of the ship, where he stored a few of his things. Rummaging around for a moment before pulling out clothes from a chest. Coming back to you, he noticed the fabric of your dress clinging to your body, leaving very little to the imagination. "Here," he sighed, handing you a shirt and pants with an expression that was both firm and protective, "...change into these."
Noticing his gaze you changed yours to the floor.
"Do you need help?" he asked in a low, almost stern tone as he continued to hold the dry set of clothes out to you.
Your cheeks becoming redder, you grabbed it, shaking your head. "I'll be back..." you finally let out almost stuttering, moving to the fresher. He nodded and watched as you quietly went your way. Chuckling softly to himself, amused by the shy and timid way you were behaving.
After changing out of his flight suit and out of his beskar, he waited patiently outside as he heard you rustling about in the small fresher. His mind wandered for a moment as he sat and waited, thinking about how you felt against him earlier. Since you started traveling together, few words were spoken between the two of you and he didn't know how much longer he could last without the proximity again. He was used to being solitary, but now that he had you... The thought of not having you close was almost driving him to madness.
You stepped out of the fresher. The clothes were slightly too big for your small frame, but it gave you a cute and petite appearance. You couldn’t deny how soft and warm you felt in his clothes. Plus, it smelled like him too.
"Feeling better now sweetheart?" he asked in a low, gruff tone.
You nodded, feeling your cheek blush from the new pet name, "Yeah feels comfortable..." As you say the words, the ship began to move again.
He instinctively took a step closer to you. His hand shooting out and landing on your waist to hold you steady. He could see the worry and uneasiness in your eyes as the ship continued to shake violently. His fingers gripped tighter around your hip protectively. "It's just a storm. The ship will hold up fine."
"I believe you." You nodded nervously as another gust of wind rattles over the razor crest.
He noticed how tightly you shut your eyes, the worry and fear still apparent on your face. His hand loosening its grip on your hip but still holding onto you securely in case the ship rocked again. "You don't like storms, do you?" he asked in a low, quieter tone. You simply shook your head. "That's okay. You're safe here. This ship has survived and flown through much more dangerous things. Some rain and thunder is nothing." He reassured you.
You hummed in response. Still feeling uneasy.
He stepped closer, his body now pressed tightly against yours as he pulled you into his arms in an attempt to provide some comfort and security. He could feel you shivering slightly, the whistling of the wind doing little to help calm your nerves. His hand rested on your hip, holding you firmly against him while his other came to tilt your chin up to him.
"I've got you sweetheart. You'll always be safe with me."
Meanwhile Kylo was still on duty, taking a break in his office. His meetings were painfully boring and long. He wasn't even supposed to be there in the first place. Which made every one of them more bitter. Since leaving the Finalizer, his only desire was to get back home to you.
Home...
For the first time in a very long time, Kylo was feeling a sense of belonging and going through his day was a challenge by itself. He was unable to keep you off his mind. The way you smelled, your skin, your lips, everything about you was intoxicating him. You were all he could think about.
He particularly liked the way you boss him around. Like he was not one of the most dangerous and feared man in the galaxy. He liked that you were not bending to him even when you were scared.
It has been two days since he last saw you and somehow it felt like a lifetime. His mind kept drifting to the last night you spent together. His cock slowly pushing inside of you, stretching you open with a tit in his mouth.
Urgh, he sighed deeply in frustration. He could already feel himself twitch as he became harder under his desk. What he hated most in all this was that he couldn't talk to you.
I really need to fix that, he thought to himself before the com-link on his wrist beeped.
*”Incoming, Supreme Leader” *
“Listening trooper.” he replied. Quickly brushing his lustful thoughts away.
*”Not sure if it's something worth mentioning but it’s about the girl.”*
A pinching sensation crawled into his chest. Knowing exactly who he was referring to, “what about her?”
*”Prisoner 226 is in medical. They are running tests on her.”*
Kylo starts to panic imagining the worst, “what happened?”
*”Unconfirmed, she's been unconscious for the past twelve hours sir.”*
“Twelve hours??” His voice laced with rage. Closing his eyes, he tries to collect himself. “Prepare my ship, now.” he ordered.
*”Copy that.”*
He puts on his helmet, rushing to the guard standing just outside his door. “Tell General Hux that I have an urgent matter. I don’t want to be bothered for the next forty-eight hours.”
The soldier simply nodded in agreement as Kylo clenched his fist going for his vessel.
As he set the coordinates, his mind kept going back to you and the way your soft lips were saying his name.
His real name. He hadn't heard it in years. He made sure to erase everything from his past and didn't want to be reminded of anything from it, but he knew he couldn't hide from you and truthfully, he didn't want to.
Kissing you goodbye was difficult enough. Not only because he wished he had more time with you, but he also felt bad every time he left. As if he was leaving something important behind.
--
Arriving to the Finalizer, he landed quickly, rushing to the medical wing. He completely ignored the soldiers and the officers who were patrolling around. His heart hammered in his chest while he ran through the ship’s corridors. Finally, he reached the ship's clinic but started to panic when he saw no one around. That was until he heard a voice coming from behind.
“She's going to be fine.” The feminine voice reassured.
He removed his helmet, turning around to look at the nurse, “what happened?”
“Probably just a simple virus.” She replied plainly.
Kylo’s eyebrow raised slightly, “a simple virus doesn't do this.”
The woman’s face remained emotionless. “She was previously malnourished. Her body is still fragile and weaker against those types of viruses.”
He clenched his jaw. The reality of both your situations becoming more inevitable. “Can I see her?” he asked calmly even though he didn't like the way she was talking down on him. Plus, he didn’t have the time nor the energy to argue with her.
She simply twisted her lips and guided him to you. When he arrived in the room, his eyes were automatically drawn to a device on the side of the bed with pouches of liquids hanging from a hook on the wall. You were still asleep and plugged into maker knows what machine. As he approached, he noticed how faint your breathing was.
He turned back to the nurse, “Is she stable?” he asked hurriedly.
“Yes, it still might take a few days for her to be back on her feet—”
“I'll take her to into my quarters. Prepare whatever she might need.” He cut her right off.
He didn't want to leave you in this cold, lifeless place. He wanted you to be as comfortable as you possibly could. He hated seeing you in here. So small, so fragile, so vulnerable in the open.
“She hasn't woken up once yet. I believe it would be best for her to stay here– “she stopped, and for some reason she was getting more tense than before. Sensing Kylo’s gazed intensely watching her. She took a deep breath before continuing, “What I meant to say, supreme leader, is she will be better taken care of here.”
He nodded, “Then I'll stay.” His voice came out calm and soft. She watched him take a seat on a chair that was beside the bed before nodding herself and walked away.
He took a moment just watching you asleep, tucked in your grey metal bed. His body was slowly coming down from the adrenaline, now knowing that you were safe.
“You’re perfect.” He sighed, pushing the hair away from your face. His gloved fingertips delicately stoking your cheek, “You shouldn't be here. You wouldn't have gotten sick if you weren't here.”
--
The first thing you noticed was the cold breeze on your bare legs and the thin fabric covering your frame. As you finally opened your eyes, you found yourself in a small white room. The air felt cold and more recycled than ever. Which made you shiver slightly.
Turning your head slowly, you saw Kylo asleep in an armchair that looked half a size too small for him next to you. His hair, unmistakably tousled from his helmet while his pink lips were slightly parted.
As you lowered your eyes, you noticed a clip attached to your fingertip. Without hesitation you unclipped the device. Making the machine emit a rather loud beeping sound.
Without missing a beat, Kylo shot his eyes open with a hand going for his lightsaber. Freezing himself in his movement, as he looked straight at you. “You're awake”, more like an observation than a question.
You tried to speak but your throat felt dry. Making you choke slightly as you tried to talk.
“Don't move, I’ll get you some water.” He rushed out as he quickly stood from his seat.
‘Don't move’, you laughed to yourself. As if you could go anywhere. You can't help but notice how adorable he looked trying to help you. But your smile quickly fades as you sense something odd.
As you looked around, you started to panic. Where am I? Why am I here? You asked yourself, trying to figure out what happened, and then it hits you.
He killed his father...
It was the last thing you heard before losing consciousness. As if knowing you were thinking of him, he came back with a smile on the corner of his lips.
A smile? A happy smile? Walking around the ship with a smile? When was the last time you saw him do that? Did he ever do that?
He came closer, giving you a half a cup of water, “Here, drink it. You'll feel better.”
You sipped it in silence. Making as little eye contact as possible. He didn’t seem to notice, until; “Are you hungry? I can ask the nurse for someth—”
You stopped him, feeling slightly on edge, “No it's fine, I feel fine.” you replied sounding anything but fine.
He frowned, his smile disappearing into a line. “What's the matter?” he asked cluelessly.
You shook your head. Right now, was not the time. “No, there's nothing.”
“C’mon sweetheart, we're past this. I’ve watched you for months. I think I would know when you have something on your mind.” he scoffed. Turning his head to the side, insulted that you’d take him for a fool.
You sighed, taking a deep breath. There was no way around this. You had to be honest with him.
“Is it true? About your father?”
His jaw clenched before slowly moving his eyes back to you. “What is?”
You felt the energy in the room shift. A lingering heaviness floating, but you had to ask.
“D-Did you, kill him?”
“Yes” he replied simply.
His eyes watching you surprisingly unfazed. Your chest squeezed at his response. Cutting the air in your lungs. Noticing your reaction, Kylo got up from his chair again.
“You should rest” he tells you softly.
Not giving you a chance to stop him. You watched him leave in silence as he moved through the door, putting his helmet on. Feeling too drained and exhausted to stop him on his way out.
-
After two days you woke up feeling energized. The nurse surely knew how to make Liacynth tea. You felt almost brand new. After getting dressed, you began walking back to your quarters and back to Kylo.
Well, that was new. You would've expected him to lash out, yell or even destroy something. Instead, he just got up and left. I mean this man was more confusing every day. Unpredictable really.
As you stepped inside the room, the doors automatically close behind you. You stood in the entrance and glanced at the state of the place.
Everything was trashed. Random broken pieces of glass were scattered on the floor. One of the kitchen chairs was undoubtedly thrown at the wall. Even the dining table was cut from the middle to its edge. Maybe you spoke too soon.
Looks like he did rage after all...
You walked carefully to the bedroom. Seeing the door being halfway open.
“Ben?” You asked, pushing it as you entered the room cautiously.
Seeing him sitting on the edge of the bed. His back turned from you. He was holding his head in his hands while his helmet was on the floor in the corner.
“Ben?” You tried again and he slowly raises his head.
Turning his body slightly in your direction. His eyes were small and red. His hair was still tousled and unclean. His lips, maker his lips, plusher than you have ever seen them. “What happened?”
Without making a sound. He stood up, coming closer to you. Taking a good look at you up and down, “You're so pretty,” he says, “so good, so pure and beautiful.”
He lets out leaving his lips slightly parted as his eyes were staring at you pained. He looked faded out as if he hadn’t slept in days.
You sighed, “what happened?”
He took a moment just staring at you before answering, “You”
“What?”
He took a deep breath, “How do you feel?”
You looked at him, then looked around you, “hum, confused?”
“I meant physically.”
You let out a deeper sigh, “Good, I’m slowly getting back on my feet”
“Good” he replied simply. Passing you by as he went into the kitchen to get himself a glass of water.
Growing impatient you followed him, “you didn't answer me, what happened?”
He drank his water slowly as he watched you. He was so damn infuriating sometimes. He knew what he was doing by making you wait. Taking his last sip, he placed the cup on the counter before looking back at you. His eyes were small and heavy.
“You should rest. You were injured. I’ll take care of your work schedule.” He dismissed again.
You start to get frustrated, “why don't you want to answer me?”
“Why are you always asking so many questions?” He growled back. But you remained silent, only watching him with a defiant look. He scoffed, turning his gaze to the side. “I already told you.”
You smiled from the corner of your lips, looking down. “So, you trashed the place because I’m good and pretty? Yeah, that makes sense...”
He came slowly closer, his body only inches away from yours, “and pure.”
You couldn’t help but giggle, “You don’t know me, I am definitively not pure.”
He clenched his jaw “more than me.” he says, taking a deep breath. “I-” he cuts himself off, searching for his words. “I don’t deserve your attention.”
You squinted your eyes at him, “What are you on about now?”
“This, all of this wouldn’t’ve happened if you weren’t here. But here you are, trapped on this ship, MY ship!” You could feel the frustration and annoyance in his voice. “You think you would’ve let me talk to you out there? Kissed you?” He brought his gloved hand to your face. Brushing his fingertips gently on your cheek, “Touched you?” He scoffed, closing his eyes as he removed his hand. “Of course not, how could you?” Looking almost disgusted at himself.
“Everyone is deserving of lov-”
“—Not me” he said stepping back. “I take, I hurt, I destroy, I kill... for fuck's sake, I killed my own father!” And there it was.
The wound at the center of it all. Even if he was smiling you knew how much it was destroying him.
“I saw it in your eyes, the way you looked at me?” You could clearly see the pain in his glassy eyes, shooting straight at you almost pleading.
“How long ago was it?” You asked in a low tone.
“A year, and I was too much of a coward to inform my mother of my actions.” He replied with disdain.
“I’m sorry.” You let out softly.
He remained still, almost in shock. “What?”
“I said I’m sorry”
He tilted his head intrigued, “But you haven’t done anything, it’s my fault.”
You sighed, “It’s true. I don’t know what happened in your past but, everyone is deserving of love...”
Confused, he came closer again, “Aren’t you scared of me? Of what I can do? I know you are...”
You closed the gap between you and brought your hand to cup his cheek, shaking your head. “I see you; I don’t know why but I just know you wouldn’t hurt me. Not on purpose at least.”
“Like I said, pure...” He smiled faintly, passing his thumb on your bottom lip. “Could I–, can I kiss you?”
You stayed silent and simply nodded as he brought his lips onto yours. Letting a deep breath out of his nose as he took you in. Wrapping his arms around your waist to squeeze you before bringing a hand lower, going for your butt.
You smiled against his teeth, “Ben, we can’t. This needs to stop.”
“Stop? Hyal, can’t you see what you’ve done to me?” He removed his hand from your bottom to grab yours, playing with your fingers. “I would do anything you’d ask of me.”
“That’s a bit extreme, isn’t it?” You raised a brow.
He looked at you softly, “What can I say, I’m an extreme individual.”
You rolled your eyes, “I’d like to take things slow. You know, get to know you more?”
He smirked, “I can do that.”
“Really?”
Nodding, he gives a chaste kiss at the corner of your lips. “Go get yourself clean. You must feel uncomfortable after passing days in medical.”
“Says the man who has greasy hair.”
He smiled looking at the floor, “uh yeah, past couple of days had been challenging to say the least. Go ahead, I’ll go after you.”
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As you were about to close the faucet and step out, Kylo enters. “Don’t mind me I'm just taking a quick one.”
You shook your head, watching him enter in the small space with you, “You’re unbelievable.”
“What? I was called. Couldn't wait an hour for you to be done.” he teased as he washed his hair.
You stared at him with your mouth open, “I don’t take an hour.”
“Sure, you do” he says rinsing himself from the lathered shampoo. “First time you stayed here.”
“That was months ago!” you protest.
He smiled, giving you his hand to take before pulling you closer to him, “You’re right, in all honesty, I wanted to see you and your beautiful body one more time before I go.” he admitted, passing the back of his fingers on your nipple, moving down to your stomach.
You gasped, feeling them harden to his touch. Seeing your reaction, he smirked. Nibbling his bottom lip.
“You really don’t understand hyal. You’re all I can think of, All- the- fucking- time.” now swiping both of his thumbs over them as he watches you lean your head back slowly.
Looking more than satisfied, he let out a low growl and brought his lips down to your chest. He took one of your nipples in his mouth. Suckling and flickering his tongue over it while his thumb continued to play with the other. You couldn't hide anymore, letting out some pleasured noises.
“Oh sweetheart, you really like that don't you?” He teased, his voice low and soft. “How about this?”
You felt his thumb leave your tit before feeling two of his fingers moving through your folds. Swiping and quickly gliding in between your flesh as you started to coat them. You couldn't stop the desperate growl that escaped your lips even if you wanted to.
You needed this, wanted this, you wanted him. He let your slippery nipple roll out of his mouth, “Yeah? Does that feel good?”
You nodded, moaning with your mouth fully open as he comes back, brushing his tongue on both of your nipples. While his thick fingers were stretching you so deliciously slow. “shit...” he let out almost a whisper. His eyes full of lust seeing how well you were taking them in. He began to pump them faster. While his other hand squeezed a breast within his reach. His tongue fluttering on your sensitive peaks.
“Please Ky..” you cried out, feeling that warmth boiling up between your legs.
He stopped moving completely and removed his hands from you. “Not yet.” He says, as he lowered himself down. Feeling his hands spreading your thighs gently open.
“What are you—” you didn’t have to finish your sentence that his lips were around your clit. Softly pulling and sucking. “Ohh” you let out smiling. Closing your eyes as you relaxed to his touch.
Putting your thigh over his shoulder, he brought back his fingers to your entrance. Pumping each one of them a couple of times before leaving you feeling empty. Curiously you opened your eyes to look at him.
His back was curved while his wet hair danced on the inside of your thighs. Hearing his low and small desperate moans as he was fucking his fist covered in your slick. Followed by the sound of his lips smacking on your pussy hungrily as if he couldn't get enough.
The wet noises that echoed in the background made you feel somewhat powerful. Here you were on the finalizer, a star destroyer, with one of the most beautiful and dangerous men in the galaxy. Who in this moment, was kneeling between your legs as he pleasured himself, pleasuring you. The thought of it alone was enough to drive you closer to the edge as you let out some uncontrollable whimpers.
“Mm that's it.” Noticing you were getting closer; quickening the pumping of his fist. “Be good and come with me sweetheart.”
He started to move his tongue and lips around you faster, sloppier. Making your legs shake as you finally came on his slippery tongue. He followed with a low growl as he saw you become more relaxed. Leaking in his hand shortly after.
“I wouldn't call that taking things slow.” You finally let out, breaking the silence.
He smiled as he looked at the state of the both of you. “Well, I needed a taste. I'm sorry, it was selfish of me.”
“You are definitely not sorry.” you replied scoffing, teasingly rolling your eyes.
He chuckled, “you're right, I’m not sorry.” A grin appeared on his lips, “I wanted to see that sweet, hot body of yours shake and twitch in my hands. In all honesty, I don't even have to go anywhere today.”
“What?” You gasped, slapping him on the shoulder before he starts to pull away. Rinsing himself under the running water. “You're despicable.” you followed.
He laughed at your comment, “Tell me something I don’t know.”
“Urgh.” you grunted out as you were about to walk away, but he quickly gripped your wrist, pulling you closer to him.
Yet again you felt intimidated by the way he towered over you. He locked his eyes onto yours and seemed to notice as he released his grip. Bringing his fingers back to your cheek. Softly brushing the tips of them against your skin.
“I was serious when I said I would do anything you asked me.” He pushed your hair behind your ear, “if that's what you want, then you should have it.” He followed by moving lower to your ear, almost a whisper, “but by the way your soft and needy pussy clenched around my fingers, I’d say that you're not sorry either.” And smiled when he saw how pink your cheeks were turning. Giving you a small delicate kiss on your neck, “I promise not to do it again only if you also promise me one thing.”
You closed your eyes, sighing “negotiating?”
He chuckled, “I am not going to touch myself until you give me the permission to touch you again.” He stops, licking slowly and softly the same spot he just kissed. “...and I want you to do the same.”
Your eyes shoot open, “what?”
He chuckled, “you heard me.” He says firmly. Taking your hand, planting gentle kisses on your fingers.
You took a moment. Thinking about these new sets of rules. You nodded in confirmation, and he smiled, cupping your cheek before kissing you on your temple.
Hiya 🥰 if you’re still taking requests could I ask for a one-bed trope, touch starved, Din Djarin 🙏
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Lust in hyperspace.
“Din, my name is Din Djarin. I want you to scream it tonight, can you do that for me sweetheart?”
AO3 | Wattpad // MASTERLIST
*Mature, Explicit, NSFW*
wc.2k / Din Djarin x Fem reader.
Sum; You need transport but first you need to help a Mandalorian out.
Long live the razor crest, One desperate and touch starved Mandalorian, nipple play, fingering, p in v., din djarin is a sweet talker. edging, nicknames, no y/n
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You could hear the sound of blasters firing from afar as you rushed inside the ship. Hands on your knees, you were trying to calm down your breathing. Mando followed you behind, quickly closing the trap before moving up a ladder. “Hang tight!” You heard him yell from what you imagined was the cockpit. You looked around scanning the room for something to hold onto and grabbed the edge of a metal table bolted into the floor, feeling the weight of your body being pushed back as it entered Hyperspace.
As the ships stabilized, you removed your small backpack. Seeing the back of the Mandalorian climbing down the ladder, walking towards you. He looked you up and down, tilting his helmet on the side. “Are you hurt?”
You shook your head, “No I’m fine.”
“Good, then I suggest you wash yourself and rest. Today was a long day and tomorrow will be just as so.” He took his gloved index to point you a door at the back of the ship, “That's the bedroom and there’s the washer.” Now showing you another door closer to the where you were standing. “The towels are in the cabinet underneath the sink, I’ll come join you back down in a moment.” Turning back to go climb up the ladder.
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You stepped out of the fresher all cleaned up from a well-deserved shower. Wearing a loose shirt and pants that were probably a size or two bigger than you. You looked around, noticing that almost all the lights in the ship were turned off. Maybe Mando went to bed. Maybe he had followed his own advice, you tell yourself as you moved towards the back of the ship. You felt a cold breeze crawling up your legs which made you rush to the door, picturing yourself already getting warmer under the covers.
As the door swooshed open, you saw the Mandalorian lying in bed. Already stripped of his beskar. Only having his clothes and helmet covering his frame. You frowned, noticing how small the room was. It had to be a little bigger than a closet if you were completely honest. You stared back to him more than confused and he chuckled low seeing your reaction, “I’m a solo traveler, there’s only one bedroom on this ship. Don’t worry, it’s only temporary. We should be on coruscant tomorrow evening.” he says, leaning more into the wall behind him as you approached the bed.
“Right, temporary..” you nodded, climbing in bed with him. He pulled the covers onto you, making sure you had enough space before shifting and making himself comfortable. After he turned off the light on a panel on his side, you could still hear his soft breathing coming from the modulator. “Do you always sleep with your helmet on?”
You sensed him tense as he watched you. Taking a moment to reply. “I- never slept with someone else without my helmet.”
“Ever?” you asked curiously.
“Well, no I mean, no one ever slept in my bed..”
“Oh” you reply simply. “Well, we're both going to sleep. I can wake you up if I need to get out of the room. I promise not to look.”
He takes a minute considering your words. He knew you were trustworthy. That's actually what he liked most about you. “You promise?”
“Yes, I promise.” You replied softly. Smiling to yourself as you hear the hiss of his helmet. He sat up, putting it on a shelf at the end of the bed before coming to lay back down at your side.
“Hum, Mando?”
“Mh” he hummed.
“Would you have another blanket by any chance?”
“Are you cold?” Maker his voice was soft. It was the first time you had heard it so clear and crisp without any filter and it was enough to warm you all by itself.
“Hum, just a little.”
“I should've told you that it could get cold in space, especially when traveling in hyperspace.” He shifted closer to you. “Is this better?”
“Uh y-yeah, it's fine.” You let out, swallowing thickly.
He chuckled coming even closer, pressing his chest to you. You could feel his lips brushing against your neck, “And this? Is this, okay?” You nod, breathing heavily as his bare fingertips were moving gently on you.
It didn't take long before to feel his hardness on the back of your thigh as he held you tighter to him. Trailing his lips here and there on your neck and jaw. Being soft and gentle.
“Have you ever kissed someone?”
He shook his head, “no you’re the first woman I’m tasting.” Bringing his fingers up to your chin, turning your head slightly towards him.
He hummed, pushing his plush lips against yours as he cupped the side of your face. You couldn't help but start to grind your ass slowly back on him. Trying to get rid of some tension building up between your legs.
The movement made him grin against your teeth. “You have no idea how long I've been wanting to do this.”
You gasped as you felt his hand grabbing your breast before squeezing it softly. “Show me, Mando.”
He growled low in your ear, “Din, my name is Din Djarin. I want you to scream it tonight, can you do that for me sweetheart?”
Your throat was dry as you tried to swallow. He had barely even touched you and yet you were already out of breath. “Yes”
He moved his hand under your shirt, going straight for your hardened nipples. Toying, pinching them gently but intentionally. “Yes what?”
Your body starts moving on its own as he switched between them. “Yes Din”
He growled even deeper, “good, that's a good girl..”
You could've sworn you felt your pussy clenched at his praises. No one had ever talked to you this way and coming from someone else you might've questioned it, but this was different. This was Din. You couldn't get enough and wanted more. Responding with a soft moan as he brought his lips back onto your neck. Licking everywhere he could taste skin. Lifting your upper body more towards him, he takes off your shirt. He took a moment feeling your breasts in his palms, pressing and massaging them harder as his desire grew.
Coming down to kiss you, he takes your mouth into his. Pushing and swirling his tongue with yours. He looked famished as he moved lower. Kissing your breasts before licking you flat under one of them. You moaned in response, feeling yourself twisting with anticipation. He chuckled softly, “I’m sorry to tease you like this” he says, catching his breath a little. “It's just that, you taste so good and, and I want to taste you everywhere I can. Is that okay with you?”
“Yes, whatever you want, whatever you need.” You managed to answer, and he let out a deep sigh. Bringing his pillowy lips around one your sensitive nipples. Sucking and pulling softly at first. Taking his time to coat every single inch of your tit with his tongue. Leaving behind this wet and cold feeling that just made everything more agonizing. He flicked his tongue over your hardened pebble before going to the other one. Giving it the same treatment as the other. But you truly started to cry when he squeezed them, making it easier for him to devour them together.
You could sense your pussy pulsating with need as you grind yourself on his thigh. “Din..” you moan out.
He stopped for a moment, giving you some time to calm down. As he took your pants halfway down to your knees. Going over your panties, he glides his fingers quite easily over the fabric. “Maker cyare, you're already so wet.” Saying as he spread your slick all over your cunt. He moved slowly, taking his time as he was enjoying your little cries of pleasure coming out in waves.
He shifted, placing himself in between your thighs. Caressing the inside before bringing two of his fingers to your entrance as he pushed against the soaked fabric. Making you moan uncontrollably while he simply laughed. “Oh sweetheart, you should hear yourself. You sound so fucking sexy.”
You moan louder, “please Din..”
He chuckled and swiped his tongue flat over your slippery clit making your body jolt. “Yeah baby?”
You whimpered in response.
“How about this?” He says pushing your panties aside. Licking and twirling his tongue all over your pussy as if he was trying to clean you up from your own slick. “Mm, does that feel good?”
“Yes, maker yes.” You panted faster, “please I want more.”
How could he refuse you when you were begging him this way? The truth was that he would give you the world if only you asked but he figured that for tonight, this was better. “Anything you want.” he replied. Pulling both your pants and panties down before placing his hardness in between your legs as he came lower to kiss you.
He held your face, deepening the kiss before taking his cock with his other hand. Gliding just the tip in between your folds, poking softly at your entrance. He started to grunt as he felt your wetness quickly coating him. He didn't know how long he could last before he started to lose it. You were whining as he pushed in and out slowly, not yet fully going in.
As you were starting to be impatient you decided to push against it. Slowly sinking on it. “Fuuuck..” you heard him growling. “Maker cyare, go slow.”
You smiled through the darkness of his room. “Now you're the one making requests?”
He chuckled once more, “I’m sensitive. It's been a very long time and you're just, urgh so fucking hot.”
“What's going on Mando? Already about to cum?” You teased playfully.
But he didn't seem to have liked it as he forcefully slammed his hips into yours, now fully having you around him. You gasped at the sudden intrusion. “Such a brat, I told you to call me by my name.” slamming himself into you once more. “You give me no choice.” He says pumping himself in and out more and more intensely. You couldn't hold it much longer as he grabbed your hips, lifting them up slightly as he went feral. And you begin to lose it. Whining and crying from the pleasure over taking you. “Yeah?” He says between thrusts, “wanna cum baby?”
“Yeah” you managed to say almost out of breath. “Please Din, I wanna cum.”
He came rushing to your mouth, grunting his way to his end. Taking both of your ass cheek in his hands. Thrusting as fast as he could while making you reach your peak. “That's it sweetheart, cum, cum for me baby” his words worked like magic. Making your pussy pulse in an instant as you the both of you to came one after the other.
He lets himself leak inside you as he lets his head fall to your chest. Trying to catch your breath.
As the pulsing stops, he came back up to kiss you. You could feel his chest beating hard against yours. His hair wet and sweaty brushing against your forehead. You cupped his face in your palms as you swiped your thumbs over his cheeks and then his eyes, his nose and his lips, who were kissing your fingers as you did so.
“What color are your eyes?” You asked softly.
And he came down to kiss your jaw shyly, he replies, “brown”.
“I bet they're beautiful.” you almost whispered, feeling his mustache tickling the tip of your fingers.
He continued to kiss your lips, “not as much as yours.” Shifting his body to your side as he wrapped his arm, holding you by the hip. “Maker I swear, you're perfect.” He let out planting a kiss behind your ear as he squeezed you against him.
Morning came faster than you would've wished. Although being unfamiliar, you were beginning to enjoy being hold while sleeping. His large frame keeping you warm and sheltered from the cold air while his strong chest—
"Are you okay?" hearing the voice coming from outside.
You simply smiled to yourself as you strapped your blaster in place. Your bags were already packed and ready to go, thanks to Mando. As you came out of the cave, you're being greeted by your new favorite tin man already in his beskar. “Have you already eaten?” you asked smiling, but the smile quickly turned into confusion.
He handed a bowl to you, "I did, here, I made some for you.” You took it as you watched him put the fire out. “We should get moving if we want to be back to the ship by sundown.”
You nodded, taking a bite and started to walk. You couldn't help but notice how cold he was towards you. You tried not to think too much of it. Maybe he was just exhausted. I mean, you guys had a pretty rough couple of days. All of this was new to you both and not knowing exactly what was next was definitely toying with you. He's probably just still on edge, you told yourself.
After an hour of walking, you felt tired. None of you had said a single word to each other since you had left. Not that you cared much for it, but you were still concerned. “Where's that lake anyway? Are you sure we're going in the right direction?”
He halts, turning around as quickly, “are you saying that I'm wrong?”
His defensive tone left you shocked. “N-no I'm just wondering.. It's just that yesterday– “
“Yesterday what?” His voice was becoming harder.
You sighed, shaking your head, “nothing.” but you heard the leather of his gloves cracking as he rolled his hands into fists. Without a word, he ignited his jetpack before taking off. “Hey! Where are you going??” You tried to shout louder but he was already gone. As you looked around you felt defeated. He was finally starting to open to you. And now you felt like it was back to square one. “I should've just stayed quiet. Why do I even care that he's gone? Why do I care if he doesn’t talk to me? Ugh, this is just stupid...”
After a moment you finally calmed down, sitting on a boulder. Waiting for him to come back and he does. Hearing the noise of his jetpack coming closer, you see him coming down through the trees branches before landing.
“Where were you? I didn't even know if you were coming back..” Were the first words coming out of you. You were mad and it showed.
He took a deep breath, “You really thought I'd leave you here?” Saying as he walked pass you.
The fact that he looked so calm made you angrier for some reason. “I don’t know, you just left me.”
He sighed, “I was just looking for the lake.” he answered in a cold voice. “Come..”
But you were too angry to even look at him. Frowning your brows and lips, you begin to walk in the opposite direction. “Where are you going?” You heard him say from behind, but you didn't bother to answer. “I see, using my own actions against me. Clever, you're a cleaver girl..” You just ignored him the best you could. Walking faster as you approached the ship. He didn't say a word as he followed you. Which pissed you off even more. Not only were you stuck on this planet, but you were stuck with a brute. A handsome, annoying, brute.
Arriving at the ship, you got in without even glancing back. Moving quickly and directly to your room. You didn't care about anything right now. Not him, not your family, not even this prison planet. You were feeling more alone than ever before. Even in training, when you were completely alone in the woods, you knew it would end at some point. But this, this was different. There was a possibility that this was it. That there was no way of going back. It might never end. You might never see your family again. None of them.
After about an hour of lying in bed, you could feel and hear your stomach rumble. Maybe there's still some ration bars left in the kitchen. You told yourself before sitting up on the edge of the bed, feeling like the air in your room thick. With the back of your sleeves, you dried the tears that had fallen on your cheeks earlier. Finally, with heavy legs, you stood up. You were feeling drained and empty but mostly hungry. As you gathered your forces to get more energy, you moved carefully to the small kitchen. Without the Mandalorian in sight, you saw a single portion of meat and veggies on the table. He still cooked for me? Surprised, you took it. Feeling instantly guilty for the way you treated him earlier. Did you go too hard on him? Maybe you should've given him a chance to explain? You blinked a few times as you felt dizzy. Nothing seemed rational at this point. You sighed as you looked to the fresher. Maybe a shower would do you some good.
Meanwhile the Mandalorian was in the cockpit. Sitting on his pilot chair as he played with a metal sphere. Rolling and passing it in between his fingers. He didn't know what to do or say to you. Not used to having company in general and for him, you were definitely a challenge. He was scared to lose what he had with you even though he knew it was wrong. He just couldn't help it. Just walking behind you in silence was killing him. All he wanted was to grab you and hold you close but he knew better than to come to you when you were angry. Still, it was killing him that you were feeling this way towards him. You were intoxicating him in the best way possible. He knew he had to make it right.
Hearing you come out of the fresher made his heart pounce. When did she come out of her room? He wondered. Sighing, he got up from the comfort of his chair, heading towards the ladder.
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You were still walking around the kitchen when you saw the man come down the cockpit. Your heart was pounding faster at the sight of him. Why am I feeling this way? Why am I nervous? He just a man, a stoic, strong, and–
He comes walking towards you slowly. “You're right, about earlier? I'm sorry. I should've said something. It wasn't fair to you. We're a team. If we are going to survive on this planet, we need to work together.” He let out as he nervously played with the tip of his gloved fingers. He took more firm steps in your direction. “I don't know how to be around you. I–I've never been.. Please forgive me cyare.”
You felt small. Even though you had your towel covering your frame, you felt much more naked than you were. You ended up simply nodding. Accepting his apology to quickly end this awful conversation.
He anxiously stroked his thumb on your jaw. “Can you–” he stopped, clearing his throat, “do you want to come sleep with me?” Asking, tilting his helmet slightly. Seeing your eyes round up at his request, he quickly corrected himself, “No uh, I don't want to sleep alone. I-I like being with you...”
You smiled shyly, nodding as you took a step forward. “Sure, I'll sleep by your side.” As he was about to turn, you quickly add, “I’m sorry too.”
He took your hand, squeezing your fingers before taking you into his room. Once inside, he took a shirt from his small closet. Putting it over your head. You could see him swallow as his fingertips brushed the side of your hips. “Here, you're going to be more comfortable.” He says before turning around and start to remove his armor. His shirt was too big on you, falling right above you knees but most importantly, it smelled like him. While waiting, you moved under the covers, watching him remove piece by piece the weapons and beskar covering his shape. Having only his helmet, shirt and pants left. You stared at him as if he was the only man left in this galaxy. Which right now, kind of feels like it. Gawking at his muscular physique showing through the fabric as he carefully places his weapons in a safe case.
He turned his helmet looking quickly at you, “sorry won't take long.”
With your cheeks all red, you smile softly, “take your time”
He chuckled at your comment. After closing the light off, you heard the hissing of his helmet before you feel him joining you in bed, “you like watching me.” he whispers, stating more than questioning.
You moved more comfortably. Adjusting yourself as he shifted closer to you. “I also like your arms around me.”
He smiled to himself, guiding your body in the dark so he could hold you from behind, “like this?” Moving his hand smoothly against your hip. His fingertips digging slightly into your flesh.
You nodded feeling your eyes heavy. Closing them before feeling his hardness in between your ass cheeks. He moved his face in the nape of your neck, breathing into your hair. “I'm sorry, I'm just happy you're here. I mean not here on this planet but—”
“Mando, sleep..” you couldn't keep yourself awake any longer. You can however, definitely get used to this. It's ridiculously how you feel comfortable and safe in his presence. You might be stuck here but you were stuck here with him. And after the day and past few weeks you've had, this was a good thing.
You woke up to the low sound of wind rustling through the walls of the ship. Branches lightly brushing the outside shell. When you began to realize where you were. The Mandalorian was still deeply asleep next to you. You felt the cold morning air moving into the ship crawling up your legs and quickly, the oversized tee that you were wearing was no longer enough.
Carefully, you got out. Making sure not to look back at him as you opened the door. You know you can't see his face. Even if technically, you could.
Entering your small room, you go directly for your clothes. Wondering what he looked like underneath his helmet. You knew he had a strong jaw and a short beard but that was all you got. You also didn't want to wonder too much since you couldn't see him anyway. After changing, you ended up getting into your own bed, not wanting to wake him up by going back in. Closing your eyes as you finally get warm and cozy under your covers.
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You woke up again, slowly hearing the door sliding open as heavy boots were walking towards you. Moving your eyes up, you meet the Mandalorian. Who was now watching you from above and he didn't look like he was in a good mood. He wore the same outfit he went to bed with but has his helmet on. “Is everything okay?” You asked worryingly rubbing your eyes, but he doesn't say a single word. “Did I do somethi— “
“–You weren't there. I woke up and you weren't there...” His voice is dry.
You sat up frowning your brows, “In your bed? I'm sorry Mando, I was cold and went to get my clothes. I just fell asleep.”
“I thought you had left.” His voice was breaking slightly. Oh, he was hurt. If you hadn't spent your time analyzing his overall body language theses pass weeks you might've missed it. And that's when you realized. He was no longer a stranger.
“I was just cold and tired. I swear I wouldn't just leave. Plus, where do you want me to go anyway? We're stuck here.”
His body stiffened at your words, “Well I'm sorry that you're stuck with me...”
“That's not what I said, and you know it. What's going on?” He turned around about to walk out of your room. “Please talk to me, I can't help if– “
He halted, his back still turned to you. “I have never removed my helmet.”
“Is this what this is about? I haven’t looked, I promise.”
He played nervously with the tips of his bare fingers. “You must understand. I never removed my helmet in front of anyone, except my son and even then, it only happened once. I– “
“Stop.” You couldn’t take it anymore. This was going in a direction that you weren't prepared for. You needed to make him understand. You needed to be honest. “I like you Din, I like you a lot.” You could feel the warmth going straight to your blushing cheeks as you said the words. But your chest started to hurt as he just turned around and stared at you motionless. You swallowed, looking around the room. Trying to quickly find a hole deep enough to hide in. You weren't the one to run away but his rejection would be too much to bear. Especially right now.
He lets out a low growl, “I do too” tilting his helmet as he moved closer. Hovering you with his broad shape. With better lighting, you could see the prominent veins crippling along his arms as he kneeled on the bed. Crawling over to come join you. His muscles twitching and contracting as he placed his semi harden cock over your mount. Moving slowly as his bare callous fingers grazed the side of your neck. “I’m sorry, he whispered, I just want you so much.” He brought them to your chin, swiping them over your bottom lip. You let out a pleasant shaky breath and that's all he needed to know before his hand reached to close the light console on the side of your bed. Removing his helmet in the process.
Your mind was going a thousand miles an hour. This felt good, so good. For the first time in a long time, you weren't thinking about anything. Simply enjoying the hands of a strong and tender man roaming your body in the dark. A smile appeared on your lips when you finally sense his, slowly moving down your neck. The air in the room felt thicker and warmer as he removed your top and his along the way.
As you tried to anchor yourself in the dark, you placed your hands flat on his chest. If you couldn’t see his face, could you at least touch it? Slowly you moved them up to the side of his neck. He stayed still, rigid even, as if he was trying to figure out what to do but didn’t stop you. You could feel his body moving slightly back as you brought your fingers to his jaw, who was clenched. Feeling his chest muscles contracting on your forearms before coarse, hard hair came poking at your fingertips. Which only sparked your curiosity. You moved them quickly to his lips. Feeling them shaking slightly while his mustache was tickling you. He was nervously breathing heavier as you moved them higher to his cheeks. Grabbing your wrist, he stopped you.
He grunted, holding the side of your head as he kissed you like a starved man, pushing his tongue inside, searching for yours. For a man who never kissed before he wasn't half bad. He was a bit sloppy, but you had a feeling that he was just really driven. Especially since he keeps grinding his cock over your clothed pussy.
Soft whimpers escaped your lips as he moved his lips to your chest. Your nipples were already hardened from the cold morning air trapped in the ship. He hummed against your skin as he grabbed one with his mouth. Holding your tits in place while making sure to squeeze them softly occasionally as he swirled his tongue around your sensitive nipples. All you could hear were your heavy breaths followed by Mando's muffled low moans. The wet noise of his plumped lips sucking and pulling lightly on your flesh made it hard not to drip everywhere.
You were getting lost in pleasure as you raked your hands into his hair. pulling them as he let go of your tits to give one single wet kiss to your belly, adjusting himself in lower. What is he doing? Feeling his fingers grabbing your pants from the inside on each side of your hips, pulling them completely off. Softly passing the back of his fingers on your thigh, he moved them gradually in between your thighs. You could hear him swallow and breathe deep. Sensing a single finger softly brushing your clit. The sensation jolts inside of you. You were way more sensitive than you thought. Making you moan instantly to his touch.
Hearing you made him chuckled as he now passed them through your folds. His fingertips were staying at your entrance, toying with you. Gliding softly in while making sure not to push too far but just enough to make you want more. “Mando please,” you finally cried out. Pressured by your pleasured pleas, he slides one inside. Slowly pushing in and out a few times before putting his whole mouth around you. This was heaven and hell as he added another finger inside. He took his time pumping his digits as he gave your engorged clit some gentle sucks here and there. You whined as soon as he pulled them away.
His sudden absence left you disoriented. Even in the pitch dark of your room, you could sense him stroke himself with your leftover slick on his hand. You brought your legs around his hips to pull him closer to you. Growing impatient to feel him inside. Trapped in between your legs, he adjusts his cock in front of your entrance. Without warning, you sank on it as you pulled him by his neck to kiss him.
Taken by surprise, he stopped moving. “Fuuck,” he grunted out. “Slow down you're, you're tight cyar’ika...” Taking your hand while you made his dick slowly disappear effortlessly inside of you.
As you adjusted yourself to him and him to you, you passed a hand on jaw, ‘’Cyar’ika?’’
You felt him smile shyly against your hand, ‘’it means sweetheart’’ Now trusting in fully, holding you by the hip. Making you wince at your sensitive cunt clenching around him before he kissed your palm. He let out some low moans as he rhythmically pushed against your core. With all that edging you were close to your release, and he knew it. Bending down he kissed you fully, “Maker cyare...”
You made him go deeper by bringing your legs around him, “Yeah?”
“Yeah...” he moaned out, feeling his lips curl against yours. It didn't take long before you start whimpering against him. Feeling that rush moving between your thighs. He followed you closely as you came together.
Feeling lightheaded as you catch your breath. He came to lay by your side, still in your pitch-black room. The only thing that was anchoring you to reality was his chest moving up and down as if he was the calmest river.
As you were wrapped in his arms, you couldn't help but wonder more about him. You never really met a Mandalorian before Din, and you were full of questions. “Were you always a Mandalorian?” You asked softly.
“No, they found me when I was a foundling. my parents were killed during the war, and they took me as one of their own.”
“I'm so sorry.”
He doesn't say anything because well there's nothing much to say. Simply passing his thumb over your shoulder. “I'm the one who's sorry, about earlier? I should've said my intentions. The crew must be informed at all times.”
“The crew uh..”
He chuckled through his nose as he pets your head. “Would you come with me? To look for the lake?”
You smile softly, “yeah, okay.” He gave your forehead a kiss as he shifted in the bed. Taking the blanket to make sure your body was covered. He quickly gathered his scattered clothes. “What if we’re really trapped here? On this planet..” You sensed Mando shifting through the darkness before hearing his voice still crisp and clear “Keep your eyes close” he asked. Now seeing red behind your eyelids, you feel his knee moving in between your thighs.
“Mando? What are you doing?”
All you could hear was his breathing, “I want to see you with my eyes, no helmet.”
Grabbing your jaw, he moved your face upward to him. You could feel his gloved thumb brushing your bottom lip before sensing his plush ones pressing onto yours. You began to feel aroused again as he pushed his tongue in, tasting you again. He smiled instantly as he saw you moved slightly against his knee. “You're so beautiful cyare.” Giving you one last peck. He let go of you before hearing the click of his helmet followed by his modulated voice. “I will always make sure that you are safe.”
“That’s not what I mean, can I open my eyes?”
“Yes”
And as you do you see your clothes already placed in front of you. You start to dress yourself, “I mean we don’t have anything. No medicine, almost no tools and we’re about to go out of food pretty soon.”
“Now it’s you who needs to stop. We’ll figure something out. We’re both warriors and resourceful. I don’t see how we couldn’t make this work.”
“Din...”
He took a deep breath, “I’ve been in worse situations..”
You smiled to him, shaking your head slightly, “you’re right. I’m sure we will find a way to get back. Anyway, if we leave for the lake now, we could be back in time before sunset.”
“Uh yeah, I'll go put my Armor on.” As he walked away, he kept thinking back to your words. Find a way to get back... He knew this planet was hostile and it wasn’t the best place to be, but he couldn’t help but feel guilty that he secretly enjoys being trapped here with you. He knew that this relationship wouldn’t work in the real world. You were way too good, way too beautiful to be with a man who you couldn’t even see his face. He knew the dangers of being here but at the same time there was nowhere else he'd want to be right now. He took a deep breath as he gets into his beskar. One day at a time, one day at a time...
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As you followed him on your way back to his quarters, you remained on guard. Even through the distance, you could feel how tense he was. Kylo was known for being unpredictable and violent, but this felt different.
Even though he appeared calm and collected, you could feel his anger in the crinkling sound of his leather gloves. Afraid it overflowed to a point of no return.
Once inside he kept his back to you. Standing still between the living room and dining table. Feeling nauseous from his lack of words. Wondering what he was thinking about. What will he do about you or worse, to you. To be totally honest with yourself, you didn't want to stay to find out.
Remaining silent, you slowly and carefully walked backwards towards the entrance. Kylo, sensing you moving and knowing exactly what you were trying to do, turned around quickly. Extending his hand towards you from across the room. Feeling the pressure compressing your waist tighter and tighter.
Within a blink of an eye, he rushed to you. Instinctively, you closed your eyes shut expecting the worst but instead he brings his other hand a few inches away from your forehead. Before you could even understand what he was doing, memories start flashing in front of your eyes as you sensed a tight pressure around your skull.
He was reading your mind again and you're trying your hardest to keep him out before he stopped on Henry. The way he made you smile when he looks at you. How excited you were seeing him after your time apart, his hand softly touching yours..
He stopped abruptly, taking a few steps back himself. In a quick motion he removed his helmet, staring down. He looked scared, confused? But you didn't give a fuck.
The fear was morphing into rage, “THOSE ARE MY THOUGHTS! You can't keep forcing yourself into my head!”
Still disoriented, he blinks a couple times before looking at you. “I think you're forgetting where you are sweetheart, who is he to you?” He asked calmly but you refused to respond. Still holding your head to the painful invasion. “I said, who is he to you?” His tone becoming darker, ordering you.
After a moment you reply voice low, “a friend.”
“Liar!” he exclaimed with disdain. “You’re just a poor pathetic girl, coming from a place no one cares about!” His harsh words coming purely from anger leaves a ball in your throat. “He clearly wants you and you can't say no, now can you..” His eyes were intensely daring you to deny his statement.
You didn't want to bend but you were also so hurt by the way he was talking to you. As if the way he previously kissed and touched you, didn't meant a thing. You have opened yourself to him in a way you never did before. You were pained but not surprised.
Maybe you were right after all. You shouldn't have trusted him to begin with. A heavy weight settling upon your chest.
“You're just a cruel man who doesn't care about anything or anyone but himself. And you know what? I do enjoy his presence. At least he's a gentleman, unlike you Ben...” Even you could hear the bitterness in your tone floating in the open.
Stunned, he stares at you with his lips parted and eyes full of questions, “What did you say?”
Uncertain of what was happening, you raised a brow “I said he's a gentleman.”
“No, my name. Where have you heard it?”
“I...“ you don't know how to respond. You couldn't exactly say that your new friends told you. Now you'd be really trapped here forever..
“What else have you also learned about me?”
Panicked, you reply trying to stop your voice from showing your nervousness, “Nothing, I heard it in the cafeteria one day, I think. Trust me, I know nothing else I swear.”
“Trust? What do you know about trust mh? The second I turned my back you go to this low life soldier”
“You lied to me.”
Now he's the one raising an eyebrow, “lied?”
“Yes, you lied.”
“About what? Tell me what did I lied to you about?” He looked so sure of himself. Making you doubt your accusation.
“Um, that I was your first-” you say extremely low.
He chuckled, smiling, “What?”
“Yes, when we–” You stop yourself. Being afraid of speaking more than you should. Finding the situation apparently amusing, he crosses his arms, waiting with a smirk for you to finish your sentence.
Ugh, does he really need to be like this right now?
With hesitation, you let out a soft sigh, “You said that I was your first.. touch. That can't possibly be true.”
Keeping his eyes on you, he walked in your direction. “Why don't you believe it?”
Suddenly, you felt anxious again. Regretting the words you spoke starting this awful conversation. “How can someone like you never.. I mean, you literally can take whatever you want.”
He stared at you with furrowed brows, almost surprised by your perception of him. “You really think I would force myself on a woman? Do you really think that low of me?” He sounded hurt, “I trained all my life. Personal relations are… a distraction.”
“You could've paid for it.”
He chuckles.
“…Yeah, some people pay for this type of service.”
He played awkwardly with the end of your hair. “Well, I'm not some people..”
“Then why me? I'm simply a poor girl coming from nowhere like you enjoy reminding me.” Saying to him coldly.
The amusement in Kylo's face quickly vanished. “I shouldn't have said that.”
“Yeah, well I know you also regret giving me more freedom by letting me stay in your quarters. You made it perfectly clear that you don’t trust me. You know you can send me back to my cell whenever you want right?”
He pursed his lips, ”Is that what you want?” He took a deep breath, looking deeper into your eyes. “I regret nothing, and I have no desire to send you back either. I never lied to you, and I don’t intend on starting now. You can trust me when I say that you are safe here.” Saying as he's still toying with your hair, wrapping stands of it around his gloved fingers. “Actually, you’re the one who lied to me. From your memories, I saw that I wasn't your first?” Your eyes widen to his words before he asks, “Who was he?”
The truth was you didn't want to talk about him. He was a bad distant memory, and you never really talked about him to anyone but your sister. You also didn't want to lie, now knowing that he could find the truth himself. But mainly because he was so transparent. You never would’ve thought that Kylo Ren could be this honest with anyone. Especially not to someone like you. So, you decide to take a page from Kylo’s book and try to be as open as he was.
“He was a boy from my home planet. Everyone in the village kept saying how good of a man he was and that we would be good together. He would always come into my shop, asking me out and so, one day I did. Before I knew it, we started to go out. A few months after, he had to move away. We slept together a couple–“ you raise your eyes to meet Kylo's. “Anyway, I don't remember much of it. It's not important.”
He stayed still, wondering where to go from here. He wanted to know more but he also knew how uncomfortable you were. Again, his curiosity took over as he asked, “Did you had feelings for him?”
Shocked by his intrusive question you step back, “How can you say that?”
“You didn't answer my questio—”
“–Well, that's because it's a rude question, it's personal.”
“I'll take it as a no.” He filled the gap between you, lifting your jaw up to him, “How about your friend? Do you have feelings for him?”
“Henry? No.”
“Are you sure?” His eyes, searching yours for the truth.
“Yes...” saying firmly, rolling your eyes.
He brought his face closer, lips almost kissing you, “And me? Do you like being with me?” You don't answer as you're searching for the answer yourself. “Please, answer me...”
“No”
“No, what?”
You bring yourself even closer to his lips, knowing how dangerous this game was about to get. “I love it, I know I shouldn't, but I do…”
A smile appeared at the corner of his lips. “Remember when you said anything I wanted?” You swallowed hard, knowing exactly what he's referring to as he passed a finger on your hip making your whole body go stiff. “I've waited for what felt like an eternity to be this close to you again. And ever since I came back, you seem to always slip through my fingers. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really need to kiss you.” His lips now lightly brushing yours. “Right now.”
You want to respond but all you could manage to do was nod. He didn't waste a second, taking you fully in his mouth. His kiss was passionately filled with lust. “You need to stop kissing me like you mean it.”
“That's because I do mean it.” Kylo's eyes were becoming more intense. Staring at you like you were the only thing in this galaxy that could quench his thirst.
With a single motion he lifted you off the floor. Bringing your legs around his hips before moving to his bedroom. A trick that he seemed to be really enjoying these days.
He dropped you slowly on his bed. Placing both of his hands on each side of your head, kissing you freely as he's hovering you. His soft tongue caresses yours sweetly. Even his spit tasted like desperation. He stopped a moment trying to catch his breath, “Is this, okay?“
You don't let him finish as you start to remove his thick belt, quickly throwing it on the floor. Moving to unbutton his jacket and he helps you by undoing the top ones. Before he could remove the last, you pulled him by the neck.
He smiled at your impatience. How did he get so lucky? He wondered. The only girl that had managed to capture his attention wanted him too. He couldn't remember the last time he felt this good. It seemed so long ago.
Now free of his jacket, you can finally feel his warmth and scent. You moved your hands under his shirt, caressing his strong and chiseled chest. Resting your palm in the middle of it, you could feel his heart beating against your skin. He doesn't stop kissing you as he moved his underneath yours as well. Covering and squeezing your entire breast with his palms.
“You're so beautiful” he breathes softly.
All you could do was smile as he brought himself lower, pulling your shirt over your head. You begin to feel nervous. Even if you had done it with him before, this was different. You cared about him.
What happens after this? Was all of this just temporary?
After a moment of kissing your chest, he noticed your mind slowly drifting away. “Hey, we can stop if you don't want to.”
“What?”
“I want to do that with you, all of you.”
Surprised you search for your words, “I-I’m sorry. I just like you a lot and-”
“A lot huh?” Asking with a smirk. “Can you define a lot?”
“Enough to make me nervous...”
“Well, I am too, plus you clearly have more experience than me...” He says in a teasing tone.
You gasped, eyes wide open as you hit him on the shoulder, “not fair!”
“You're right, I'm sorry.” Bringing himself back to you. Kissing your jaw and neck delicately. Wanting desperately to go back to his important business, “Does it mean that you feel for me Hyal?”
And then you sense it again, that magnetic attraction towards him. If he was so wrong for you, why does this feel so right? This is the connection you've been searching for your whole life. This intimacy, this vulnerability. There was something alluring about Kylo, and definitely something to love about Ben. The duality in him was intoxicating and you wouldn't have it any other way. Tilting your head away, you made room for him to do whatever he wanted to. “What if I said yes?” You respond softly.
You could feel his lips curl against your skin. “Then I would say that also feel the same.” as he answered, moving his tongue flat along the side of your neck. Feeling the warmth going straight in between your legs as you let out some soft whimpers. Letting him know that you wanted him too.
He grunted low hearing you make noises for him. Moving his kisses rapidly back to your chest. After detaching your bras, he took a moment admiring you. Holding them in his hands gently before grabbing one with his mouth. Taking his time sucking on it. Switching between them while twirling the tip of his tongue around your hardened nipples. “Oh Ben, that feels so good”
He smiles, seeing you enjoy his touch. Which only made him hornier as he starts to rub his hardness over your mount. Licking them a few more times before moving down the bed. He removed your bottoms completely before placing himself in between your legs. Feeling his breathing followed by a soft pillowy push on your clit.
Did he just kiss my pussy?
As if he could hear your thoughts, he brushed his tongue gently over it. Making you finally relax as Kylo grabbed your legs going in fully. Tasting and licking you in between your folds. He was famished, watching you moan and twitch for him. He loved the view he got down there. Your body twisting with each stroke. Only giving you short breaks to calm down a bit before going back in. This time putting his tongue inside you as he uses his thumb to circle your slippery bud.
The sensation becoming unbearable, “This is torture.” You say desperately in between your exhausted moans.
Which only made him want it more. “I'm sorry Hyal, I just love watching you...” He lets you rest briefly as he removed the rest of his clothes.
The truth was that you were exciting him too much. All of this was new to him, and it was truly overwhelming. Afraid to cum first, he wanted you to enjoy as much as you can possibly handle. Knowing that once you were on edge, he wouldn't have to hold back as long. Plus he just loved staring at you in total heat for him as you wait patiently for his cock.
Coming back to you, he rubbed his thick tip between your folds, “No matter with who you are, no matter where, I want you to know and remember that your true place is with me.” He says, pushing the tip of his cock in and out, teasing your entrance.
You were starting to feel overwhelmed by the sensation, desperate to cum. But he was enjoying seeing you, undone for him. “And mine, with you” he followed, now pushing in fully.
You gasped sharply, still not familiar with his thickness and length filling you in this quickly. He grinded slowly, giving you time to adjust as he admired you from above. Holding your legs up to his chest as he went deeper. Moving gently by fear of hurting you. You were quite small compared to him, making him always scared to crush you.
Although as soon as he heard your begging moans, he moved faster. Your juices were fully coating him and overspilling on the sheets. He knew you wouldn't last long.
Spreading your legs, Kylo moved closer to your lips. Holding you by the hips as he was now breathing hard and thrusting inside of you faster. No longer able to hold back, you cum on him shamelessly and as soon as he felt your body relaxing, knowing for sure that you had finished, he let out a muffled moan.
Moving slow a couple more times as he rides the waves of pleasure. He kissed you, moving his hand up to push the hair out of your face. “Hi...”
“Hi back.” trying to hide your bliss unsuccessfully.
“You make me feel too good.” He breathed out, laying his head on your chest.
You adjusted yourself, moving your hand through his damp sweaty hair, “You're saying it like it's a bad thing.”
Your words sting him. “I don't know yet”
He didn't want it to be a bad thing, but he also didn't know you that well. All he knew was that The First Order was at war, and he had to stay vigilant especially in times like these.
“Can I ask you something?” He tilted his head back noticing how sleepy you were getting. “I was captured months ago, why now?”
“What do you mean?”
“Why am I meeting you now? Why was I captured?”
He took a moment before replying. Pondering and searching for the right words. “I don't know why you were captured.”
“What...”
“We went on your planet thinking we would find some information about a rebel base, but we found nothing. I wasn't even aware that we took prisoners. I was informed of your presence on the ship about a week before we met.”
“Are you saying that I'm on this ship by mistake?” That's it, you start to freak out.
“Technically yes but no...” You stopped moving completely now, totally in shock. He looked up to you nervously, “I was ordered to find a rebel base. We had a lead, but the lead changed and then, I was told that we still had prisoners which I wasn't aware of to begin with. So, I decided to interrogate them before moving from the lead completely. Then I met you, and then I was ordered to kill you.”
“What??” You say, cutting him right off.
“But I didn't want to. Plus, I couldn't read your mind, so I didn't know if you knew something worth knowing.”
After a moment you finally relax, trying to make sense of the situation. Taking a deep breath before resting your eyes.
“But now you can...”
“I can’t fully do it and I don’t want too anyway. I didn't act the way I should've. I was angry and childish, and I do believe we can be honest with each other. Please you must trust me.”
“Why do you sound afraid?” you muttered.
He took a moment before answering. Enjoying being this close and intimate with you. Breathing out as he softly squeezed the side of your stomach, “I'm afraid I might lose something.”
“And why is that?”
“I'm not good. I break things, I destroy... kill. Everything I touch burns.”
“Well, I'm here, still in one piece and alive I believe.” Keeping your eyes closed as you slowly drifted away.
He smiled to himself knowing he completely drained you. After a moment, he got up, coming back with a warm and dampen washcloth. Cleaning you gently before joining you under the covers.
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The following morning you woke up to the sound of Kylo stirring a spoon in his mug. “I have something for you.” Hearing the words coming from the other room. Knowing you were now fully awake.
As you got out of bed to greet him. You saw him already dressed and back into his supreme leader’s uniform, pointing you to a pile of fabrics.
“Clothes?” You confirmed as you walked closer.
“They will fit you better.”
He was intensely staring at you, watching you get dressed in front of him. Knowing well enough that he could no longer look inside your head like he did yesterday.
The way you reacted when he did, made it clear that he could've lost you right there. Things could've gone in a totally different direction, and he was happy they didn't. He was grateful that you chose to trust him and so he needed to do the same with you.
The clothes were comfortable. Black leggings and a long sleeve dress that was distressed at the bottom. Feminine and airy. One shoulder even had the emblem of the first order embroidered in dark gray. “How do I look?” You asked smiling.
“It doesn't matter what you wear. In fact, I prefer when you wear nothing at all...”
You automatically roll your eyes as you tied your boots, “That wouldn't be practical.”
He came closer to you. Pushing the hair off your shoulder, “Don’t need to be when you're with me.” He took your hand, pulling you up before giving you a kiss. “I have to go; I'm going to be late. Promise me you'll behave in my absence.”
“What do you mean in your absence?”
He sighed, “I was supposed to have more time to myself, but I have been called to the base. Shouldn't be more than a couple of days.”
“Already? But you just came back.” you protest defeated.
“It's only for a couple of days, I promise.” You nodded as he gave you one more kiss before leaving quickly.
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It's been two days since Kylo was gone and you were already missing him. You were so bored on this ship. Nothing was exciting or somewhat interesting. As you were sitting on the couch you noticed the third door again. Still wondering what was inside of it. You got up hoping this time it might be unlocked but like last time, it wasn’t.
You sighed as you looked around the room. You didn't like having no news from him. You knew that anything could happen. Even if he was strong and powerful, he was still capable of bleeding. All this worrying was making you anxious. So, you decide to get out and try to see what your friends were up to.
As you walked the corridors. You suddenly got lightheaded. Stopping for a moment to take a deep breath. As you’re reaching the entrance of the cafeteria, you noticed Henry and Eira. Greeting them as you sit at their table.
She smiled to you, “We thought you were gone; it's been a while.”
“Yeah well, I needed some time.” You let out, sheltering your eyes with your hand from the ceiling lights.
“That's okay. Seeing you reminds me. I learned something the other night when we were talking about you know who.” Henry looks at her puzzled. “Yeah, we were talking about some rebels, and I learned that Kylo killed his own father.”
Henry was in shock, “What? How? What do you mean he killed his own father?”
Eira nodded, “yeah, I know right? Who would do something like that?”
You let out deep breaths as you struggled to keep your eyes open. Henry, noticing that something was wrong, stared at you worryingly.
“Are you okay?” were the last words you heard, feeling an arm around you before your eyes shut closed completely.
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You only been working here for 3 months. Getting everyone their coffees and scripts. Making sure that everything goes as smoothly as possible for the cast members and directors. But this internship was getting on your last nerve. How can anyone survive these boring and unchallenging tasks. This is truly unfulfilling you tell yourself as you eat your lunch alone in the cafeteria. You only took the job because you needed to be more “involved on set and understand the flow” as your professor puts it.
As you play with your macaroni salad with a plastic spoon, you hear someone entering the room. By instinct, you bring your eyes up to meet a handsome man.
“Oh, sorry I didn’t mean to disturb..” cutting himself mid-sentence.
“Oh no, no worries, you're not.” You reply mindlessly not fully realizing that it's Hayden Christensen who just entered the break room. You wouldn't say that you're easily starstruck, but you must admit, he looks better in person.
He smiles timidly, going towards the coffee machine. “Got to have my caffeine. I- woke up early.” saying nervously.
Watching him try to make small talk is utterly painful. He doesn't need to talk to you. So why is he acting so weird?
“Busy?” You asks, trying to sound casual.
“Yeah, I mean, I was in Seattle yesterday. Matter of fact I just landed here not even two hours ago.” Saying as he clicks a plastic lid on his coffee cup. “What's your name? Wait don't tell me. This way I know I'll see you again.” He smiles to you before looking at his watch. “I'm really sorry, I have to go. See you around I guess..”
“Bye” you finally speak out, but he was already out the door. What the fuck just happened?
For the rest of the day, you couldn't stop thinking about the most pathetic celebrity encounter you have ever had in your life, yet. I mean he's a big celebrity and he's busy. He said so himself. It's not like you're going to see him again, right?
“Hey newbie, the director wants a round of coffee. He's also asking if you contacted the new hairstylist to see if they can come tomorrow instead of Wednesday?”
“I did, she said yes, and I'll go get them shortly.” You reply nonchalantly. The other assistant simply smiles at you before walking away. Ugh, can this day be any worse? This is the 5th coffee run today and you only have an hour left to your shift. Without wasting any time, you go straight to your car. Not wanting to stay overtime again. Especially not today. Once behind the wheel, you sigh as you decide to have a look at your face. Jeez, I really look tired. I can't believe I just met him looking like this. What am I saying? It's not like I have a chance anyway..
With 10 min left to your shift, you only have a couple coffees left to deliver. Opening the director's office door. You quickly recognize Hayden’s side profile.
What is he still doing here? Never mind, just stay professional.
“I'm here Jay, bringing the hot!” You say with a bright smile.
You hear a clear sigh coming from Hayden’s direction as you put the coffees on the meeting's table. As you try to look discreetly in his direction, you're met with his intense gaze. Why is he looking at me like that? He wasn't like that earlier.. Did I do something wrong?
“Thank you, I really needed that. Hey, listen kid, would you mind staying later tonight?” Jay asks casually while scribbling in his notebook.
“I–“ tonight is Halloween night and some of your friends invited you to join them at a party. Usually, you would've said no but this job had been so draining lately. You just want a little break.
He stops writing to look at you properly, “I know you've been staying late a lot but that's only because I trust you kid. You're doing an incredible job here..”
“I'm okay with it, I mean that's the least I can do before I leave.” You say calmly trying to not let your annoyance show through.
He gives you a weak smile before returning to his scribbles. “Anita was looking for you earlier, I think she's in costume right now.”
“I'll go check, anything else?”
“I think you'll be pretty busy with her tonight, I'll let you work with her. If anything, I'll fetch you.”
You nod before turning around. Fighting back the urge to look at Hayden again before leaving. Stay professional, this will never happen. We don't want him to think you're just another stupid fan. Just stay cool..”
You sigh walking towards Anita’s workshop. As you walk the corridors, you feel a strong hand gripping your arm. You turn to a taller men with frowning brows.
“Hey, um, I'm sorry. It's just I've been yelling and–“ You look to Hayden puzzled. “I guess what I'm trying to say is, um, ask, would you go out after with me?”
You look at him like you have a million questions inside your head. While he looks at you anxiously waiting. “I work late tonight.”
He nervously passes a hand in his hair, “right, yes, that's true. Shit, I'm sorry I shouldn't have bothered you. Have a great night..” he says looking at the floor, slowly walking away.
What the actual fuck? Ugh, I'm going to regret this.. “I'm off at 11.” Raising your voice to make sure he hears you.
He smiles as he faces you. “What's fun to do around here at 11?”
His smile is truly contagious, making you blush automatically, “I was invited for a Halloween party-”
“Cool, I'll come back to pick you up 11:30” walking away once again before you could place another word.
Oh jeez, what did I get myself into..
--
You were doing some final make up touches before heading out the door. This year's last-minute costume is a vampire. As you're drawing some electric reddish veins underneath your eyes you can't stop thinking about the fact that you're going to a party with fucking Hayden Christensen. How did this happen? How are you going to explain this to your friends? This is going to be a big problem. You try to calm yourself down. Telling yourself that this is just a friendship situation. Omg is he a womanizer? No, that can't be it. He looked way too nervous to be one, right?
It's 11:35 and you're patiently waiting outside when a car enters the driveway. Seeing it's him, you walk towards the car, opening the door. As you're putting your seatbelt on, you can feel the heavy energy in the air as if you were being observe.
“Wow” you hear him say softly in a low voice. “You really look good.” Shyly, you bring your eyes up to be met by his, looking at you shamelessly. He clears his throat quickly as he realize his behaviour, “where to?” he finally asks.
“Omg”— “What??”
“You can't wear that.” You say almost horrified.
He laughs knowing exactly what you’re referring to. “It’s not that bad”
“This, this is your Anakin costume..” you state gesturing his outfit.
“Don't worry about it.”
“Do you seriously believe that this is discrete? Everyone will know it's you. You have a pretty memorable face you know.”
He laughs even more, “So I've been told. Stop, I told you, don't worry. Just tell me where it is.”
“I don't know if I should, maybe you're a kidnapper.” you say nonchalantly.
He tries not to laugh as he bites his lower lips. “Then we can stay here.”
“We?”
“Yeah, I mean don't get me wrong I like a party as much as the next person but, I want to know you. I don't mind where we are as long as I can talk to you.”
You can't control your smile as you feel warmth in your stomach. Suddenly the self-doubts and questioning just fades away. This is a date.. omg, you're on a date with him.. you clear your throat, “I’d like to go, I really need this.”
“Stressed?” Asking as he punches the address in the map app and starts to drive.
“You could say that.”
“Yeah, I'm familiar with the feeling. The ‘set’ life isn't always glamorous.”
“You're an actor, it's different, you're the star.”
He bites his bottom lip before replying, “well, the pressure is like no other. There are so many fans, so many critics. You need to have a thick skin. Plus you have to put yourself in so many weird situations. Trust me, it's stressful.”
“Yeah, I guess you're right, I never saw it like that.” You replied as he smiles softly. You notice that you've been quite comfortable in his presence compared to earlier this morning. He looks so self-assured and in control of himself you tell yourself. How can he be so grounded?
During the ride you finally get to relax and enjoy your small talks. That was until you finally arrive at the party. Now all you can think about is the fact that your plus one is Hayden. As you both walk towards the house door, you can already hear the music blasting from outside.
“Heyyy!!”—“You came!” You hear your friends calling.
“Yeah, I actually just finished work–“
“–OMG are you the real Anakin? Like the actor?”— “I think his name is Hayden.”— “that's not him, that can't be him.”
“Yeah, well, I always been told we looked alike, so I went with an Anakin costume this year.” Hayden responds smiling casually to the others.
“You don't say” —”well it’s uncanny, you really do look like him.” One girl lets out.
You roll your eyes, “stop bothering my friend. Anyways, we're gonna have a look around, we'll be right back” stating as you both walk away. “I told you that dressing as Anakin was a bad idea..” you say leaning towards him.
He turns his head slightly to you as he tries to hear you better over the loud music, “Then let's get out of here. You know, to a place we can actually hear each other?”
“Yeah, let's get out.” You reply and he doesn't waste a second. Guiding you back to the car. “Where now?” You ask as you put on your seatbelt back on.
“I know a place near.”
As you watch the car lights passing over him. You can't help but smile, he is so handsome, so hot.. Especially in his battle attire. “You do that often?”
“What do I do often?” Glancing quickly in your direction.
“Kidnapping interns on set.”
He automatically let out some low giggles. “Ahh, huh, um no..” he answered shyly. “I don't..” Before you could place a word, he enters a hidden dirt road.
“Oh, so you did plan to murder me.”
He gives you a smirk, “Nah, you're way too pretty for me to kill..”
--
After a moment you stop in front of a wooden bridge. “What is this place?”
“Patience” he simply respond as he stops the car. “Come”
You follow him without hesitation, crossing the bridge before going deeper into the woods. “Is it safe?” You asks voice worried.
He takes your hand as he leads, “I used to come here all the time when I was a teenager.”
“You grew up here?”
He chuckles, “No, my aunt lived nearby. I used to visit every summer for a month with my mother.”
After a few minutes of walking off road you finally arrived at a secluded part of a lake. “Woah, it's so pretty.. I lived here all my life, and I never knew this place existed.” You were truly amazed by the view. The moon was almost full. Shining it's light on the lake like diamonds on calm waters. Making everything a little more visible in this otherwise very dark night.
“I can't believe it, it's still there-” you hear him say from afar. You glanced at him, watching him drag a tree trunk towards you. “-Look” he says pointing to a part of the trunk.
·The true Skywalker was here·
You smile as you read it, “You wrote that? How fitting, you're even dress for the occasion.” You state gesturing to his costume.
“Ha, yeah, I haven't come here in ages. Last time I came to visit, I made a little stop here. I had just received the call to play Anakin and I knew the role would change my life. I know it sounds stupid but, I wanted something to remember the old me by.” He responds as he looks at you nervously. “You're really beautiful tonight.” saying low, almost a whisper. Coming to close the gap between you.
“Thank you, and no, it’s not stupid. I actually think it’s pretty cool..” You don't know if it's the proximity, his firm yet soft voice or the fact that you would literally do anything he'd ask you to, but you can already feel the pulsing need in between your legs. Is he really going to kiss me? You wondered.
As if he could hear your mind, he presses his pillowy lips softly against yours. Humming as he does. “Since I saw you this morning this is all I can think about.”
“What?” You ask confused.
“I couldn't look away; you were constantly on my mind. I had to know you more.” He says passing his hands on your chest over the clothes. “Is this, okay? C-can I know more of you?”
You swallow, “yes of course, I'd love to.” trying not to sound too desperate.
He smirks and omg, his smile mixed with desire is to die for. He goes back to your mouth with his lips slightly parted. Pushing his tongue gently inside. Jeez even his spit is sweet. Meanwhile, his hands were going underneath your shirt, moving upwards. He growls low when reaching your nipples. Brushing them lightly with his cold fingertips before he starts to flicker them.
You try to stay grounded but it's becoming really difficult. His eyes were burning with desire as he watch you melt under his touch. “Wow, we just started and you're already so needy.”
“I'm sorry” you say slightly embarrassed.
“Don't be, I love it.” He purrs, moving slightly lower as he brings your shirt up, exposing your entire chest to him. “Mm, would you look at that. They're already hard and ready for me.” Stating as he brings his wet lips around your hardened nipple. Giving it some gentle sucks as his thumb flickers and rolls the other one.
Oh god, this feels amazing.
He hums deep, switching between them as his mouth licks and bites them gently. You're pretty sure that if he doesn't stop you might just cum like this. “Fuck, you're so hot. I bet you also feel so good and soft elsewhere” You nod while moaning as you feel the need growing inside you belly. “Can I feel you?”
“Yes, please, anything.”
He smiles kissing your lips, nibbling at your bottom one. He starts to undo his belt and you automatically drop to your knees. “Hey, that's not– “
“I want to.” you say smiling against his bulge. You start to unzip his pants letting his harden cock spring free. Geez even his penis is gorgeous. Long and thick with a little bead of precum already leaking from the tip. You can clearly see the veins pumping as it twitches with anticipation.
“Are you still sure?” He asks laughing discretely. Aware of your startled eyes.
You don't bother to answer as you start to shyly lick the tip of it. You hear him chuckle softly as he closes his eyes to the pleasure. Which only drives you with more heat as you start to stretch your mouth around him. “Ugh, this feels soo good sweetheart. You're doing such a great job” his words are only encouraging you to finally take it full. Sucking him like you never sucked before. Gaging slightly when you made it hit the back of your throat, but it didn't matter. Because his moans and panting were the best reward you ever had. His head falls back as his pleasure grow.
Becoming desperate, you needed some relief. Bringing your hand down, you begin to play with yourself while still moaning around his cock.
He quickly notices it as he passes his hand in your hair. Petting your head before grabbing a fist full of it. “Argh fuck yes, you're so fucking good baby. So, fucking good with this mouth, omg. Such a pretty mouth on such a pretty babe.”
The praises are just too much. You can feel him fighting the urge to thrust into your mouth. Making touch yourself with desperation as he almost chokes up. “Wait, are you going to cum like this?” You nod as you continue to pump him inside your mouth. Feeling your sweet release near. “Oh, fuck..” he says surprised, “I didn't know you were so needy.” as he's softly pinching one of your nipples.
And that does it. You finally feel the waves of pleasure as your eyes closes slightly. Having your mouth fully open during your peak, making his cock loosely slides freely on your tongue. “Shit, you're so hot when you come like that. Please, can I come on your chest?”
You simply smile as you present your bare chest to him. Playing with your nipples, rolling them in between your fingers. You watch him stroke himself as he grunts low. Panting as he brings himself closer to the edge. “Agh, you're so god damn pretty..” He finally cums, letting his juices drip freely drip on your nipples.
As you softly open your eyes to the low humming of the ship. You move your hand to the rest of the empty mattress. Realizing that you were indeed alone. Fully opening them, you quickly start to remember where you were.
Oh maker, I'm in his room..
Now fully awake at the realization, you slowly remember the previous night, having a hard time processing it. Your chest was suddenly moving faster, knowing how much of a traitor this was making you.
You were an ally to the jedis and to the resistance. Just like your parents were before you and you just slept with Kylo fucking Ren... As you racked your hands in your hair trying to recollect yourself, you let out a deep sigh. You had just woken up and were already feeling drained.
You finally calmed down and glanced at his empty pillow. Which gave you an instant pinch in your chest, and just like that, you couldn't stop your mind from going back to his soft and plumped lips. Twitching as he was moving closer. His eyes, deeply looking at you with desire.
How could someone be so violent and yet be this gentle? Thinking back on how the rage was consuming him as he previously choked the guard. The horror you felt seeing him igniting the red beam of his sword. The one that brought so much destruction and fear across the galaxy.
It didn’t take long for you to hear your stomach growl. Finally getting up and out of the bed, you moved slowly to the kitchen. Living life on a ship was truly a different experience than the one you had on land.
You missed the warmth of the sun on your bare legs in the morning. Sunbathing on the balcony with your caf in hand. Here, the air was recycled and for some reason, always cold. To be completely honest with yourself, the dark colors of the ship gave you more goosebumps than the cold air.
As you’re making some eggs on the stove behind the counter, you heard the swooshing sound of the front door opening.
Maker he's already back. You tell yourself, not being mentally prepared to face him again.
You could feel your heart beating faster as the heavy steps were coming closer to the kitchen. But you saw a man turning the corner with a small cart instead. Giving you a wave of instant relief.
He was tall, with dark hair and defined features. He was not only wearing the ship’s uniform. He also had the official cap and badges completing the ensemble.
You stood there like a deer caught in headlights, hair all over the place with a spatula in hand. Trying to cover your thighs as much as you could with the oversize tee you were wearing. Even behind the counter, you still felt naked.
“Oh, I am sorry miss. I didn’t.. It's usually empty. I’m simply the cleani.. I can come back later.”
You couldn't help but smile timidly at his anxious avoidance. ´He looks really cute’, telling yourself as you're trying to focus. “It’s okay. I’m actually new here, kind of.. You can carry on, I was going out anyway.”
The man took a moment, staring at you as you return to your cooking. After a moment you peek at him through the fallen hair hiding parts of your face. “Yes?”
He cleared his throat, “Isn’t it a bit late to be going to work? The day shift has already started.”
You gave him a smile before replying, “I don’t have a job, yet. Like I said, I am quite new here..”
“Right, sorry for my intrusion.”
“Don't mind it. I enjoy your company. It has been weeks since I've talked to an actual human being and not guards or droids.” rolling your eyes sideways.
He walked closer to the kitchen island. “Well, I’m Henry. Nice to meet you.” Smiling as he showed you his hand to take.
“You can call me Viper..” moving slightly forward to shake it with yours.
“Cool, well.. I better start if I want to live for the next 24 hours.” He breathes out as he's going through his cleaning supplies.
“Do you know where I can find work?”
He thought of it before answering, “Well I heard they need help in electrical. Wiring, to be precise. I can give a word for you if it’s somethi-”
“Yes! Please, I would really appreciate it.” cutting him off as you smile brightly.
--
In the meantime, Kylo Ren was sitting in his office with his chair turned and facing the window. The light coming from it was softly hitting half of his face and body as he was watching the calm darkness of space.
He had woken up early, not being able to keep himself asleep while being so close to you. He didn't want to leave the ship for duties just yet. Even though he knew absolutely nothing about you, no amount of time seemed to be enough. He was tested by his curiosity and now, you were all he could think about.
I can’t keep losing control like this.
He let out a deep sigh as he stood from his chair, putting his helmet on. I’m going to be gone for a couple of weeks. That should be enough to forget about her, right? ..And her, me…
As he moved through the hallways, he heard a familiar voice nearby. He halted, moving his body to the corner of the wall while listening closely.
“Thank you for helping me clean the place that was nice of you.” A man says.
“I told you; I enjoyed it..” The familiar voice responded gently.
Laughing, “You must be the only one I know who does. See you around, Viper..” As he moved away, you smiled shyly to the back of him, pressing your lips together.
A pinch in his chest made Kylo step behind you quickly, “making friends I see.”
Your blood ran cold as you hear the static of his modulated voice. He was hovering you with his height. Looking as intimidating as the day you first saw him.
His mask was analyzing you as you tried to keep control of yourself. You haven’t done anything wrong but somehow it felt like you did.
Seeing you avoidant and playing with your shirt, made him mad. As a result, he pushed you back into the wall behind you. Giving you no other choice than to fall into it. By default, you try to take as little space as you can manage between his broad arms placed on each side of your head. He had his way of making you feel small and today was no exception.
“Unless he’s more than a friend...” Suggesting as he tilts his mask to the side.
“No, I was simply helping him with his tasks I swear.” answering while staring at your feet. “I don't even know him. I just met him.”
He took a harsh breath before removing his helmet with one hand, “look at me.” But you were too scared to look. Only gave him a quick glance before returning your gaze down. “I said look at me, Viper...” saying your name in a low, firm tone.
You swallowed, looking up to meet his eyes properly. They were small and dark from stress and lack of sleep. His plump lips twitching as he was staring at yours. “Viper, I have to say, it suits you well.” saying softly. “Now how does one acquire a name like that?”
“My father gave it to me before he passed.” You say, trying your best to keep your voice steady. You didn't want to lie, but you don't want to tell the whole truth either.
“What about the boy, mh?.. I thought we were going to be honest with each other.”
“I met him this morning, I swear nothing happened.” you protest.
He scowled, “well you knew nothing of me...” stating as he took his hand to cover the side of your head before closing his eyes. As he focuses, you feel the same aura and feeling you sensed while he was thrusting inside you the previous night. The white and warm light radiating around him.
He was searching your mind as you randomly see memories coming to you quickly. Starting to breathe faster, you felt a drop of sweat tickling the edge of your hairline. You try to fight the invasion as much as you can, but it stopped on a memory you formed this very morning. The one blushing as you saw Henry in your oversize tee. Trying to stretch the fabric down to cover your legs.
Suddenly, Kylo pushed himself back, as he watched you fall on your knees.
“You were almost naked.” he urges, his voice becoming dangerous. “What happened!?”
“You saw what happened, why are you asking me?” saying while calming yourself down.
“I want to hear it from you.”
You peeked at him through your fallen hair in disbelief. “He came in to clean your quarters. At first, I thought it was you. I was cooking, I thought I was alone. He presented himself and that's it. We talked about a jo-”
“The desire..” he says through his teeth.
Okay now you were extremely confused. “Desire? What desire?”
Trying to make sense of what just happened, He took a moment before speaking. He was used to entering people’s minds and even controlling them, but this felt weird, even for him. He was able to feel your emotions like they were his. Something he had never experienced before, and he wasn’t sure he wanted to after this.
“The one you have for him.” eyes daring you to say otherwise.
Your lips parted as you were slowly panicking. “I-I just find him cute. That’s all, I swear.”
His hand twitched as he looked deeply into your eyes, searching for the truth. He could see how frightened you were but also how sincere. He knew he couldn't fight it as he came back to you slowly. Bending slightly, he took your hands and used them to pull you back on your feet.
He gently pushed the hair out of your face with the back of his fingers before passing his thumb over your lips. Staring at them, he moved his hand to grab the side of your jaw. “I have to leave for a while, but I trust you will follow our agreement.” Seeing him clench his teeth before looking into your eyes. Fighting the urge to taste you on his lips. “You must sleep in my quarters. That is the only place I know you will be-”
“Safe, I know. Don’t worry about me. I’m a big girl.” stating smiling.
“It’s not you I'm afraid of.” he grimaced, “promise me.”
“I promise” you confirm before letting out a deep sigh.
Without a word, he puts his helmet back on and walked away.
--
Weeks have gone by without any news of Kylo Ren. While the crew was more relaxed and carefree, you were learning your new job stress free. Thanks to Henry’s recommendation, you were now fully working in electrical.
In fact, you were already being left alone to fix some bad wiring that was previously done by a guy who allegedly died in battle. If you were completely honest with yourself, he didn’t seem to have a clue about what he was doing.
It was all a mess; everything was badly connected while other pieces were simply missing. You let out a bored moan as you laid back into the corner of the tight space. Sliding down along the wall before sitting on the floor.
You felt quite lonely on the ship. No one was really chatting with you since you were sleeping in the supreme leader’s quarters. They weren't particularly mean to you, but gossip was spreading quickly among the crew. The only friend you had was Henry and sadly, your schedules were not working in your favor. Kylo was gone for a while now and you still didn't know what you felt about him since your last encounter.
He's a horrible man. He brought way too much destruction to the galaxy for me to fraternize with him, I just can't.
As you examine the back of your hands placed on your knees, you remembered your last night with him. The one you have been trying for weeks to forget. His touch, his intoxicating smell. You knew you wanted all of those again and that alone terrified you.
While being lost in your thoughts, you were toying with the bracelet your sister made you back home. Smiling to yourself, you couldn't help but wonder what she would think of you if she knew you slept with literally the worst person in the galaxy and still wanted more.
While rolling the threads in between your fingers, you think back to Kylo and the way he said your name, Viper..
Since your parent’s death no one has ever called you by your real name, not even your sister. They were the ones who gave the nickname to you after a successful mission destroying one of the first order’s bases. Along with your successful mission, your codename had become your identity.
Oh maker, it’s today...
--
The day was a long one for Kylo. His only desire for weeks was to come back to the finalizer knowing you'd be there. He couldn’t wait to finally get back on his ship. He very much regretted not kissing you goodbye. You've been haunting his dreams with the smell of your hair and soft skin ever since he left.
He was still trying to figure out how your connection worked. How he was able to finally see a little more in your head but also feel you the way he did. As much as he wanted not to, he quickly realized that keeping himself away from you was not the right approach. His emotions were controlling him furthermore each day and it scared the shit out of him.
For now, he was simply excited to see you as he walked inside his quarters. Although, the smile behind his mask quickly vanished as he glanced around the empty space. His assistant had previously confirmed that you would be here and yet, you were not.
Even if he wasn’t on the finalizer, he kept an eye on you. He had heard about your new job and schedule, and knew you were supposed to be done by now.
He calls to double check in the electrical but apparently no one has seen you for hours. His mind draws him back quickly to the boy he saw you talking to.
What if she had moved on? Did she used me? Maybe I scared her too much before leaving? What if she had escaped?
His fears were getting the best of him as he pushed the side of his com-link angrily, “Find her” ordering, swirling back into the hallway.
After almost an hour of searching, a soldier came to him. “We have found no trace of the women, Sir.”
He sighed, “what about the tie fighters?”
“We have stopped the departures. We also have the right numbers in inventory. No anomalies have been reported with the ones who did leave earlier today, Sir.” the men stated.
“This means she's still on board.” Getting angrier thinking of the memory he read out of you before leaving. The way you felt seeing that boy, the desire. “You don’t stop until you find her.” Commanding him as his fingernails were digging into the leather of his gloved palms.
The trooper nodded before turning away quickly to inform the others. Meanwhile, Kylo was trying to calm himself down, but it was useless. He could literally visualize you kissing the boy like you kissed him. Giving yourself the way you did with him. He did not know much about you; he didn't know how much he could trust you.
As he was spiraling, he felt a soft breeze on his skin. Which was odd since he was covered from head to toe with fabrics. The goosebumps were going right up the nape of his neck.
Without hesitation he began following the energy that was pulling him. The sensation felt cold and bluish the closer he got to it. After a moment, he finally stopped in front of a closet door with a hand going to his hip. Unaware of what's on the other side, he unclipped his lightsaber before bracing himself in a combat position. He took a deep breath in, moving his hand to the control panel on its side.
The moment it opened, his gaze was automatically drawn to you, sitting on the floor. He slowly dropped his arms as he watched you bring your red, puffy eyes to him. The rage that was boiling inside him, was now completely gone. You looked at him in shock, thinking you were going to meet the maker. Still silent, he pulled his helmet off.
“You're back...” you say sniffling.
“What happened?” he asked softly.
Instead of answering, you moved your gaze down. Wrapping your arms around your legs and bringing them closer to your body.
“Did someone do something to you? Are you hurt?” tensing as he questioned.
You lightly shook your head, “no, it's just me. I remembered a bad day, a sad day.”
He pressed his lips, unsure of what to do before entering the small, confined closet. His body quickly filling the tight space as he walked to you, squatting down to your level before he pushes the hair out of your face. “I can't help you if you don't tell me, hyal.”
You could see how genuine he was, but you didn't want to talk about it. You had tried your best over the years not to let it affect you, but it was almost impossible on days like this one.
“My parents...” you couldn't stop the tears from falling down your cheeks, your voice still full of emotions. “They died on this day. I just miss them so much and I feel so alone.”
He took a moment looking at you, “I'm sorry for your parents.” Pushing the hair out of your face, “but you're not, you're not alone.”
You dry your eyes with the back of your sleeves, trying to smile.
He lets you take a moment to come back to yourself before pressing the side of his com-link on his wrist. “I found her, you can stop the search. I’ll take it from here.” He lets out a sigh looking straight at you. “Are you ready to go?”
You nodded as he helped you get back on your feet. “What did you mean by stop the search?”
“You're a difficult one to find” he replies, giving you a soft smirk.
--
As you enter his quarters, you realized that he didn’t put his helmet back on. Noticing his eyes with better lighting. They looked more tired than usual. He quickly glanced at you before moving towards the bathroom. “I need to take a shower, I'll be back.”
Being finally alone again, you remained unmoved. Closing your eyes in an attempt to re-center yourself. Your reunion happened as weirdly as his departure.
You didn’t want to talk to him about how they died or how he is part of the issue. By fear, you also did not want to mention how much you're missing your sister. The First Order was the reason of your parent's death, and you promised yourself that it would never be hers.
Although, a part of you felt happy that Kylo was back. You just wished that he had found you in better circumstances.
What was he like before becoming Supreme Leader? Was he always in the First Order? Probably not, otherwise he wouldn’t be as gentle as he is with you, right?
While you were changing out of your work clothes, you couldn't help but smile softly thinking about him. You liked having him near you. Even though he made you feel a little anxious at times.
He came out of his shower already fully clothed. Catching him pass in front of the bedroom door, he was moving to the kitchen to pour himself a glass of water from the sink.
You can't help but notice how imposing and stoic he looks even out of his combat clothes. The muscles of his chest and arms being noticeable through the fabric of his shirt. His hair, still damped from the shower, falling on his face as he turns the faucet off.
Maker, am I blushing?
You sighed, climbing into bed before moving under the covers. As you made yourself comfortable, you saw him pass through the door frame and coming to the edge of the bed to sit with you.
“How did it go while I was gone?” He asked before taking a sip from his cup.
“Did you not see me cry my eyes out?” replying sarcastically.
“I did, but surely you didn’t cry for weeks. Did you?”
“No, of course not. I worked, how about you?”
“Good, it was a long one.” looking briefly at you.
“Can I ask you something?” He doesn’t say a word, waiting for your question. “Are your parents still alive?”
He tensed, turning his gaze down to the glass of water in his hand. “My mother... but I don't know where she is.”
“I’m sorry to hear it. Is she not?” You didn’t know how to ask.
“In the First Order? No, no she's not..”
“Kylo? What does, hyal means?” you questioned closing your eyes, not being able to keep them open any longer.
He raised his eyes to you surprised. “Why so many questions?” putting his glass of water on the nightstand before joining you under the covers.
“I just want to know you more...” mumbling, letting your mouth part slightly as you fell asleep.
He smiled softly, pushing the hair out your face. You were already breathing deeper while he looked at your pillowy lips. The ones he had been craving for weeks.
He leaned in, pressing them gently with his. Being careful not to disturb you in your sleep.
He took a deep breath in, “I also miss them, every day.” Before closing his eyes as well.
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The next morning, you woke up to the sound of hot crinkling oil in a pan. As you sat up and rub your eyes, you heard Kylo let out a high muffled scream. You quickly pulled away the covers before running to the kitchen, seeing him clenching his hand tightly.
“Are you okay?” You panicked.
“It's okay, I just burned myself. You can go back to sleep.” trying not to sound in pain.
You walked to him, now fully awake. “Don't be stupid. How could I possibly go back to sleep knowing you're suffering. Can I have a look?” looking straight at him.
He hesitated, pressing his lips before opening his hand slowly to you. As you looked closer to the injury, you examined the serious burn. A vivid red line was drawn across his palm. “Here put it under cold water. It will stop the heat from burning through the other layers of skin.” moving towards the kitchen faucet. “You need to always keep the handle away from the heat when cooking.” He puts his hand under the low pressured water. Slightly moaning as he felt an instant relief.
He raised an eyebrow as he watched you with a first aid kit. Putting it on the counter before starting the burner again. He stared at you confused, “Are you not going to help me?”
“You need to stop the burn before putting the bacta on. Otherwise, you'll only heal the top layers.” rolling your eyes at him.
He doesn't comment on your attitude, only smirking softly. Being kind of surprised at your knowledge on the matter. “And, how do you know all of this?”
Not responding, you gave him a smile as he was watching you do his cooking. Admiring you from a distance. He noticed how nervous you were with him but, the truth is, he was too. You never really talked about what happened the night before he left, and he too wanted to know you more.
He cleared his throat anxiously, “You know, the day I left you, were talking to a man...”
“Henry?”
“I guess, yes. Have you, seen him again?”
Looking up to meet his eyes, “He’s only a friend, I told you.” closing the burner, you turned around. Grabbing the first aid kit as he turned off the faucet. Meanwhile, you took the bacta out of the metal box before spraying it on his wound. He grimaced while the bacta was already taking effect.
As you wrapped his hand with some bandages, he couldn't help himself from staring at you. Your hair was still all over the place from the chaotic morning. Strands falling down your face, some sticking up, but he couldn't care less. Suddenly a weird sensation came to his chest as he pushed one of your hair strands to see your face better.
You meet his gaze smiling brightly, “Here, all done..”
He doesn’t waste a second, taking the side of your neck. Holding you still as he leans in closer, kissing you full lips.
You don’t stop him as he moaned sweetly into your mouth. “You have no idea how long I've been wanting to do this..”
“Tell me more.”
He sighed softly, “I wanted to see you, smell you, touch you.” moving his hands gently to your middle back. “You were all I could think about.”
“I also thought about you every-” You didn’t have time to finish your sentence that he started kissing you again, caressing your tongue with his.
You laughed, stopping him. “I can’t, I have to work.” Protesting as you tried to move away.
“Work? But I just came back. I can make you miss work if that’s the issue.” You don’t really listen to him as you walked inside the bedroom, now changing into your work clothes. “You seemed to forget that I'm the supreme leader. This is my ship, and I can do whatever I want.”
You roll your eyes, “Yeah, I know.” You watched him come closer as you sat on the edge of the bed to put your boots on, but he took the other one from your hand before throwing it aside. “Hey stop! I need to go. I'm going to be late.”
He was not listening as he kneeled in front of you spreading your legs. “Stay with me hyal.”
“You still haven’t told me what it meant..” closing your eyes to his hands roaming your hips and ass.
You could feel his hardness on the edge of your pussy, “to crave” he answered you, slowly unzipping the front of your uniform.
Even though your heart skipped a beat, you try to stay on track. “What language is that? I never heard it.”
“…Sith”
You stopped him before he unzips it fully, managing to wiggle yourself free. “I really need to go. I can't be late.”
He watched you grab your boots from the floor, “Have I done something wrong again?” eyes worried.
As you looked at Kylo, you felt heaviness in your chest “What? No..” moving quickly to the living room. “I just like seeing people and having somewhat of a normal life.” glancing at him awkwardly, “and I like the job, okay? I will see you later.”
Before you could leave, he grabbed your arm. “I’m sorry that I cannot let you go, yet... I also need to follow orders.” saying eyes in pain.
You simply nodded, walking away to the entrance. Feeling an energy moving through your hair, you turned your head back. Only seeing the side of his face as he goes back to the bedroom.
--
You could hear your stomach calling for food as you entered the cafeteria. You felt bad lying to Kylo about being late, but you were not ready to sleep with him again. Hearing him speak Sith made you uneasy. A reminder that you're just a prisoner on his ship.
How many girls did he had this way? He probably lied to you about you being the only one. Surely that can't be true. He is one of the most powerful men in the galaxy, how could you possibly be his first taste of flesh?
It doesn't matter, because it won't happen again..
Taking a tray, you get in line. Today was your favorite; spinach quiche with ham bits. Plus, they always had these little roasted potatoes on the side that you loved so much. You had to admit, the finalizer did have some good food. Way better than the sludge you used to eat in battle camps back home.
As you waited for your turn, you sensed a finger tapping your shoulder. Automatically you felt your body tense, scared to even look back.
Turning around, you're being greeted by Henry. “It's been a while.” he says with a broad smile.
You don’t know if it's because you haven't seen him for a while, but he was making you blush a little. Maybe it was the way he looked so effortlessly put together. Whatever the reason, it felt good to see him again.
“It's you who has been hiding, I'm always near.” you stated playfully.
“Yeah, I've been learning how to pilot on top of my usual job. It does take a lot of my time these days.”
Well, I'm happy that you're okay, I was starting to get worried.”
There was a moment of silence before he cleared his throat. “Would you like to join us?” Pointing to a round table with two man and a woman also wearing the crew's uniform.
You nodded, taking back your tray from the lunch guy’s hands. For weeks, you have been eating alone and so the invitation was a nice welcome, especially coming from him.
As soon as you sat down, all eyes were on you, along with the tension floating in the air.
“Everyone, this is Viper. A friend of mine, she's in electrical.” Presenting you to the small group.
Immediately, the woman stepped in. “The supreme leader’s pet...”
“Did you say Viper?” One of the two men asked, cutting her off. Looking at Henry through his glasses, eyes wide open.
“Yes?” He replies raising his eyebrow in curiosity.
The bearded man leaned forward to shake your hand. “It's truly an honor to meet you miss. I'm Jon, I was there, fighting by your side on N12.”
“I'm not sure I'm following” says the woman, tying her dark hair in a ponytail.
The man turned to her. “She’s on our side.” He looked around, “she destroyed 2 enemy's bases.”
“Not here Jon” the other man says anxiously, “it's not safe..”
Henry turned to you quickly, “you never mentioned it before.”
“Well, we haven't been hanging out much either..” you mocked.
“Henry, you're making her uncomfortable.” She teased, pulling her hair tighter.
He looked at her unfazed, “I'm the one making her uncomfortable?”
“Yes, I was just stating the facts. She is his favorite; otherwise, why would he keep her in his quarters mh?”
You could sense all eyes coming back on you. There was a part of you that wished she was right, but you knew that he had different motives. “He simply wants to keep his eye on me, and he also doesn't trust the guards.”
“With reasons.” she says smirking, “I'm Eira by the way. this is Lars.” pointing to the middle-aged man with a full beard and hair tied in a bun sitting next to Jon. “He doesn't talk much but he's really sweet.”
You simply smile as you're finishing your plate.
“I'm curious Viper, how is it sharing your space with a Solo?” eyes staring up at you while she brought the fork to her mouth.
“A what?” you responded confused.
“Ben, the son of Han and Leia?” Jon replies.
“What do you mean?” your brows furrowed.
They all looked at each other before she replied, “Kylo Ren is Ben Solo, the son of Han Solo and Leia Organa.”
Your eyes widening in shock, “How? What? How did he end up here?”
Jon shook his head slightly, “last time I saw Ben with his parents, was the night before he left with his uncle, Luke.” He took a sip from his cup, “I served Princess Leia for most of my life before being captured and imprisoned here. I have been away from home 3years now.”
Your eyes saddened to his words, “that's horrible..” being cut off by a bell.
The worker's alarm went off before Eira could take her last bite. “We should get going if we don't want to be late”
--
As you put your tray in the bin, Henry stayed close by. Waiting for you to be done to walk you to your job. “You don't have to do that; you know that right?"
He gave you one of his genuine smiles. “I'm sorry I couldn't keep up with you. I am, truly.” He stopped in the middle of the now empty hallway with everyone already taking their stations.
“It's okay, don't worry about it. C’mon, we'll be late.”
But he grabs your wrist. Looking deeper into your eyes, caressing your hand with the back of his fingers. He doesn't waste his time, leaning forward almost kissing, “Would you come meet me tonight at the control bri..”
“Are you okay?”
Henry’s eyes were beginning to look scared. His hands moving towards his throat, trying to remove something that wasn't there, fully choking and fighting for air. As you turned your head, you saw a masked Kylo moving around the corner with a hand extended towards Henry.
“STOP! YOU’RE GOING TO KILL HIM!” you yelled as he walked in your direction.
“That's the point” he replied dry and cold.
“Please Kylo!” but your pleas were useless as his body stays put. “Please stop, I beg you!”
He turned his helmet quickly to you, “go on...”
“What?”
“What do you propose?”
You were taken aback. You didn't though about that. Didn't thought this through. “I- I'll do whatever you want.” your heart skipping a beat as you say the words.
He looks back at Henry, who was slowly shifting colors. “This is your lucky day.” Finally releasing him and letting him fall to his knees. “Go!” Kylo stressed before Henry gets back on his feet clumsily and ran away as fast as he could.
You let out a sigh, “that was unnecessary..”
He turns to you, his tall and broad frame hovering over you. “I heard your thoughts..”
“Yes, it's normal to have them” looking up to him.
“Yeah well, your desir-”
*”Sir Ren, meeting at 10 with the counc..”* Getting cut off by a transmission.
“Not now General, move it for tomorrow.”
*“Sir, I'm afraid-”*
“I have an important matter on hand.” Starting to get impatient and annoyed.
*”I would hardly qualify a poor slave girl as impor-”/
/“General Hux!”
“As you wish, Sir..” his voice sounding bitter.
As soon as the transmission ended, Kylo quickly turned all his attention back on you.
“You, come with me...”
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3. Leather And Blaster Dust
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Kylo Ren x fem.reader
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He took a moment watching you get escorted before turning his heels back inside. He had a meeting with the council today. One he painfully didn't want to attend. Especially since he can't seem focus at the moment.
He felt angry and agitated but didn't understand why. Nervously, he paced around the living room. Nothing was working like he’d hope and feeling stupid for the way he was acting with you. So reckless and impulsive, just like a child. You were a poor girl coming from a random planet nobody had heard about. Why was he so curious about you?
He took a series of deep breaths attempting to calm himself down. I must stay focused, he tells himself. I need to know who she really is. He grunts, pushing the side of the com-link on his arm, ‘’I need someone to interrogate prisoner 226 and keep an eye on her. ‘’ Receiving a single beep as confirmation, he doesn't waste time and gets ready to leave.
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He was trapped in endless meetings all morning. His day was getting worse by the hour. He finally got a moment to himself as he was now navigating the corridors leading to his office. The council kept telling him that he grew weak since the previous attacks on the First Order base. Pressuring our supreme leader to put a stop to this nonsense before it's too late.
He needs to learn more about the rebel's operations and tactics. Hopefully the interrogation he set up with you will be fruitful. He knew that they were right. Something was off and it was troubling his mind.
He could sense it. The rage was consuming him more and more every day ever since he met you. Normally that'd be a good thing but this, this was torture.
He had almost lost control of himself twice with you now. How could he let that happen? His mind was slowly drifting back to his morning with you. The way your doe eyes were looking at him. Lips shiny and trembling.
She's so beautiful and I'm... Urgh, I'm so stupid, she's, my prisoner. what was I thinking??
He rolled his hand into a fist, annoyed that his first kiss was with someone who hated him, but he couldn't resist. How could he? You were there, just being so good.. He knew the implications of joining the dark side, especially in his ranks. He knew that he couldn't really be with someone and didn’t care about those types of connections anyway. So why was he so taken with you?
A scream coming from the end of the hallway breaks his focus.
‘’I told you, I’m no one!’’ he hears the woman shouting.
“We know you're a jedi, tell us the truth! ‘’ followed by a synthetic voice,
‘’I’m not. I told you, you have the wrong person. I just own a shop that’s- Arggh! ‘’
Recognizing the familiar voice in distress, our supreme leader walks towards the interrogation room with a pinch inside his chest. Opening the door in a quick motion, he immediately draws his mask on a stormtrooper now frozen in place.
The guard had his white gloves smeared with fresh blood. With the pinching becoming more apparent, he moved his eyes to you. Seeing you on a platform with both wrists and legs tied. He quickly noticed the pain in your red glassy eyes followed by the deep cut on your arm tearing the light fabric of your shirt.
Rage starts to boil inside him and within a fraction of a second, he snapped. Extending his arm to strangle the man. Levitating him almost to the ceiling.
‘’What are you doing !?’’ his voice sounding deeper than usual through the modulator.
The trooper was in shock, not knowing what he did wrong. ‘’I’m ju, just following orders.. ren.. sir..’’ trying to respond with his lungs begging for air.
‘’I never mentioned torture, not only are you are torturing my guest but you’re also taking decisions on them without my permission!?’’ Taking his grip off the guard, makes him fall to the ground. ‘’Let it be known that I’m the Supreme Leader and I decide what goes on my ship!’’ stating as he moved his hand, dragging the soldier across the floor and into the hallway.
The soldier quickly gets back on his feet before running away as fast as he possibly could. Meanwhile, you could see the supreme leader moving two fingers across his chest in your direction. Followed by a strong click sound coming from your restraints. Unlocking as you watched him turn around.
You were confused, what just happened? Did he just save me from his own men?
You followed him while still being careful. Staying a few feet away, afraid of his explosive temper. He was hard to read. Especially with his helmet on. His body was rigid and stiff as he was urgently moving through the corridors. His cloak grazing the ground behind him as he carried himself like nothing could touch him.
Recognizing the path, you knew you were quickly approaching his quarters. Once inside, you could only see his back while a hand unclips the weapon on his hip. The one that you’ve learned to avoid and fear.
What is he doing? You wondered, and as if he could hear your mind, he extended his arm in a quick motion before powering it. The red vibrating beam was reflecting its light onto the walls. He grabbed the lightsaber with both hands before letting out a loud grunt.
With a single movement, he effortlessly slashed the couch in front of him. The action was not anticipated. Making you gasped with fear as you stumble on your feet walking backwards.
Hearing something behind him, he abruptly turned around. In a split second, you feel the radiating heat of the blade that was now pointed straight at you.
Seeing the terror in your eyes, he closes the weapon quickly. ‘’Why are you following me?’’
You looked up to him, still sitting on the ground as you tried to swallow and come back to your senses, ‘’you dismissed my guard, I-I’m a prisoner..’’
He stayed silent, simply staring at you from afar. Being too scared of him, you don’t dare to move from your spot.
After a moment he begins to walk slowly to you, giving you his hand to take. As you do, he pulls you slowly back on your feet. “You’re not my prisoner, you’re my guest.’’ he says voice low and calm.
He didn’t know why he stopped the guard from doing his job. However, he knew he didn’t want to see you hurt or scared again. Something was pulling him to you and until he figured it out, he needed to make sure you were safe. ‘’You can stay here.’’ saying as he tilts his helmet slightly, ‘’no one ever comes here except for me.’’
Confused, you asked, “here?’’
‘’Yes, this my place, you will be safe. You can do as you please-’’
Intrigued you have your questions, ‘’what about when you are?’’
‘’What about it?’’
‘’Well, where are you going to sleep? Last time-’’
He cuts you right off, “I will not overstep again. Like I said, you are safe here.’’
You raise your eyebrow, ‘’uh...’’
‘’What?’’ he asked sounding slightly annoyed. Your eyes moved to the gutted couch, and he does the same before looking back to you. ‘’Look, I simply request that you come back here.’’
‘’What do you mean by come back?’’
You could see him nervously fidgeting with the tip of his gloved fingers. ‘’You are free to roam the ship as you want but, I want you to come back here whenever you’re not. It’s the only place I know no one will...’’
‘’Fine, I'll do it.’’ Thinking it’s a pretty good deal.
He nodded and you both stay in silence for a moment not knowing where to go from here. He's a strange man indeed you tell yourself. You don't know where this new ‘freedom’ will lead you but you're sure as hell happy to have it.
Looking at your arm, he points his finger to your cut. ‘’You should wash before it gets infected.’’
Lowering your gaze, you noticed the tear in your sleeve covered in blood. The adrenaline wasn't totally gone yet. Barely feeling the pain of your injury.
‘’I'll go take a shower.’’ You say louder than you would've liked as you walked clumsily to the fresher.
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After your shower, you thought back on your new deal as you put your clothes on. You knew you were not really a guest here. That you were just an inmate with an upgrade but for now, this was good. Really fucking good.
Walking out the bathroom, you spot a bottle of bacta spray sitting on the counter. As you go to reach it, you see him sitting on the couch. Grabbing the bacta, you spray your wound before moving in his direction, ‘’can I sit?’’ You asked timidly.
He turned his helmet slowly to you before turning it back to silently stare at the wall in front of him. Taking it as a yes, you sat down. “What happened?’’ your voice was soft and compassionate as you try to make sense of his outburst.
He turns to you, taken aback by your sudden interest in him. It's quite unusual for people here to ask him questions about himself. It genuinely surprised him that someone like you would want to know more about him. At the same time, if he talks to you, maybe you'd trust him more and maybe, even give him the information he needs.
He sighed, ‘’Rebels are attacking our base; the council needs me to take care of it.’’ He stared at you as he breathes in deep, ‘’Some are saying that the jedis are at fault, tweaking their way slowly in using the rebels. It happened in the past.’’
You try to keep an open mind. Although, you were not really a fan of the first order. Especially since they literally kidnapped you and kept you imprisoned on their ship. But you also figured that if you were on his good grace, maybe it would make it easier to escape...
You nodded, trying to be understanding. You didn’t know what to say or do and so, you gently place a supporting hand on his thigh. Giving him a genuine smile from the corner of your lips. He cleared his throat as he nervously adjusts himself in the seat. The movement was subtle but gave you the opportunity to smell him. Leather and blaster dust you told yourself, closing your eyes to the scent. He noticed, tugging his gloves off before gently putting his bare hand on yours. Feeling it warm and damp from the trapped heat.
Maybe it was the proximity or maybe it was the curiosity, but it made you feel the same electricity you felt earlier this morning. Even if you knew it was probably a bad idea, you gave his thigh a soft squeeze, which made his legs twitch in response.
Moving slowly closer to him, you test the grounds carefully, but he doesn’t stop you. With hesitation, you bring your hands underneath his helmet. Shyly pulling it off his head. You didn’t know how to act around him. He was truly unpredictable. Still, there was something so strange and strong pulling you to him. You didn’t know what it was, but you couldn't ignore it any longer.
As you removed the helmet, his hair was a little flatten on the top while strands of it were framing his face. He looked at you almost scared. His small eyes searching for yours, unsure of what to do next.
Maker why is he so gorgeous...
The truth was, he knew what he wanted. He just wasn't sure if you wanted the same.
You noticed his chest moving more rapidly as you leaned forward to his plump lips. Still thinking of his previous failed attempt, he doesn't dare to move. Giving you all the space you need.
Well, that's what he wanted to do but upon seeing you wanting him this way, woke something new inside him.
Moving forward, he grabbed your waist pulling you onto him. His hands were now digging into your flesh. Gripping your hips firmly as if he was afraid, you'd run away.
Lips slightly parted, your eyes were anxiously staring at him. He was quite a tall man and with that came the rest. You were literally being swallowed whole while his arms were wrapping around your body. You could feel the muscles of his arms and chest, twitching and contracting as he held you in place.
“Have you ever...’’ your blood ran cold as you asked the question. In a simple movement he shook his head making you reply, ‘’me neither.’’
A curve on his lips formed a muted smirk. Moving his gaze back on your lips. He leaned forward, brushing them softly with his. Immediately, you closed your eyes to his plush pout pushing against yours, hearing him breathing harsher and heavier. His fingers kneading your flesh as he gave in more.
You couldn't resist bringing your hands to his chest. Feeling the warmth coming through the thick fabric of his uniform. Smiling slightly, he continues to discover you. Slowly bringing his hands to your belly before fully going under your shirt.
You gasped feeling his thick fingers passing carefully on the sides of your rib cage. Going higher to hold both of your tits in the palm of his hands as he massaged them gently. You kept your eyes closed while he opened his. You were already feeling waves of pleasure coming in between your legs.
He couldn't take his eyes off you. Studying your every expression as he lightly caresses your nipples with his thumbs. Feeling him twitching and getting harder on your mount as you were lost in pleasure. As a result, you slowly start to grind yourself on his hardness.
Although, all that friction only made him want you even more. Hearing him exhale sharply at the motion before he stopped you mid stroke. Holding your hips in place, he moved his upwards over your core. He let out a few short breaths before taking a hold of your thighs. Pressing them tightly to his body as he rose from the ruined sofa.
“Woah-” You instantly open your eyes wider, gripping yourself firm on his arms and shoulders to the sudden action. He didn't stop. Kissing your neck as he brought you to his bedroom. Once inside, he crouches down in front of the mattress, dropping you smoothly on its edge to unclip his cape.
Oh, it’s really happening...
You were now observing him unbutton his stiff jacket. Swallowing dry as you wait for him to come back to you. You couldn't stop looking at his chest. Now noticing the definition of his muscles through the thinner fabric. He moved down, looking into your eye as he removed your bottom. You followed by coming forward to his waist and begin to unbuckle his belt while he took a deep nervous breath through his nose.
Moving his hands anxiously to undo his pants, you brought yours to roll up his shirt. You could feel his stomach contracting as you pulled it completely over his head. At this point you knew where this was going and so you just removed the rest of your clothes. As you got the last piece off, you noticed that he hasn't moved at all.
Maker, why is he looking at me like that?
His eyes were glued to you. You couldn't help but feel small as he was staring in silence. There was nowhere to hide from his gaze.
He seemed to notice your nervousness. Passing the tip of his finger on your cheek. “You're, so beautiful...” he says, bringing both hands to his hips to remove the last piece of clothing covering him.
You were a little stunned to say the least. It was bigger than what you expected but you didn't have time to react as he came closer to grab your waist.
Pushing you further into the bed before hovering you. You could feel his hair tickling and dancing on your cheek as he kisses you tongue deep. Humming with anticipation, he brought his hand back to your breast.
Automatically, you close your eyes to his big hand squeezing and massaging your chest. Slowly getting more comfortable with his touch on your body.
You felt them going down, grazing alongside your stomach before abruptly stopping to your mount. You could sense how nervous he was in his halt. Smiling softly, you took his hand and guided him further down. Giving him permission to touch you however he wished to.
His bottom lip twitched as he pulled himself back slightly. Wanting to watch you as he caresses and explore you further. Lightly brushing his thick fingers on your swollen lips, observing you from above. You looked so good, so perfect in his hands. After what felt like forever, he slowly pushed his fingers at your entrance. Making you instantly embarrassed on how quickly you were coating them. They were gliding against your walls so effortlessly, sucking them in as you begin to let out some low vibrating moans. He pumped them a few times before passing them in between your folds.
“T-that, feels so good...” you purred out unable to control your breathing.
“Yeah?” His eyes were locked on you as he watched your body twist with pleasure under him. This was a new kind of power, and he couldn’t get enough of it. Coming closer, he puts his arms on your sides before placing himself in between your legs. You stared at each other nervously before you feel him push the tip of his cock against your entrance, moving slowly in. Making you inhale sharply at his length stretching you open.
“Is this, okay?” He asked voice dry, almost out of breath.
“Yes please, I want to” you answered half in pain, half begging. Not making you wait any longer, he began to move slow as his eyes were admiring yours. It didn't took long for your juices to cover his length fully, making you both pant harder to the wet, hot, gliding sensation. His cock was so soft and thick, filling your pussy full like it was made for it.
He came back to kiss you while he thrusted in and out at a faster pace. His tongue coming through his plump lips, moving against yours desperately. As if he needed this, needed you.
Now growling low, he grinds his hips harder. Your moans becoming louder as you felt the electric waves inside your belly. And then it happened again, the pulsing energy around his shape. It’s faint, like a breeze passing through your nerves.
His voice trembles, “can I-’’
You nodded, cutting him off. Knowing exactly what he was going to ask, “-yes, yes please...”
He moved his face into your neck, sucking lazily on it as he now pounds in harder. Meanwhile his hands were holding the side of your face and hip. Not being able to hold it in any longer, you whine as you finally cum around him. Feeling gusts of air in your neck. He pants himself to his sweet relief. Coming with an explosive grunt in your ear.
He brought his hand to your face. Looking at you from the side while his head still rests in your neck. He brushed the tip of his fingers lightly over your lips. Making you naturally open them slightly to his touch.
‘’You’re truly beautiful’’ you hear him say low and raspy.
Moving to face him, you slide his cock out before resting on your side. He held the side of your face in his hand, coming closer for a kiss. As he’s breathing in hard though his nose, he moved his hand to your waist, “Come” he says pulling himself up before taking your hands to help you rise from the bed. Guiding you to the fresher.
He gets two towels out of the cabinet and turned the shower on. You were enjoying the water running on your body. Sensing an arm grabbing your waist from behind as he moved the other to take your breast. You instantly drop your head back to his chest, giving yourself to his touch. His body was steady, and firm compared to his soft fingers caressing your body.
He wanted to make you feel good, knowing it might be the first and last time you ever let him touch you this way. His thick fingers now moving lower, he gathered your poured out slick to circle your clit. Making you part your legs to let him play with you better.
You let out some whimpers as he's passing his now fully coated digits in between your folds before entering you. Making you gasp with your mouth fully open to the sensation as he glides the tips of them on the top of your walls. Pumping them as his thumb still strokes your clit. The noises of your pussy sucking them in was embarrassing. You were a mess as your voice became uncontrollable. Twisting yourself in his grip while feeling his chest rigid behind you.
“I’m gonn-” maker, you were trying your hardest to not sound too desperate.
‘’Do,” he replied, cutting you off. He leaned to the back of your neck. Giving you a gentle kiss as you whined and shake, losing balance. He grabbed you by the waist, holding you more firmly as you bend in his grip. Holding yourself on the shower walls as you felt your legs going numb. Coming once more, breathing harshly as he continued to push in slow a couple more times. Passing his fingers gently up and down to your folds.
He changed his grip as he heard your swallow breaths. Giving you another kiss on the back of your head before turning you around to face him. His eyes were observing you as you pass the back of your thumb on his jaw.
Wanting to take full advantage of the limited time he has with you. He turned around to grab a washcloth before lathering soap into it, ‘’can I?”
You nod in response, staying still as he brought the washcloth to your body. His touch was careful and gentle, letting him discover you in another way.
This somehow, felt even more intimate than what you guys just did. Feeling smaller than usual but not in a bad way, definitely not in a bad way...
He took the shower head to rinse your body while you took another washcloth, doing the same he did. His muscles were contracting as you passed the soapy square over his chest. His breathing was heavy as you examined his skin. Which was full of small cuts and scars with some newer than others.
He didn't like this, closing his eyes he squeezed his hands into fists. He was trying hard to be as compliant to you as you were with him. Being so tall and broad, you needed him to move around to be able to fully wash him.
You looked into his eyes asking timidly, “can you turn?” He didn't move nor speak as he stared at you in a serious manner. “Please?” you finally asked softly.
He pursed his lips and without a word, he turned around. Giving you now full access to it. You inhaled sharply seeing the fresh cut across his back. You're trying to breathe through your nose. Slowly remembering who he truly was. You stood still, not knowing what to do or say.
Feeling your ghostly touch, he knew very well the nature of your hesitation. Turning around before taking the washcloth from your hands. Washing himself quickly before going fully under the water. Wetting his raven hair in the process. He got out of the shower without a single eye contact. Carelessly dripping everywhere as he grabbed one of the towels on his way out.
You knew he was hurt but you also didn’t know what to do. You get out to dry yourself, wrapping the towel around you.
Walking to him calmly while he sat on the gutted couch. “I’m sorry.” You finally let out trying to be as sincere as you possibly could, but he doesn’t move. He remained silent while starring to the empty space in front of him. “Please Kylo, I-I..” you plead, trying desperately to have him interact with you.
He shifted his focus to you, being surprised to hear you speak his name. Now having his attention on you, you bend closer, taking his hands into yours. Gently pulling him so he would stand up.
After a few tugs, he slowly followed you. You tilted your face up to meet him. “I’m sorry, I was taken by surprise” you repeated with a soft smile. Dragging him forward and back into the bedroom.
As you got in the covers, you extended your arm, inviting him in. He took a moment simply admiring you in his bed. Bending down, he searched through the piles of clothes on the floor. Putting on his underwear before coming to put his large shirt on your body.
Closing your eyes to his warmth, you settle your head on the pillow, and he stayed silent, simply watching you get comfortable beside him. Wondering how he ended up here with you.
I lost control again
He kept repeating to himself. As much as he liked being close to you, he knew it was wrong and still couldn't help it. No matter how much he wanted to...
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You have been kidnaped and brought on the finalizer where you meet the famous Kylo Ren. The one who brought so much fear and destruction to the galaxy. Not being able to know the truth about your identity, he keeps you imprisoned on his ship.
Kylo is supreme leader, slow burn, fluff, angst, comfort, he is obsessed with you, touch starved, fools in love, shy/insecure, he needs a hug, feelings, plot with p, soft/dom, reader insert, no y/n, female reader, pet names.
You tell yourself, waking up to yet another day without news. How long will you have to stay here? It's now been days since you last got out of your cell. All this loneliness was making you short of ideas to entertain yourself. Plus, all you could think about was the supreme leader and his stupid mind games. Still debating if he was into you or not.
You were convinced that your lack of socialization and intimacy were deeply clouding your judgment.
You did what he asked. You ate every meal they brought you in ever since you left his office. But the days were all blending together again and you were literally dying of boredom.
After a while, you searched for the strength to get out of bed. I mean this could be one of your lucky days. One that you finally get to stretch out your legs, right?
You jumped out of the comfort of your blanket and walked to the door, opening the latch. Trying once again to get the attention of one of the guards patrolling along the corridors.
“Sorry, could it be possible to have a shower?” asking, pretty sure no one heard you.
The stormtrooper noticing your presence, turned his helmet back. He sighed as he walked nonchalantly to your door. “You know you’ve been asking this for four days?”
“Yeah, well maybe if I got one, I’d stop asking..” batting your eyes in an attempt to convince him.
He tilted his helmet to the side, as you heard a few small chuckles coming through the voice-corder. “Or maybe you can just keep that smart mouth of yours shut.” He shook his head before pressing the side of his helmet. “Base, prisoner 226 would like to take a shower. She’s being really persistent.” There’s a moment of silence before he speaks to you again. “Seems like today is your lucky day princess.”
The sound of your cell door unlocking was music to your ears. Making you hyper with anticipation. Finally, some action in this place...
As you walked through the hallways you realized you haven't seen him in a while. Which, to be completely honest with yourself, was probably better that way. He confused you more than anything. You knew you would need to face him again eventually since he was your only way out, but you hoped that it wasn't going to be today.
You were getting exited standing outside the fresher’s door. It's true that taking a shower is a normal benign thing for most, but for you, right now, this was heaven. After days of begging, you got to finally feel like a human for fifteen minutes.
The fresher was quite small. Only having the essentials. The walls inside were painted the same tones of grey as the rest of the ship. Once in the shower, you barely had time to get your hair wet that you were being called out.
Closing the water tap quickly as you could hear a faint siren going on the other side of the walls. You tried to get dressed as fast as you could. Not being able to dry yourself completely. Your hair remaining damped from the almost shower you just got.
You opened the door to soldiers walking around with blasters in their hands. Without wasting any time, your escort quickly gripped you by the arm, urging you to follow him.
As you’re being rushed and pulled out of the fresher. You didn't understood a single thing of what was happening. You were still waking up from the morning as you were being yanked through the hallways. Going down the same path you were now so familiar with. Feeling your stomach contracting as you approached the giant doors of his office.
The ones you’ve seen twice too many times. It was a good day so far and you didn’t want to have it ruined by him. What did I do again? You wondered as the guard you were following skips them. Passing right in front of it as they remained closed. Although now you were extremely confused. Questioning where he was actually bringing you.
Being allowed to take a shower with some kind of intimacy made you almost forget where you were. The corridors were suddenly crawling with soldiers running around as the alarm was now ringing throughout the massive ship.
“Don’t move.” you heard him say while he stopped in his tracks. Removing his grip on you, he lets you go before straightening his back into a military position. You stayed still, not having a single clue on what the fuck was going on. The alarms were still loudly echoing in the hallways which started to give you a headache.
Why did you guys stop? I mean this place is a terrifying chaos. Everything around you were pushing you to the conclusion that you were under attack.
As if he could hear your mind, the answer to your questions turned the corner and was now walking in your direction. Your heart dropped, feeling like his gaze was locked on you. He had his mask on, moving stiffly. Even with the lack of facial expressions, you were almost certain that he wasn't having his best day either.
“I'll take it from here.” He says to the stormtrooper as he waited for him to go before turning around swiftly. Confused, you were frozen in place as you watched him walk away. Only catching a glimpse of his cape before he finally turned the corner. You rushed towards him, afraid that you were going to lose sight. He didn’t spoke a word as you followed him through the corridors, which only made you more nervous.
After a moment, you arrived in front of a simple door that you had never seen before. Once inside, you quickly notice how big the place truly was. There was a living room, a small kitchen and even a dining area. It was spacious and the air felt crisp compared to your bunk. Here you could breathe. It didn't take long for you to notice the huge window in the dining area, fully covering the wall.
Being automatically drawn by the incredible view of the planet and its two moons. Getting closer, desperate to know where you were in the galaxy but sadly you couldn't to recognize the planet in front of you. Leaving you once again empty handed.
Feeling like you’ve been looking outside for quite some time, you turned around. Catching the supreme leader staring at you intensely as he analyzed you in silence.
“Have I done something wrong?” Asking him, feeling self-conscious. You were nervous but most of all cold.
“Why are you damped?” His voice sounded curious even through the transmitter.
You looked down at yourself. Your hair was still damped from the previous madness and the water was getting your entire shirt wet. “I was about to take a shower sir, when I got called away. I-I haven’t washed for days.” you admitted shamefully, moving your gaze to the floor.
He stood still, tilting his helmet up and down slowly. “I must go; you can go to the second door. There’s everything you need in there for you to wash up. I have matters to attend but I will come back as fast as I can.” He mumbled as he’s moving back to the hallway. You could still hear the alarm ringing before the high pitch noise got canceled by the heavy sliding door.
Okay now you were really confused. You had a million questions as you looked around the calm and empty place.
After a moment realizing you were all alone. You noticed three doors all aligned with each other. You immediately gasp looking inside the second one. The bathroom was spacious, just like the rest of the apartment.
Everything looked way nicer than the shared one you usually use. The mirror over the sink was large enough for you to see your whole self in it. How can a mirror be this big? Who needs a mirror this big?? It's going from the sink to the ceiling for maker's sake.
As you scanned the room, you quickly realize that the counter was the only place possible for storage. Searching through the cabinets, you get your hands on some towels along with the necessities to wash yourself. Being hyped about finally being able to take a shower. Maybe this day wasn't so bad after all. I mean who would've thought you'd get to take a shower AND have an upgrade at that? Not you, that's for sure.
The shower felt amazing, you must've spent at least an entire hour in the fresher. You’re pretty sure that you’ve never been this clean in your entire life.
Opening the shower door, you stepped outside looking down at the pile of rags you’ve been wearing for the past few months. You didn't know what's next for you, but one thing was sure. Your clothes were dirty and smelling. You need to find new clothes asap.
You wrapped a towel around you as you go into the living area. He hasn't come back yet, you tell yourself. You were still alone. You decide to continue your exploration hoping to find some clean clothes.
You tried opening the door right next to the bathroom, but it was locked. You bite your bottom lip as you wondered if the other one was too. A small smirk formed at the corner of your mouth as you’re able to just push on the handle.
There was a full bed in the middle of the open room. The place looked empty and barely lived in. There was a big window showing you to the outside. It was not as huge as the one in the kitchen, but it was still impressive, nonetheless.
Why did he bring me here... What is this place?
Taking a break from snooping around, you sat on the edge of the bed with the towel still covering your body. As you looked around, you don't notice a single thing out of place. But your eyes widen upon seeing a barely noticeable edge in the wall.
Getting on your feet quickly to investigate, you pass your hands flat on the wall trying to understand the hidden feature before you decide to push against it instead. Hearing a clear clicking sound that makes you smile instantly.
A light turns on as you pull the door open. Finally, some clothes. You immediately took a long sleeve shirt out along with some loose pants before putting them on quickly. Melting as you feel the softness of the fabric against your skin. These were premium quality items.
As you tucked the extra fabric of your shirt into your waistline, you yawn. Not understanding why, you were feeling so tired these days. Maybe the hot shower got to you or at least enough to finally get you to relax. You didn't know when the supreme leader was going to come back, and you didn't really know how long you had to stay here either.
Your eyes felt heavy as you moved towards the bed. The sheets were clean, and the pillows were plush. How could you resist getting under the covers? Plus, the mattress was way more comfortable than your own which made it easier for you to quickly fall asleep.
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When the supreme leader came back to his quarters, he was met with a dark and quiet space. Rapidly scanning the living room before he carefully stepped in. He didn’t know anything about you. He only pretended so you would trust him. Enough to open to him. Which much to his disappointment, you did not. You could try to attack him for all he knows. After all, he couldn't read your mind.
He checked in the bathroom. His eyes were automatically drawn to your clothes still piled up on the floor. He felt angry as he pressed his lips together but deeply, he felt mostly disappointed. He didn’t know what to expect leaving you here alone. He knew it was a risk, that you could try to escape. But for some reason, he’d secretly hoped that you felt as intrigued by him as he was by you.
He lets out a puff of air. Looking around to make sure his surroundings were safe. Removing his helmet completely as he moves towards the bedroom slightly defeated. The clothes he was wearing were more than dirty and in desperate need of a change.
As he entered the room, the lights remained closed. Which made everything in the room barely visible to him. He goes directly to his closet, stopping mid pace as he hears some strange noise. Turning around quickly, he noticed an odd shape in his bed.
She’s here.
His lips parting slightly at the realization. His chest felt suddenly lighter knowing that you were still here, waiting patiently for his return. As he got back to his senses. He nervously grabbed a pair of pants from his closet before he abruptly leaves the room.
Once in the bathroom, he couldn't help but stare at his reflection in the full-length mirror in front of him. The blood on him was soaking through the fabric of his shirt. Small scratches and cuts were covering his face and neck. He removed all his soiled clothes before examining his whole body for injuries. Finding nonmajor, he sighed deeply. She's here. He kept saying to himself as if he couldn't believe it.
Once inside the shower, he tilts his head back, wetting his hair first. Enjoying the fresh water washing his face while tasting the salt of the battlefield on his lips. He fell out of control today. He had nothing to anchor his mind on. He couldn't believe that he had almost lost a fight against a group of rebels. A small, untrained group of fucking rebels... He knew he needed to step up and hopefully you were the one who could help him end this nonsense.
He was relieved that you were still here. You could've gone and left but you chose to stay. Maybe it wasn't a completely bad day for him after all.
As he got out of the shower he wonders if he should just let you sleep alone in the bed. Knowing he might be imposing himself on you. But today he felt selfish, secretly wanting to be closer to you. Plus, he just knows that if he sleeps on the couch his back was going to kill him the next day.
He sighed as he puts the loose fabric over his legs before going back to the bedroom shirtless. He took the other side of the bed as he opens the cover to join you in. He unmistakably recognizes the clothes you're wearing. Smiling to himself as he watches you sleep peacefully in them. You seemed so comfortable, so free of worries.
He kept his distance by fear of waking you. But still close enough to be able to smell your clean scent. He felt awful knowing you hadn't had a shower for multiple days. He knew that the conditions you were living in were not ideal, but you were also a prisoner and needed to be treated like one. Although right now, tonight, all he wanted was your presence.
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You sensed something heavy next to you as you try to push it with your foot. Quickly realizing that it was soft and moving. You finally opened your eyes, seeing an odd shape right in front of you. Instinctively, you bolt out of bed. Pushing yourself back into the wall behind you.
There's someone in here...
As you tried to think of a way to get out of here without making a noise, you noticed a pile of hair, looking around before stopping his eyes on you. You were still half asleep, wondering if you were not perhaps dreaming that you're here.
Did all the months trapped in a cell finally catch up to you? Maybe you never got out of your cell, maybe you never got the shower upgrade either. Maybe this was just a dream.
Am I going insane?
As you were slowly losing touch with reality, you see the man sitting straight in bed. Who just now realized that sleeping in the same bed as you were probably not his best idea. His lips parted but no words came out.
You begin to relax as soon as you recognized him. Questioning how long he’s been back and sleeping next to you.
“I didn’t mean to scare you.” he urged. “You were already sleeping and...”
You’re not sure what to say or do and neither did he apparently. The silence was becoming louder as you were staring to his uncovered chest. You could've sworn that you could hear him breathe as if he was next to you. How was this possible? It was not the first time either recalling your previous visits to his office.
“Are you hungry?” he asked, stopping your train of thoughts. You gave him a small nod as a response. Wanting to limit your interactions to a minimum. You didn't know what to expect, you didn't know him. He's still a psychopath, remember? You watched him walk away before shortly following him. Making sure to keep yourself at a safe distance. You can never be too prudent right?
He moved behind the counter separating the kitchen from the dining area. You couldn't stop staring at him as he turned the burner on. “I won’t hurt you.” He says, becoming aware of your anxious ticks.
You remained silent as you sat down on one of the stools in front of him. It felt weird seeing him this way. No helmet, no thick clothing covering him from potential attacks. I mean even his lightsaber was out of sight. He was almost naked, and you couldn’t help but gawk.
Sure, he was cute and all, but your wandering eyes kept looking at the small injuries that were all over his body. If you didn't know better, you would've thought that he looked just like any other man. Although you did know better.
You knew what he was capable of, and he didn't need his weapons for that. Which makes all this kind and gentle caring more confusing to you.
He must’ve noticed because as he peeks up through his fallen hair, he raises an eyebrow to you. Why is he looking at me like that? You instantly start to freak out as you moved your gaze quickly away. “Here..” he lets out, placing a plate in front of you.
“Do you need help?” You asked trying to appear as calm as you can.
“No” hearing a voice inside your head. You stare at him puzzled as he turned slightly to you. “Won’t be necessary.” he simply replies.
Did you just hear him in your mind? You must've imagined it. There's no way you can possibly hear him in your head, that's just insane… right?
As you're trying to convince yourself, he stays silent. Thinking about what to do with you. You were his prisoner; he can’t associate with you. That would go against all principles established by the first order. He could, however, maybe get away with it if he’s pretending to get some information out of you.
Fool, he scolds himself, that’s what you’re already supposed to do...
“Is there something wrong?”
He swallowed before turning his head slightly back to you, “why did you close yourself?”
“I don’t know what you are talking about.” You replied cluelessly as you take your last bite.
He pensively turned his tongue around the inside of his cheek. Eyes fixed in the empty space in front of him. “I can't read your mind, meaning that something must've happened for you to close yourself.”
You remained frozen in place. You don't know how to respond. This was turning into a deep conversation, and you were not prepared for it.
Seeing how nervous you are, he follows, “I can make people do things. I can even communicate through visions and dreams. See, every living thing has energy, matter. That's what we call the force. I can control it, wield it and bend it to my will. But you, I don’t see anything. How can you block my abilities? You're not a Jedi, nor force sensitive. That means you have closed yourself to the outside. I don't know how you do it, but it keeps me away.”
You couldn't remember how to breathe, “Sorry can you give me a moment, I-I need to use the fresher.” You don't give him time to react as you didn't want to face him anymore. Being near him was too overwhelming, you realized.
What were all these questions? Maker, he's so intense.
As you washed your hands, you pass some water onto your face.
What is this? Why does he want to read my mind anyway? It doesn't matter; I need to be careful. So many people are counting on my discretion and loyalty. I just need to be on his good grace; I’ll get out of here soon enough...
After you dried yourself, you opened the door to be greeted by the supreme leader standing across the living room. Watching you intensely as you felt the fear crawling back to you. He looked so tall and intimidating, even from afar. You knew you couldn't avoid him forever, but maybe you could avoid his intrusive questions for today. “So, I assume this is your place huh?”
“Why didn’t you try to escape?” he finally asks. Dismissing your poor attempt to make casual conversation. He knew you were uncomfortable by his questions, but he still wanted some answers.
You noticed his fingertips fidgeting as you parted your lips wordlessly. Recalling the nervousness in his voice as he walks closer to you. Which makes your palms sweaty now that he's hovering over you. You tilted your head upwards to meet him. His eyes were searching for yours anxiously waiting for your response.
“Well, you told me to stay here, right?” You replied confused. He knows you’re being genuine, but he was still disappointed.
You didn't run off, that was a good thing, right? After all, you were his prisoner, you had to obey him, but something didn’t feel right to him.
You raise your eyebrow to him, “What am I doing here? Why are you being like this to me?”
“Like what?” eyes examining yours.
“Well, I bet that it's quite unusual to have the supreme leader make sure his prisoners are bathed, feed and well rested.”
He sighed, annoyed by your statement, “what, since I'm evil I must not care about things?”
You let out a sharp anxious chuckle, “I mean isn’t that the point?”
He stares into your eyes feeling his whole body becoming whiter, as if there was an aura around him. Seeing him distorted, almost in double. You can sense this cold and empty feeling inside your chest. He stares at you attentively as you let an uncontrollable, single tear drop from the corner of your eye. He noticed it, raising his bare finger to swipe it off your cheek.
He doesn't know why but he brushed his bare thumb across your bottom lip. Leaning closer to bring his slightly parted ones on yours. Taking his time feeling your soft and plush flesh on his. You heard him breathe in strongly before he quickly lets you go. In shock of what he just did.
He had lost control again.
“Did I do something wrong?” You asked worryingly.
He stared at you surprised, “no, no you haven't done anything, I did. I shouldn't have touched you— “
“Wow I'm impressed, the dark prince has a conscience.” You could hear the sarcasm in your own voice and so could he.
He grabby your arm forcefully clenching his jaw as he’s thinking of what to do next. You noticed the fight inside him as you stared deep into his eyes. You don’t know why but you began to relax. Slowly bringing your hand to his face. He flinched back, not knowing what to expect.
As you hold the side of him, you felt his warmth transferring to your cold hand. He closes his eyes as he leans back to your lips. You don't stop him even if you know that, all of it was wrong.
Taking advantage of the moment, he pushes you into the wall behind you as he gave into you more as he kissed you full mouth like a starved man. You felt overwhelmed by stimulation as he took a hand to grab you by the hip and the other going for your ribs. You felt trapped, but you also didn’t want to get on his bad side. If that’s what it takes to live another day on this ship, you don’t have a choice...
Thankfully, he opened his eyes to see that you're not responding much to him. Which made him abruptly remove his hands from you. “You don’t want me...” he says, voice low and vibrating
You stared, “I-I'm attracted to you but.”
You don’t know where to stand. You were needy with a hot shirtless supreme leader, but he was also the reason of so much destruction.
“...But I'm a monster.” finishing your sentence for you, upset but not surprised. You stayed silent as you watched him exhale heavily. He moved to grab his arm brace on the couch, pushing the side of it with his thumb. “In need of a guard to my quarters.”
“So, you’re just going to dismiss me since I won’t give you what you want?” squinting your eyes at him disgusted.
He gave you a dismissive look as he goes to open a small door on the edge of the entrance. Putting a clean shirt on before fixing his helmet back onto his head. “I don’t want you to feel forced or, uncomfortable with me.”
Confused, you hear a voice coming from his device, “On site, sir.”
He turns and walks to the entrance. Asking you to come, “I hope there can be a truth between us.” Before you could say anything, he opened the door greeting the soldier.
“Bring prisoner 226 to her cell.” he says coldly. The soldier simply nodded and grabbed you by the arm.
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