Be stuck on a roof

all I love

[resqectable]

“She practices being herself every day. Having to shed the layers of other identities took time. She even lost friendships. She couldn’t fill their egos anymore. When you focus on yourself, and love yourself, some relationships have to go.”

— Adrian Michael

[thehopefulquotes]

“Sometimes giving someone a second chance is like giving them an extra bullet for their gun because they missed you the first time.”

— Unknown

[bestuckonaroof]

I’ve come to understand why psychiatrists say PTSD can improve over time—how certain chemicals in the brain can fade and shift as the days pass. Living in the present, I now feel both moments of clarity and confusion, but mostly, I understand myself better. I understand how to manage my thoughts and my life more than I did before.

Looking back two or three years ago, I recall how often I thought about silence and even death. It was a time of chaos and uncertainty. But today, I’m filled with gratitude—grateful to the Buddha for this second chance at life, for the ability to wake up and see another day.

I’ve realized that I needed to step out of my own corner, to leave behind the same repetitive thoughts and stagnant environment. Staying in the same place, reliving the same events, only deepened the sadness and isolation. Moving forward, stepping outside that circle, allowed me to see more of the world, meet diverse people, and feel the love and care that surrounds me. It helped me to fill the emptiness within me, even though I’m still figuring out exactly what was missing.

Now, my life feels fuller—my heart feels fuller. I see a clearer path for myself, one that involves planning and stepping forward with purpose. I want to tell you all that I am getting better. I am not perfect, and I still have work to do, but I am grateful for where I am today. I will not go back to where I was before.

I’ve learned to stop, let go, and appreciate what I already have. Whether I succeed or fail, move forward or take a step back, I see it all as part of the journey of life. I will cherish every step, and I’ll find joy in the small, simple things.

My heart is healing. My mind is at peace—most of the time. As long as no one pulls me back into old patterns, I think I can stay in this calm and positive space.

I want to share this because I believe people need to know that healing is possible. It depends on how we choose to live and how we choose to see the world. I want my friends and loved ones to worry less about me because I’ve come to understand myself and my emotions so much better now.

Thank you for being part of my journey. I am better, and I’m learning to truly live again.

[fortpeat]

LOVE SEA EP1 REVIEW

OMGGGG OMGGG WHERE DO I EVEN BEGINNNN OK FIRST THINGS FIRST YES I AM ALIVE - THAT WAASSS AMAZING 🥹🥹🥹 OH MYYY I AM ALREADY IN LOVE WITTH OUR BABIESSS. 😍😍😍

You know a teeny tiny part of me was kind of scared that Rakmut would remind me so much of Paisky becoz they have been a huge part of my life since the beginning but that was so not the case yes there were certain scenes that did remind me of them but overall Fortpeat was phenomenal in bringing these two characters to life flawlessly. And yes we only have one episode but for me what we got was plenty good to understand their characters a lot more 🥹🥹

Let's start with Mahasamut 😍

MY GOD HIS ENTRANCE 🫠🫠 woww... As a fellow Ocean / marine life lover I can say that Mahasamut's entry while he's doing what's he passionate about took my breath away and yes his shirtless scene also took my breath away 🫠🫠 obviously. Thank you MMY for the slow mo hair flip and saving me from doing it again 🤣 with what we got his relationship with Palm I like how they are like siblings 🤭 I really want to know more.

He is such a puppy I mean come on look at that smile... I am melting here. Also these smiles clearly shows his younger side and it's Soo cuteee 😍😍 I want to see more also I LOVEEE HOW HE IS HELL BENT ON ANNOYING TONGRAK 🤣🤣 it's interesting to see how it's portrayed that nothing effects him and that all the comments that Tongrak throws his away is brushed off easily coz I have a feeling that we will be seeing more into that 👀👀

Next Tongrak 😍😍

This man's prettiness knows no bounds 😍😍 each and every single outfit that he had on this episode was just wow... I was drooling .... 🙏🙏 Let me worship you Tongrak HOW CAN SOMEONE BE THIS PRETTY 🤣 ALSO EVERYTIME TONGRAK WAS COMPARED TO A KITTEN I WAS DYING 🤣🤣🤣 He is portrayed as rich but lonely who obviously doesn't admit it. He is definitely attracted to Mahasamut but won't admit it which makes me want him to be the first one to cave in the tug of desire war 🤣🤣 PLEASEEEE 🙏🙏 Rak definitely knows what he wants and I don't think he is someone who backs aways from getting it but interestingly with Mut he would play hard to get obviously since he "hates" Mut 🤭🤭

NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT THIS SCENE 🤣🤣🤣 I WANT TO REPLAY THIS A THOUSAND TIMES ALREADY 🤣🤣 COZ I DIED... RAK THINKING HE WAS SUCCESSFULLY SEDUCING MUT BUT MUT'S FOCUS BEING ON A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TOPIC ALSO THE "SMOOTH AS A PEELED PEAR" 🤣🤣🤣 THAT IS GONNA BE THE QUOTE OF THE YEAR 🤣🤣 I CANTTT WITH THEIR BANTER 🤣

AHHH THESE TWO SCENES 🫠🫠🫠 KILL ME NOWWWW THEIR MAGIC 😍😍😍 ✨✨✨✨ BABIES ARE KILLING ITTT ALSO THAT HANDHOLDING 🫠🫠🫠

It's safe to say each and every scene in this episode has captured my heart 🥹🥹 the wait has been so worth it and I am so happy 😍😍😍 I NEED THE SECOND EPISODE HERE ALREADY AND FROM THE PREVIEW... AHHHH I AM SO NOT READY BUT GIVE IT TO ME ALREADY 🫠🫠

(p.s I am dedicating my favorite scene from the episode with another post)

[alwayspining]

Love in the Air (2022) l ep 12 - uncut version.

[thodi]

NOVEMBER ‘23 READINGS

Period Food Cravings Really Exist and Have a Scientific Basis, Study Shows • prose

Carl Jung's Midlife-Crisis Notebooks • prose

I Remember Arthur • prose (tw: suicide)

Distractions • comics

It's not just you. LinkedIn has gotten really weird. • prose

100 Ways To Thrive Outside Of Capitalism • prose

The Myth of Self-Sufficiency • prose

City Arts & Lectures Presents Ocean Vuong • video

My Saturday Self Versus My Sunday Self • prose

Saving the World Like a Savarna • prose

The artefacts of our lives • prose

The big sleep: a photography book captures subjects in slumber • prose, photography

The Inside Job • prose

The Man Who Thinks He Can Live Forever • prose

Art of Darkness • prose

Too Tired Project • instagram page

Migratory Flights • prose

The Race to Catch the Last Nazis • prose

To move toward fully living • prose

Cooking with Wool: Pasta with Red Sauce • video

what’s earned, what’s not • prose

Visualisation and Why We Don’t Need it to Make Visual Art • prose

The Protagonist Is Never in Control • prose (tw: abuse)

URL Poetry Club • web

Thank You, Pamela • prose

Mere Belief • prose

Remembering Louise Glück (1943-2023) • prose

Museum Of Lost Memories • instagram page

science told me to go outside • prose, comic

To the Groundskeeper of Lodi Garden • prose (from this anthology)

Voices on Addiction: Searching for My Mother’s Ocean • prose (tw: alcohol, substance abuse, self-harm)

The Glitch Gallery • art, web

The Dutch Word for Gift • prose, art

Mary Oliver on the Mystery of the Human Psyche, the Secret of Great Poetry, and How Rhythm Makes Us Come Alive • prose

A Brief Guide for Navigating Toomuchery • prose

Hold Your Breath Up To The Mirror and Draw Yourself a New Face • poetry

Wisława Szymborska & the Poetry of Existence • prose

'Does Melancholy Foster Creativity?' • prose

What’s Special About This Number? • web

What does a happily ever after look like? • prose, web

tag list (reach out if you want to be tagged on these!) - @then-child-make-another @quesadillayuri

[fortpeat]

Fortpeat/PrapaiSky Video Edits (updated version)

Lita NC11 Bts+Actual Scene

Lita Boardroom Scene Bts+Actual scene

PrapaiSky - Dress

PrapaiSky - You

PrapaiSky - Power

PrapaiSky - Lips on you

PrapaiSky - Pillow Talk

Fortpeat - Capital Letters

PrapaiSky - AU version

Fortpeat - Lita FM Couple dance portion

Fortpeat - Body Language (mini short-video)

PrapaiSky - What If AU

PrapaiSky - Thousand years

PrapaiSky - Annoy me

PrapaiSky - Unholy

Sky - Safe Haven

Fortpeat - Livin Hell

Prapai - Step on up

Fortpeat - Dont blame me

PrapaiSky - Boyfriend

PrapaiSky - Thinking about you

PrapaiSky - Feelings

PrapaiSky - Until i found you

Beauty of Lita

PrapaiSky - Collide

PrapaiSky/Fortpeat Parallels

PrapaiSky Reincarnation AU

PrapaiSky - Moon and Back

PrapaiSky - Dandelions

PrapaiSky - Dreams

PrapaiSky - Labrinyth (mini edit)

PrapaiSky - Die for you

PrapaiSky- Never be the same

PrapaiSky - Fantasy AU

Fort Thitipong - Fever

Fortpeat Journey Magazine

Fortpeat - Can I be him

FortPeat chemistry - Slow dive

PrapaiSky -

Fortpeat - Capital Letters

Fortpeat - Kiss me

Fortpeat - Shameless

Fortpeat - Tokyo FM (unhinged version)

Fortpeat - Shameless (Magazine Shoot)

Fortpeat unhinged version 2

[bird-inacage]

SKY x PRAPAI Love Language | The Kisses on the Lips

PART 1 / PART 2

By popular demand, here’s another collection of Prapaisky kisses which include the special episode and any I couldn’t fit into the previous gifset. The infamous boardroom tango deserves two mentions - as the kisses were so wonderfully different. My personal favourites here are probably ‘vulnerable’, ‘adoring’ and ‘enraptured’.

Now, now my fellow stans. Which ones take your top pick in this set?

[zhaozi]

[chocolatecakeandbl]

Prapai’s Past - Character Study with Headcanons

Out of the blue, we had a very interesting convo yesterday at the server. It started with ‘Prapai’s happiness’ and turned into ‘What might have happened in Prapai’s past?’ 

A lot of headcanons came up, halfway turned into a deep character study we want to share with everyone. 

Buckle yourself in, get a drink. This will take some time :3 

A short Prapai Character Study

We often joke about Prapai being empty-headed about anything that is not Sky and Sky's body, but we never think of him as just a dopey guy. He has to be brilliant at his job. His father wouldn't have made him CEO if he were an idiot. He has brilliant emotional intelligence. He just plays the smiley fuckboi, because that's what people expect him to be.

Prapai the CEO. 

The amount of burden he has to carry on his shoulders must be beyond imagination. 

The pressure? The expectations? 

Prapai’s family seems to be supportive, but they still loaded expectations upon expectations on him.  

Prapai the family anchor.

The boy raised his siblings, said so himself. How fast has he had to grow up? How old was he when he lost his childhood?

Where was Pai's mother in this? Why did the responsibility for his siblings fall on Pai? Why not someone else? They are rich. They could have had help. Nannys? Other family members? Literally anyone but Pai? So why Pai?

A possible headcanon:

Pai's mom was there when Phan and Plerng were still small, but when they got older, it fell on Pai. Largely because Pai was always present and wanted to take care of them, loved them more than himself - that's how this boy is, really. In the end, Pai was too protective to let someone else care for them?

In a way, if looked for deep enough, it becomes tragic. Why? Because he had the money for a place to live, all the food and stuff he might have wanted. But he was too young to carry the responsibility of a family, and it led him to make hard choices.

Prapai, the man behind the mask.

Prapai is incredibly intense in whatever he does.

He was given a lot of responsibility since a young age, not only from his parents because his dad most likely already had the intention for him to become CEO the moment he was born, but also because he cared for his siblings the way he did. It might have ended up coming naturally to him, not only because he IS loving like that, but because he's been slowly put into a position of "taking care of things", whatever those may be. Started off as helping out his brother with a bruise, ended up in making deals and ensuring the status of the company.

On the other side, we see what happens IF Pai stops wearing that mask of smiles, and his charming sunny boy self. It's been a thing when Sky cut him off. But what really got us was the way he looked when he got up to repay Gun’s efforts.  

There wasn’t a trace of a smile. Prapai’s eyes were intense, focused. His stance was tall, grand, room filling. Someone hurt the man who is his heart? His life? 

This is the moment the mask falls completely. What we find is an intense Prapai. A protective Prapai. A Prapai who doesn’t fear to keep those safe he wants to have safe no matter what it costs.

This Pai is the real Pai. 

Why the smiles?

If you have no idea why he keeps smiling and being the sunny boy, it's easy to say that he just is like that because he never had to worry about anything. He's from a rich family. He had his future set out. He's pretty. 

But what does it need to be a young CEO? 

That is what many underestimate. How there's ALWAYS people telling you how you are too young for the job, that there's no way the company survives under your hands. That you only got the position bc of X instead of your own hard work. If you leash out, it's all over. Everyone goes "Told you. He's not made for the position." So what is left? Smile. Be charming. Maybe add a bit of puppy eyes and acting innocent because it always helps. We all see it at Pai. We hc he not only got hurt relationship wise, but also has to take slights on an everyday base. He has a way to cope with it, but it's a thing many people choose to not see.

Inevitable questions we never got answers to:

Why was Prapai ‘raised’ by his uncle?

Why did he end up having to raise his siblings?

Where had his parents been? 

Why had he had to take over the company at such a young age? 

Prapai as a teenager

Prapai wearing his heart on his sleeve is so true and we can only imagine a much younger Prapai, being his lovely golden retriever self trying to give someone his heart, only for it to be stomped on. How long he might’ve been a ‘kicked puppy’, who decided that all smiles, swaggering fuckboi was the mask he needed to wear from then on?

What if this is what happened? Teenage Prapai who lost his heart to someone only to have it crashed...

What made him into the 'fuckboi' we got to know? Did he sit down, over his broken heart, seeing the sadness in his eyes in the mirror, and go "No one will ever get to know about it?" only to adapt a "Single life is best." attitude we saw he had (and conveyed to his siblings)?

What if he tried again, got shot down again, then realized people only wanted him for one thing. 

OR.... Maybe he overheard someone talking about him. Young Pai, pondering on whatever he's pondering on, maybe he's in school or college, he overhears a conversation about him, and as he's about to walk in and say hi, he hears himself described in ways that break his heart.

It's hard to believe he just chose “Single life is the best!” out of the blue and that he always wanted the "single heartthrob" vibe for himself. Prapai is TOO lovely to simply be a player. 

He didn’t go through a trauma like Sky went through, but he might have gone through a period of time with someone whom he cared for a lot but who didn't treat him the way he deserved. "Why should I even give my heart to anyone if people just use it however they'd like?"

Considering he was raised to care for everything, he wouldn't just go around "fucking and finding out".

What if we go deeper into this headcanon? 

What if he tried relationships? 

He freaking tried but got so badly hurt he decided he’s either not worth it or everyone is the same so there’s no point in trying. In high school, or while in UK. Being cheated on, being used for money, being a game in someone’s bet (I dare you to get into Pai’s pants and make him head over heels for you kind of bet). A different hurt from Sky’s, but still one creating a huge scar in his heart. 

So many people just go for looks.

And Pai fits in that part. Not only does he come from a monetary background, and social status, but he has the looks as well. 

He is a charming boy, it's hard to not want him. 

Maybe he's how he is because he got hurt. He got used. And to avoid it happening again, he opened a playground where he could live out the frustration his life inevitably brings, while at the same time getting that tad bit of intimacy (aka bedroom activities) keeping him sated enough to go through daily life. 

We think Pai is someone, who IF he had a relationship before, got cut off because he is very caring. And so many out there just aren't able to cope with it. Too many feelings. Too much care. Too much focus. 

It’s easily overwhelming for too many. 

Prapai’s Happiness

We often talk about how Pai made Sky happy, made him feel safe, but we talk way too little about how Sky taught Pai to be happy and showed him that happiness in a relationship is a thing too. Before Sky, Prapai had no idea how real relationships work. He didn’t know the joy that came from it, nor that slightly different feeling of support and feeling home. 

Now, Sky showed him what real, genuine romantic love is, what does it mean to hold someone in your arms feeling content simply because that person is next to you and you can hug them. 

That your love’s happiness is often your happiness. 

Sky showed him that fuzzy warm feeling. He rid him of loneliness and gave Pai stability. The way that boy smiles in EP11 after the NC, when he holds Sky in his arms, and in EP13 when he peppers him with all the kisses?

It’s a totally different smile from all the smiles he showed us before. His eyes sparkle with unconfined joy. 

We think Pai never experienced something like this before. 

It’s proven by how often Prapai says something along the lines of "I've never done this before, you know?" And how it's a sign of the journey of discovery he's in. 

He's finding out all of these new things in his first ever relationship. 

He wants to share them with Sky. And since he's an eager puppy, he’s all happily going "Look! I did this for the first time!" 

In turn for Sky, who has been in a relationship before, but was not cared for during it, all of Prapai's discoveries are discoveries for himself too. He's finding out what real love is like. 

Prapai: You know, I've never cleaned up someone before. 

Sky: You know, no one has ever done this for me before.

They discover and learn together. 

Sky teaches Prapai how a true relationship should look like - the boy isn’t even aware he does, he’s just being himself, but with his feelings for Prapai it’s inevitable. The love he offers Prapai is the guide. 

Prapai teaches Sky how to be happy again, how to love again, how to not be afraid again. 

But who said Prapai isn’t scared himself? The man has all the love to give, he’s a natural caretaker. He’s been born to give. 

But with it comes the inevitable danger of being used. Sky doesn’t use Pai. And maybe, this is the whole point.  

Prapai and Sky

It says a lot that Prapai waited for 3 months before actively going to PhayuRain's place one day to get a hold of Sky’s number. We see he tried before, but got interrupted. But if we go deeper, if Pai would have REALLY wanted Sky's number, he could have gotten it before. He waited 3 months to get it. And we think that's the cue. He'd been debating with himself for weeks, because he couldn't get Sky out of his mind. He couldn't sleep with others anymore because it just didn't bring any joy anymore. It felt wrong. It's safe to say the three times he slept with someone might have happened within a week after he met Sky (because let’s be honest, Pai is on the active side when it's about sex. He doesn't need to wait) It took him approx, a week to realise he wants Sky, and no one else when it's about sexual pleasure. It took him 3 months (!!) to really make up his mind and for SURE get Sky's number. We think this is what says it all. 

If he hadn't been burned before, he wouldn't have waited that long. He could have gotten Sky's number before through Phayu or Rain. He could have tried to get another night with Sky. Just sex. GREAT sex, but after all, only sex. But no. He decided to ponder over Sky, kept replaying their time. A clear sign he's debating with himself. Should he? Should he not? Pai is a smart boy. Yet, he went to Saifah, “Hey, what's the meaning if I can't stop thinking about him?" A question he could easily answer himself. He got the validation he searched for through Saifah, and promptly went ahead with a plan he surely had in mind for a while.

All the scenes we didn't see, but would have been highly interesting, would have clued us in. 

Aka the drive from the university to Sky's apartment, when Pai "picked up" Sky the first time.What did they do during the drive? Did they talk? Did Pai steal glances?

Another key scene for us is when Sky falls into the memory right in front of Pai before they got breakfast. 

Cards on the table.. 

Who would be able to make sense of the retreat from Sky, who hadn't been hurt before?  

Pai sees the hurt. And for someone to be able to see the hurt, the one must have experienced hurt before. 

He reacts perfectly that moment. He draws Sky out of the building to get food (bc we all know food can help immensely in such a situation bc it changes the body reaction) I don't think anyone would do it/see it, who doesn't have any experience with it.

Again, in summary, and I can’t stress enough about it: Who’d do that if they didn’t know what being hurt feels like?

What does it NEED for someone to see it in someone else? And how much MORE does it need for someone to go "How can I help you?" after recognizing the hurt in the other?

Prapai was genuinely concerned. He dropped all his smiles and playboy-ish ways immediately. All masks fell. 

Another instance is the boardroom scene. 

Excuse me if we go a bit off course for a moment, but there is literally no other way to word it:

The boardroom behind the scenes was very telling.

How Fort and Peat remain in their position on top of the table, not just because they're doing a scene, but we think deep down Fort is caging Peat with his body, he can easily just wrap himself on top of him to protect him if needed. And we think it's something he shows in Prapai too.

When did Pai fall for Sky?

Hard to say. We can’t possibly know. But what we know is:

When Sky kept pushing Prapai away and not falling for his charms/money/sex, Prapai might have hoped that maybe this time risking his heart to love again would not be a bad idea. And maybe this time this "cold" person might be exactly who he's been looking for all this time.

Prapai saw in Sky his own façade. To be a playboy, you also need to play a role. Sky was the ice prince, Prapai was all smiles and charm, but in some of his interactions he's also straight up sassy and cold. We think he definitely did his fair share of "this means nothing, it's sex, just take what you want and leave me be" like Sky did to him. 

It is an instant connection?

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This study is a collab of @fortpeat (who also did ALL the work with the screencaps *smooches*) and @moriano and @akitbeast and @bird-inacage and @mb-praiskyfortpeat and ofc me :3

[bestuckonaroof]

boss said noeul hug him immediately, because people won't stop shipping him with other actor to boss

honestly don't like to ship actors but damn these two might make me break my rule. The way Boss looks at Noeul 

[prapais]

(25.11.22) happy 1 year with fortpeat!

peat: i see how well fort takes care of me. thank you to whatever it is that has brought us to meet, thank you that we have become partners, because especially with me, fort is someone who’s very attentive. even if sometimes i tease him back, fort always knows that i will always love and care about him. and the more we get to know each other, the more we start to be each other’s safe zones. i want to say that you’ll have me here beside you, always. 

fort: i have thought before… what if that day i acted with someone else? how would i be now? if my partner wasn’t p’peat then… how would i turn out today? thank you so much for being with me. honestly, i love him so much. i can straightforwardly say i love him so much, he is one special person for me. he’s a very important person in my life. i want us to be together a long, long time. (x)

[moonchildridden]

Prapai with highschool Sky

[alwayspining]

Love in the Air (2022) l special episode.

*In the category “daddy”? 🤷‍♀️

[fortpeat]

Posting this just coz my hun @prapaiskymissinghours used her doe eyes at me 😚😚❤️‍🔥

THE ONE AND ONLY BOARDROOM MEETING.

[opuestocomplementario]

clothes in Love in the air (BL)

So…I am into clothes and fashion, especially in series and movies, therefore I got really curious about the choices of clothing in certains dramas, especially BL thai. Because it is not something we talk about when It comes to BL. We tend to focus on acting, writing, music, but clothes are not the topic, and I do understand. Most BL Thai dramas take place in universities and they have uniforms so we don’t have much to explore outside of their hair and little details that they put to differentiate main characters from others. So, here is an approach that I decided to do, especially in my current obsession: Love in the air. This means is a personal interpretation, so does not need to be taken seriously. 

I will cover the main pairing first for obvious reasons but when PrapaiSky shows up I am definitely talking about them later on.

Love in the Air is a Thai BL show about two relationships, one between a senior architect and a junior, and the second is also about a student architect and a racer and businessman (we don’t know what Prapai does yet). The show focuses on how these two relationships between these very different people collide and become more than that. 

Our first character, Rain, is a bratty student who talks shit all the time and respects no one. He is in his first year of university and likes this college mate, Ple. From the start we only see Rain wearing the uniform that consists of a white shirt and black pants. Rain, however, wears his in a casual and informal way, with a colorful shirt under. Unlike Sky and Ple, who are seen put together, Rain looks like he doesn’t care about rules and order that much. And then we also get this piece of information that I feel like has to do a lot with how Rain is: he does not know who Phayu is, and Phayu is the idol of everyone as well as a pretty respected senior. Everyone loves Phayu, except Rain.

His hair is also an indication of his character. Ignoring the awful color and hairstyle, Rain is supposed to look inocent and dumb, which he is. He is cute, but he is also a child (keep in mind that he is 19 in the drama), so it makes sense that he wears comfortable clothes, but also colorful and shiny. 

When we are first introduced to his character we can also see how his clothes symbolize his nature: Rain does not follow the rules (he literally got into an illegal race), he don’t respect his elders (he yelled at Payu), he can’t keep boundaries (he kept following Ple even though she repeatedly said that she didn’t want to have anything with Rain) and he is irresponsible and unprofessional (does homework at the last minute, uses cell phone in class, leaves everything to the last minute).

But, the moment that he starts getting his life together and dating Phayu he looks a lot more put together and his clothes are more visually pleasing. When this happens we can see a lot more blue in Rain’s clothings than before and where does blue appear too? Yes, in Phayu’s racer suit. 

The blue hue is associated with calm, intelligence, sincerity, and confidence. Blue is the color of the sky and ocean in nature. These create a sense of calm and security. A light version of blue contains both blue and white properties, making it a blend of both. For instance, white symbolizes purity, cleanliness, and openness (Rain is young and virgin). Lighter blues are a reflection of these properties. As a result, lighter blues become associated with peace, friendliness, approachability, youth, and loyalty.

Even thought I said before that Rain was really iresponsible and sometimes dumb, it is true that once he realize the importance of taking things serious and being more aware of his behaviour the choices of wearing blue fits a lot with him. Rain also feels safe with Phayu and looks for him when he needs security and comfort. That’s why I also think that the atmosphere of their scenes is always a mix of blues, greens and blacks. Because while the storm can be dangerous, it always gets calm afterwords and rain can be soothing and comforting (yes, i am talking about Episode 6 where Rain gets Phayu to stop growing) 

Okay, so after trying to read more into Rain clothes, we can finally talk about my favorite boy and talk about how amazing his clothes are. This all started because I became obsessed with how they styled Phayu in every single scene and how I don’t think this was unintentional and random.

Our second lead is Phayu. He is an architect for the day, and a mechanic in ilegal races for the night. This already tells us how dynamic and versatile he is as a person. He is professional and works hard to get things done right but also likes to have fun and is playful when it comes to things that he likes. He enjoys the bikes and the races, and he doesn’t like when people can’t follow the rules. And I really like how important this is. Is it not that Phayu is obsessed with everyone following the schedule; on the contrary, he sees how important the order and the rules are because otherwise people are going to get hurt. He is responsible, organized and mature. So we clearly understand why he wears suits. But what I love the most about these types of outfits is that they are not a full suit. He wears jeans with it and he wears colorful jackets. This can be translated into the fun personality and youthful character that he is. While he does have a respectful job with older people, he still is young and jovial. Goes to drink with friends, helps people without them asking and is flirty. (Honestly, where the fuck can i get a Phayu? The more i write about him the more jealous and mad I am about the fact that he is fictional)  

Phayu is also a mechanic and doesn’t like when people insult their job. This can also add to his “bad boy vibe” because he does things at night that are not well known by a lot of people. The color black is a shade/color that comes off as mysterious, serious, prestigious, and powerful to most people. When worn, it is a symbol of class, business, elegance, and sexiness while also having an overbearing, even sometimes evil character to it. Is important to note that he does not wear black all the time. So we can say that he is not always this put-together and serious persona, especially when it comes to Rain. 

So yeah, I love the color schemes of Phayu, because he can appear in outfits like this and makes completely sense for the character. Also, we, as society, don’t talk enough about this serve. This outfit. THAT ’S IT. I NEED HIM TO MAKE A COMEBACK. 

I also feel like the hairstyle of Boss helps a lot with this characterization. At first it might look like the long hair is just to appear “bad, hot and sexy” and is obviously for that. But I feel like if the stylist also only styled him in dark colors and clothes, the aura wouldn’t be the same. Like, he is supposed to be an idol in his university so I feel like even though the bad vibe suits him, it wouldn’t work the same. 

But what i love the most about this is, unlike other shows from the same writer (and others shows, for that matter), Love in the air make the characters realistics, not only with other elements like friendships, work, college and sexuality; but with the way the style everything else (clothes, hair, scenarios, music, THE MUSIC IS SO GOOD FOR SOME REASON). Fiat and Leo from Don’t say no  for example look expensive because they have money and wear things that not many other people will wear, almost as if the clothes were made specifically for them, while Phayu and Rain wear clothes that everyone and anyone can wear: colorful jackets, jeans and shirts.  And they also used clothes to reflect their personalities.

Conclusion: Love in the air has really good stylists that know what fits the actors and the characters best. I hope that this keeps with the story of Prapai and Sky, because honestly I can already make connections with some of the colors I have seen. Like red signifies power, boldness, and confidence, it also symbolizes love, emotion, and passion, so we can already tell that this fits A LOT with the portrait of Prapai.  

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Love in the Air: Sky’s Desire to be Loved

Sky is already breaking my heart. What I really picked up on in this episode is despite the pain, disappointment and trauma Sky carries with him, he still ultimately just wants to be loved.

At the race, when he first realises Prapai is staring at him, he looks slightly taken aback in a pleasantly surprised sort of way. Like ‘oh, he noticed me’. It’s evident that Sky finds Prapai very attractive, and so when Prapai takes him aside, you can tell that Sky is shy, nervous even. That’s the sort of reaction you only have in front of someone you potentially like. However, as soon as Prapai comes out with his proposition, Sky’s impression of him immediately does a 180. You can tell how hurt he is by this revelation. It’s not simply ‘oh this guy is an asshole too’, but more so, ‘why is this happening to me again?’

The fact that Sky agrees to their one night stand is more than just about repaying a favour or rising to the challenge. To me this is a sign of self-destructive behaviour. I think he resorts to his usual defence mechanism which is playing nonchalant. Maybe if he pretends to be unaffected and somehow detached from this emotionally, he won’t be hurt when it dawns on him all over again that this was purely a physical transaction. But he goes into this knowing that he’s hurt, hurting and will be hurt further by it.

I think Sky feels better when he has control and is taking the initiative. Because then something at least is on his terms, and he can convince himself he’s okay that it is just sex.

So Sky chooses to give in purely to lust, and to allow that to sweep him away. He is able to enjoy their night together simply on a physical level. However, immediately afterward you can tell Sky is unhappy, empty and regretful. He feels like nothing but an object of desire. His attempt to detach himself emotionally wasn’t successful. So he reaches for Prapai again for that momentary high. The brief comfort that comes from connecting with someone during sex is only temporary.

People who have experienced abusive or toxic relationships, desperately want the other person to love them equally, and are therefore willing to compromise their own discomfort, their own boundaries and concede to more and more to please that person.

I do also think that some people who are desperately seeking love, sometimes mistake any form of intimacy as a substitute. They’ll take what is offered to them, even if it makes them feel bad about themselves. Which is why I believe Sky continued to engage with Prapai that night, because he probably tried to convince himself that it was enough, which clearly backfired.

Then we see Sky leave the hotel, looking so dejected, small and alone. What kills me about these scenes is the quiet resignation in Sky’s acceptance of the situation. He just looks like he’s thinking ‘how could you be so stupid?’ And when he says “you’re also an asshole” - he sounds genuinely disappointed. Like he was really hoping Prapai would be different and prove him wrong.

Sky then returns home where he clearly wants to cry but holds it in. I think Sky believes that if he truly broke down in that moment, then he would have truly admitted defeat. That it would be affirmation that he has allowed this to get to him and hurt him, when he was so determined not to let that happen again.

“Shitty things always happen to me”. When bad things happen repeatedly to someone, it’s easy to internalise that as if it is somehow your fault because the common denominator is you.

Later in the episode, there are multiple scenes where Sky reiterates that he doesn’t think Prapai would ever truly be interested in him. That Prapai’s interest in pursuing him is just for sex.

When he answers Prapai’s call for the first time, he doesn’t yet know who it is, and yet Prapai crosses his mind. This shows that Prapai did leave an impression on him. Sky has not completely erased him from his mind.

The other important detail to note here is that even though Sky deems Prapai an ‘asshole’, he doesn’t at any point say he’s not attracted to him. He’s always commenting on how he feels Prapai wouldn’t be attracted to him. This demonstrates that Sky does genuinely believe (despite all his negative impressions) that Prapai is out of his league and would never take real notice of him. He would not be having these thoughts if he didn’t like Prapai on some level. And he hates himself for that, because he feels he should know better.

It’s because he’s attracted to Prapai that he can’t help feeling taken by Prapai’s advances. He even peers out of the window to see if Prapai is still there. He repeatedly tells himself to shake out of it, knowing he shouldn’t entertain these delusions.

In the last scene where Sky receives the sunflowers, he’s taken aback for a moment when Prapai tells him why he sent them. “Cause sunflowers face the sky, I can’t be the sun for you but whenever you see sunflowers, remember that this wind’s watching over the sky”.

Sky is aware that Prapai is sweet talking. But he can’t help himself from being genuinely touched for a moment, like his brain is going ‘see, someone is doing this for you, that must mean something right?’.

At this stage Prapai doesn’t fully mean it. Not really. The man has no idea what his own feelings for Sky are. But this was still surprisingly heartfelt and sweet. A passing comment which meant a whole lot to Sky in that moment because it was so nice to just hear someone try and sweet talk him for once - regardless of how genuine it was.

Sky is clearly conflicted over his feelings around Prapai. He knows he should be staying well away, but at the same time he can’t help but want to be the object of someone’s attentions. Little does he know how deeply Prapai will come to love him.