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sono sempre un po' innamorata io eh

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I start to research for good hotels available for less than a kidney's worth, he plans our visit tours. I prepare my suitcase full of sundresses, party dresses, sunglasses and tank tops, he calls his father and has another spiteful cold conversation with him. May 20th, we're ready to go.

Paris smells like it had rained Dolce&Gabbana eau de perfume all over the city. We take out taxi from the airport and he sleeps while resting his head on my shoulder.

The hotel is pretty, and also pretty expensive: only one room is booked for the two of us, though i requested for two single separated beds- however, even if it was just one King sized there would be no problem, nothing CAN happen between dave and me. Ever.

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its the middle of may, i decide to take two weeks off my job. I am tired and i need a fresh air. I text my boy best friend, Dave, i tell him to meet me at our favourite cafè.

"Lets take a flight to Paris" i tell him as we sit down. He looks at me for 10 seconds, confused initially, then slowly a smile appears on his face and his eyes light up. He's probably getting reminded of that time we were 17 and told eachother "Hey, once we have enough money and some time we are going on a pretty cute trip, just the two of us." "But only if we are both single. I mean, im not planning on fucking you or whatever huh -dont get wrong ideas you ass- its just so you eventual girlfriend doesnt get a wrong idea. Deal?"

"Deal." he answers me after good 15 seconds of thoughtful silence. He had broken off a month earlier with his girlfriend, i had no intentions of making the first move with my gym crush. I had made some money, he had some savings he had little idea how to use. It was perfect.

I almost shout out of excitement and squeeze his hand as smiling almost histerically. The best week of my life was ahead of me.

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Vattene se vuoi tanto non ti cercherò, esci con chi vuoi tanto io non morirò

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raga mo dimagrisco

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a quest'ora potrei essere al linguistico a studiare cose effettivamente utili, non morire stremata e mentalmente provata ma lo stesso col flex di aver fatto un LiCeO

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odio il liceo classico che schifo perchè l'ho scelto

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L'altro giorno stavamo preparando una coreografia per ginnastica artistica durante l'ora di motoria e mi dovevo sedere sulle ginocchia di sta tipa che do 50 secondi fa "no alzati sei troppo pesante" LIKE DAMN GIRL calma un secondo

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figone

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Che carini però

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CHE DUE PALLE non poter andare in gita perchè sono povera porcocane. Ci va gente che non parla mai in classe e non ci vado io che sono amica di tutti l'anima della classe e la più simpatica. Porcocane starò in classe a guardare le loro xazzo di storie instagram dove loro come sempre si divertono mentre io faccio la sfigata come al solito. Diossanto perché sono povera perchè perché perchè

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the joy of my life is that I have people who love me

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its not the ride or die kind of love, its more the kind of love where they notice me and want me to be there. They listen to me and my stupid silly stories and give me a hug if I'm crying. This means so much to me

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the joy of my life is that I have people who love me

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And now the issue is, will I be skinny enough for my birthday?

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Having financial problems is so sad, here I am asking myself if it's gonna cost too much for my parents to buy a cake for my bday

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GOOD NEWS: I WILL HAVE A CAKE