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2:30AM THOUGHTS

I cant stop myself with this thought:

After 4 years,I’ll be celebrating Valentine’s as single again. And what hurts most is I know my ex is celebrating it with someone else now. I used to be that someone. We used to celebrate it yearly eating in fine dining restaruant:ms, try their food tasting menu. We used to celebrate it advance because usually im not in Manila every February. We used to celebrate everything in advance, Birthday, Christmas and anything else. You started it when you message me on our first year if I wanted to eat on this restaurant just to celebrate your birthday in advance. This is one of the reason also why it’s so hard to delete photos in my phone because we eat, travel and party alot. And every memory I have these past 4 years, you’re part of it. Every place we go, every resto we eat, every gifts you gave me, it’s so hard to let go on what we had.

NAPOLI dump 🇮🇹

#italytravel #napoli

Check out how my ex lied and gaslighted me, sabi nga ni Sam Smith “You say I'm crazy, 'Cause you don't think I know what you've done”

A LETTER TO MY EX (AFTER KNOWING THE TRUTH)

Hello, I just want you to let me understand why did you do this to me? You’re so unfair and you really hurt me. Ang sakit sakit, I cant believe it, I cant believe you, I cant believe that you had that side. You lied to me, you lied to my face, you lied for months. You played me, you played me hard. From the moment I came back from abroad, you have the choice to stop everything you have with your other guy or you can try working and fixing our relationship. you made your decision and that’s to break my heart. You’re so unfair talaga. Pinatagal mo pa talaga ng months. It really really hurts.

You had your other chance to tell when we went to Vietnam to have our yearly vacation and you dont. You played me well for letting me feel that there’s nothing wrong with our relationship. You lied to your guy by telling him that you went to Vietnam with your mother and your cousin. You really made your choice already to cheat on me. I didnt even realize that very happy moments we have in our trip that you’re not the same man that i loved. You’re not the man that i used to love and used to trust. You did destroy my trust on you. You made me think of our relationship, if which part is true and lie to you. How you been real to me ever since? Did you really love me?

You didnt have the guts to talk to me, knowing you’re at fault and you’re the one who cheated. It’s so hard that i heard all the truth from the guy you cheated on me and now from you. I cant even think straight right now. I have too many questions for you.

A LETTER TO MY EX (before knowing the truth)

Goodbye 4years. It’s hard to say goodbye to the my man, the man that i really love so much. I never thought that this time will come where I need to let you go. I didnt see this coming, because I really hoping you’re the one, my future and my everything. I never thought of you falling out of love and falling inlove with someone else. I didnt see this coming that you’re the one who will cheat. Cause i didnt expect that you will cheat in the first place. I thought we’re still okay, i thought we’re still happy together. I didnt expect that you’ll give up without even trying. we didnt even try to fix or even talk about the problem. You made your choice already without talking to me. It really hurts, i didnt have the chance to fight for you and for our relationship cause you made your choice already. It’s like you’re just waiting for me to give up. It’s like you’re just waiting for a perfect time to drop the ball. It’s like you’re just waiting for me to fall out of love with you.

When I came back from abroad this May, I really had doubts about your behaviors and you get cold. It’s so unusual but i didnt give a damn fuck about it and set it aside. Maybe because i really love you and i miss you. It never came to my mind that you will cheat on me. Cause even we ask my friends if who’s mostly to cheat, they will all say me. That’s why when I give them the use that we already broke up, they were all shocks and speechless at first. That’s how blind I am.

Atleast I tried. I tried my best to keep up with our relationship yet sorry if for you it’s not enough. I tried to keep up with you with those months that i’m not with you. With all those days, that you need me most but i’m not there. Sorry, if for you it’s not enough.

yfffy

If I’m on ur mind just text me

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Laughing like idiots in bed together is a love language

📍Hubbard Glacier, Alaska

Another bucket list checked ☑️☑️☑️☑️

📍Icy Strait Point, Alaska

August Dump

Life update: im back 🇵🇭

Cafe Fleur | Poblacion Makati

Hi Tumblr,

It’s been a while, btw I deleted my tumblr app already, I just wanna express my feelings right now, because I just found out that one of close friend here in tumblr died already 2-3years from now like he’s my kuya kuya in my internet life. I just found out on his ig, like his friends are commenting like “it’s been a year since you left” “you’re happy up there” things like that. napaisip ako kaya pala bigla nawala yung closeness namin like di na madalas naguusap.

Hi Kuya, I just wanna say sorry sobrang sorry ngayon ko lang nalaman, sorry di man lang kita nakamusta or di ko man lang alam if ano nangyare basta i know na you’re okay na up there. Btw I still have the book that you gave me nung college, I know binigay mo sakin yun dati kasi sinabi ko sayo never pa ko nakakatapos ng libro and im not a bookworm like you! Naaalala ko p nun na galing ka pa Davao and you have 2-3days here in Manila kaya siningit mo ko sa sched para mabigay ko yung book. Atleast we met kahit ilan minutes lang yun, sad I thought magkikita p tayo. I just wanna say thank you so much for being a kuya nung college ako, alam mo naman super messy ng life ko nung college lalo na sa lovelife na lagi ikaw takbuhan ko sa mga advice and if need ko ng drama night. Thank you for all the deep talks and sleepless nights. I miss you.