"Maizey..? Ooh, pretty daisy why are we so sad?"
Jinnie clambered up onto her lap, pressing his forehead against hers.
"Whhhyy are you crying?"
( Maizey wiped her tears, pulling Jinnie in for a hug- her chin resting on his shoulder. She clutched him like it was their last time seeing each other. )
"I'm sorry.. I- pffh- know ya don't like crying.. Hate the noise, right?"
"You can cry! You deserve to cry. Everyone else is ugly fah-fah-FODDEERRRR!"
Jinnie purred, wriggling happily at the affection.
"I don't mind any noise from you. You're okay! But why are you crying?"
"..I- I killed people once more."
"Kids."
"I was forced to- and when I was.. Myself.. I.. I couldn't bring them back. The life I was made to give was taken from me- effortlessly, no sweat- no nothing. I-" "What am I worth if my being can be undone with a single pull of a thread? What am I worth- if I take the life I'm supposed to give?"
"I- It might seem silly to you but.."
"Noo! No it's not silly! You lost control, you should be sad- that isn't fun."
"Why question *you* for a thing you couldn't have done anything against? That's not a reflection of character or your worth! It's a reflection of the one who wronged you, that they have the spine and utter gall to do that to you. Do not close in on yourself, Maizey. Get angry. Get angry!"
"What point is being angry against something I cannot hold my own against? What could POSSIBLY be the point!? My anger will lead me to a dead end- my ANGER can risk YOU!"
"I DON'T CARE! DON'T LAY DOWN AND TAKE IT! YOU'RE BETTER THAN THAT! YOU TOPPLED OUR GOD AND I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN JUST THAT! TEARS GET YOU NOWHERE IF YOU JUST HATE YOURSELF THROUGH THEM!"
Jinnie hummed slightly, nuzzling into Maizey.
"Doo your best, yeeaa?"
".."
"I.. I will.."
( was he just lucid for a second there? )
