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weight: 58,9 kg
meals:
morning: coffee with milk
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@bitchofasun
16/05/23
weight: 58,9 kg
meals:
morning: coffee with milk
small habits to adopt
wake up early
drink a glass of water as soon as you wake up
meditate or concentrate on your breathing for at least 2 mins
visualize your goals for the day and for the future
make your bed
do calf raises or squats while brushing your teeth
floss
dry brush
take a cold shower (or end a hot shower with cold water right after for about 3 mins)
put on lotion while your skin is still damp
cleanse, tone, and moisturize your face
apply sunscreen
drink a glass of water before and after every meal
listen to a podcast/ted talk instead of music while walking or driving
park far away from where you’re going
stand up straight
look at people in the eye when talking to them
look straight ahead when walking, not at the ground
smile at strangers
stop complaining (it’s bad for your health)
bring cash instead of credit card
track your expenses
turn off notifications on your phone when doing work
resist the urge to go on your phone and observe your surroundings more
set a timer for 5 mins when scrolling through social media and stop when the time is up
learn at least 5 new vocab words from your target language every day
exercise while watching shows/videos
read at least 10 pages every day
do tasks that can be done in 2 mins right away
drink tea
prepare workout gear the night before
jot down tasks for the next day before sleeping
write down quotes/lyrics that strike a chord
spend 30 mins on a hobby
journal and write down things you are grateful for
aim for 7-8 hours of sleep
throat hurts from attempts to vomit.
useless, the reflex doesn’t work
is she back to posting ed content? yes, she is.
guess i’m relapsing because i’m at my highest weight (nearly 58kg), bruh, it makes me throw up. and i got my period back - i don’t want to have them. they are so uncomfortable.
i’ll try to stay in control and post daily foodlogs, sometimes bodychecks
repost if u break the stereotype of Eds
you eat once a day/ u don’t always fast 24/7
you’re not bones
you don’t openly talk about it lile it’s a big problem
you don’t want treatment
you don’t think you’re sick enough for treatment
you can’t purge
EATING DISORDERS AREN’T WHAT THE MEDIA TELLS YOU
feel free to add!♡➹★
Keep the flame going for those we have lost to suicide.
i broke my leg, i cannot exercise, i have to eat, i’m miserable
I’m such a hopeless fat ass today. I tried to fast, but in the evening I was really aggressive and drank cocoa with milk and ate cherries. I feel awful, I’m such a flaw.
dark academia plant guide
I personally believe that plants really fit the dark academia aesthetic but are also hightly underrated so here´s my guide for y´all:
The right plant: Get anything hard to kill. Pileas, palms, corkscrew rush, rubber tree, succulents or whatever you like. Avoid ferns as they always seem to die for no reason. If you manage to kill cacti then something is wrong with you.
When you already have some experience or you think you´re good with plants you can get some harder to care for plants. Orchids come in beautiful colours but there are so many other nice options.
The right technique: Always research what your plant specifically needs. Most like bright, indirect light and moist but not soaking wet soil, but not all of them so inform youself. Some plants will endure mistakes, others will die instatntly. Whatever you do, just remember this one thing:
Dont. Overwater. Your. Succulents.
The right pot: Once you have a plant and the knowledge how to keep it alive you need a pot. Chose something that fits the aesthetic. Anything old and simple looks good. Some dark clay pots maybe, preferable hand made. Experiment with glass bottles.
The right name: As the aesthetic is kinda weird sometimes you won´t get aroud naming your plants. Choose Latin names, names of greek or roman gods, your friends names, book charakters or very old but common names. One day you´ll have too many plants to remember every name, but that´s ok. We all get addicted.
Now go buy plants, propagate them, get yourself a little family you can read Shakespeare to, tell them stories, play Chópin to them, be a parent.
Academic aesthetics
Dark Academia
Long Black coats, thunder but no lightning, red wine, blood, forests in winter, a single guttering candle, latin, bones, all of history in your hands, Tchaikovsky, piles of old books, the hour before sunrise, complicated cravats, Hozier, true crime, Donna Tartt, secret diaries.
Light Academia
Sunshine in shallow water, white cotton, lacy dresses, champagne, the plays of Oscar Wilde, summer rain, wind rustling the pages of a book, jacket over on shoulder, Maurice, frost covering new flowers, Florence + the machine, roses, bare feet, girls school, old books about species of plant or butterflies, biological Diagrams, flowers in your hair, perfect notes.
Chaotic Academia
Two top buttons undone, scribbled notes in pencil or biro, kill your darlings, untied laces, so much coffee, all nighters, crying in the library, Mozart, writing film scripts for fun, rain Storms, moorland, swimming in the dark, movie soundtracks while studying, procrastination, muddy boots, unsent letters.
Grey Academia
Jane eyre, sunrise, cold hands, perfect handwriting, beat gen, Edgar Alan Poe, crows, small animal bones, writing essays until 2am, Vivaldi, February or November, zodiacs, loving history and art, Leonardo davinci, Tamino.
Romantic Academia
Billowing pirate sleeves, Lord Byron, theatre, violets, achilles, reading poetry aloud, bloody cheekbones, love letters, doodling in class, doc Martins, long ball dresses, gothic churches, dead poets society, sword fights back stage, wind and mist and violent Storms, tea, long journal entries, wide brimmed hats, museums.
Spring Academia
Cotton shirts with large jumpers, celendines, maypole dancing, reading short stories, old traditions, Jane Austen, new term, beautiful notes, pastel colours, period dramas, magpies, 2005 pride and prejudice soundtrack, new leaves, cold feet, dancing.
Summer Academia
Flower crowns, studying late while the sun is still up, full moons, parties outside, sun dresses, warm rainstorms, exam season, bare feet, ancient Greece, herb tea, singing to the radio, lying in the grass, bird song, biology textbooks, the Lord of the rings, studying outside, mystery of love by sufjan Stevens.
Autumn Academia
Foxes, dead leaves, large coats and scarves, old stone walls, steaming black tea, mist, travel journals, forgetting to study until the last minute, frankenstein, old songs, nostalgia, carrying a book everywhere, rebel rebel, the picture of dorian gray, soup, studying in the morning as the sun rises.
Winter Academia
Long walks, misty breath, so much reading, shunning capitalist society, sad music, learning about witch hunts, philosophy, wuthering heights, mystery books, Dracula, black and white photos, transcribing music, old statues, silence.
Feral Academia
Pin stripe jacket with jeans, Dionysus, "norse" makeup, cold sweet tea, running through the forest, mythology, I got an unconditional so I don't need to try hard, scraping the grades, shouty music, helenic polytheism, obsessive interests, reading a 500 page book in one sitting, love learning, hate the education system, vive le revolution.
having an eating disorder is not having a mysterious sexy secret and a boost of confidence when you step on the scale and see that your weight has gone down.
having an eating disorder is panicking in a gas station over the decision to eat a 100 calorie snack or not because if you don’t, you’ll feel successful, and if you do, you’ll feel like you stuffed yourself like a disgusting pig and went way over your limit.
having an eating disorder is not crying daintily in the bathroom before drying your eyes and returning to class where your friends dote over you and reassure you.
having an eating disorder is heavy, snotty sobbing in the middle of the night when you can’t sleep because of the pain in your stomach — it’s slowly cutting off friends and loved ones because you feel guilty and unworthy of their affection.
having an eating disorder is not a cute personality trait. it’s not a fun secret you can tearfully admit to your boyfriend so he calls you beautiful. it’s not wanting to cry in front of your closest friends because you feel like they’ll think any emotion from you is pathetic unless you’re skinny. it eats you from the inside out until it’s the only thing you think about. and it will kill you if you let it.
having an eating disorder is terrible. it makes you sick, it drains your energy and your confidence and your will to live in ways you don’t even expect, and it fucks up your body and your mind - sometimes beyond repair.
this isn’t a netflix series, it’s our fucking lives — and it’s so, so bad. please remember that you deserve better.
you deserve help.
bang the doldrums - fall out boy / planet of love - richard siken / the kids aren’t alright - fall out boy / dead poets society / getaway green - all time low / all i want is nothing - frank iero / the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us - sufjan stevens / the goldfinch / ribs - lorde
The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself.
— Maya Angelou
i binged i’m so fucking worthless
“Anorexia doesn’t mean that you don’t eat. We all would be dead by now.
Anorexia means that every time you eat, you suddenly feel fatter.
Anorexia means that every time you eat, you feel a voice in your head that says “you should’t have eaten that”.
Anorexia means that every time you see someone skinny you feel like dying.
Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself every hour just to see the numbers going down down down.
Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself but being afraid to because you know you shouldn’t have eaten that piece of cake yesterday.
THIS IS ANOREXIA. So please, if you don’t know anything about it, don’t come to me with your bullshit, because I don’t wanna hear any of that. “
- sum random ana blogger
‘’Anorexia means that everytime you see a skinny person you feel like dying’’