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It’s been 8 years since I last posted on here… my last post was about being a SAHM and fast forward to now… I work full time cause everything is expensive and teenagers are expensive.

One of those nights.....

Tonight at dinner with my parents I got a message about my data usage and how I've used quite a lot in a short period of time. At my house we have been without internet because our dsl line wasn't working and I used my phone as a hotspot to get other devices working. While eating out my dad commented that well I'm a stay at home mom of course I use the internet what else was I supposed to do. In the last couple of weeks I have been dealing with what am I going to do since my baby is entering transitional kindergarten and it's from 8:45-2:10 everyday. Both my sister and dad thinks that I have time to get a job and it shouldn't be hard, but they seemed to have forgotten logistics like who will take the kids to school, pick them up and what happens when they are on vacation or when they are sick. My husband works a lot, and at least 3 times a week he works an hour or so away, really depends on traffic, and he leaves our house super early and gets home after 5 and later. If I went back to work I would need to hire someone to pick up my kids and watch them while I am working and I know plenty of people do it, the reason I stayed home was because it's cheaper for me to stay home. I'm active and volunteer my time at the school and someday I hope I can take one of the part time jobs or even full time one that can be worked around my kids schedule. I am lucky that my mom can help me out when she can but she works and my husband can't pitch in. Both my kids aren't old enough to walk home or stay home by themselves yet, I have been panicking about all of this and tonight's dinner reminded me that I need to figure something's out.

#personal #real life #feeling bummed

Listening to "Helpless" and I am loving the tracks on Hamilton Mixtape that are out but at the same time I really want the whole album out...

#Hamilton mixtape #helpless

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Being so comfortable with someone that u can say anything and it’s not awkward is honestly one of the best feelings in the world.

@sexual-texts (via sexual-texts)

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Luke Skywalker in Return of the Jedi (part IV) (This one’s been hiding in my drafts for a couple months…)

Gilmore Girls A Year in the Life

OMG!!?!?!?!?! No spoilers just anyone else cried and then got upset about the ending? Also I was highly grateful for the four episodes that I binged today in between doing my mom duties and being around my in laws.

#happy gilmore girls day

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I had an argument with my brother in law about the order of Star Wars and seriously I get it his not a big fan about it but respect the Chronological order even if 1,2 and 3 sucked. It's hard when his like well does suck, yeah I agreed they weren't the best but respect the order, and Rogue One is after 3 but before 4. His like well I really liked the last one and I'm like cool and his like I ain't going to like the next ones. I thought he knew that me and the boys are Star Wars fans and we like the nuance and stuff, also really cause your older doesn't mean you know the trilogy better than someone who has seen it more than I care to admit. I'm also not even gonna go to the part where his like I don't know or get some of these new Superhero movies.... I am sooooooo grateful for my nerdy husband who loves comics and understand that I love these movies more than I should.

#Star Wars chronological argument

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Real Life

Taking a Mental Health Day today… Why because I’m an emotional mess and seriously both pissed off and disappointed at myself. Broke a window yesterday by accident but also because I was pissed off. I yelled at my own kid because his been having a very bratty attitude and full of arguments. I am usually a happy person because I prefer to smile when things are tough but the last few weeks have tested my patience and seriously I’m feeling down

I’m feeling run down and sad. For someone who is battling with depression and OCD, when I feel down I feel down. I can’t just snap out of it and my OCD flares up pretty bad causing me anxiety.

#mental health day #OCD depression