Live Your Life

Hi there! I'm Bryan. =) This is me; take it or leave it.

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I GET IT NOW!!! Someone had some heavyweight and unresolved daddy issues!! The absence of closure or lack thereof in regards to effort is evident in the effects it has decades later!

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I sure have a lot of sisters for someone without a sister.

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I guess I’m not entitled to my emotions anymore.

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F***ing useless.

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Ngl, I’m slowly losing my s***.

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Omfg make up your mind!

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That’s why there’s this thing called planning.

Should’ve known you still don’t know how to get your s*** together - from finances, to commitment, to knowing what you want to do with your life. I’m done with you bro, I’m not letting you drag me or anyone else down with you.

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At least I know who your priorities are now.

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I miss you Lola.

Every so often I think about how much you went through, suffered, and endured. All the times you had a clear facade, you stayed yourself and supported our family in ways that no one else could. I think about how much you lived with, hid from the family and somehow still managed to function every single day.

I really do want you to rest and at times I wish I knew how you did it all. I feel that I can barely keep myself afloat among being able to unconditionally love and support the people that I care about the most to the best of my ability. They give me strength and I them, and I know that a big part of me lives within them. I wish I had all the answers like you and Kuya did. I know some I have to find on my own and others will come with time and experience, but I just want to be okay.

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Happy Veteran’s Day Kuya

I love and miss you so much.

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I miss you all.

So fucking much. I don’t know how I was able to hold my own this long. I know I shouldn’t complain, because I am pretty blessed with my life, the people in it, and where I am right now, but sometimes it just gets so hard to not have you guys here anymore.

Things aren’t the same, and I know I shouldn’t expect them to be, because the world, the people, and I have changed so much. I guess it’s true that sometimes we just can’t accept some things that happen or are no longer in our lives, but we manage and find a way to learn and live with them.

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If there’s two things that are assured to trash my mood it’s:

1) Being compared, for better or worse.

2) Having my passions shit on.

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Well I sure feel special.

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Aaaaand just like that...

Everything changes..

That happened a lot sooner than I expected.

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Upset

But I knew it all along that some things are just better left unsaid.

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Aaand...

Now I feel even more like shit.

But it’s not the first time I’ve been left feeling like this. 🤷🏾‍♂️

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“Give yourself credit for the days you’ve made it when you thought you couldn’t. ”

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