[bleak-shorthand]

just got the hoodie i was sexually assaulted in taken from me and i can’t explain to them why i wanted the hoodie because no one knows so now i’m dealing with incredible loss i was not prepared for

[bleak-shorthand]

i wanna cry

i wanna scream

i want to feel anything but this

why do i hold onto so much shame

so much guilt

i don’t know who i am or where i am it’s just happening

i want to be myself free of judgement

i want to live without being watched for every step

i want to be alone

[bleak-shorthand]

i haven’t posted on here in forever but like barely anyone knows it exists and i’m p sure no one checks up on this anymore so i’m not even gonna try to make it poetic or anything but i am violently suicidal because of how much i hate my body and i know that i shouldn’t go back to not eating like i did in middle school and freshman year but honestly it’s so easy to want to go back to old habits and idk i could just fucking work out if my lungs weren’t absolute garbage but here we are anyways i crave death and want to absolutely mutilate the fuck out of my skin right now but i’ll hold off on that for now

[pt-sd]

old friend // 6.26.18

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[bleak-shorthand]

prom has reawakened the ed mindset. time to get back to it

[degasdad]

[bleak-shorthand]

i know i’m a snake but like honestly you’ve changed a lot and now you’re very exhausting to be around and i can’t wait to cut you off from my life wow i’m horrible

[bleak-shorthand]

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[abhomo]

[bleak-shorthand]

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[bleak-shorthand]

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[bleak-shorthand]

“You have become such a stoner.”

thanks, were you trying to insult me because i’m enjoying my life

[bleak-shorthand]

i just wanna go home

[postmarkedhenri]

[bleak-shorthand]

i’m a fucking failure

[badlydrawneverything]

[bleak-shorthand]

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