I’m Gray you can also call me soul or bitter if you prefer. My pronouns he / they. Welcome to my main account.
I'm banned from one state and I have brain-rot for all things scp, JTHM, invader Zim, Harry Potter (I'm a Slytherin) cryptid and killing eve related. And since no one I know irl wants to hear about it this is where I scream into the void. I write, draw, cosplay, and try to be funny. Feel free to use my stuff just give me credit please. I also make mood boards.
Ask box is always open feel free to ask me anything (appropriate of course).
Feel free to ask about head-canons, written works, or any other creative stuff I do. I love being asked about that stuff and when people show an interest.
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Currently working on things with the discord shit show
I am once again begging people to realize that AI checker doesn’t work. it’s never worked. it’s notoriously known to have flagged human-made works as AI and AI-generated works as human-made. and by feeding it people’s works, you are feeding more works to AI, because apparently the machine itself is AI.
the only thing AI checker does is harm genuine artists and people in general too.
Hello chat. No i'm not hacked, no this isn't a scam. I'm sitting down and talking here.
A friend of mine's going through an abusive situation rn. She's currently stuck with her shitty and abusive mom in a foreign country and recently got threatened of being kicked out and not have her visa renewed .
She doesn't have the financial means to leave right now, so here is her ko-fi if you are able to help. If you can't support financially, reblogging and word of mouth works. They only got a month to resolve the situation so any bits of support or help is greatly appreciated.
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If yalls want more clarification, feel free to DM me about it
Secrets Revealed: A golden trio area rp set in modern times with group chats, larping, VC and non vc events, clubs, and the wizarding world being exposed. OCs welcome!
With the wizarding world still feeling the effects of the war and the defeat of Voldemort most are attempting to move on, heal, and rebuild. Many students went back to repeat or finish their final year after all the destruction that took place in the previous one. This is however made difficult when a book series about the events of the war and Harry's life is published and makes it's way to the muggle world breaking the statute of secrecy.
Normal triggers that would be associated with the series, mention of death, war, trauma, etc.
On Today's Episode On What To Do Instead Of Doomscrolling
A lot of this stuff I talk about in this series is likely going to be from substack. I think it's a great change of pace when it comes to social media because there is a lot there in longer format.
This post discusses something many seem to struggle with, knowing yourself. I'm greatful that I don't think I struggle with this as much as I know some do. However, my reasoning for that is not enviable. There have been times in my life that I was the only person I trusted and could rely on. As selfish as this may sound, I'm a firm believer in putting myself first. No one is going to fix your life for you. No one is going to hold your hand and keep you in check. It's your job to do right by yourself.
That being said this post talks a lot about the fear of how you're being perceived, flaws, rights, and wrongs. It's crazy but whenever stuff like that is discussed I think about how it's in a way a product of the time we're in. Our caveman ancestors likely didn't worry about how ugly a scar was or how their body looked. They were focused on survival. And that isn't something to be envied. As much as there are issues in the world today. I'm grateful I'm not a caveman. But I am the long after product of one that survived against what looks like impossible odds today. We are all products of those that survived through stressful historical events, found someone, and started a family. As much as it's easy to pick apart your flaws in an era where we see so many faces online everyday with filters and plastic surgery, the nose that you hate to see on yourself, the eyes that you hate, the face shape that you might think is ugly, may have been something your ancestors found beautiful. The standards of society are constantly evolving. And someone that loves you isn't going to look at you and say "you would be beautiful if your face was more semetrical." Because that's ridiculous.
I am someone who has struggled with perfectionism. I always think I can do better I'm every area of life and I have since realized that is my curse and my fetal flaw. The story, photo, art piece, cosplay, whatever I make that I constantly look over and think it could be better never gets posted because it's never good enough. But now I see that perfectionism is a bigger failure to myself than posting something, looking back and asking what was I thinking?
So fuck perfectionism and fuck critics.
Try fail and learn from it. Learn who you are and what you like about yourself not what everyone else likes and dislikes because if something happens you're the one that is always going to be there for you. As the last post I discussed in this series quoted "you can't escape the self" so be there for it.
Warning some of these are long because he is a yapper, also some of the stuff might be trigger to some and there are some adult themes so proceed with caution. This is also part one so if any of my rp partners that aren't in this see this you'll be in a future one if you want to. A part two will be posted when I feel like and have time to go through old and current rp history.
If he explodes that will be more entertaining if he's alive.
I don't know if I'm gay or traumatized but either way I want to die a little bit more now.
There I fixed a watermelon.
Why are you going through life unprepared?
Are you worried about me or are you weird about me?
I will make you a victim.
You are getting feet flossed!
Curse your feet!
I bet you're small enough to fit in my blender
Does your planet have witchcraft or any kind of occult shit?
Ask them for their information and if they give it to you tell them you will retrieve them if you run out of human sacrifices on short notice.
The strippers are probably very happy about that.
I once had a nightmare my teeth became sentient and would get angry with me when I ate.
I suppose if you can't cheer someone up you can always confuse the fuck out of them so they forget what they were upset about.
Baby's first alcohol
You'd have to pry my search history from my cold dead hands.
Do you find Bigfoot hot?
I suppose you could always try to cut them into ninja stars. I tried to do that one time after I tried edibles at a friends house and then proceeded to freak out and lock myself in his bedroom and make weapons out of random shit in his room.
I like to think I'm building up an immunity to insanity.
Wow, I don't think I've ever seen someone be so confidently wrong.
You think ears are genitals?
The danger is part of the fun, you uncultured swine.
There are about a million things I could say in response to that, but it would probably be best to have that conversation after I have had coffee or I might bite you.
Have I called you weird yet today?
If it makes you feel any better I don't have a deviated septum.
I was gonna talk to you about how fucking weird last night was but you're an idiot!
What do you want me to make sound inferior and pointless next?
I have the care. and the money that allows me to afford to be nosy, paranoid, and reckless.
So you're crazy?
If you had the option to would you sell your soul?
I don't remember you being this bad at being ominous
Anything can be a fetish if you're brave or fucked up enough.
This video hurt because I saw so much of myself in her. I don't want to get too much about myself in these posts but for those that don't know I'm in a rough patch right now and this video was a lot like looking in a mirror. It's scary and sad to think how many people in their twenties relate to this.
I am someone who was a straight A student in school, I was on the Dean's list, I received awards for being one of the best in my classes. I put off so much for the sake of studying and making sure I was the best and now that I'm not a student I feel like I have fallen victim to the mentality of I will let myself be happy when this happens and for me it was independence and financial stability that I was always told started with perfect grades.
But now the job market is shit half of listings are fake and the world feels like it is crumblings around me. And you might be wondering what this has to do with doom scrolling and that is that many people turn to that and social media to distract them from the moment and distract them from being alone in their thoughts but if anything it just fuels the anxiety.
I'm not one of those people that's like 'tHoSe DaMn pHoNeS" I personally think the internet and social media can inspire you as well as hurt you. If you feel like you just use social media as a distraction from the silence it might be time to limit your time on it. You'll be surprised how much you want to do with your life and how many hobbies you want to take up when you let yourself do something. As is a the common message of this video, let yourself be happy in the moment.
Give your brain time to rest. I"m not here to tell you to ditch social media like I said it can be inspiring. But if you feel like all you do is scroll all day maybe take a break and try to be more critical of what you are consuming online and ask if it's inspiring you, motivating you or is it just keeping you anxious.
Below are some quotes from the video that stuck with me.
"I won't loose this moment searching for another."
"Where ever you go there you are... You can't escape the self."
Because this account has been dead for awhile as I'm not really in the scp fandom anymore (finally I'm free) I am still going to post fandom related content but I also wanted to do more with this account.
Occasionally on my TikTok page I will get content recommendations for video essays and books typically with the intent to get people to stop doom scrolling. I decided I wanted to get into some of that stuff and make response posts about them. Hopefully inspiring people to at the very least consume more long form content and media that makes you think more.
I debated on doing this on my side blog and I probably will reblog it to that account too but since some of it might still be fandom related I decided on putting it on this blog. I also decided on that because this account has more followers and I think everyone can benefit from breaking out of the cycle of doom scrolling. I personally am grateful that I'm not as bad as some are with it. I'm not someone who finds that days have gone by and I haven't done anything but sit on my phone. I am in no way shaming people for that social media is made to be addictive and you are not lesser for falling victim to it. I'm merely trying to help you break out of that cycle.
I'm going to try to make a post for this series every week hopefully along with other stuff to get this account more active again. But we'll see if that actually happens.
Did some transformed veela Draco art. I actually hate the way this turned out but it was getting to a point if I didn't post it soon I was going to give up on it
GET. AI. OUT. OF. FANDOM. Stop making headcanons with it, stop making fanfic with it, stop making fanart with it. If I see one more "asking chatgpt *blank* about *character/characters in a fandom* I'm going to lose my goddamn mind. Use your own fucking brain, stop asking AI to do everything. You could even ask other real people what they think. Just. Stop. Using. AI. In. Creative. Spaces.
btw while people continue to fight the system don't forget about Undue Medical Debt (formerly RIP Medical Debt), a charity that buys and forgives medical debt. on average a donation of $10 will forgive $1,000 of medical debt.
I'm fairly confident that this is now the one original post I've made that has gotten the most notes, and I honestly couldn't be happier. the more attention we give this, the higher the chances that someone will see this and donate. medical debt is both one of the most crushing things a person can deal with and one of the stupidest things humanity has invented. and if you live in the US, I have no doubt that you've had to deal with medical debt in your life, either for yourself or a loved one. even a small donation can do so much good, and now is the time of year when we are encouraged to think of others.
