âI have had some help with moving everything. Theyâre in storage; I couldnât bring myself to get rid of any of it.â She knew selling the antiques would give her a decent amount of money, but they were so important to what little family she had left.Â
She was much quieter when she spoke next, not knowing how exactly Julius would react. âI didnât know where you were. I was worried that you werenât safe, but I didnât want to get involved if you werenât. Julius, I was always worried about you but-but he wouldnât do anything to try and help you before I left.â Tears formed in her eyes before she hurriedly wiped them away.Â
Turning to the letters, she glanced at the handwriting before coming to the same conclusion as her brother. She opened the first letter addressed to her and started reading, but noticed that Julius was more hesitant than she was.Â
âJuliusâŠknowing her, I donât think she wouldâve held any ill will against you. Mother was always striving to understand the people around her.âÂ
She hadnât sold the furniture. That came as a relief to Julius, but it did not altogether abate the disgust he directed at himself. Why was he relieved? Because the furniture was still there so he could sell it? Monetary greed had plunged deep into his heart, and though he had been sober for a month, the habit of scrounging cash by any means necessary had not yet died. It was like a persistent itch, and he hated himself for it.
But he hated himself even more for what Julia said next and looked up at her with the tears from earlier beginning once more in the corners of his eyes. She, too, was crying again, and despite his trouble with empathy, he had always found her emotions far stronger and easier to read than anyone elseâs. He dropped his eyes down, ashamed, and his hands worked nervously along the edge of his envelopes.
âIâm glad that you didnât get involvedâŠâ he admitted quietly. âIt would have been⊠I donât know what would have happened, but they would have hurt you, too.â They - Manfroy and all of shadowy people who worked for him, the other wayward teenagers ensnared in his trap, other gangs, the police⊠Julius knew what would have happened had they gotten their hands on Julia - had seen it with his very own eyes in the stagnant dark of a boarded up shack - but he could not speak it out loud.
âThere was nothing Father could have done,â he assured her sadly. His eyes traveled back to the letters and contemplated them silently in his hand for several moments.
âMother was too kindâŠâ It was all but a whisper. How could she possibly not hold any ill will toward him? He had done a number of cruel things to the family - to her - even before that day, but he also knew, just as Julia did, that whatever was inside his letter was full of love and forgiveness. That was simply how she was. And that was why Julius couldnât bear to read it just yet. He glanced up at Julia.
âSo are you. Itâs not good, you know,â he said bluntly. âThere are people out there who will just take advantage of you for it, andââ Averting her gaze, his voice trailed off. âAnd youâŠâÂ
His eyes snapped up to meet hers again, intense but teary, and his brow furrowed.
âJulia, what are you doing? Why are you treating me like thisâ like nothing happened?â he demanded, but remained rooted, unthreatening, and turned his palms out at his sides as he pleaded her for an answer. One that he could make sense of.Â
âI tried to kill you! Why arenât you angry at me?â