Just getting by.

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I'm deleting my account, to anyone who cares.

I am doing well, and my son just turned a year old.

I hope that anyone who reads this, has a wonderful and happy life.

Goodnight 😘

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Moving has made me gain just so much weight. I am so ashamed of my weight I just want to die... I had my baby a whole year ago! I should have had this under control. I tried on some shorts yesterday that I bought about a month ago. They were lose when I got them, and now I can't even button them!

I am going to try to dye my hair every 5 lbs that I lose, for motion ☺️

💙

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My little guy just turned one year.

I cannot believe it.

I am now realizing how old I am... 24 years old!? That's already one quarter of a very long life.

Also, I probably won't have anymore babies, so that's hitting me too. That's it for me. He's all grown up now 😭

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I moved into a veeeery small place. I like it.

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Being calm doesn't equal being right

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Best chicken soup I've ever had 😋

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Hiding wine in a coffee mug 👌

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ways to start feeling again

sit in the sun without anything to do, feel the heat of the rays hit your skin, realize that this sunlight has travelled a very long way to reach you

walk around barefoot and try to feel as much of the ground under your feet as you can, notice every rock and blade of grass

sit quietly for a while and notice the touch of breath in your nostrils, feel how the air gets cooler as you inhale and warmer as you exhale

drive around aimlessly and blast some of your favorite songs, scream/sing along to them and feel the vibrations of your favorite lyrics as they change the air in your throat and around you, feel that the music is healing you from the inside out

stay away from alcohol or drugs for a few days, try to be as aware and present as you can in every moment, stop trying to numb or dull your senses

eat a few meals without any distractions, notice every bite and taste every flavor that covers your tongue, be grateful for it all

look up at the stars and the moon, understand how small we all are and how immense the universe is, realize what a miracle everything is, let your heart swell with amazement and admiration for life itself

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ok this is actually cool bc doing all of this is a technique called “mindful thinking” that is extremely useful for people with anxiety disorders and dissociation disorders and stuff!

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Do you ever just wish you were a looser shirt?

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Not to be dramatic, but if I’m not skinny by tomorrow I might die x

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Saw my first boyfriend today for the first time in years. So weird how you can be so close to someone, and then after a while not even recognize them.

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