Kathreese

199508. 1236957.102113. Deal with the numbers. Thanks.

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How are you?

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Lately, I've been dreaming about the same person. I hope it will stop. Yes, I want it to stop because I know that the things happened in my dreams won't come true. He won't come back. He can't love you. He never loved you.

Nightmare? Maybe yes. Because there were full of lies in it. But it's alright. I am okay. They are just repeating dreams that came out of nowhere. I am contented with what I have and who I am with now. And I am being loyal. Period.

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Here’s a song for you… Siya by Patch Quiwa

https://open.spotify.com/track/6VApYTitVsnBQhtSTkqMrw?si=CyT4UzGeTXGoHvAiBQktCQ

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Lies.

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Just a message that you tried to fight back and save me from all the judgements.

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I am still waiting.

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I won't say anything. I won't fight. I'll just be quiet.

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#Blu

A person knows the true meaning of love if she knows that it is worth it in every possible things. The kind of love that makes you happy because it is requited. The kind of love that is broken because it is one-sided. The kind of love that sacrifices everything just to see that person contented of what he chose.

Everyone of us share the same pain,hope and feelings whenever we love. On the other hand, we have different stories that tell us what kind of love do we have to that important person.

I chose to love even if it hurts. I chose a kind of love that sacrifices everything just to make sure that he will choose the things that will make him happy. I chose the situation where I can just have a bit of his attention but will make my world complete, no matter how short it be. I chose this. Because I feel that it is the best choice that I have rather than having him but seeing his world go down. Go down because of the possibility that others will hurt him for choosing me as his only one.

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Ang sakit.

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I fell in love in a complicated situation and wrong time with the most unsure person that I’ve met in my entire life.

“Se agapó.”

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Finding a book to read. Any suggestions?

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Blu.

Hindi ko talaga alam ang gusto nya. Ang gulo gulo nya. Grabe talaga. Ang harsh nya talaga sa akin. Tumataas parati standards nya pagdating sa akin.

Hindi ako nagrereklamo. Sobra sobra lang talaga yung nararamdaman ko para sa taong yun.

Ano daw ba gusto ko? Sya lang naman gusto ko. Pero hindi pwede yun. Kaya hindi ‘yon ang sinagot ko. Basta. Magulo din ako e. Pareho lang kami.

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#Feelings

Moira Dela Torre songs. Those songs just keep on reminding me of someone. The exact lyrics for the same feelings. The correct tune for every beat of the heart. Lastly, the deep meaning that corresponds to the faith and hope that I seek just to feel your love.

-blu

[thoughtcatalog]

You stopped hearing from her because she was tired of the excuses. She was tired of the lies. She was tired of being let down and disappointed by you.She walked away missing you with every step hoping you’d tell her not to go.

You stopped hearing from her because she got tired of sitting by the phone waiting for you.

She got tired of putting faith into someone who just constantly let her down.

You stopped hearing from her because every time she tried it never felt like enough for you.

You stopped hearing from her because all you did was take her for granted.

Like the love she gave wasn’t something to be valued.

You stopped hearing from her because you stopped appreciating her. You stopped reciprocating. If you cared, you stopped showing it.

You stopped hearing from her because she got tired of the games you were playing when all she ever was, was honest.

You stopped hearing from her because she couldn’t keep investing time and emotion into someone who was simply taking all she had to give.

You stopped hearing from her because she realized a long time ago, no matter what she did, she wasn’t going to be able to convince you to care.

You stopped hearing from her because you hurt her more than she liked to admit.

And instead of explaining herself she just stopped.

But you didn’t.

You stopped hearing from her because she realized she deserved more.

You stopped hearing from her because she realized she deserved better.

You stopped hearing from her because she was finally ready for someone to love her back and she knew she’d never find that with you.

So if you begin to notice her absence, if you begin to miss the conversations, if you realize you miss her company when you’re alone, remember — you stopped hearing from her because you didn’t realize what you had when you had it.

(Source: thoughtcatalog.com)

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Thoughts II

Problema talaga nila ate , halos lahat ng mga nakasama ko at nakilala ko mula nang masters ang pagiging cold ko at tahimik sa mga bagay-bagay. Hindi daw kasi nila ako mabasa. Hindi nila alam if may opinyon ba ako, if alam ko nangyayari sa paligid ko,if ano daw ba ang meron sa akin o di kaya naman if may pakialam ba ako.

Dati naman daw hindi ako ganoon noong college. Lumalala daw ako habang tumatagal. May isang tao nakapagsabi sa akin na sa sobrang cold ko daw e hindi na ako ‘yong nakilala niya noon.

Sorry na. Hindi ko naman alam. Natural na lang na ganon talaga.

-blu