colin

He/Him ||| sw: 145 cw: 110 ||| 19 y/o

[bonesbynight]

☆ cw - 110lbs

☆ sw - 145 lbs

☆ gw - 110lbs

☆ ugw - 110 lbs

《5'5》

[ijaazat]

happy trans day of visibility i love all of you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bonesbynight]

i havent been restricting for about 2 months now, trying to just feel free about food, went to the doctors and saw i gained 4 lbs. I want the control back and the unwavering sense of confidence

[bonesbynight]

have a drs appt today and im terrified that the scale will show a larger number, what if ive been gaining this whole time and didnt know, i dont think i could handle that

[theyneverfoundthebody-deactivat]

[anxietyproblem]

[boymiffy]

this is so embarrassing. i want to love & be loved & drink really nice tea & eat really nice pasta & not feel like the loneliness is a part of me anymore. i want a herb garden

[bonesbynight]

Down to 110 now, i havent counted my cals routinely in a while now yet my weight is still dropping. 110 has been my ugw and i dont think i should go past it if i can help it, i want to get more muscle though

[zerstorend]

do you ever get in those moods where you don’t know how to feel and everything kinda feels mixed up and you’re just sitting there alone in your room trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with you

[sugarfreeoatmilkk]

eating feels like failure

[theirdelusion-deactivated202106]

[bbble-tea-deactivated20220517]

bitches be like: I don't have ed, I really like my hair and lips

*crying over having organs cause they will never look like the photoshopped thinspo from ig*

*crying over having to sit, run and generally do anything that would stop them from sucking stomach in public*

*crying over the front camera in their phone*

It's me, probably you, and probably 90% of our moots

and probably 100% of people who reblog this post

its edblr, we are the bitches

[bonesbynight]

kind of let myself eat more than usual for the past week and suddenly dropped 5 lbs so im now at 115, that is 30 pounds lost in 4 months.

•••

going to be honest and say its a mixture of happiness and sadness, because ive been trying to just eat normally but it was more difficult than i thought itd be

[keicalss-deactivated20220417]

bro wtf why did i have to think about her rn out of all days, im not tryna be sad drunk on new years

[bonesbynight]

after a certain point its not even about looking skinnier its just that sense of accomplishment, that i did something i can be proud of

[vampr3lla]

[bonesbynight]

down 2 pounds now and can fit into my old jeans! past couple days have been really high restriction so im going to try to balance it out