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my nervous system takes longer to recover after talking about my ex or when someone mentions him; it still stresses me out and honestly makes me feel sick to my stomach

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i think i need to marry a man with mad girth

that's like one of the prerequisites now

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If I don’t get cracked in the next month, im gonna hoe out istg

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There aren’t enough days in the week for the people i want to spend time with

It’s a really fucking special privileged ass problem

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Uh oh not doing great

Forgot my brother is my first opp and him spending the weekend here wasn’t as healing as I thought it’d be! Woopsies!

Silly me for thinking otherwise!

Almost spent the weekend without an argument/explosion but here we are

At least my food was paid for i guess but I genuinely was on the verge of kicking him out of my apartment

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My brother wants me to tell him that im proud of him

I proceeded to not tell him and instead mention how i could have spent the rest of my life chasing the love i lacked from him and my mother but i chose not to and i had to be proud of myself

He said he was proud of me for graduating and brags about me

I asked why he never visited me in college then

Why he never showed up

And how i can be proud of someone who hit me as an adult

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girly the reason why you don't have friends is literally because of you

hope this helps!

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bro i love my friends

i love that they invite me to things and make me feel included effortlessly

i love that i can invite people without getting too nervous or scared anymore

i love that loving and enjoying the presence of people feels so effortless and easy and that i have always had this love to give, love to share, and it's being appreciated and reciprocated

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i hope that when you watch my stories, you feel lonely in this world.

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there are tuesdays happening that have never happened before

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i just want to play mahjong and get fucked on a weekly basis or at least be pampered intimately and i'll be so good

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Maybe I’ll join a run club but for now I’m gonna just play Mahjong 

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An absolute ego boost it was to have 2 guys give me their numbers without me asking

First was like “ OK tap my phone and hold” and then his friend was like “ wait me too!!”

Adorable

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Manifesting a nice man who can support us and also buy me a cabin by a lake so I can invite my friends and we can look at the stars together

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Last night my friends nephew came out of his room and drowsily walked towards us as we were chatting in the hallway

I’ve never met this kid before

And he walked straight up to me and holds my hand and kinda falls into my side

We let him back to his room so he could drink water and go back to sleep

And I think that tiny, precious hand confirmed that I really do want children one day. I felt this immediate need to protect him and make sure he was okay and it was really really reassuring??

I hope I’m a good mom one day

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just thinking about when i was getting cracked and the guy asked if i was good and i said "i'm just thinking about how i'm gonna have to change out my duvet and that's gonna be a nightmare"

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Also if only high school me could see me now

Wished i could hug her for thinking she wasn’t enough when she was a baddie all along

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Got cracked today

That was all I needed to reset LOL