i just read the symptoms, attributes, and traits. i fit everything. ive been searching to find whats wrong with me and i think that ive found it. what should i do now? is seeing a mental health professional my only option? ive already seen a psychiatrist and it was just humiliating. i feel like nobody can help me after that.
If you want to get diagnosed and get proper treatment, you don't have a choice. For a diagnosis, you can see either a psychiatrist or a therapist. A psychiatrist can prescribe you medecines. It can be useful, but it doesn't work for everybody. Also know that if you suffer from BPD, therapy is more likely going to work. It's REALLY important for people with personality disorders to get therapy, because there is no medicine designed for our symptoms. You can combine therapy with meds for more efficiency, though, but still, nobody can guarantee the efficiency of meds for BPD.
About your experience with the psychiatrist you saw, I'm not sure what you exactly meant, so here's the two conclusions I could draw, and read what applies to your situation :
Situation 1 : it was humiliating because the psychiatrist had a bad attitude. You need to know that just like in every sector, some people are awful at their job. But some people are really good at them too, so even if it was a really negative experience, you can't let it keep you from getting better, even though it's hard. I suffer from physical illnesses along with mental illness, and I had to change doctors several times. It's not easy, but it's worth it, because eventually you'll find someone nice and sympathetic that will help you.
Situation 2 : it was humilating because you perceive talking about your symptoms and emotions as humiliating. It's understandable, but it's not true. I will give you an analogy. Us girls (I don't know what your gender is, but if you're a guy, just try to imagine what it feels like, I'm sure you can) have to get gynecological examens every once in a while (sometimes every year). That feels humiliating... but you know what every doctor tell us? They tell us that for them it's really normal, and that they are used to do it (and of course there is nothing sexual about it) and that we shouldn't feel humiliated. So we perceive it like that, but it's not actually the case. Does it mean that I'm 100% comfortable about that exam? No, not really, but still, it helps me to think about the fact that there's nothing weird with it for the doctor. And I want to find a doctor I'm comfortable with, a nice one who I'm used to see. So it's something you have to get used to, and it's important that you somehow like the therapist or psychiatrist you're seeing. Also, know this : therapists and psychiatrist have gone to University. They have given money, time and hard work to have this career. They CHOOSE to have this job. And their job is to listen to people who aren't feeling well. It means they don't think it's weird that you talk about yout feelings and symptoms. If they do, they have a serious problem. So, know that when you go in there, it's only weird for you. Which isn't really enjoyable, but at least it's better than knowing that it's weird for them too. Unfortunately, getting help is something you have to do for your health, well-being and sanity. I personally can talk about my feeling extremely easily (except a few things that I still have a hard time expressing), so I can't pretend I know how you're feeling about it. All I know is that the first time I saw a psychiatrist, I was 12 years old. I don't remember exactly how it was, but believe me, I didn't talk to her easily. I grew as a person who can easily express my feelings, but it hasn't always been like this. I think that in time it will get better. With trust. You have to trust your therapist or doctor. It might time some time (as long as you don't hate their guts), but there's nothing wrong with that. You don't even have to talk about your darkest feelings right at the beginning. You can open up slowly. You can tell them that you have a hard time opening yourself and they will let you take your time (unless they're a shitty therapist.)
I'm sorry I don't have better news, but unfortunately, if you want to get better, you have to try to overcome your fear. I'm not saying it will be easy, it probably won't. But once you find the right person to work with you, it'll be worth it.
Meanwhile, you can go on this website to help you learn how to deal with your symptoms : http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/
But of course I'm strongly suggesting you to find a therapist.
2087
turnnoffyourmind
pixelskylines
andulkaphoto
kaledo-art
yousharknotpass