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aagent009

swagophile

i think most of my life has been spent in pursuit of the highs i reached looking up "vore" on deviantart when i was 12

swagophile

I've never been able to recapture it. Not really. But reading yuri manga under the sheets at 2 am comes close

swagophile

Sorry to go on about this but genuinely I wish i knew how to access this feeling again. Its such a unique thrill because (not to get gross) but that was before I even understood what jerking off was. I wasn't jerking off. It was sexual but not in any way that's familiar to me now. I would just sit there for hours crawling forums and websites and looking at every possible image or story I could about vore. And it was fucking electrifying. It was the most exciting thing i'd ever experienced in my life at the time. I would go to school and id look at a girl I had a crush on and I would imagine her eating me and I would feel so humiliated id put my head down on my desk and cry. But then I'd go home and look up poorly drawn comics of giant catgirls eating people and it was so exhilirating that it felt like basically nothing else existed around me. I stopped eating for 2 days because I kept imagining getting eaten every time I would go to eat food. It was genuinely so exciting. I haven't felt that level of passion for anything since. All of it immediately went away once I learned how to jerk off. Then it was a thing I thought about for a few hours a day at most. But before that? My life was impossible to describe. It was like everything was new again.

#hmm much to think abt here #i had that w bondage as a kid #the thing thats kept that feeling alive for me is two fold #going to irl events and having ppl do things straight out of my fantasies #makes me feel like im getting my mind read #theres added novelty of ppl doing things that are unexpected as well #the second thing is having niche but mundane kinks that are hard to search for effectively #+ looking but not jerking off as op said #i was also obsessive about a lot as a kid #i remember the negative aspects more than the positive so I'm less interested in fully reconnecting w that feeling #tag talk

necromancelena

me: "well it looks like you lost the bet. now you have to do anything I ask for~♡" my girlfriend: "oh yeah? and what's that" Me, scrolling through the search results for a hastily typed 'thigns that are sexually embarassing, for domming': "now now. be patient little bird~♡"