jimmy

The less you know the better.

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[brauneblitz]

i'm in a horrible place at the moment.

the dark cloud of self loathing has returned and i'm letting it rain.

the world is a whatever, fuck it all to hell for all

i care.

i don't want to sit here and rot like a lame fuck, just end me man.

i don't know that the fuck is wrong with me. i feel that those around me are always judging and thinking that i'm strange. i never feel accepted and i feel that i'm just not meant for this world. it sucks and i have felt this way my whole life.

my poor communication endeavors have only led to moments of disgust with myself and a sour mind that only expects the worst of myself and the world. and i want to expect good things but i really can't.

i hate the way that i am and how much of a fool i come off as when i'm around others.

another thing is that nothing really brings me joy in this life.

my family always makes me feel like i'm tolerated, my friends aren't really my friends since they always blow me off and leave me on seen when i context them.

i'm off the alcohol and the drugs but i feel so empty and alone despite being around others all the time. i hate this feeling but i can't even muster the strength to do anything about it. fucking pathetic isn't it?

that's one word among many that could be used to describe myself and my actions.

fucking pathetic

i honestly don't care if i get hit by a car tomorrow, everyone knows i could never grow the balls to pull the trigger on myself, so i guess i'll just rot in solitude. a spiritual solitude in this world of physical upset and abandonment.

so maybe the world has its good bits, but these days i only ever notice the bad things. and it's destroying me.

[brauneblitz]

I regret everything I’ve done from age 10 to present

[brauneblitz]

yeah

[brauneblitz]

fucking avatar won't save

[brauneblitz]

i have returned

[unknown-eva]

[fineisuppose]

Goodnight Punpun - Yellow

[brauneblitz]

私

[gladosdark-deactivated20230529]

- Neon Genesis Evangelion - 

- Platinum Edition - Raw Scan -

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- Neon Genesis Evangelion -

- Evangelion Chronicle -

[hewwo92]

[scarewell]

[rorukeki]

why did things turn out like this?

[sa-turno]

[qmisato]

A handwritten letter sent to Hideaki Anno from a Japanese middle school student. This message was featured during the tail end of End of Evangelion, among a quick series of communications that can only be read after slowing the movie down frame by frame. It reads:

I decided to send this letter because I am in awe after watching Evangelion. I’m a middle school student just like Shinji. I feel like I truly understand myself now, all because of Eva. I want to thank you helping me with that. Why do I say this? Explaining everything would take too long, but long story short, Shinji and I are very alike. We’re both depressed, helpless, and introverted. I remember watching Eva and seeing Shinji feel worry and anxiety and feeling the same. In Eva, they say over and over again how Shinji can’t run away from his pain or the unpleasant feelings that come attached. I feel that way too. In the beginning of the show, I really enjoyed the light feeling this anime gave me. But eventually, Ms. Ogata [FRAME CUTS LETTER OFF]

In the last scene, Shinji accepts everyone and they all congratulate him. That was a very nice ending and I felt very happy. Another friend [FRAME CUTS LETTER OFF] 

This year I graduate from middle school. Now my focus is on being a high school student, and I’m going to put my best effort into doing well. I’m going to see the new Eva movie when it comes out, but I’m worried about what will happen to Shinji because I really enjoyed the last scene of the TV series. And thanks to Eva, I’ve started like myself more, and that has made me very happy. [FRAME CUTS LETTER OFF] 

Mr. Anno, please keep working on Eva more. Thank you so much for everything!! 

[mymindlostme]

Metallica

1984 Ride The Lightning shirt

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