āE-Eliā¦ā She would hesitantly reach for the other, stopping short when the immortal spoke up again. The way she spoke, the way she looked at her, the feelings that she could feel from the other, it all pulled at her heart, sparking pain in her chest as if someone had tied an anchor to her. Heart throbbing in her ears, she almost couldnāt hear Eli when she spoke once more. Each word impacting her with a building force, stronger and stronger. Her body began to shake, faintly at first, before the tremors grew more and more, the young duchess trembling violently as the swell of her emotions rose, higher and higher, reaching far above her like an insurmountable tide.
And then she had said it. The words that signaled that Eli would leave her. That she would lose this friend she had come to enjoy spending time with in the garden. This girl who equaled her in vivacity and passion. This girl who had such a bottomless pit of a stomach that Ivalinne had to sneak several things from the kitchen just to sate her hunger. This girl with which she shared those crimson eyes that others would spurn them for. This girl who she had gotten so used to seeing in the gardens, who now was saying she would never return.
She didnāt want to lose her!
āNO!!!ā She screamed with all her might, the dam that had held her feelings back shattering to pieces as her emotions burst forth. Tears welled up in her eyes so swiftly they departed her eyes less than a second later.
āI DO NOT WANT THAT!ā She shouted, voice echoing throughout the gardens for all to hear. āI WILL NOT ALLOW SUCH A THING TO PASS! I REFUSE IT!ā
āI WILL NOT ACCEPT THIS! I WILL NOT LOSE MY TREASURED FRIEND OVER SOMETHING AS INSIGNIFICANT AS THIS!ā
āDO NOT DARE TRY TO PUSH ME AWAY!!! AS THE DAUGHTER OF THE ROZKAāCER Iāā She would choke on her words, her tears flowing so furiously that she couldnāt even speak between sobs anymore. Like the support beams collapsing under the weight of a structure too large to keep up, her legs would give way beneath her, the young noble collapsing to the floor as she cried with no end in sight.
āA-as aā¦ā¦R-R-Rozkaā¦c-cerā¦.Iā¦or-orderā¦y-youā¦ā Her voice was a hoarse whisper as she pleaded with the girl. āP-pleaseā¦d-do notā¦ā¦leave m-meā¦ā
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There is... a pause. Her slow movements stop in motion completely as if time itself had refused to flow for a second; these treasured seconds she gained let her enough time to not break upon the tears of Ivalinne, she who bears the ability to destroy the facade the redheaded firecracker had built with that much effort.Ā
Because, what can you do when you know what fate awaits? The suffering that she will undergo from this moment on while youāre unable to help and avoid it? No... She certainly was able to avoid it from happening; but deep inside her, she knew: She should not change that moment in time, Ivalinneās fate was not Eliās to decide.Ā
Eli clenches her teeth upon the sight; she had hurt the girl she so much adored, but there was one thing clear: She... had to leave. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but eventualy she would have to leave. Leave her alone for her to go through the green mile...Ā
āAre you giving me orders?ā
She asks, breaking the silent with a grimace of anger on her face that slowly... breaks into a sad sigh.
āAhhhh... Fine. My god, you wonāt ever let me be the edgy-type, huh ?āĀ
She says, obviously joking and trying to soften the situation.Ā
āDonāt cry... okay? Please. I wonāt...ā
āI wonāt... ever leave you.āĀ
A lie that she so much despised saying. Because in the end...
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