Brian Welch saved my life. While he has saved many, he has introduced a whole new world to me as well. I had lost faith in Jesus Christ, my depression was worse each and everyday until I was like.. "Whats my point? I have no future, no friends, nothing." Looking for one, just one sign to keep me alive, I looked him up, starting watching his interviews and his stories of change. Him talking about his depression, drug usage, and losing will to live, I resonated with him. While I have never done drugs, it had definitely crossed my mind to hopefully relieve my pain. When he mentioned how he begged Jesus to come into his life, and take away his drugs and make him a better person, I decided to do the same. I sat, closed my eyes and said "Jesus, forgive me for my disbelief.. Forgive me for all the jokes, all the hatred I felt towards religious beliefs.." By this point I was in tears.. "Jesus, please, if there is one thing I could ever ask you again, please make me stronger.. Make me see that I have a reason to live.." I felt his presence.. I felt someone inside my heart, making me feel something other than sadness and numbness.. I eventually stopped crying, and thanked him for making me feel better.. I kept looking for Brian Welch related things and came across his solo album, and Love & Death.. I listened to the songs for the rest of that night, listened to them the day after, and the next day. My depressed days sometimes still occur, but now I know every single time I hear those negative voices, I pray, and turn on the first song by Brian that comes to mind. I love Brian so much, it literally hurts, but only because I know that the love I have for him could never be reciprocated. But there is nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for him, since he is the reason I have hope, and happiness.
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