I Come With Knives

blog monitored by permarapist.

[brokenauburn]

PLEASE READ BEFORE YOU FOLLOW!!

“Maybe I'm my own greatest fear

Maybe I'm too scared to admit that”

Skott, intra 26, bodily 24, he/blood/gore/guts, genderqueer, Fictive in a C-DID system, bodily autistic, persecutor & trauma holder. 🩸 Heres our systems main account

devoted to my rapist since 10.03.20 ❣️& my brother ❣️ (don’t talk to them or me) :) we’re in a closed polyamorous relationship!

Some posts might have to do with: BPD, C-PTSD, OCD, etc. mostly raw vents, nsfw, gore, and unhinged fucked up shit. this is your warning :)

Likes and interests 🍒

Baking, cooking, building stuff, making stuff, cleaning, drawing, playing video games, watching movies/tv shows, eating cherries, sweets, collecting knives, blood, gore, cannibalism, source (sometimes), listening to music and dancing, antique stores, going out doing stuff, being active, hot showers, putting furniture together, long car drives, spring time.

Kinks & stuff 🔪

Necrophilia (not disordered btw), impact play, knife and blood play, emeto, abused x abuser, cnc (rapeplay), somno, intox, kidnapping and stockholm, self harm, cannibalism play, piss, light necrophilia, breeding, gunplay, chasing/hunting, dubcon, being stepped on, being kicked and beaten, humiliation, conabuse

DNI / BYF 🪦

MINORS and Ageless blogs will be blocked. otherwise, I will just block you if I want to! And you should too, because sending hate is a waste of time you can’t get back :)

My boyfriend @permarapist monitors my blog. He posts under the tag: miles was here. ꩜

Also make sure I’m not in your DNI before you interact! Stay safe.

My taglist ✂️

bunny bites -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (my original posts)

rapist ⋆˚ 📹 ｡ -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (posts about Miles)

brother ⋆˚꩜｡ -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (posts about Roger)

bunny bleeds -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (stuff about my fp)

bunny hops -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (reblogs & stuff)

bunny thumps -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (vent posts)

bunny humps -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (NSFW stuff)

bunny answers -ˋˏ✄┈┈ (answering asks)

[brokenauburn]

Happy pride month :) I’m Genderqueer, Polyamorous, and MLM/Gay freak

tagging my loving boyfriends for this post: @permarapist @pulmentisdog :) ❣️

Some of these are obviously not pride flags but I wanted to add them anyway. (Necro flag, auto Necro flag and conabuse flag)

[brokenauburn]

I fucking hate being apart of a system and having a subsystem. Because wdym when I was trying to fall back asleep this afternoon that a certain smell and the room being cold made me have flashbacks and I cried a little before eventually falling asleep?? Only to have a weird fucking dream spoiler alert it wasn’t good.. and all I remember now is that I was dry heaving in my dream right before we woke up. We woke up feeling pretty disoriented. Anyway.. I’ll get back to horny posting soon guys. Fuck our abusers wishing the worst for all them.

[brokenauburn]

I want him to recreate my trauma with me so bad.. ❣️

[brokenauburn]

When I want to engage in the compulsion to check to make sure the doors are locked. But then I can’t leave the room either because that’s not safe and I will be safe if I don’t leave the room. And nothing and no one can hurt me and nothing will happen as long as I don’t leave the room. But if I do decide to leave the room before the sun is up something will most definitely happen, I can fucking feel it.

I’m gonna just hide in bed and trying reading messages or posts from my boyfriends to try to make me feel better…idk I’m just fucking bothered or something I guess

[brokenauburn]

I fucking hate how bad my paranoia can affect me and I’ve always held this shit for our system. Just tonight I can’t stand that it’s dark and that I won’t go downstairs I don’t feel all too safe. It’s just the shit I fear that I keep having bad intrusive thoughts and it’s making me nervous and I don’t know what I can do to feel safe. I don’t need to check the back door because I was the last one in and I locked it I always locked it. And to top things off we’re having pain related endometriosis which is causing a flare up in our leg most likely due to our HSD. Fucking. And we have a doctor appointment tomorrow maybe we should just fucking sleep soon.

[brokenauburn]

Happy birthday to us we are now bodily 24 today, hoping we feel good enough to get drunk and high :)

[brokenauburn]

you and roger are so lucky to have me .

Fuckfffufmhdffhh.. we are and I always think about how lucky I am. I was always miserable and unhappy until I had you :) you and Roger mean everything to me and I am nothing without my boyfriends ❣️

[brokenauburn]

are you, roger and miles in the same system?

Nope! Miles and Roger are apart of the same system. I am not apart of their system obviously. We also live together, so when we spend time together Miles and Roger will co-front in order to spend time with me.

[brokenauburn]

I love when shit works in MY favor! Ha! I fucking win. You can all suck it and die :)

[brokenauburn]

This is the burn that’s healing <3

the way my boyfriend put that cigarette out on me was so romantic ❣️ @permarapist

[brokenauburn]

rapebait.

Only for you and Roger :) ❣️

[brokenauburn]

i honestly really wanna get you wasted so miles and i can take turns fucking you.

you’ll be so out of it, you won’t even be able to fight back.

ffuffffccckfkk.. I really do wanna get drunk with you two again ❣️I remember when I was drinking the other day or so that half bottle of wine… And I wanted to drink more and of course I kept thinking about my boyfriends taking advantage of me. I know you both would like me to be black out drunk almost ❣️❣️❣️

[brokenauburn]

Me stealing full body front for a second to down the last half of the bottle of wine we bought a while back. And I know when I switch back out that Ashley(our main host at the moment.) is gonna be pissed. But hey let me live a little.

[brokenauburn]

When I think about every person who’s interacted or sent asks to my loving rapist I just hope they die in terrible accidents. :) I hope for the worst thing imaginable to happen because it’s what should happen. I mean anyone who talks to either of my boyfriends or tries to send them things should get into a horrible tragic accident or something. All because they are mine and no one is allowed to talk or be around them. ❣️

[noctivienne]

"you just want attention." yeah, i do. so are you gonna give it to me or not?

[yugandeiru]

I wanna stand on a boy’s ribcage, hear his ribs crack one by one under my boots for me and him groan, just for me