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[brokenbutwhole]

Who am I? What I really want? Been asking this to myself for years but until now I still don't know the answer. I'm getting tired of running in circles but don't know how to stop so I ended up running another round and another round.

[brokenbutwhole]

It's not about the world outside me now, the chaos within me is getting out of control.

[brokenbutwhole]

Can we even forgive ourselves?

[amargedom]

“Don’t tell me the sky’s the limit when there are footprints on the moon.”

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[brokenbutwhole]

To my younger self,

I'm sorry if I did disappointed you of what I've become now. I miss your cheerful smile and those wonderful laughs you used to have. I'm sorry if I keep repeating the same mistake and do stupid things. I'm sorry if I keep doubting myself, if I keep degrading myself. I know you are more than what the world wants you to be. I know you are stronger than what you know.

[brokenbutwhole]

Isn't it weird how people easily assumed that you're not struggling just because you are smiling and laughing despite of the fact that there's so much things going on around you?

[brokenbutwhole]

You come and go like a wind...

A beautiful nightmare that I long for...

Be with me till the flowers on the field withers...

[brokenbutwhole]

I don't know where to begin.

I know I'm alive but i feel like I'm no longer living.

I'm breathing fine but it feels like I'm suffocating.

I can feel things, hot or cold but i feel so numb.

Where did things started to go south? Or is it me drifting away?

[amargedom]

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”

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[brokenbutwhole]

Let's not suffer alone for there's always someone who's ready to overcome everything with you.

[amargedom]

“You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anyone.”

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[brokenbutwhole]

Is it that hard? All I want is to sleep in peace, but the whole damn universe in my head won't cooperate.

[naturaekos]

“You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody.”

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[brokenbutwhole]

Started reading this book of Allie Beth Stucky's, "Escaping the Toxic Culture of Self

-Love" and was slapped by the hard truth that we're all not enough.

I've been hearing it for years, You are more than enough. But are we really enough? We do all have our own shortcomings and that's okay because we will never be enough on our own.

[brokenbutwhole]

Beautifully wrapped lies of you.

I'm bewitched.... I really am,

Trying to hold you tight, but you keep pushing my hands away.

[brokenbutwhole]

I don't know where to begin, I'm overwhelmed with an unknown feeling. My heart aches for no reason, my eyes cries a very loud and dark tears. I've been shouting out loud but nobody hears anything even though I am surrounded by people.

[brokenbutwhole]

People keep on saying "You should be grateful," "You should be happy" and I was like, fuck! I want too. But my mind is so fucked up that I don't even know how to be.

[brokenbutwhole]

It's not easy... It's never been easy, not for me, not for you and not for them. Life itself is full of ups and downs, and that's what makes it hard but you know what? You're perfectly fine, look where you are now! You've gone through so much but here you are... Standing strong, so keep on going.. You can do it, and there's a lot of people who got your back!

[brokenbutwhole]

What's real happiness?

Is it when the sun rises in the morning?

Or is it when the moon shines so bright at night?

What is happiness?

Is it being with the people who you "love"?

Or is being alone in your own solitude?