What do you do when you’re burnt out from your life?
I work hard and hustle every day at my job. I take extra clients, do extra cleaning/duties, deal with areas of work that aren’t specifically my job for the sake of teamwork—
I get to my days off and just want to sleep—But I also have to start my cleaning routine.
I want to have fun, but I can’t have too much because I work tomorrow and I should try to rest.
I have constant requests, interruptions, questions even on my days off—So I never really stop working... Ever. But if I don’t take those issues up on my days off—I get buried in them on days when I’m already busy at work.
It never fails that I get questions from acquaintances, not even family or friends, at weird times of days asking for advice or if they can get booked—As if I don’t already spend enough time looking at my schedule and having anxiety attacks all week.
It affects my home life—It affects how I feel about myself, because surely someone who has their shit together doesn’t feel overrun All The Time, right?
The nature of my job is that I’m unappreciated—People take my knowledge and skills for granted, and not just my clients either.
I feel like a failure at home a lot of the time because it’s hard to keep up with the housework when your whole body just wants to stay in bed. It’s hard to have a relationship when you constantly have to run social media to drum up business and fight for your right to get paid what you’re worth.
Burn out is rampant in this profession, and I feel it in bursts of painful depression...
I set timers and say, “Just do this for 15 minutes—Go clean the kitchen. Move the laundry around. Sweep and mop.” I hate it though, honestly. I hate feeling like I HAVE to do it—Because if I just let myself lay in bed, maybe the house wouldn’t get cleaned this week, but it’s also not just going to burn down or disappear if I neglect it for another 7 days, but I’m scared that I’ll start a cycle that I won’t be able to stop and eventually it’ll be a hoarding situation and I’ll never get it figured out.
There has to be more to life than burn out and obligation and I’m missing out on a lot of it. I always miss out.