Therealbrybryo

23, latino-texan, producer, polyam

[brybryo]

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[brybryo]

birthday 2021

no greater feeling than telling your dad you got enough money for a downpayment ona house, them saying their proud of you and reminding you to change the air filter in your car within the same text

also why do i only feel okay if i meditate and workout every single day of the week, what are the equivalent of human batteries

[brybryo]

May 9th 2021

Really like this dairy thing we got going void. the blank page feels comforting.  Finally found a consistent partner to cuddle up with, so that’s amazing. But i don’t feel much for them right now and i can’t tell if it’s because i’m living in the past or because i’m not into them? Which sucks as they’re nice and smart and fairly even and lived. Just not in love On another note, I feel like I’m accomplishing my goals, yet i feel fairly empty with them. Not just because i’m not where i want to be, either, but because I don’t know how to achieve the next steps after them. I’ve had my head down so much that i don’t know where I’m at. 

Last update, been sober all year. It’s kinda boring, but there’s more sleep and work so that’s good. Ngl giving up porn is wayyyyy harder than alcohol. Sleeping next to someone makes it easier, but i really feel nothing sometimes and wonder if drinking would help with that. 

Time passes.

[brybryo]

was really hoping going sober on drugs porn alcohol and weed would increase happiness more than it has. Gonna go vegan next and get even more depressed

[brybryo]

Hey void, got some other maturity updates that occurred over new years. They're a few years late, but still worth knowing in life

just realized thinking you can't relationship hop is a toxic monogamous trait. If you love someone tell them. Take the time to know yourself and be honest about former loves. But love is an abundant thing that grows. Having multiple people in your heart is normal---or at least many more people do it?

i realized how I feel differently after taking someone off a pedestal (Thanks Russell brand). The feelings don't go away persay, but losing fake expectations takes away anxiety, among more. You stop becoming a needy-over emotional mess afraid to lose someone, be alone, or get hurt. Its unfair to the other person and yourself to believe, however seemingly romantic, if you could just be with this person you'd be happy--- more complete---- the pedestal puts more hurt to risk when the action isn't achieved.

Just gotta square these thoughts with when Harry met Sally and we'll be good

Until next time, void.

[polyamandhellaglam]

As well as ambiamorous I've also heard polyflexible! That's what I've been calling myself

Thank you I’ll remember that one!

[brybryo]

Ohhhjjjj ssnnnnaaaaaap yes this, thank yall

[loumovies]

Before Sunset (2004) dir. Richard Linklater

[brybryo]

does anyone else cry when they have to write their friends recommendation letters

[dareweb-deactivated20181021]

[brybryo]

Re-watching 500 days of summer and seeing joseph gordan levitt punch a drunk fellow in a bar really has me better understanding male pattern aggression used as a vehicle to jealousy and rethinking my past overt expressions of violence as a front for insecurity in relationships and i- well damn, the fuck do i do now

[figmas]

[polandgallery]

[brybryo]

Havnt been on tumblr in years, but kinda need an empty place to say into the void: One of my best friend's older brothers died.

I'm close to their entire family. They fed me, housed me, connected me--it's weird. He wasnt my brother nor quite a best friend, but he always had my back. He gave me jobs, pointers, listened with his heart and spoke honestly. He was the first person to teach me about film, and i still work with my biggest client because of him. Back in high school i looked up to the guy. Nowadays i go to their house to share food or talk over projects.

I barely know what to call him, he was sorta like a mentor and an older brother, but also a brother of a friend.

Aaaaaaahhhhhh

my brother's friend,

my friend.

I hope you're sleeping. You deserved to create much more. We weren't done yet, you had more to teach me.

Your brother's friend misses you, my friend.

Your friend misses you.

I hope I make you proud.

[brybryo]

Remember Me (Lullaby) (From "Coco"/Audio Only)

Gael García Bernal, Gabriella Flores, Libertad García Fonzi - Remember Me (Lullaby) Disney•Pixar's Coco now playing in 3D! Get tickets here: http://bit.ly/Co...

for all three of my tumblr followers. Logging out.

[hedonist--poet-deactivated20240]

January 1st 2018 is a Monday. A fresh week, a fresh month and a fresh year. If you want to start over I don’t think you can possibly find a better time.

Hira (via hedonistpoet)

[brybryo]

Were I anything but honest, I think I’d hate myself more.

Does it matter that when I laid down to sleep that night, I had you on my mind? I wanted to love you, that's all I thought of.

Does it matter that I didn't know what was happening? What about if I said that I went asleep not knowing who was around me? What if I told you that I stopped them once I came too? You know what's funny? I feel like people constantly have desires to other people than their SO's. I know you were. That night I was, but when I laid down to sleep I didn't go anywhere near someone who I was. I slept somewhere else because I knew better. I wasn't even conscious, but I knew better. You were the last thing I remember thinking about. Does it help knowing that I had already cut myself from drinking anymore for the night? I thought I was at my limit, and then, I guess, the levels finally kicked in. I don't know how it happened. I don't even think I initiated anything between me and them. I don't really care to. I just knew what it would mean afterward the next morning. We'd both be free from one another, we'd have our own lives back. As painful as it might be, we'd separate, and we both might be happier. God, did I love you. and I know you loved me. I wish it were enough. I wish society didn't beat into us how cheating is supposed to be the worst thing in the world, like an ultimate shame. Other polyamorous people actually don't judge it like that? But you always hated hearing about that. Your hair is long now. You're going on. You have crushes and new exciting feelings you've discovered. I do too. I hope you fall so deeply in love that our time together feels like a happy scar, one that you can look back at with all of its flaws and occasionally smile at, perfectly happy in how things turned out. You're going to do great things. 

Now block me, just for a little while. Go do them.

[psy-faerie]

I really needed this tonight

[brybryo]

me.